I love what I fear the most.
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I hate myself more than anyone. They're my greatest enemy, they know all my weaknesses, and they constantly use them against me.
But I love you more than anyone. You're my greatest ally, you know all my strengths and you constantly use them to uplift me.
What's more; I love you more than I hate myself, so I'll stay, I'll stay for you.
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When I lost you, I lost something people go their whole lives searching for; something most people never find. Not love, not status, not wealth, or fame.
Enough.
I wanted for nothing else but to be with you.
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The characters I write that I love the most, I tend to hurt them the most.
I hurt them, I break them, by the end, they are not the same person they started as.
But I always make them strong. Strong enough to survive, to fight through the pain.
Sometimes, I can't help but feel, like I'm writing, who I want to be........
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I promise I won't let what you worked so hard protecting die.
And I promise, it won't die by it's own hands.
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Sink or Swim
It's like swimming in the middle of the ocean, the waves crashing against me, it's cold, I can barely see. Everything is so hard, not impossible, but hard.
And the question I must ask myself, is will I give up and sink, or keep trying, and swim?
I chose to sink........ But I can't, because I have a lifeline, that holds me up, that teaches me to swim.
And for so long, I swim, the water colder, deeper, more treacherous, I lose parts of myself, I lose things I can never get back.
And the question I must ask, through all this loss, is if I'll lose myself too and sink, or if I'll keep trying, and swim?
I choose to sink........ But I can't, the lifeline holds me so tightly, it can't pull my out of the water, but it can stop me from sinking.
I lose track of time, of space, am I even making progress? I lose the reason why I keep swimming, why this lifeline of mine, keeps me from sinking.
And the question I ask myself, is if the beckoning of the depths below will finally win me over, and sink, or if I'll keep trying, and swim?
And I choose to sink........ The darkness below feels safer than whatever light I could find at the end of this. But my lifeline keeps my afloat, prevents me from going to the depths no matter how badly I want it.
The waves hit harder than ever before, the water freezing me to my very core. I'm scared, angry, upset, stuck in the deepest waters yet. And I feel a snap, as my lifeline breaks. No longer there to keep me safe.
And the question must be asked, will I finally succumb to the waves and it's terror, will I finally sink, putting an end to this pain, or will I keep trying, and swim?
........Swim I choose to swim The most difficult and most painful decision I've ever made. But I want to swim.
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Living for myself is impossible, but living for others feels wrong. I want to leave already, I've found nothing for myself here.
Dying for others is too easy, but dying for myself is selfish. I want to stay, in my hoard of lies and my never ending web.
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I want you to hurt me in ways that only someone who loves me can.
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I keep getting these thoughts, of cracking
Minds cracking
Bodies cracking
Buildings cracking
The streets cracking
The world cracking....
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First post, hopefully of many, gonna try and write one every day, let's see how that goes.
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