mayhawkins

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And there's nothin' like a mad woman

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i attend christmas parties from outside. how can i ever try to be better nobody ever lets me in. don't want money just someone who wants my company let it once be me. who could ever leave me darling but who could stay? i've never been a natural all i do is try. i'm alone on my own and thats all i know. fell behind all my classmates and i ended up here. to a house not a home all alone cause nobody's there where i pace in my pen and my friends found friends who care. i tuck myself in and turn my nightlife on i wish i'd never grown up. ones i loved tried to help so i ran them off and here i sit alone behind walls of regret. when my depression works the graveyard shift all of the people i've ghosted stand there in the room. i hate it here so i will go to secret gardens in my mind people need a key to get to the only one is mine. you're on your own kid you always have been.

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#yeah

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feeling sooooo soft bc taylor is sharing tidbits of her personal life with us again this feels so special🥹🥹🥹🥰🥰🥰

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#ForAFortnightChallenge

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taylor is at the peak of her career and she could've just been lazy and released an album that's short, easy to digest, radio-friendly.. but instead she chose to release a 2 hour album with songs that are often confusing at first, telling a million stories from different perspectives, no uniform genre or sound, probably her rawest album ever..... her dedication to her art is unmatched

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let’s take a moment to remember that this is the album taylor was writing while claiming she was “the happiest i’ve ever been in my entire life”…….ijbol

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jackantonoff: TTPD is here

my favorite work we have made together / made in the most wild unhinged moment. all the pain distilled in this album and all the laughter that came out of it. will hold those days in the studio forever as the most inspiring of my life. i adore this album and the way it came together. ttpd FOREVER

1- the day we made down bad

2- fots day

3- florida

4- laura sisk forever

5- black dog

6- electric lady

7- i love you taylor!

love you @sharp_stick / @olijacobs1 / @jack_m_manning / @electricladystudios / @aarondessner / @heyjonlow / @florence / @postmalone / @mikeyfreedomhart / @esmith109 / @zemaudu / @hutchdrums / @mriddles / @serbangheneamixes

from 1989 to TTPD (x)

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The professor said to write what you know, looking backwards might be the only way to move forwards. Then the actors were hitting their marks, and the slow dance was a light within the sparks. And the tears fell in synchronicity with the score, and at least she knew what the agony had been for. THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT

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the manuscript left me shaking goodnight folks

#pictured is me and Taylor during this album #ttpd #taylor swift

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That was the most insane thing I’ve ever lived through I my life

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"a second taylor swift album has dropped tonight"

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here we go bitches round two

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I can do it with a broken heart be like

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IM SO DEPRESSED I ACT LIKE ITS MY BIRTHDAY