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clarissa defying her management by using social media proved to be the detriment that it was - she should have just not said anything. it had lead to more speculation, more posts and although she'd dealt with comments online before, it had never felt as serious as this. people were angry at her, they had every right to be and her post was now being construed as sarcastic and that only elicited more anger. the woman had seemed to zone out for a while before she heard the disgust over an island in the kitchen - her penthouse had one. were they really that ugly? it was useful to her considering she didn't actually do much cooking, it was more of a surface space but now she was questioning her taste.

wide eyes looked at the other, as if she was a little discombobulated before she sat down near the other. "sorry, um-" the woman scratched the back of her head. "thank you." being insecure about her kitchen layout had never happened until today. "i zoned out for a bit."

"--and you'd think for me, of all people, this wouldn't be such a hassle, but honestly?" she gestures with the phone in her hand, screen still lit up, "all i want is a halfway decent winter house without one of those god awful islands in the middle of the kitchen, and you'd think i'm asking for heated floors in arizona or something." she sets the phone down, and goes to say something else, when an alert pings, and her eyes roll on instinct. "i'll call you back, maxie's job is apparently just so hard and he's having a crisis. yeah," she laughs, nodding, "yeah, i'll talk to you later. buh bye."

the phone call ends and her expression drops, and she's ducked her head down again to focus on the choice words she has right now. keep business within the family, they said. your cousin is definitely capable enough for this position, they said. she's got half a mind just laugh. but there's that feeling, right? the one you just get when someone's lingering, physically or just staring? not even looking completely up, she glances just over the edge of her phone. "there's more than enough seats here, thanks."

@richfmstarters

#auggie x clarissa. #interactions: clarissa.

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it was so odd being back. still, it hadn't taken val long to get back onto the club scene - she'd even made a conscious effort to do a creative mix of the dubliners to a dance beat! no matter how much she loves it, there is always that point in the night where she feels alone. leaving on the queue, the young woman jumped over the dj booth, leaving it in the other's very capable hands and made her way out towards the garden for a cigarette. an oversized jacket engulfed her but at least she was warm, as opposed to the very pretty women in a nice dress that looked absolutely freezing. "oh my god, you must be fucking freezing. do you want another drink, or-" she pulled out a pack of cigarettes from her coat pocket. "you want one? i like to think of them as little fires."

open starter: st patrick's day , OUTSIDE A CLUB/BAR, @richfmstarters

it's   nearing   spring,   with   the   beginning   of   blooms   appearing   in   gardens   across   the   city   -   but   the   air   remains   cool   upon   bronzed   skin,   a   shiver   taking   hold   of   her   as   the   breeze   runs   through   her.   a   coat   could   have   helped,   but   there's   the   matter   of   fashion   to   consider.   the   dress   would   never   match   well   with   something   on   top   -   no   matter   how   voguish   it   may   have   been.   instead,   the   emerald   green   alex   perry   mini   stands   as   the   only   thing   protecting   the   star   from   the   blustering   wind.   that,   and   the   combination   of   green   beers   and   guinness   running   though   her   and   providing   liquid   warmth.    isla   shifts   in   place,   nearly   tripping   over   a   loose   stone,   “      shit     ”   a   fluttery   laugh   sigh   slips   out,    “      it's   a   good   thing   these   only   happen   once   a   year.   i   don't   think   i   could   handle   so   much   green   all   the   time.     ”

#isla x valeria. #alcohol tw #smoking tw #if i need to change anything pls lmk!

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valeria wasn't a hugger by any means, not when she was sober anyway but she'd accept it from the other. "it was so fucking great, and i managed to record some absolute hits while having so much fun." it wasn't all great - the extended trip had her in all sorts of situations but she didn't feel like it was any better here. who did she have here anymore? that was no disrespect to her friends but this had only felt like home because of her grandfather and now he was gone... "a lot of clubbing, playing at clubs, playing at clubs whilst clubbing, visiting amazing recording studios and meeting amazing new people. met some not so nice people too but you'll get that everywhere. the vibe was just so insane." val knew she needed to focus on the positives and not the death in her family that still felt so fresh.

seeing     the     youngest     again     brought     a     smile     to     pouty     lips     ,     happy     for     the     reunion     .     walked     towards     her     and     giving     femme     a     hug     ,     digits     placing     chocolate     locks     behind     his     own     ear     after     letting     her     go     .     “    of     course     i     did     .     .     .     when     i     wasn't     feeling     jealous     of     you     enjoying     europe     while     i     was     stuck     here    .    ”     rolled     optics     .     athlete     would     rather     be     enjoying     beautiful     views     and     interesting     places     than     being     off     work     and     doing     physical     therapy     .     “    but     please     ,     tell     me     what     you     did     there     .     let     me     live     it     through     you     .    ”     letting     out     a     dramatic     sigh     .

#moiria x valeria. #death tw

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these events were often too dull for valeria's liking but considering she had been in europe for a couple of years and not bothered to carry on her grandfather's tradition, she felt like she needed to attend. he'd been a good man, too good and perhaps that's why the other members of the family had always seemed to take him for granted, to see him as nothing other than a commodity - like her. she missed him greatly. "only ten million?" she chuckled as she looked over her shades in a teasing manner. "i'm sure it is coming from you but hasn't anyone ever told you not to take drinks from strangers? though i suppose it's redundant with strangers giving them out tonight but i'll take my chances with them and not you, no offence."

open starter | charity gala | @richfmstarters the room was busy, lively, so lively in fact that atlas was sure nobody was paying him any attention. he took out his favourite black flask from his suit pocket and took a swig. sure, it was probably bad manners to take a flask to a charity event but he doesn't care. if he has to attend such dull events the least they can do is ply him with hard liquor. it's not until the flask is safely away that he realises he's been caught. "don't judge, i've already given them a check for ten mil and yet i still have to be here in person for some reason. most of these people are incredible dull. proposition for you: if you don't tell you can have some. it's good, promise."

#atlas x valeria. #alcohol tw

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clarissa: they told me to stay off social media and i didn't listen and now i have this. i was upset when i put out the post, okay? i thought it was better to message you directly before i ask management. clarissa: it literally means nothing to you. i don't want to be talked about like this and especially not in this way. clarissa: you set a certain precedent with your tweet. can you please just delete it? tweeting about your therapist to me is not at all helpful and is actually humiliating.

💬 luciana: sounds like they're doing a shitty job if they have to ask their client to do damage control 💬 luciana: outsourcing your chaos management to a professional typically means you won't have to clean up the mess. i think you're getting ripped off 💬 luciana: from the bottom of my heart, while i do appreciate the politeness, i cannot delete my tweets. it goes against my moral code 💬 luciana: as oscar wilde used to say: there is only one thing worse than being talked about, and that is not being talked about

#luciana x clarissa. #interactions: clarissa.

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clarissa: yes. that's why i'm politely asking you to delete it. your posts are bringing up more and more questions. clarissa: i have a team. clarissa: the rumour mill is bad enough.

💬 luciana: hasn't your publicist ever told you to think before you tweet ? i mean, i assume you have one, right ? 💬 luciana: not trying to be rude, i'm only asking because i can refer u to mine if yours totally sucks 💬 luciana: she always reminds me of it. ignoring her advice is a conscious choice i make 💬 luciana: ... at some point, i'll start charging you for all my referrals

#luciana x clarissa. #interactions: clarissa.

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Text: Luciana

clarissa: Hi, it's Clarissa. Please can you delete your post? I've deleted the original so would be grateful if you could delete your responses (3). clarissa: I was having a moment. clarissa: Please can you delete them?

#luciana x clarissa. #interactions: clarissa.

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clarissa nodded as azra gave the updates, making sure she was looking at the other to show that she was engaged. the woman felt exhausted but she couldn't just stay at home and do nothing - it felt like the space swallowed her up. "wow-" her eyes widened at the number on the screen. "that's so many people." she nodded again. "congratulations." she'd kept off her own since the cancellation announcement that she hadn't even made herself; she didn't feel it was appropriate to post anything. "those kind of numbers don't feel real."

"Well, dads movie was a hit as per usual so he's doing the rounds of press and stuff that's whatever.. mom just turned down the cover of some magazine but she's been offered some other.. I don't know the names." Azra shrugged as she tapped at her phone and chewed her gum. "More importantly thoughI just hit 25 million followers on instagram." She smiled as she finally turned her attention to the other and flashed her phone screen to show their account.

#azra x clarissa. #interactions: clarissa.

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(     clarissa 💌    →     isla      ) definitely drama.

       ↳       isla flores & text messages

(      💌    →     open      )    if you had to choose between a drama (      💌    →     open      )   and like, idk (      💌    →     open      )   a horror film, which would you pick?

#isla x clarissa. #interactions: clarissa.

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clarissa's brow gave her judgemental side away instantly, face scrunching at the notion. "absolutely not." that was her honest answer. "i'm probably the wrong person to ask but it's not something i'd personally ever do."

" YOU KNOW . . . i'm thinking of starting an onlyfans. " it wasn't as though he needed the money but rather the attention, " think it could be fun. what do you think? "

@richfmstarters

#luca. #little miss perfect is in the house

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notification: clarissa dalton

clarissa: i'm fine. thanks for asking.

#starters: clarissa. #richfm:start

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@starryid / cab

valeria's face was stoic as she got into her cab with sunglasses on her face. looking forward, the driver looked somewhat familiar. pushing her sunglasses up for them to sit on her head, the young woman's mouth opened and eyes widened. "no fucking way! it's you! you know i'm like, obsessed with you, right? i've still got some of your songs on my playlists."

#imara x val. #interactions: val.

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@azrasxyildiz / anywhere

"so, how're your folks getting on?" clarissa would do anything to make sure that she wasn't the topic of conversation. the woman didn't look as glowing as she usually did and having her tour cancelled without her agreeing was only the tip of the iceberg.

#azra x clarissa. #interactions: clarissa.

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@moirafm / anywhere.

"didn't you hear i'm back?" val pulled the other a smile as she looked lover her sunglasses. "so, did you miss me whilst i was having the time of my life in europe?"

#moira x val. #interactions: val.

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( cis woman .  she/her )  - the  new  york  city  resident , valeria 'val' allen* martinez ,  was  seen  sporting  miu  miu  on  park  avenue  today .  the  twenty one  year  old  is  a  singer,  songwriter &  producer  in  the  city  &  has  been  here  for 12 years .  since  being  here  ,  they  have  been  told  to  be  impulsive  ,  but  also  free-spirited ,  who  really  knows  !  according  to  nycslam  ,   she's  being  sued by her mother .  anyways  ,  guess  we'll  find  out  for  ourselves  !  [  kate  ,  26  ,  gmt  ,  she/her ]

triggers: death, adoption

valería was born to a single mother in mexico. she was never planned and was indeed a strain on the martinez household. her mother hid her pregnancy with her until she went into labor and told her parents. it was a disaster and continued to be when val was born. none of it was her fault but her mother was already suffering from mental illness, something that wasn’t helped by the judgemental people around her. her mother dying made her maternal grandparents to not even want to look at her.

at the age of five, she was adopted by the daughter of edward allen, a known billionaire and they both lived in the united states of america. money prevailed in getting ms. allen what she wanted, a child when she was a single and vile person that would say and do anything to get one. when unable to conceive herself, she looked towards adoption and the process was much quicker taking a five year old that didn’t speak any english, plus, she skipped out baby night feeding so it was of no concern to her.

somehow, the friends that the woman had talked about that would ground valería in her heritage, be able to communicate with her, were nothing but fabricated. ms. allen didn’t want to learn spanish so she had an upset child that felt separated from her grandparents that she was unable to communicate with - edward allen was the person that changed that. the substitute grandfather that turned into her actual grandfather. edward was the one to learn spanish both to communicate with her but then to make sure she never, ever lost it. he loved her because she was always kind and considerate, wanting to help when she could and even if she never had the right words, she’d prove it in action. her grandfather was really her entire world.

it took her a while to get settled but with edward’s help, valería managed. she always felt a bit out of place with her peers; she didn’t catch onto jokes that fast nor did she necessarily care about designer things or status. she was labelled as odd and that’s how it stayed. she loved singing, mainly to herself and also writing music, composing. that was her happy place along with being with people - even if they didn’t understand her, she still found the positives to enjoy it. her grandfather was very supportive with whatever she wanted but she never once asked for anything apart from ‘dinners and dance parties’. the whole world probably had some opinion on the billionaire but he was perfect to her.

when she was in her around ten, she worked as a model for her mother’s cosmetic company. without realising it, val was responsible for her mother’s success because it made the woman branch out into new foundation shades - it wasn’t perfect but it was a step in the right direction and her mother was applauded whilst valeria became the face of the entire company. you couldn’t go anywhere without seeing her face. it did cause controversy with her being young but it got people talking.

it was a lot of pressure to put on her but she was agreeable in nature and never wanted to upset her mother so never said anything. she fell into her music as a way to process emotions and things she cared about - had been dubbed a bit of a prodigy but was never really good at school. through connections, she did manage to get a place at julliard but she’d crumble and pull out only a few months in. it was mainly sitting in her bedroom with her laptop and equipment, headphones on being in a completely different world while she wrote and mixed tracks and that was and continues to be her happy place. only now her happy place is also in a club doing a set or being on stage with a guitar.

as soon as she was 18, she decided to drop everything and go to europe to further her music career - being in clubs was legal, she could have a lot of fun and meet some interesting people and only pushed her further into taking risks musically and doing what she wanted to do rather than listening to others.

the news that her grandfather was ill and he wasn’t going to get better hit valería the hardest. he was the one person who she felt understood her, the one that tied her to a lot of things and made her feel loved.living in denial was a hard place to be as her mental health deteriorated quickly - val’s mother wasn’t the talkative type and every time she tried to accept reality and try to talk about her feelings with the woman, she’d be shut down and thrown into a schedule. she’d dropped out and hadn’t told her mother - being dishonest was not her thing...

the reading of edward allen’s will was a big event. valería wasn’t expecting to get anything as he’d given her more than enough love to make up for the lack in her life. it was a great surprise to everyone, including her, when edward left everything to her. overwhelmed didn’t even cover it. his savings, current bank account, shares in his company, property... everything. she was so confused as to why and did feel sorry for her mother but she didn’t even have time to think about what she wanted to do with the billions (tabloids will say millions which is half-true because they underestimate the situation) before the woman that she called mother would be filing to court to try get it revoked and passed to her. 

val did not want to fight with her mother. the woman didn’t even tell her about it, a lawyer made her aware that her mother wanted to take it from her and was bringing her sanity into question. she didn’t even want all of it but the fact her mom was doing this to her made her more resistant. its a lot of responsibility and she needs to really think about what she wants to do about everything so is attempting to ignore the pressure.

little facts:

she’s not bothered about designer labels. if it’s pretty, she’ll buy it, whether it’s from chanel or a charity shop, it doesn’t matter to her. this is why she wears ariana’s perfume - a little goes a long way but can be known to putting on too much and accidentally irritating taxi drivers when she gets in.

tries to be positive to everyone and everything but it makes her feel good. she is naive when it comes to trusting people but wants to be loved so is ultimately a people pleaser.

with what’s going on, she’s residing in her late grandfather’s upper east side penthouse :))

rarely cries but if she does, you know she's really, really hurting.

isn't the best communicator but she tries.

sees things in a very black and white way - very stubborn.

has drunk since she was a teen and still doesn’t know her limits :)

either cant sleep so she decides to scrap book while listening to music at three am or she does nothing but sleep.

is incredibly loyal and loving but doesn’t try to ask too many questions. her personality can sometimes be imposing as it is.

is trying to act like nothing is happening so is over-compensating with her chirpy personality.

likes all types of music apart from country, sorry :/

her fave colour is black.

#richfm:intro #adoption tw #death tw

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( cis woman .  she/her )  - the  new  york  city  resident , clarissa dalton ,  was  seen  sporting  erdem  on  park  avenue  today .  the  forty  year  old  is  a  singer  in  the  city  &  has  been  here  for ten years .  since  being  here  ,  they  have  been  told  to  be  emotional  ,  but  also  compassionate ,  who  really  knows  !  according  to  nycslam  ,   her management made the call to cancel the tour .  anyways  ,  guess  we'll  find  out  for  ourselves  !  [  kate  ,  26  ,  gmt  ,  she/her ]

triggers: depression, abuse, mental illness tw

clarissa was actually born in york, yorkshire (but lies that she's a southerner and that's what's on her wiki page...). she’s the eldest of four siblings but the middle child always stepped up and outperformed her in every single way. her mother was a music teacher and her father a chemist. although she was inspired by music, she never decided to take up a music hobby like her siblings and was part of a swimming club instead.

clarissa had always been conscientious. a student, she’d get easily upset if she did anything wrong and would want to avoid any repercussion from it, even if it was as simple as a note being jotted down to say she’d forgotten one of her workbooks, she’d cry about it.

at school, she was the person who would sing in front of her peers in assembly and be bullied by people because of it. she had always been in a choir and had an excellent voice but children were cruel and that knocked her confidence massively.

she was around 10 when she decided she wanted to take up some music classes, however, the only one available was in choral conducting. she went from being in the choir to conducting it and she preferred her back to the audience.

however, she still kept up being in her church choir and being the only person under the age of forty, she was selected for solos with them. of course, some of her peers also attended church but it wasn't something that they broadcasted. she was fifteen when her choir were successful to sing at an event that would be televised. this was the point where clarissa was pursued by a label.

she was hesitant at it - she was going into her final year of high school before doing her a-levels and was worried about her exams. they assured her that it was possible to both study and record a debut album. her parents, being in their late fifties, were also cautious of the offer as they weren't in a position to travel with her nor were they prepared to leave their village where they had a comfortable house and living space for a flat three times smaller than cost three times as much - clarissa would go with the label that would put her up in her own apartment.

it was such a big jump too soon and it stressed her out massively. she had been well taken care of by her parents before attempting to do things herself. it was against the law as her parents thought someone would be staying with her and she was unsupervised. however, clarissa didn't know any different so just got on with it.

by the time she'd reached eighteen, she'd experienced burn out. her debut album had done extremely well - one that was in the classical realms - and the label could recycle the traditional songs and hymns into a rendition album but they always wanted more from her. it was another artist at the label that put in a complaint on clarissa's behalf, them experiencing the same mistreatment themselves. the label was shut down as criminal investigations took place.

clarissa, being a perfectionist, didn't want to cancel any performances she had lined up so proceeded to try fill those commitments herself. she loved her craft but was damaging herself by not taking the time to slow down. she would learn from this. a hospitalisation caused her to wipe her schedule and take it steady.

at nineteen, her old label mate mentioned they had a meeting at a different label and they kindly dropped her name on their radar. the rest is history. within a year of being signed, she had her break-out moment with a song of a soundtrack that topped the charts. her new label took care of her (they would be fools not to considering how much money she was now bringing in) and allowed her to flourish, to pursue the things she wanted for herself and allowed her to reject things she didn't (within reason).

clarissa dalton found her place in the market as a classical / pop singer she was all about her craft and kept her personal life private, something that she'd continue to do. while that was always going to be her plan, there were certain parts about herself that she didn't want her fans knowing about as she'd assumed most of her demographic wouldn't accept a certain part of her and her career would tank because of it.

it wasn't that she wasn't telling the truth, she just wasn't shouting from the roof tops that she was bisexual; in a perfect world, people would accept her but from the foundation that her career had been built from, it didn't feel like a viable option. the woman doesn't actively talk about it yet doesn't deny it either. she was in a relationship with a woman but she wanted to go public and more public than clarissa would have liked. when the other stated that there would be people that would accept her, clarissa shut her down - she wasn't yet willing to take that chance nor did she want to become some sort of poster child for a community she didn't even feel a part of. when the relationship ended, she presented the other woman with an nda. she feels terrible about this and it's probably the worst thing she's done...

clarissa has been very successful. she's rich, very rich but tries to keep herself as grounded as possible. however, she is aware that she's not accumulating new fans so would have to branch out a little to appeal to a younger demographic. she's not the best with socials either - she has them but nothing personal will be displayed on it and it's used for showing her practices, daily routine and outfits more than anything else.

she does love fashion - the beautiful, the ugly and everything else. it fascinates her so will have connections with a lot of top notch designers that either work for revolution or work outside of and who she frequently wears.

clarissa was always a highly strung person but recently, it was running her into the ground rather quickly. the woman worries a lot about the perception of her that others have as well as being perfect. her body then started to betray her, a then undiagnosed overactive thyroid, and everything seemed so much worse to her. it was particularly worse when she'd bottled the high note of her most recent release in a live performance twice - she was disappointed in herself but it was worse that others seemed more disappointed, that they were using that instance to completely tear down her career.

her entire self worth is based on what the public perceive her to be and that's a major issue/ as soon as she felt rejected, she completely broke down and felt like she just couldn't fix it, that people would never accept her, that she'd never be happy - she just broke - ended up in the emergency room. that night was so intense and everything just hurt. she's just lucky that her current management take care of here. they're on rocky terms at the moment, with them cancelling her tour but she'll eventually see that it was the right call.

her tour was cancelled due to her poor health and clarissa hates the assumptions that come with that but doesn't want to go into detail either. her management have advised her not to sign in to her social media accounts.

EXTRA NOTES:

he woman is not one to open up and she'd rather deal with her problems on her own - it also reduces the risk of anything leaking to the press as up until this point, her image has been squeaky clean. it was somewhat of a rerun of what happened when she was younger, only this time her mental state seemed much worse.

stage fright would be the wrong word but clarissa went to do some performances and both times she bottled the highest note, as in she just didn't even attempt to sing it. she could do it, she'd done it plenty of times before but something inside her felt like she couldn't. her fans were supportive, perhaps too supportive that then became aggressive enough to start fan wars, picking singers that lip-synced or used autotune to try and lift her up and that was the first major problem her public personal had.

although taking it easy, she's still practicing and drafting ideas for a next album (though needs a songwriters help to actually write as it would be all over the place if she was left to her own devices.

clarissa is a nurturer by default. she has a lot of experience in the industry and does want to help those who are struggling. however, she herself appears to be struggling and she's not used to that.

her voice is insured.

collabs - people that she's collaborated with in the past. i'm comparing her career to celine dion but she would have definitely done some cross-overs for a greater outreach and to keep herself engaged.

party buddy - that duo that always asks each other to come drinking with them and they almost never say no! messy times would happen and might have the potential to be toxic as they don't help each other with their issues, only enable and make them worse.

tba

tba

#richfm:intro #depression tw #abuse tw #mental illness tw