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“We often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it naturally evolve”

— Unknown

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“When you stop chasing the wrong things, you give the right things a chance to catch you.”

— Unknown

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“You think attention is love, and that’s why you suffer so deeply.”

— Unknown

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[after saying something completely normal] be honest do you think i should ever speak again

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google search how to cough up the ball of grief that's been stuck in your stomach since birth

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Bear with me for a moment….

I love RT, love RWBY. For me, Ruby is the epitome of hope and perseverance. So, this episode more than hit home— not even taking into account the themes of this episode.

I knew Ruby was in a horrible head space but I didn’t think she’d kill herself. Let’s be honest, that’s exactly what it was/represented.

I know it’s just a show but fuck this episode hurt. It hurt to know that this character who’ve I resonated with and loved, was in such a dark place to do this.

I enjoyed that Weiss, Yang, and Blake had a conversation about Ruby and her outbursts/leaving. I loved that Weiss voiced the concerns about their positive messages— and how they can be draining.

I understand the slight frustration and utter helplessness in Yang’s response— “she could’ve talked to us”. I wonder if she will blame herself and her recent relationship with Blake. Will Yang show her growth and lean on Blake for support? Or will Yang push her away, blaming herself for being selfish and not seeing the mental state Ruby was in? As a parent figure to Ruby, i truly hope she does not regress. However, seeing her sister kill herself is very traumatizing. And we don’t yet know how Ruby will emerge (if she emerges). It hurts.

On a brighter side, I did enjoy the slow motion post I saw of Blake protecting Yang during the cat attack— she knew true vulnerable state Yang was in and how much it might have affected her.

I hope we get to see more of Weiss, who I agree seemed to be the only one who might’ve understood her headspace. Specifically, how she stated how their positive words might’ve affected her.

I also wonder if Ruby did know those were her really teammates at the end. After what she had just been through, I’m not sure. She could’ve thought they were part of Neo’s abuse or hallucinations. Either way, that scene hurt. All of it hurt.

I’ve always been borderline hoping that Neo would get a redemption arc— she is a favorite character of mine. With that being said, after this episode, I’m okay if she doesn’t if I’m being honest.

Where does RWBY go from here? I had assumed that this episode would focus on Ruby and her mental health due to the last episode. But after this, I’m not sure what spins and twists are awaiting us.

All in all, great episode. Especially seeing some familiar characters— just not in the way I was hoping.

With that being said, I’m heartbroken. I feel like I’m in mourning. RT does such a great job in making you feel like you know these characters, and this one stings. I truly hope Ruby is able to be saved and able to be healed. The change in Ruby— I truly mourn the loss of her innocence. I feel as if most of us do as well, for our younger selves. But I guess I was naive in hoping that Ruby would retain hers, as I wish I had kept mine. I think that’s why it hurt so much. I was hoping this character would stay the same throughout but that’s not life. Life is growth, change, knowledge, etc. Only that can be acknowledged through self-reflection, awareness, and feeling our feelings (as cheesy as it sounds).

I truly cannot wait for the next episode. My heart is so heavy— but I have hope that Ruby will be okay.

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maybe i'll feel better tomorrow

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my toxic trait is isolating myself in order to feel better when all i really need is a hug and someone that tells me it’s gon be alright

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That feeling when you don’t even know wtf you’re feeling.

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Had the purest heart and look where it got me

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“Don’t waste words on people who deserve your silence. Sometimes the most powerful thing you can say is nothing at all.”

— Mandy Hale

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“Choose to love yourself; choose to respect yourself; and promise with all your heart and soul that you will never leave you.”

— Kimberly Kirberger

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