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going through some older files and forgot about this spur of the moment baby

#ohshc

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Poetry? More like CROWETRY!

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“I was very, very emotionally avoidant. I strictly emotionally avoided everything my whole twenties. I was catching up with my sister the other day, and I was like, ‘I think from the way that we were raised, I think we were taught that we have to earn love.’ Instead of it being an unconditional thing or that being an unconditional entity. I’m not saying it is that. I don’t know whether that comes from that African upbringing, that strict upbringing: get your grades, get into a good uni, become a doctor, become a lawyer. Start overachieving. It was like you have to prove why you’re lovable. We’re trained to be like, ‘If I’m not exceptional, I won’t be loved.’ Certainly, I think that was my thing. So, yeah, I think I’m just learning now like, ‘Oh, you are allowed to be loved.’ You don’t have to be excellent or aspire to that term, ‘Black excellence’. What the hell? There’s so much white mediocrity that gets celebrated, and Black people, we have to be absolutely flawless to get half of [that] anyway. So, I’m slowly training myself out of that and being like, ‘No shit. You deserve love just for existing.’ And that has taught me to be a lot more loving as well, in a weird way.” NCUTI GATWA photographed by Melanie Lehmann for Attitude Magazine (May/June 2024)

#him! #ncuti gatwa

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thinking "haha what if i jokingly shipped them" is your last chance to get out btw

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i want to share with you some of my favourite graffiti from Pompeii

“Weep, you girls. My penis has given you up. Now it penetrates men’s behinds. Goodbye, wondrous femininity!“ 

“Amplicatus, I know that Icarus is buggering you. Salvius wrote this.“ 

“We two dear men, friends forever, were here. If you want to know our names, they are Gaius and Aulus.“

“Floronius, privileged soldier of the 7th legion, was here. The women did not know of his presence. Only six women came to know, too few for such a stallion.“

“On April 19th, I made bread.“

“ I have buggered men.“

“If anyone does not believe in Venus, they should gaze at my girlfriend.“

“It took 640 paces to walk back and forth between here and there ten times.“

“Chie, I hope your hemorrhoids rub together so much that they hurt worse than when they every have before!“

“Epaphra is not good at ball games.”

“Two friends were here.  While they were, they had bad service in every way from a guy named Epaphroditus.  They threw him out and spent 105 and half sestertii most agreeably on whores.“

“Secundus likes to screw boys.“

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The more I think about it, the more I think that Persuasion has my favorite premise of all of Jane Austen's novels

Anne Elliot as a character speaks to my soul. She feels tremendous guilt for a decision she made eight years ago. Her life is lonely, as she doesn't really have anyone she can truly confide in despite being surrounded by people. So she swallows her pain, the yearning she feels deep in her soul, and vows that if nothing else at least she'll be helpful.

And of course she is reunited with Frederick Wentworth (the one that got away) who seems to hate her now, and she just keeps going. She keeps being kind and supporting her loved ones while slowly carving out a life for herself. There's something about her classic heroism that just feels so attainable. I don't have Elizabeth Bennett's wit, or Jane Bennett's unwavering belief in the goodness of everyone, or even Elinor's constant composure. But I can be like Anne and just keep moving forward attempting to be helpful

Of course it all works out in the end, and Anne is finally surrounded by people who truly appreciate her, even if she had to wait an extra eight years. Others have observed the fairy tale quality of the ending, and perhaps that's why it speaks to me. The idea that if you just keep doing your best and being kind, you'll eventually find happiness

#persuasion

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it's illegal to not say "oh big stretch" when your dog does a Big Stretch

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Is there a word that’s a mix between angry and sad

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Series 6-10

cw and spoilers as above

Season 6: Tom Barnaby & Gavin Troy

Nada

Season 7: Tom Barnaby & Gavin Troy/

Richard Rackham and Neville, E04S07 Sins of Commission. Both get killed? Another secret relationship. No Troy to make snide comments so everyone handles it quite neutrally. Also another man had secret affairs with them both! Richard is bisexual.

Deakin and Hale. E06S07 The Straw Woman. Gay priests! Both die lol.

Season 8: Tom Barnaby &

Not a whisper from a gay mouse

Season 9: Tom Barnaby &

E05S09 Death in Chorus. Crossdressing mention! It doesn't go anywhere but it was the queerest thing that happened in over a season so.

a list of (maybe?) all the queer characters that appear in midsomer murders.

cw for homophobia, biphobia, transphobia, abuse, death, violence, slurs and sexual content.

spoilers for all series.

Series 1-5

Notes:

Where possible I've avoided using specific labels but used descriptions given within the episodes by the characters themselves or others.

I've included brief descriptions of their role in the episode and other details. These are not intended as full summaries.

I've used the wiki to check details so hopefully it's fairly accurate.

Season 1: Tom Barnaby & Gavin Troy

Gerald Hadleigh, E01S01 Written in Blood. Sexually abused as a child, he kills his father and runs away. He is revealed during the episode to cross-dress and is described by other characters as a transvestite. He attends a gay bar in Causton. Other characters, including Troy, express confusion and/or disgust at his cross-dressing and his dresses. He is killed by another character for implying he and her brother were lovers and her disgust at seeing him in a dress. Barnaby is largely neutral about Gerald, but does assume he must have seen a psychologist regarding his cross-dressing.

Tim Young & Avery Phillips , E02S01 The Hollow Man. They run a second hand bookshop and are partners. Avery expresses concern to another character that Tim is cheating and/or will lose interest as he did not identify as gay his entire life. Later, Tim is revealed to have been having an affair with a woman. She threatens to reveal the affair, but Tim confesses to Avery before she can. We see Avery crying in his arms as Tim tells him that he only loves him.

Simone Hollingsworth and Sarah Lawton, E03S01 Faithful Unto Death. Troy immediately calls them dykes cause of course he does. Sarah has a little chat with Barnaby about the joy of being the only gays in the village. Barnaby is very chill and accepting. Simone and Sarah fake a kidnapping to help Simone escape her (supposedly) abusive husband, kill a bunch of people and steal some money. Simone betrays Sarah after Sarah has gone to prison for her.

Season 2: Tom Barnaby & Gavin Troy

Ian Eastham and Charles, E01S02 Death's Shadow. Ian is discovered in bed with Charles (a youngish minor character) by our detectives. Ian says he is not gay and is disgusted by his own impulses. He is paying Charles to sleep with him.

Season 3: Tom Barnaby & Gavin Troy

Arthur Prewitt, E02S03 Blue Herrings. A resident of the residential nursing home. Almost immediately described as a "poofter" by Troy. Barnaby reminds Troy that it was illegal to be gay when Arthur was young. Troy laughs cause he's an arsehole. Arthur is a very particular and tidy person. He confesses to tidying another resident's room, accidentally scaring her and causing her death out of shock.

Frank Mannion, E03S03 Judgement Day. A TV presenter and judge for the village competition. Is mostly just flirty and bitchy. Honestly kind of delightful. Unfortunately gets a lot of snide homophobia from other characters.

Alan Bradford, E04S03 Beyond the Grave. He's briefly suspected of taking vengeance on a woman for not being into him but, in a hilarious analogy, he describes himself as "If sexuality were the Civil War, I'd be a Cavalier not a Roundhead". He then says he's never been attracted to the opposite sex. Luckily Troy makes no comment.

Season 4: Tom Barnaby & Gavin Troy

N/A

Season 5: Tom Barnaby & Gavin Troy

Melissa Townsend and Sally Rickworth E01S05 Tainted Fruit. Melissa is killed early on and Sally is suspected briefly after their previous affair was revealed. Their relationship is a secret and historical and really they're frenemies. Also Melissa is played by Lucy Punch and therefore incredible.

Honourable mentions:

Dennis Rainbird from the pilot episode, The Killings at Badger's Drift. Assigned suspiciously queer at Gavin Troy but there isn't much here to say either way.

#midsomer murders #mumble chat #lgbtq

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lololol a baby Peter Capaldi has just turned up in my episode of Midsomer Murders

#midsomer murders #death in chorus #mumble chat

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sick of dating apps i wanna meet someone the old fashioned way (a bartender gives me cryptic advice and i look up what he said and find a 3 hour lecture and the speaker sparks an interest in philosophy and ethics in me (and wow he's kinda cute) so i get on a 20 hour flight and barge into his office and he offers to teach me ethics in his down time because a librarian gave him cryptic advice)

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Flint and Vane really would not be a healthy relationship, certainly not in canon, but something about them just gets me frothing at the mouth. Not just the standard gay reaction to two big strong angry pirate men though yes obviously that’s a factor I mean like. They’re such good counterparts to each other. The fact they’re fighting for the same thing but completely differently. The substitution of violence in place of intimacy. The guarded emotions for fear of compromising their positions of power, and yet never really succeeding in trying to keep their emotions out of their plans because they are fundamentally emotionally driven people. And they can’t understand each other at all, because they mirror each other too perfectly and each time the other only sees their flaws. And then Charlestown happens, and there’s that turning point!! Self recognition through the other, a mutual understanding that they are society’s monsters, the unbearable intimacy of committing that violence as reclamation of their own agency and recognising how intuitively they work together!! Maybe there’s a moment in that fight where they see it - Vane’s eyes go wide, Flint glares - there’s an understanding, there, and neither of them can shake it, up through the fight with Teach and everything. UGH. I hate them <3

#flintvane #black sails

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Ok now do NYT columnists

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“phones are disrupting natural sleep cycles” I mean true but also bold of you to assume I had one before the tech boom lol catch me out here reading chapter books by the light of my light up pens in the third grade

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thinking abt this tweet again