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not a girl - ashe vernon // i want you to know that i'm awake / i hope that you're asleep - car seat headrest // asoup on tumblr // gleipnir - walton ford // grief lessons: four plays by euripides - anne carson // us against you - fredrik backman // saint bernard - lincoln // war of the foxed - richard siken // the hunger games - suzanne collins // belovéd - yves olade // dishes in the sink by david showalter // rbhvelo on tumblr // crime and punishment - fyodor dostoevsky // the oresteia - aeschylus // birds hover the trampled field - richard siken // the torn-up road - richard siken // how simple - hop along // beach life-in-death - car seat headrest // study of a man - thomas couture // september affirmation (don't be afraid) - keaton st. james

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2023 books - the fragile threads of power by v.e. schwab A thing taken by force would always be a pale shadow of something given freely.

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Ada Limón, from “Sometimes I Think My Body Leaves a Shape in the Air”, The Carrying: Poems

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PSYCHO (1960), dir. Alfred Hitchcock

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red, white & royal blue — casey mcquiston

giovanni's room — james baldwin

blue lily, lily blue — maggie stiefvater

#the only place i am free to love you is in my dreams #blue lily lily blue #maggie stiefvater #alex claremont diaz #red white and royal blue #rwrb #henry fox mountchristen windsor #giovannis room #james baldwin #mine #web weaving #bllb #ronan lynch #adam parrish #pynch

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When I came up here for my interview it was as though I’d been here before. I mean, we all have moments of deja vu… but this was ridiculous. It was almost as though I knew what was going to be around every corner. THE SHINING (1980) dir. Stanley Kubrick

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the song of achilles — madeline miller

night shift — stephen king

euripedes — anne carson

circe — madeline miller

a conjuring of light — v.e. schwab

west wind — mary oliver

the song of achilles — madeline miller

the fragile threads of power — v.e. schwab

#don't go where i can't follow #i knew i would follow you anywhere and i have we all have #if i could do it all over again i would #tsoa #the song of achilles #circe #madeline miller #web weaving #west winds #mary oliver #ve schwab #a conjuring of light #shades of magic #euripedes #anne carson #pylades #orestes #night shift #stephen king #mine #the fragile threads of power

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A Movie For Every Year I’ve Been Alive ↳ THE PROPOSAL (2009) dir. Anne Fletcher

Three days ago, I loathed you. I used to dream about you getting hit by a cab or poisoned. Then we had our little adventure up in Alaska and things started to change. Things changed when we kissed. And when you told me about your tattoo. Even when you checked me out when we were naked. But I didn’t realize any of this, until I was standing alone… in a barn… wifeless. Now, you could imagine my disappointment when it suddenly dawned on me that the woman I love is about to be kicked out of the country. So Margaret, marry me, because I’d like to date you.

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I HAD A BROTHER.

it (2017) // maurice sendak // single dad laughing, daniel pearce // the good, the bad, and the grace of god, jep robertson // it, stephen king // the carnivorous lamb, agustín gómez-acros // erica e. goode // my name is memory, ann brashares // it chapter two (2019) // prodigy, marie lu // i wish i was, the avett brothers

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STAR WARS APPRECIATION WEEK: Day 2: Costumes (insp.)

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all is well. all is well. ALL IS WELL.

HELL BENT BY LEIGH BARDUGO

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they're everything to me <3

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PSU FOXES: #6 STRIKER, SETH GORDON

“Why do you hate him so much,” Neil clarified, “that you’d wish such a thing on him?” “Because I’m sick of him getting everything he wants just because he’s Kevin Day,” Seth said. When Matt started to say something, Seth pointed a warning finger at him and kept going. “Do you know what fame gets you, shitface? Everything. All he has to do is ask for it, and someone will give it to him. Doesn’t matter what. Doesn’t matter who. The world is dying to give him anything he wants. “When he broke his hand, his fans cried for him. They flooded our locker room with letters and flowers. The amazing Kevin Day can’t play anymore, they said. Their lives were over. They’d grieve the loss forever. But tell me,” Seth said, leaning forward on the couch to stare at Neil, “when’s the last time anyone cried for you? Never, right? They’re there for Kevin every step of the way, but where were they when we needed them?”

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Tell Maarva I’m okay. Tell her I’m thinking about her.

Andor, Tony Gilroy Rogue One, Tony Gilroy

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arospec andrew just hits different idk. he thinks ppl are just lying or exaggerating when they talk about romance. he's never felt romantic attraction himself so he just assumes it's made up, no matter what the songs and poets say.

for so long he's certain his feelings for neil are either hallucinations or outright hatred bc he's never felt romantic feelings for anyone and love isn't real anyway, so why would he be feeling any differently now?

but somewhere between kneeling on a hotel floor in Baltimore and ghosting a kiss across neil's hip in the shower, it dawns on him that oh, this is what the poets meant, this is what all those songs were about.

and maybe a lot of it is still made up. maybe romance is all an illusion, a paper-thin fantasy. but when he looks into neil's eyes, andrew knows he's never felt anything more real than this.

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I was born ninety seconds before Nell, but she was always my big sister.