petrichorlov3

[petrichorlov3]

"your ed will destroy you" ummm actually i've had a deep ingrained imposter syndrome around people my age since i was a child and for the first time i'm confident 🥰

#st⭐️rve #eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #⭐️ve #trans ed #light as a 🪶 #ed not ed sheeran #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

i hit my period two weeks early? i don't know if i'm just unlucky or if it's the weight loss (Google says that can cause it)

ne way <3 literally best mood of my life after hitting that lw especially when i've been bedrottnh and close to relapsing all week

#st⭐️rve #eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #⭐️ve #trans ed #tw ana bløg #i want to ⭐️ve #light as a 🪶 #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

i was so worried i'd wake up shaky and vomiting like i usually do when i fast or restrict too hard but i just had some salt and a lot of water and i woke up okay ! just shaky enough to know it's working <3

#st⭐️rve #eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #⭐️ve #trans ed #tw ana bløg #ed not ed sheeran #light as a 🪶 #i want to ⭐️ve

[petrichorlov3]

i finally updated my goal weights as i'm remarkably shorter than i thought. but that also means updating my cw because i kept procrastinating and i'm four pounds down

#st⭐️rve #eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #⭐️ve #trans ed #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #light as a 🪶 #tw ana bløg #tw ana diary #ana trigger

[petrichorlov3]

bc and random fit check for funsies (i look like an emo grandma) i want to wear my cropped tee to school but i'm bloated from not having enough water so i'll wait. hit a new lw !!!! so happy

#st⭐️rve #eating disoder trigger warning #pro for me not for thee #⭐️ve #trans ed #light as a 🪶 #body ch3ck #body chex #b0dy ch3ck #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed #ed trans

[petrichorlov3]

i'm still maintaining 106 lb but that's also after a binge and i'm 39 hours into a fast so i can't be too upset <3

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

starving so the next time he sees me he feels guilty <3

#i know this is fucked #in my defense ! #there isn't one #eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

i need motivation to finish this fast without weighing myself 🧍‍♂️ i'm supposed to do it tomorrow but i need to know the last week even worked to believe this will too 😭

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

seeing a girl skinnier than me eat spoonfuls of Nutella like it's nothing

what are you doing that i'm not

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

i told my dad i lost like four pounds and he said i don't need to lose and should probably gain and that shit made me so happy until my sister came home with her leftover crumbl cookie

it was red velvet and i folded bro 😭 i should still be under a thousand calories and i did a workout that burned roughly 200 RIGHT after but i fuckingnhate myself. it might rain when i wake up but i'm gonna walk to school anyway because i'm never reaching 95 lb by my birthday if i don't lock in better

rant over ! love y'all stay safe and drink water

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

going shopping for small clothes and cropped tees as motivation to lose weight <3

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

GREEN BEANS ARE 25 CALORIES FOR 3/4 A CUP? KIMCHI IS 10 FOR ONE OZ? BRO I'M NO LONGER WORRIED ABOUT HOW TO FIT VEGETABLES INTO MY CALORIE LIMIT

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

anytime i feel like shit about maintaining i think of 12 y/o me crying because i was ten pounds heavier than i am now

#in retrospect how much was i eating jesus #i was definitely chubby as a kid #like pictures of me when i was 8-9? nah #eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

"that gyro didn't cut it for you huh?"

HAHA thanks dad i won't be eating for three fucking days now

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

crying cuz of peanut butter isn’t 0 cals 😭😭

[petrichorlov3]

i usually fast for 50 hours but i had to break this one at 40 as i could barely stand and was gagging from acid reflux

managed to keep down my breakfast (70 cal fiber bar). i wanted to wait to eat until i got home and could weigh myself but here we are. i should burn most of it off just walking back from school, so yippee

we got a ton of low calorie but tasty snacks and i'm hoping if i've lost at least a bit of weight it can shove me back in my honeymoon phase

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed

[petrichorlov3]

the dollar store employee watching me check the calories on every food item for thirty minutes

#eating disoder trigger warning #st⭐️rve #⭐️ve #pro for me not for thee #i want to ⭐️ve #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed