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Last post for this blog :)

Something very horrible has happened and left me traumatized. I've made a huge mistake by seeking validation from other people and I've never felt so played and used my entire life. Finals are next week and it's stressing me out that I can't focus.

But that's okay, I have people who I can talk to. And I'm continuing to learn from what happened. It may take a lot of time and I may be still broken, but I know that eventually it will be better ☺️ I'll grow to love myself and put myself first ❤️

#UnderstandingTheSelf #Week16

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Finally going home after finals. Visited my brother one last time before having a week of cramming papers and studying for the finals because he's not spending Christmas with the family.

Though, thinking of seeing how my friends back in Davao are working hard for their finals is motivating me to do the same. I want them to be proud of me too ☺️

#UnderstandingTheSelf #Week15

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This place really makes you feel calm. Finals are approaching and it's really nice to be at peace, most especially if you haven't been to church in a long time. I'm pressured but I know that I can do it if I push myself further.

#UnderstandingTheSelf #Week14

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Started missing my sister and thought about the cat cafe we would always visit back in my hometown. She would be so excited to pet the cats and talk to them since my dad didn't want to get pets 🤣

But I get where she was coming from because cats can gave her comfort and this sense of understanding that she couldn't find with my parents or from anybody in general. And I don't blame her because we've had a pretty sad childhood

#UnderstandingTheSelf #Week13

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Visiting my brother really takes me back to when we were still little kids. I got to spend time with him and I wasn't even aware that I spent a lot of money 😅

But that was all worth it because I finally had the time to catch up and know how he's doing, especially considering that he doesn't really open up to a lot of people. I'm not spending Christmas with him this year, which is why I'm saving up for a present I want to give him 🥰

#UnderstandingTheSelf #Week12

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Last Saturday, I hopped in the wrong grab so I had to pay for that person's trip and had to book another ride to get home 😔

This week had been very exhausting from all the org work and long tests, and the grab incident just added to the stress 🤯 This is why we need to relax sometimes because being busy can really get to the best of you :( I learned my lesson to check the car's plate number and talk to the driver first HAHAHA

#UnderstandingTheSelf #Week11

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Finally, me and my block were done with our midterms! 🤩Of course we wanted to celebrate and decided to have fun. But on that note, we are still obligated to do other schoolwork and keep studying harder for upcoming tests and activities and it makes me super happy to be able to spend time with these wonderful people. I also learned that it is okay to make errors, because there are others who understand and will help you grow even if you yourself doubt it. The self really can be a very dark place if you do not have a healthy support system with you, which is why I’m grateful for these boys and girls 🥺

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week10

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The past week has been pretty packed and the following week will surely be busier. Every once in a while, we have to treat ourselves and take some time to relax because too much stress can be very unhealthy not just for your physical but mental health too! 🤯To be honest, I actually feel super relieved and glad to have been able to end the week with good friends and good food! Here’s to more productivity for the coming days 😩

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week9

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Being homesick came with me missing me dog from Davao :( His name is Pao-pao and he was always there for me whenever I felt at an all time low. I know that i won’t be able to see him until Christmas, which is why I look through a lot of these old photos and remember happy moments with my closest fluffy friend 🐶

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week8

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The organization which I’m a part of conducted a camp and during this, I was able to really bond with others as well as with my org family ❤️I’ve gained numerous insights from this experience, but one really stood out from the rest: “Find your why in life and it will guide you for the rest of your life.” I’m really grateful for this experience because I feel that I’ve improved not just as a person, but as a leader as well.

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week7

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I’ve really felt really homesick these past few days, so I looked back on my photos and found this picture I took of the sky full of colour back in Davao. ☁️

I learned that sometimes it’s okay to reminisce some bad moments in your life, because it really makes you think of how you overcame them and how they helped you get to where you are now.

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week6

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This week, rejection was very prominent and I was at a very unhappy and insecure state. However, I realized that it’s part of life and it’s better to experience it as we can learn so much about ourselves and how much we can change as we grow older. With time and understanding, we can continue blooming even in the darkest of moments. 

#UnderstandingTheSelf #Week5

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I was able to accomplish several tasks this week which really made me happy! I was also able to have more time for myself and reflect upon my plans in the future. I learned that it really does help to have a little faith in yourself, even if you’re at a very low point in your life. 🥰

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week4

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As much as I want this flower to be given by the guy I like (HAHAHA jk), it was actually given by the guys form my block. They actually planned on giving all the girls flowers and it was such a sweet gesture that made our entire week 🥺❤️

This has made understand that there are people who can really care and be thoughtful even when it comes to the simplest of things 🥰

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week3

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This week came to really help me to rediscover myself from the numerous organizations to choose from. Recweek showed me that you can find a home in everything and at the same time, contribute to the community. Here’s to hoping I get in the organizations I applied to! 🌟

Image via Council of Organizations of the Ateneo

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New Beginnings

The time I spent with my new friends has helped me realize that despite each of us having different living backgrounds and growing up with unique upbringings, we can still have a certain mutuality which helps keep our relationship growing. 💙

Image via Fabilioh

#UnderstandingTheSelf #week1