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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Outer Banks (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Barry/Rafe Cameron Characters: Barry (Outer Banks), Rafe Cameron Additional Tags: Rafe is obsessed, like OBSESSED, Cannibalistic Thoughts, cannibalism as a metaphor for love, rafe and the unending quest to fuse his soul to barry's, and like can u blame him, Rafe is crazy, and barry is in loooovvveeee Series: Part 2 of my love language is obsession and insanity Summary:

“You crazy, baby,” Barry tells him, reverent, like he’s praying, and squeezes Rafe’s hand, still tight in his grip. More blood pours from their twin wounds, a steady drip drip drip falling onto the console between them.

#writing #mine #rafebarry #rafebarry fic #rafe cameron #barry obx #barry outer banks #rafe obx #outer banks fanfiction #obx #outer banks #my baby my baby #my king

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Outer Banks (TV) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Barry/Rafe Cameron Characters: Barry (Outer Banks), Rafe Cameron Additional Tags: listen rafe and barry are just SO, insane and obsessive and so so so so in love Series: Part 1 of my love language is obsession and insanity Summary:

‘Oh, I’m goin’ to Hell’, Barry says.

‘I’ll be right behind you’, Rafe promises.

#rafebarry #rafe cameron #barry obx #barry outer banks #rafe outer banks #rafe obx #outer banks #obx #writing #mine #rafebarry fic #obx fanfiction #my king #my baby my baby

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rafebarry shirts again. rafe left barry right, though tbh they could swap easily lmfao

#rafebarry matching shirts #lmfao #rafe cameron #barry outer banks #rafebarry #rarry #rafe x barry #obx netflix #outer banks #mine #my king #my baby my baby

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more rafebarry matching shirts (barry's left, rafe's right)

#rafebarry #rarry #rafe x barry #rafe cameron #barry outer banks #obx #outer banks #obx netflix #lmfao #mine #rafebarry matching shirts #my baby my baby #my king

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your honor this is the most painfully affectionate look i've ever seen in my life.......... extreme down-badness

like the audacity of rafe to be saying that is soooooooooooooo😭😭 i just know barry gets the biggest kick out of rafe fr

#barry baby get UP #we deserved a rafe cam to see his second by second reaction to barry smiling at him like that i know his ass was blushinggggg #rafebarry #rarry #rafe x barry #lmfao #barry obx #barry outer banks #my king #mine #outer banks #obx #obx netflix

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I refresh your page like every day I swear I’m addicted to it 💔

im so glad you're enjoying!!!! i have a million more posts i intend to make it's just the process of actually doing it that's killing me lol. thank you for the ask ily <3

#people being so nice i might cry #asks

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a (kind of) brief analysis of the ward-rafe comparison, it's truth, and it's impact on rafe from this scene/ep (cont'd below the cut)

no bc the like mouth gaped open in shock and disbelief at the comparison.... like he looks both so thankful to hear that and so shocked about it. and this is the first time he meet carla, and it's the first thing she says to him..... like i'm certain she doesn't know rafe's psychological odds and ends, but that being rafe's first impression of her immediately warms him to her.

all he wants is to be like ward, to make him proud, to look up to the man who he fucking idolizes (and so many other things but those things are not pertinent to this post), and this person who doesn't know him immediately says "you look a lot like your father" (the subtext of that is "you're a lot like your father") and rafe is so clearly floored.

being like ward means that ward will finally be proud of him, will finally see him, and it's all rafe fucking wants. (and here's the thing, they're already so similar in so many ways, evident from the viewer, but less from the characters themselves i think).

and i can't even talk properly about the implications of grief that rafe's dealing with here. he's lost his purpose in life, he can't see his dad anymore, but he's dressing like him in a very ward-esque shirt, just to search him out in the mirror. and before this he dons ward's jacket, promising that "i'll step in. i'll do the job" before he crumbles and sheds the jacket in realization that he can't fill ward's shoes with Cameron development in shambles like this, but with carla's comment it comes back again). i doubt he can see it himself (dad's shoes that are just impossible to fill), but someone else points it out, so maybe his connection is not all the way lost.

it's just like, the way his gaze goes straight to carla's face like he's searching out a lie (or trying to search out the truth behind her words), and there's clearly this crazy conflict going on in his mind. it's hearing the one thing you've waited forever to hear unexpectedly, he's completely taken aback.

[and i think this is a lot of the reason rafe works with them, and once the cross is on the table he's like 'wait, dad loved money and he was so happy with the gold, imagine what he'd think when i get the fucking cross!' and it gets him even further on their side.]

i'll have to watch the limbrey/rafe interactions in s2 more closely to collect my thoughts on the breaking of their partnership, but here's some of my more general thoughts on it:

i think to some degree maybe carla figures out that the ward comparrisons will keep ward loyal to her, so in the hanger before everything goes to shit, she tells him "you really are your father's son" and he is.

rafe is attracted to them because what they're offering will get him in ward's good books (even post ward-death, he can't shake that desire), and once that's threatened (in the airplane hangar) things start to sway. he's interested in their power and their ability to get him his share of the cross. first, renfield sort of takes charge and rafe gravitates towards him because he holds the most power in the situation, and then carla shoots renfield and that power just disappears, so rafe looks for the next closest source of that power; which, in this case is carla. initially he starts going back to her, then it clicks that he can just take the power for himself. carla is stuck on the floor, and the cross is just his to take, so he takes it. bye bye carla and bye bye renfield. rafe now just doesn't have a share, he can have the whole thing!

and ward was their provider, their protector, their everything. but he's gone now, and the family is in debt. ward isn't around to dig them out of this hole. rafe has to step up here. getting the cross will solve all of their financial problems and then some! rafe can take the whole cross and get all of it for them, finally filling ward's shoes like he wants to.

back to when carla says in the hangar "you really are your father's son": i don't think rafe knows about the ward-big john drama and i don't think he knows about whatever betrayal ward did to carla, but by emphasizing about "remember our cut of the deal" and then just taking the whole thing is him really really being like ward. and it's a completely a thing he does unconsciously.

but regardless, he takes the cross and gets it back to the family, so in his mind he's filled ward's shoes, and he's like giddy about it to rose on the phone. he got it all sorted for them, just like ward would. rafe's done it!

i just love this tiny little moment so very much and i feel like it says so much about rafe and even ward.

i will note that after all of this, the fact that we didn't get to see rafe's reaction to finding out that ward actually was alive is so upsetting. (like, when they're loading the cross on the boat, i'm sure he doesn't know ward's alive, but by the time sarah wakes up, rafe knows, so it happened at some point between these two moments and the fact that we didn't see it fucking blows). drew would've bodied that i'm so sure about it and we were ROBBED!

[it also would give us way more insight into rafe's psyche, because not much time has passed from when he's had to fill the ward role, and even less time has passed since he finds out ward's alive and we see him again, but we don't really get to see much of his shift. i guess it would just end up being a lot of flip-flopping of filling ward's shoes, to having ward back, to then having to step up again once ward's injured. so, i guess it'd just have to be a lot of rafe focus that takes away from the pogues, but i'd love to see how the back and forth fucks with his head even more than normal.]

i guess this is ending on a pretty ambiguous note, but if anyone has some other insight and ideas i'd love to read or talk about it.

#my baby my baby #youre my baby say it to me #im so sick to my stomach #like my heart hurts #rafe cameron #rafe obx #rafe outer banks #ward cameron #ward cameron enemy of the state #outer banks #obx #obx netflix #mine #oof #pain and suffering

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#obx posting #to be clear the people in the posts are the ones saying the stuff if that makes sense lol #these are all personal headcanons #sarah is unhinged and crazy #to me its canon tbh #i have more that'll be coming soonish #they're just so fun to make #lmfao #jj maybank #pope heyward #sarah cameron #i believe in sarah cameron supremacy #rafe cameron #my baby my baby #barry outer banks #barry obx #my king #kie carrera #kiara carrera #outer banks #obx #obx netflix #mine

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and if i said rafebarry?

she's gonna save me call me 'baby': barry basically uses exclusively pet names "baby boy" "big boy" "pretty baby" "pretty boy" "baby" (tbh i don't think he's a "babe" kind of guy) so like this part goes without saying....

run her hands through my hair: barry carding his hand through rafe's hair when it's long (like s1 & 2 era) and then stroking over the buzzcut too,, like when rafe's laying on the couch with his head in barry's lap.... or when barry passes by where rafe's sitting... or when they're wrapped up together one hand absolutely goes to the back of the head to cradle his skull

she'll know me crazy: can't stress this enough but barry is intimately aware of how crazy rafe is.... like he's been there for some of rafe's insane plots or has directly witnessed the immediate aftermath. like trust barry knows. [plus in s3 when barry's like "i gotta be honest with you, dawg, i don't know if it got this in me, bro." and rafe goes "i do." and barry's like "yeah... i knew you did" like y'all he is WELL AWARE]

soothe me daily: maybe this is just a thing i noticed, but barry seems like the one person in the show who can distract rafe from the things he's planning on doing/the things he's thinking, and he seems to be the only one who can do it in a way that rafe will listen to (at least to some degree) [i'll have a post coming about this trust], so i am very much of the belief that he can divert rafe's attention away from whatever bad/crazy thing he's thinking about and soothe whatever frustration/anger/fear/etc. is bubbling inside him

better yet, she wouldn't care: barry is soooooo unphased by rafe. like yeah sometimes he's like 'oh bro whaaaat' in the moment, but ultimately he simply does not care that much. like in s1 when rafe and barry go to the garage and jump kie and jj, kie shouts "you murdered peterkin" and for only one second, barry's face is shocked, and then he's just over it and back to what he was doing before. and then after that he makes some lighthearted comments about rafe killing peterkin ("badder than i though, country club"). and then there's the "just tell me whatever the hell you done, 'cause i can promise you, whatever it was, i done worse". and then there's the whole going to the chateau to fuck the pogues up and the whole melting the cross situation. like in canon barry is very much aware of rafe's crazy, and in my head it's even more so

[bonus excerpt from something i'm working on: "He runs his finger over the cut, watches Barry’s muscles flex at the feeling of his fingertips on raw, open skin. His finger comes away coated in red and Rafe, before he can even stop himself, pops his finger in his mouth for a taste. 

His brain lights up like a christmas tree at the taste of it, metal and bitter and so, so good. He savors it like a candy, swears he can feel the Barry of it all even though he rationally knows that’s impossible. Nothing feels very rational right now, though.

Fucking crazy, Barry says again, words soaked in adoration and fondness. Rafe’s crazy, no doubt about it, but if Rafe’s crazy then Barry’s positively insane for keeping him around."]

some other jackie and wilson lyrics that scream rafebarry that i won't elaborate on bc this is already insanely long... use your imagination and consider the delusional shit i already talk about it and you'll be able to see the vision clear as day:

"so deep in this swill with the most familiar of swine / for reasons wretched and divine"

"laughing away through my feeble disguise / no other version of me i would rather be tonight"

"lord, it'd be great to find a place we could escape sometime"

"every version of me dead and buried in the yard outside"

"we'd sit back and watch the world go by / happy to lie back, watch it burn and rust" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this whole song is just so

#how insane can i be contest with myself #im winning #rafebarry #rarry #rafe cameron #barry outer banks #rafe obx #barry obx #rafe x barry #my baby my baby #my king #obx #obx netflix #outer banks #mine

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now what the FUCK did they do this for

but like rafe being physically incapable of accepting ward's affections (as few and far between as they are) (like we see this in the trailer when ward pulls rafe's head in like a hug and rafe's just sitting there wide-eye and unable to even process it but i digress) they are so not a touchy-feely people to share affection (not ward and rafe at least bc ward has no issue sharing affection with sarah [ and wheezie--what little affection she gets]) and this is how ward does fucking that?!?!?!?!? and clearly that sticks with rafe bc you can see just how impactful that is in rafe's face and it sticks with him so much that he does it to ward .

they don't hug, ward doesn't do pats on the back, there's no real form of physical affection, but this chest pat,,, over the heart,,, ,communicating the love that ward doesn't and rafe can't/won't in the only way they can

(and i could go way in depth to the way that rafe reaches out for ward like this to do this clearly emotionally impactful when ward's in a coma/unconscious..... but i shall not. i just don't think i can remember rafe reaching out to ward physically in an affectionate manner at all but i could be wrong)

(bonus pain from s3)

#just give me something for the pain and let me die already #all i know is pain and suffering #rafe cameron #ward cameron #ward outer banks #ward obx #rafe obx #rafe outer banks #ward cameron enemy of the state #my baby my baby #outer banks #obx #obx netflix #mine

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OBX is my favorite modern teen drama with a netflix budget aesthetic… it’s already so funny (idk maybe bc it reminds me of scooby do) but stuff like the thin blue line truck sticker/rafe doing a line off what I think is a copy of infinite jest makes it better

yes so true like you go in expecting cheesy teen drama stuff and then there's these fucking insane deep cuts of stuff that you NEVER would notice if you weren't scrubbing through and taking notes that are so random and so damn funny. the props people (for infinite jest and the thin blue line sticker) have to be putting that stuff in there for little easter eggs or something there is no way the showrunners are being like "yes add this in its pertinent to the story". i'm gonna rewatch again at some point and see how many other absolutely bonkers random details are in there. will report back with my findings 🫡🫡🙏🙏

p.s. the scooby doo comparison is so good i never even thought of it before i definitely can see the similar vibe

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I just want to tell you that I'm always excited when you post something. The funny posts make me laugh. I absolutely love your detailed analysis of the scenes and characters. And I'm obsessed with your writing. You’ve quickly become one of my favorite blogs. 💙

stoppppp i'm going to cry!!!!! this is so nice thank you so much!!!! i'm glad you're enjoying my posts! i literally started this blog just to share all my thoughts so they wouldn't be stuck in my head so its so awesome that my stuff is resonating with people!!!! 🩵💙🩵💙🩷🩷🩷

p.s. i'm obsessed with the ryan atwood pfp he is my king fr

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barry about rafe

#'and i want to breed him' #PLEASSSSEEEE #lmfao #rafebarry #rafe cameron #barry obx #barry outer banks #not mine #my baby my baby #my king

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u know that clip of pedro pascal in the helicopter/plane from that one movie and he's like "alright baby, alright" ? yeah that exactly how barry talks to rafe. just saying.

#rafebarry #rarry #obx #mine #lmfao #my baby my baby #my king #rafe cameron #barry outer banks

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he has the kind of sadness in his eyes that you only see in eastern european gay porn

#rafe crybaby cameron #my baby my baby #rafe cameron #rafe obx #outer banks #obx #obx s2 #obx netflix #lmfao #mine #obx posting

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canon accurate

#sarah cameron #sarah obx #rafe cameron #rafe obx #i believe in sarah cameron supremacy #my baby my baby #outer banks #obx #obx s3 #obx netflix #lmfao #obx posting #mine

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when she batshit insane but the pussy too good🙏

#crazy girls give the best head #and rafe is INSANE #lmfao #rafebarry #rarry #rafe cameron #rafe obx #barry obx #barry outer banks #my baby my baby #my king #outer banks #obx #obx s2 #obx netflix #mine