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Do you ever just starve and then it hits you why you're overweight? Because when you don't eat, you feel it. You feel the sadness and hopelessness, it's a void in your stomach that you have to fill with food. Because if you don't, it starts consuming you. And it's slow torture. You're waiting. And time doesn't pass and I'm hungry and I'm hurting and I just want to feel better. And food makes people happy. It doesn't make me happy, but I need it. It feels like an addiction. And now I know why it's an illness.

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Me: Hasn’t eaten anything but a salad

Also me: Eats one small cookie and reaches for another one

My mom: Omg you’ve already had enough

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i hate when i tell my friends i look fat and i want to lose weight and they always try to make me feel good about myself or like tell me i’m just thick. like i get it you guys want me to stay as the fat friend :)

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Where are all my “I have an ED but I also struggle with social anxiety so it’s a challenge to go to the gym to work out” peeps @???

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I finally got my account back and now I am going to start again, for like a month I thought I could recover, which was basically me binging the whole month :) but I want to lose my weight hopefully by February. I am thinking of making a YouTube channel, would anybody be interested in seeing what I eat in a day/ week videos?

#ana #aneroxic #ed #only pro for myself #pro ana #tw: ana #tw: eating disorder #binge

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on be half of the ed community:

october did not exist, there was only 11 months in this year. thank you.

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I live a normal ass life.

I go on my online school. I do class.

I walk my dogs. I have fights with my brother.

I have a messy room. I cry.

I’m the comedic relief.

But at night. I go in here and see how much likes I got on my thinspo.

I see how long I have been fasting for.

If I binge or just eat I cry. Or purge.

It make look so damn normal and shit. But it’s not

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bitches are like: “mAyBe iF i wAs skInny i woUld hAve fRiends¡”

it’s me, i’m bitches.

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So I’ve decided to change things up...

The cravings are super strong today... likley because I’m literally just off a 24 hour fast, and I only broke it with 300/400 calories before starting another fast!

So instead of just water fasting, I’m going to incorporate sugar free diluting juice, Coke Zero, Diet Pepsi, chewing gum, green tea etc... all things that most people will have during a fast anyway tbh as there are like 0 calories in these things (technically not 0 but basically).

I think it’ll make things much easier for me, I woke up in the morning and everyone was having breakfast, so I found having some sugar free diluting juice (1 cal per glass) really really helped.

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Honestly I’ve been high-restricting (~1,000 cals) the last few weeks and I’m still losing weight but I actually feel ok??

Like I can focus on work and I don’t always feel like death and idk I’m still a fat PoS but maybe there’s something to this?

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Every part of my body: the same size it was yesterday

My stomach: bloated

Me: “FUCK I GAINED WEIGHT”

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i feel weird talking about potentially going into recovery and i hate to call this an eating disorder bc like. i haven't been professionally diagnosed yknow.

so who says what im doing is a problem

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me: i’m gonna fast for 72 hours and become a SkInNy QwEeN

also me: eats everything in my kitchen in .5 minutes

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the ultimate thinspo:

☁️having your thighs not touch while walking

☁️your hipbones and ribs hurting while lying down on something hard, because they pole through your skin

☁️lying down and being able to feel your empty stomach

☁️your ass hurting while sitting, because the bones poke through

(just some things i’m noticing in myself right now, not promoting eating disorders😌)

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When your younger sister comments on your weight gain and makes fun of you for just getting “wider and wider” and calls you “fatass” repeatedly,,

fucking mint!!!

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meanspo for myself pt.2

How do you expect to lose with this pathetic behavior? Huh? You want slim-fitting jeans? You want to go out without a hoodie? You want to feel comfortable in your own skin? You want the clothes on your wishlist? You want people to be you? You want people to envy your size and ask how you did it? You want all this shit but you’re not doing a damn thing to get there. You sit down, drowning in your own fat induced sweat, shoveling calorie after calorie down your throat with your pudgy fingers, pulling yourself farther and farther from a goal weight you will never reach with your current eating habits. You want to spend the rest of your life being a lonely, deplorable, gross blob of flesh without anyone to care for you because they gave up on you long ago. You’re a servant to calories because you can’t get your shift together and starve.