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[nadineview]

Motivated?!

So, day 0 was exactly two weeks ago and so far I can say, it's going alright. I have mediated daily and writing my gratitude journal and affirmations are going good so far. I mean, of course it could be better. I just don't want to overwhelm myself with methodes and stuff I should be doing, because I don't want it to piss me off at some point, so I decide to quit. Or is it just me only being half way in...?

#law of assumption #writing #what am i doing

[nadineview]

Day 0

So, I'm new to all of this and tbh, I'm doing this more for myself than others. Because I have the urge to write....

I want to start a journey to a new life, to a new ME. I have OCD. Every person that has this probably knows that not every OCD cases are the same and everybody deals with it in a different way. But, what we all know is that feeling when you're having an OCD moment. When something triggers you. OCD for me is mostly about washing hands and cleaning stuff until it feels right. That doesn't mean, when my hands are dirty I have to wash them...well, duh...of course I wash them. I divide them by real and unreal triggers. A real one would be the dirty hands, an unreal one would be "if I don't wash my hands, the person that I'm dating will leave me or won't answer my texts anymore". Those are the once that are most difficult for me to handle. What I figured is if I don't fight them, my "circle" will get smaller. Meaning, I will be triggered more often and my strength to resist will get weaker with every time I give in and do what this little fuckin voice in my head wants me to do.

I’m sick and tired of this shit thb with you and decided, from now on, I’m gonna do my best to steadily increase my circle more and more. When I was 16 my boyfriends mom introduced us to „the secret“. I was not really impressed by it, so I forgot about it again. But months later I got back on the topic. I kept reading and search for everything that was close to the topic. Some stuff really resonated with me and other stuff, not at all. I’m 32 now, so I probably read everything that’s on the internet.

In 2019 I was going through a pretty bad break up and was determined to get that person back by using the Law of attraction. That’s when I stumbled upon the law of assumption. For three months, I meditated, affirmed, like crazy. For real, I was killing it. LOL

I got my person back and lost them nine months later, because I stopped everything when they came back. In those three months I also was really in control of my OCD.

So, here I am five years later and ready to start all of it again. But this time, for me.

#law of assumption #ocd #changing my life #changing my mind