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I feel cold. 

Not literally, I come from a very warm country, actually, but I feel cold all the time. Perhaps this is why I prefer staying at university instead of coming back. The cold English climate is the perfect culprit to take the blame for the chills all over my skin, the goosebumps and shivers ever-present through my life. 

My hands feel cold, constantly, for they have not touched another person in my memory. Every time one of my friends offers, I tell them I don’t like hugs. I don’t like physical contact. It makes me uncomfortable. 

We laugh about it, I crack a joke, and the day goes on exactly like the rest. 

I don’t tell them the real reason, though. I don’t tell them that hugs don’t make me uncomfortable, they scare me. They scare me because as soon as I feel that warmth again, the tears which have long since frozen in my eyes will turn to liquid and run down my face. 

And how do I explain that? 

How do I explain that I constantly feel like crying, and when I don’t, then I don’t feel anything at all except the cold? 

How do I explain that despite the warm wind blowing my hair away, I feel cold? 

How do I explain that while their coffees are warm as we all sit around and talk, mine is cold? 

How do I explain that? The fact that even though I’m constantly surrounded by people laughing, talking, sharing memories and warmth, I’m submerged under the cold arctic water, unable to participate, completely alone? 

There is a strange familiarity to the cold though. Like a wall of ice, keeping me separated from the rest, but also protecting me. Protecting me from feeling the warmth, for how will I be able to go back to the cold once I’ve felt the fire’s heat caressing my shoulders? 

I feel cold, and even though the warmth is surrounding me, I don’t dare let the wall of ice melt. 

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your favourite literary classics turned into auditory orgasms

OR  some extremely long, detailed, overly specific Spotify playlists inspired by books I have read over the years and turned into my personality 

Inferno by Dante Alighieri 

The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde 

The Secret History by Donna Tart

Dracula by Bram Stoker 

Frankenstein by Mary Shelley 

The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco 

#concept playlist #aesthetic playlist #dark academia playlist #academia playlist #book playlist #spotify #the secret history #donna tart #umberto eco #oscar wilde #dorian gray

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anyone ever get the urge to run away from everyone and everything w/o even saying goodbye and just starting a new life in the middle of nowhere? because istg i'm THIS close to actually doing it

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I read aliens at first and i love how my first thought wasnt that I had read it wrong, but that we should also have aliens in other skin tones and colors

support asians with darker skin 2k17

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groot’s poster in black and white I-

one month // avenge the fallen

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Telekinesis

take this test and tell me what you got… i got shapeshifting

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I always forget to check the blog name

I was at a birthday party of a pre-school friend of mine and I was bored as heck, so I asked if I could leave early. They let me leave and next thing I know, Steven Seagal and Robert DeNiro are driving me home. When I got home, I was so scared. My mom asked me why was I home so early, so it seems she was fine with Seagal and Deniro driving me home.

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I think we all need a short story, kind of like cruel crown, that gives us the Marcela fluff and wedding we have been deprived of over the course of these books

Missing Marecal at this very moment

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I love this woman @vaveyard

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“did chris evans actually jump that high to grab onto that helicopter in civil war?”

friendly reminder that chris vaulted with ease over chris pratt after just telling him less than a minute before that he would be able to clear him if he only put his head down.

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Happy September 1st y’all ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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If this Message appears to your dash Pass it on by adding a Supernatural Gif.

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Please stop and read this.

I’m doing a project on gay rights in today’s society.

So if you believe that same sex couples should be allowed to get married, please reblog this.

This would be a lot of help, thank you.

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We knew it was coming. We still press on the link anyways

oh my god i really don’t wanna be the person to do this because i love uptown funk but it’s actually really really problematic…. like it’s awful and idk I feel so bad for liking it. I can’t really explain it that well but here is a detailed explanation. idk why we can’t just have nice things

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people with dark brown hair and dark brown eyes are so pretty.. fantastic combination…

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Reblog if you're not homophobic

Every url that reblog’s will be written in a book and shown to my homophobic dad. 

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Whoever doesn’t reblog this can go jump off a cliff for all I care

Reblog If Your Blog Is Safe For

Transgender people

Homosexual people

Bisexual people

Genderfluid people

Asexual people

Pansexual people

Autosexual people

Demisexual people

Bigender people

Agender people

Polysexual people

Straight people

Cisgender people

Straight allies of the lgbtqpiad community

ANYONE