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#STILLMYBABYGIRL

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I need to be kidnapped by kind aliens who take me to the alien vet and they know exactly what's wrong with me and they cure me and feed me nutritious meals

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Old man husbands

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On becoming someone else

i. War of the Foxes, Richard Siken / ii., v., viii., xi. Leisure, Hannah, Does Not Agree with You, Hannah Gamble / iii. unknown / iv. Mimmo Paladino / vi. Book 20e, In between here and there, Beata Wehr / vii. unknown / ix. unknown / x. @heartlessqueen

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its always ”b-b-but arent you DEAD??” and never ”was it fun getting buried it looked fun?” never ”was it difficult to claw your way through the soft earth?” they NEVER ask if the first breath of air after fighting myself out of my coffin was refreshing and tasted like sorrow and relief. it did. by the way. not that anyone CARES >:(

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I love the "came back wrong" trope but from the opposite side.

Imagine you are dead. And then you are RIPPED from the embrace of decay into the world of the living again. Your memories are hazy and you don't recognize any of these people, but they act like they're close to you? Like they love you? So you try to get your memories back, to act like you belong here, but everybody tries to forget you died. And you can't. It is omnipresent. And just trying to grapple with that fact pushes the people who "love" you away, and they're incapable of understanding, and they're so confused, what's wrong N̶̄̀O̶͛͗T̷̉́ ̷͋͝Y̴̎̌Ȍ̴̈U̸̓R NÄM̴̃͑E̵̾̇? And you just need them to understand, you aren't that person! You aren't! You don't know who that person is! You don't know why any of this is happening, but they're unwilling to bend, they keep insisting you are that person, your memories will come back, everything will be normal again, and you want to scream and cry and claw yourself open to show them you're different. Your existence as a being wholly separate from whoever you "used to be" is a sin unto itself. All you can do is scrabble for life and to them, you're killing whoever they loved to do it.

just. lots of fun in that concept, you know?

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I just shat myself.

This is illegally good.

(SOUND IS CRUCIAL) this video is has murdered me dead the music the editing the way information is slowly revealed about the two of them the plot twist the breaking bad images. WILLIAM WILLIAM WILLIAM. all over minecraft parkour someone help im seizing

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neil gaiman needs to stop with the bitchy light academia/snarky dark themed immortal beings who come to love each other over thousands of years or im going to start committing crimes

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david tennant's real talent is playing slutty characters who do not actually want to get laid, and I think that's a relatable asexual experience

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Y'all, the world is sleeping on what NASA just pulled off with Voyager 1

The probe has been sending gibberish science data back to Earth, and scientists feared it was just the probe finally dying. You know, after working for 50 GODDAMN YEARS and LEAVING THE GODDAMN SOLAR SYSTEM and STILL CHURNING OUT GODDAMN DATA.

So they analyzed the gibberish and realized that in it was a total readout of EVERYTHING ON THE PROBE. Data, the programming, hardware specs and status, everything. They realized that one of the chips was malfunctioning.

So what do you do when your probe is 22 Billion km away and needs a fix? Why, you just REPROGRAM THAT ENTIRE GODDAMN THING. Told it to avoid the bad chip, store the data elsewhere.

Sent the new code on April 18th. Got a response on April 20th - yeah, it's so far away that it took that long just to transmit.

And the probe is working again.

From a programmer's perspective, that may be the most fucking impressive thing I have ever heard.

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You're doing amazing sweetie. Welcome to the madness!!!!!!

Hello.

I'm a Millennial. I'm a lesbian. I'm neurodivergent (ADHD with suspected but yet to be assessed for ASD).

I like Doctor Who, Supernatural, the MCU, Star Wars, Star Trek, Good Omens, and Community. I also like cats and nature but am not particularly a long hike enthusiast.

I'm socially awkward but am interested in meeting people that like some of my interests. I'd love to have friends someday but I don't particularly know how to do it. I was better at it when I was younger but seem to have lost the ability.

How do I people?

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Unpopular opinion but bear with me here.

Season 1 folds out as it is... purplepants dies.. we all know that... BUT

His come-back in season 2 is something that is so personal to me. As someone battling long-term trauma, it was something that connected to me on a deeper level.

Because in s02ep11 he is not just who he is. He becomes a part of her brain. It is her thoughts and feelings embodied by him. She spends the whole episode battling that. But this is where we all get it wrong don't we. This is where all our therapists and doctors and support networks go wrong. They tell us to fight it. You can't heal from trauma by fighting it. Because it is not virus infecting your body. It's a part of you and you can't and shouldn't fight yourself.

And so that final scene folds out very beautifully. They are both sitting together in peace with each other, as she comes to terms with who she is. The air in the room is quiet and calm. Brilliant city lights glittering on the window. She makes peace with every aspect of herself. And that's when he says,

"I'll be around if you need me".

We spend our whole life's fighting our traumas, our demons, the ghosts of the past that haunt us, not knowing that they are part of what makes us who we are....

as much as I adore David Tennant with all my heart and soul, I despise Kilgrave. I fucking hate him.

David is lovely. Crowley is perfect. The Doctor is amazing. All his roles are great, EXCEPT FOR KILGRAVE.

I HATE KILGRAVE

I don't understand how people can excuse the pure evil that Kilgrave is just because he's played by David

#david tennant #kilgrave #jessica jones #meena rants #whew that was a lot #say what you want but his wardrobe is THE CLASSIEST

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HERE COMES THE SUN DURUDURU ☀️☀️

#michael sheen

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aziraphale give me strength

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you keep missing the mark

maybe i should, change my name a little?

would that narrow it down, love? (/p)

*scrambles away, dropping a paper with my new anon name*

~ m-m.

My two braincells at work right now

vipers... yellow snakes... yellow... evil... m..m

Mein Gott!

@mystic-mae you little $@&^%$!?........ Ahem I mean, darling babygirl!

#fingers crossed #please let it be this time plz plz plz #killer reveal party