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I have no control anymore

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You don’t need to comment a number. I’m just going to answer.

1. Only mentally. My own mental obstical

2. Since I was diagnosed, so just over a year

3. He/him

4. It is similar to my birth name, so I could keep my usernames and aliases

5. Chicken. It’s the only dinosaur you can keep as a pet

6. Hard to answer as it’s not exactly a want of being the opposite gender. But the closest I can explain it is I want to be a guy because it’ll solve a glitch in my brain and take the stress level right down

7. Assigned Female/Male at birth

8. Nothing. Children’s bodies don’t have a lot of features that are specific to genders. Their bodies bar their below, are the same, and children don’t think too much about their bellows because there are no hormones developing it yet. So really, I was quite content with myself as a child...

9. Not having to explain why I have a mans name

10. Waiting to complete treatment

11. Yes

12. It’s started to label my mental obstacles and now people around me can understand my issues a little better.

13. How quickly I saw changes

14. My mother not saying About how changing your gender was a stupid thing (not at me, in general, said she’d be devistated) and then telling horror stories about what people do to trans people

15. Admitting that I have a problem

16. You don’t “know you’re trans” you just have a problem, and the treatment is to transition

17. Exactly the same as when you’ve been really sick with a stomach bug, and you wake up one morning and you’re starting to feel a little better, well enough to stand up for longer etc. It’s the same sensation

18. Someone called me out when I was requesting a male uniform, I tried to play it off as women’s shorts not fitting or the buttons are too low, they outright asked me and I’m glad they did. I burst out crying. That manager very nicely talked me into telling my family that evening when I returned home. Also yes, he ordered me men’s shirts right away.

19. No

20. Waiting

21. It’s not about masculinity or femininity. I was AFAM, but I am a feminine guy because I do act a little effeminate, and a bit masculine... it’s a mix? Masculinity isn’t what helps the dysphoria, because I don’t care about that. My problem is purely visual and not behavioural.

22. I’d be in a better mental state by now

23. Nothing. I actually hate being trans.

24. Not yet, plan on it

25. I’ll change this to how can things be made better for me. More staff supporting treatment. More funds supporting treatment. Better education to GP surgeries about the process. MORE FUNDS FOR SUPPORTING TREATMENT!!!!!!!!!

26. It being over

27. No comment. Too complicated to discuss here. If you really need an answer... they/them

28. Please stop thinking about that horrible thing

29. This is the same as 26. It being over

30. I am happy to receive questions, I will politely remind that I am not obliged to answer them. I am not easily offended and I will not be mad or call out etc. It’s just a question it’s not that deep to say whether I want to answer it or not.

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After the Con

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The many names of Sephiroth

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in another life where they r happy n stress-free 😔

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I made a comic from the mechanic/robot thing i drew a while back BUT THEN I REALIZED THAT I HAD TOO MANY THINGS I WANTED TO DRAW and i couldn’t fit it in 10 pictures and then i gave up and ended up with some small thing without any plot omfg i can’t do comics 

im sorry that it is an OBNOXIOUSLY LONG POST but it’s easier to read this way  i thin k /  

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he’s ready to punch some kids and die

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Sämpycat in snow

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im screaming into my pillow

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Day 125

I’m shaking. I feel sick. I’m at the end of my wit.

I’m signed off sick. I’m scared to go near certain people. I can feel palpatations all the time and all I can think about is what I look like. I could lose my job.

“Talk to someone” “get help” “go to these clinics”

They talk to me. That’s all they do. “It’s going to be okay” only works so many times and now it’s worn thin. WHEN will it be okay?? YES I’m on waiting lists, YES I know I’m doing it right YES I’ve spoken to people

Countless

COUNTLESS PEOPLE

With nothing but uneducated and false leads giving me hope in something that is not the answer! But I AM the one who has to be hit with the cold hard truth.

The coldness will hit me and freeze my last pieces of hope which will melt away in the ice that burns me.

I can’t get work.

I can’t get help.

I’m

Fed up.

Empty

I can’t hear the words any more. Telling me to get support, reassurance of a possibility that does not feel likely anymore.

I can’t get out of this damn slump. Help me??

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