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Church of Whale Fall

#cool as fuck

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Does anyone here remember me 😭

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“Death first to vultures and scavengers.”

#harrow #tlt #sooo GOOD

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i highly recommend for women and girls to be intellectually curious and difficult to shame

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three of swords ✶

#COOL #art

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RAAAA

#sooo good #spiderverse #hobie

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all nancy wheeler ever did was be a teenage girl with ptsd but some people act like she kicked their dog and spit them in the face. grow up.

#tell em

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#👏👏👏

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wild strawberries

#art #sooo pretty

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was talking to Zoey @figthefruitfaeth about my current post-s4 Nancy brainworms and they just wont stop.

Nancy Wheeler. Nancy, the overachiever. The perfect student, perfect grades, head of the school paper, cut-throat won't let the tragedy of her hometown knock her out of balance, ready to take the world on, ready to make it hers.

Nancy, the gunslinger. The fearless leader in the big fight, ready to avenge her best friend and everyone that has fell to the hands of the monsters that live beneath her feet. Avenging the death of all the teenage girls that have died, not realizing that includes her too.

Nancy, the teenager that died the same day as her best friend. The girl who grieves in quiet moments in her dead best friend's bathroom. Haunted by her until the very last fight, targeted for her grief, reminded until the very end that no matter how had she fights, it will always feel like her fault that her best friend is dead.

Nancy, who still packs her bags into the back of her parents station wagon, ready to start the next phase of her life. Why wait? The world is saved, she sees no reason to wait. Time keeps moving, life will keep happening, it would be stupid for her to wait.

Except, Emerson is different than Hawkins. College is a different beast than high school ever was.

Her roommate, who asked about the scars on her wrists and arms and eyed her with caution upon move-in day never warmed up to her.

She stayed up all night editing this paper, why is did she get a B? Why is everyone raising their hand? Why aren't there more seats in the front of her classes?

Why can't she sleep?

Why is all of this feeling hard? This was supposed to be easy. She saved the world, dammit. Why does college feel so hard?

Can't help but let her mind wander to Barb. Would it be this hard if she was here with her? Did she even ever tell Nancy what her dream college was? Or were they too young to think that far ahead. Not young enough to let bad things happen to each other, she lets her mind wander. She's never let her mind wander like this before.

Her roommate remains cold. Nancy challenges herself to be colder.

"Everything is great, mom," she lies through her teeth. Every phone call home is another lie to her family.

Her roommate walks him and gives her the same coldness, Nancy feels her stomach lurch.

"Of course it is honey, we are all so proud of you." Feels like a punch in the chest, a kick in the stomach. The letter from the Dean's Office burning the skin of her palm, physical proof that she doesn't belong here.

She can't sleep.

By the time finals roll around, echoes of I don't belong here, bounce around her head.

Pushing through the crowd leaving the lecture hall where her last final took place, she heads right for the admissions office.

That same station wagon that dropped her off in August is waiting for her in December, all the same bags in tow, dropping them to the ground and falling into her mother's arms.

She'll explain what deferment means later. She'll explain it all later.

She just wants to go home.

#oh my poor heart #nancy wheeler #i miss her #this is so good :(

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Just saw two beautiful women and I feel like mental illness at its finest

#heron talks #no you guys don't understand i felt my knees give out

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#art

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WE DID IT!!!

WE DID IT!!!

WE DID IT!!!

#CAN'T BELIEVE I'M FINDING OUT NOW #warrior nun #MY SAPPHICS ARE GOING TO BE BACK???

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YOU'RE JOKING THAT WARRIOR NUN WAS ACTUALLY SAVED... AND I'M JUST NOW FINDING OUT

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im like if a girl had enough

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when you start reading again and it's like oh. oh . the sun actually does still shine.

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hello everynyan

#spiderverse #CUTE