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I have been a sheep caretaker for like two days and already I'm like. Wow. I get it.

I get why these were some of the earliest mammals to ever be domesticated. They look up to humans with this sort of dumb but all at once innocent and pure and trusting expression. They're happy to see you. They follow you around. They like to be rubbed under their chins. Maybe its just some latent Scottish highland shepherd DNA I still have in me but I look at my sheep charges and suddenly I see why the love of God for humanity is so often described as a shepherd and his sheep. I'd fight a wolf for these guys. I'd go way the Hell out of my way for them. I'd carry their young for miles on my own back.

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I saw an article about how Last Voyage of the Demeter was losing money in the theaters and I was like "really? all my friends are seeing it, that's so weird"

then it occurred to me that I, producer of Re: Dracula, may be in a uniquely biased position here.....

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in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience

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What's cookin' good lookin'?

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i love weird barbie

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This is a Completed griffon commission for my personal friend nil! I finished it nearly 2 weeks ago but I've been a bit distracted to post about it

But here it is!

Posted 7/31/2023

#OH MY GOD ITS HER! #very proud of this OC #Gretchen Griftworth

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When I was seeking help as a teenager I would fall for this trap every time and I would always kick myself for it. I don’t know how I could’ve handled this any better though, I wasn’t the professional who needed to have a complex theory of mind with my psychiatrist. I was just so used to masking my own feelings because no space ever felt implicitly “safe” that it seemed just as valid to keep that mask up in the company of a professional and pretend my so-called issues weren't as real as I thought.

I mean, they're a stranger to me. They're an authority figure. Even when I'd try to circle back around to that after having realized these mistakes, that same track of social courtesy would just derail that effort or make them seem too small to actually unpack.

I wasted so much time doing this. I really think doctors have to actually establish what they mean, too, if a conversation is initiated with these generic social niceties with no qualifiers to them it’s just very hard to actually go against that wiring to unpack how I'm presently feeling.

pro tip for disabled people (especially autistic people) that i just realized after literal years of chronic illness...

when a health professional asks how you're doing, it's not small talk. they want to know how your health has been. do not reply "good." if you seem them for chronic pain, talk about your pain. if you see them for mental health, tell them how you've been feeling. etc. etc. again... don't reply "good." jump right into it and be honest about your health.

#airing my grievances #this was fucking humiliating and I'd always feel so small for trying to circle back to old news #you know what this ISN'T just our fault. professionals have to meet us in the middle with this stuff sometimes #I'm doing my very best to communicate but there isn't even a mote of curiosity on the other end of the conversation #am I alone here???

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I’m almost never able to find full, complete stories through individual back issues when browsing through comic shops and today I finally did. I was so grateful, so thankful even, and as soon as I got home I proceeded to read them all in the wrong order anyways because I am a fucking fool.

#airing my grievances #it was still a great story anyways and individual issues stand on their own but MAN #for some fucking reason I just assumed the first issue was a flashback when I got to it #and I assume I missed something where it ended because it was a pretty lowkey resolution I thought it was going to be explained as a fakeout

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@malixcrash​

Was anybody gonna TELL me about the abanodned 1991 doctor who cartoon series with a bunch of visual material, or was i supposed to once again fall into lore head down?

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I’m taking this moment to announce that Jonathan Ohnn canonically has tattoos and the one on his shoulder is 100% Glad0s, you cannot change my mind. This makes him canonically a video game nerd and a Portal/Portal 2 enjoyer.

There’s also two more on his ankle and calf but I’m still figuring those out.

#atsv spoilers

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“Oh my god you’re a writer? Can I read your stuff?”

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#I based it off those feratu...

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I've rarely seen a more validating sentence in my entire life.

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Rowling’s prose really was telling for how she actually sees people. 

There isn’t any room for diversities in the human experience under this rigid Gorgon gaze she sees the world through. People either agree with her values and opinions, and manifestly happen to be noble and good and wise... or else everyone else who opposes her in some way is just an unflattering caricature, enforcing rules for no fair reason. They’re piggishly indulgent in stupid lifestyles that don’t deserve to be lived. They’re just mean and hateful and nasty because “Evil” is a thing people are, not something they do. Everyone is just set in stone and are liars if they try to insist otherwise.

It was always there, even if it was just spoken quietly. It was digging at strawmen that audiences were never meant to humanize. It was in the “funny” descriptions of dispensable side-characters, simply meant to add a cartoony flourish of color to the Wizarding World. Literature is an interesting window into the soul.

#I apologize for the small rant I hate to dwell on her for very long #I've never been very attached to the Wizarding World myself #it just pains me to see such a caustic influence flourish off the backs of so many fondly remembered childhoods #Where was Percy Jackson's breakout success when we needed it? Why couldn't it have been Riordan?

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Understandable if you don't appreciate Batman Returns as a comic book adaptation, but it's at least the best Vampire: The Masquerade film Tim Burton's ever made.

#vampire the masquerade #batman returns #tim burton #just being silly but it's funny how he seemed more faithful to a source material he wasn't even using #oswald cobblepot #nosferatu #batman #gangrel #Batman's clan was the hardest to commit to don't bully me I'm not an expert in the game or it's lore #max shreck #ventrue #his name was MAX SHRECK cmon Burton with these references #selina kyle #catwoman #malkavian

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Reading the wikipedia entries for minor Batman villains is like, “Mr. Sparkplug was introduced in 1969. He wore a rectangular costume that resembled a sparkplug, and had power to make electrical outlets stop working. After the Infinite Crisis event, he was reimagined as a serial killer with a fetish for electrostimulation. He had a cameo on Batman the Brave and the Bold where the Joker shoved him into a locker. In the New 52, the Riddler killed him and hung his costume over the mantlepiece as a trophy. He is now on the Suicide Squad.”

#painfully real

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i genuinely dont care if the creation of all media comes to a screeching halt btw i will very gladly live with no new movies no new tv shows no new anything for years if that's what it takes for the people who create them to be treated like human beings. i hope every other facet of the entertainment industry goes on strike too and i hope all the ones that havent unionised yet will. i want media creation to become completely impossible and i want the people who could make it possible again to hold out until they get every single thing they want. btw