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Surprise Pregnancy

December 08 2021 So, I had been feeling so crappie since after Chloe had died that I thought it was the grief but after being hounded by people at work they asking me are you pregnant? I thought I would test myself and its positive doctor also positive so they took blood work and had like 10 fucking Viles later and now I can't get an ultra sound till January so whatever, but I'm pregnant. How do I feel I still don’t even know and I feel no different just really shitty still I'll keep updates and let you know .Thanks for listening Robyn

#life stories #venting #life happens #pregnancy

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Chloe

November 28 2021 Chloe Today I want to talk about Dogs I have had so many types of dogs -Apso lapso -Sheperd -Shitsu -Yorkie -Pomeranian And now a pitter Also worked with other dogs like big dogs' small dogs. My dogs are smart loyal and cuddlers and so affectionate Because they take after you. I miss all my dogs my last one who died was named Chloe I just came up with the name on the spot one day and everyone loves my dog names. Chloe was smart loyal drama queen and did like 15 different tricks. She was the one dog that was with me in a rough time that’s why I think I'll miss her more I lost my mom while I had her Lost boyfriends and girlfriends yes, I said girlfriends. Money struggles Health issues. Even Chloes Health Issues. If I Had Know how sick she really was I would have done more not Like I didn’t try. But through it all she was their so sometimes it's hard to think about a pet when you have been through a lot with them its ok to miss them and be sad their still with you because they are you or a part of you. because they were you. But it's not like they don’t have these personality trades of their own or do weird things that make you laugh. Like The First Snow for Chloe was so funny she would plop her face in the snow and have like a snow mask. Dog people are the greatest people on this earth in my option. So in closing let's just love dogs they have less time on this earth than we do and they are one of the greatest companions. I dedicate this to dog lovers everywhere that have loved and lossed a dog. Thanks Robyn

#life stories #pets #life happens #cute animals #dogs

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Another Life Lesson for me

November 24 2021 So, I started doing this new thing it's called speaking up and becoming a supervisor now I have more Responsibility and say and my personality flourishes at this job and all my years of retail experiences and years of work made this the best job for me and my mind. I've never had a job with this little amount of stress that I'm good at and can do. That’s why After 6 Months at the dollerama I became a key Holder and I'm good and I don’t stress because I'm very Resorsevile and smart, use the expression work smart not hard. So, I finally spoke up to the employees and told them to follow the sheets that every thing is written on. I know I'm liked thank you but I'm one person. Thankfully they understand the stress nough said. Speaking up does help in the right moments Another lesson Learned. As for my mouth that is going to get me in trouble one day but for now My Blunt ness just amazes people and I love that about myself and it's good to like things about yourself. Then I went for a walk home Listen to some tunes smoke a joint to decompress. Six minutes away from the bus I wiped out hard and hurt my leg, but didn’t realize how bad till I got home it was ok the next day But My God the Pain. Then I Thought About how Everyone is different and Pain is Different Back to that whole where all like snowflakes not in the terms of sensitivity. The other one where were all different. Everyone has different pain and struggles. I have lots of death around me and for some weird reason I have this grace and strength to Greve and then just move on quickly. I still miss My Love Ones but this is my gift to spread my joy and help others with their pain Love Robyn

#life stories #venting #learning lessons

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Life Experience's part 2

November 21 2021 Day 2 C.P.R. training Not only did my original ride get canceled today I had to ask Kate and Larry yuck. see Kate and Larry remind me of my parents when I was growing up from the ages of 9-16. enough said not talking about that today. The Day Started so Boring and the videos were long the older woman wouldn't stop talking I could have slept in I swear. and the woman was old and as sweet as she was she kept repeating things and i just wanted the answers. I got so annoyed which kind of made me miss my Grandparents any of them. then she touched a pon mental health and addictions and this woman was just killing me with all the truth bombs she kept saying and also made me realize i should talk to some one or in my case write every thing down to just get my mental health in better space. so this is my shit laid out for you maybe it will be a book or help some one, one day but for now I'm closing with reamber your human. your not alone their is people who will listen or talk to out their. its also ok to be sad and cry just get it out don't keep it in you'll only make your self sicker peace and love Robyn

#venting #life happens #life stories #family drama

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A Life Experience

November 20th 2021 Renewing my CPR After 19 years Today for work I had to go for C.P.R. training People in the class were quite not talkative the first day and I was still feeling not great I think my mental health is messing with my body After the loss of my best friend and Dog Chloe my body has been going through the depression part of my mental health but my mind is fine. Anyways today was physically draining and I managed to sprain my wrist in the process not be able to wrap a wound on myself which means I'm dead and so is any one I help apparently even if my Adrenalin kicks in, I'm to clumsy and weak so I learned a few things today but will I reamber them? Probably not un less it’s a unless fact like I'm not obligated to help anyone in Canada but have to help someone in Quebec or I could get sued. Plus, I couldn’t even do a hemlock maneuver I wasn’t strong enough to push my hands into a dummy which means I'm definitely not strong enough to lift or do it on real people. if I can't even push a spring in to a dummy so going to work and using these skills not going to happen because I can refuse for my own safety. As always thanks for letting me vent to

#venting #life stories #life happens #experience's

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Intro

life is not the opposite of death , Birth is the oppisite of death Life is all that stuff in the middle

because of a few intendents at work today i just started to think about writing.

writing about me and life experiences and how my life could be a sitcom

some days, a romance, a comedy,

a Drama but not my drama.

any ways I started to think about people

people are complex. we have different cultures,

Background's, Genders, non Genders,

disorders of the physical and mental.

Lifestyles, loses, loves, inelegance, shapes and sizes

so we all have a story.

so in other words before you get angry with someone want to yell at

someone even swing at some one

or just call someone a name you should stop take a breath and reamber

we don't know that story the one why they have these reactions. or issues

but that doesn't mean you cant get angry

or yell or take a swing or even vent. you have to pick your battles wisely. Robyn

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Living with Family

Living with family

Not everyone can live with family like cousins and siblings or even friends over the past 7 years I have felt like I'm trapped living under the thumb of family with issues not mine just theirs And it's finally coming to an end and I am beyond thrilled because my cousin and his wife are more similar than they think one cause drama this individual is pushy And has a form of anxiety that she is unaware of. she tries to get her way anyway she can by complaining about how she has it hard. looking for any sympathy but I feel you made your bed so you lay in it not me. meaning your choices your problem she creates fake accounts for the purpose of spying on her husband she has 2 teenagers who walk All over her and barely help her out and her spouse who Also makes her do everything make him food do his laundry clean up after 4 kids and her 1 man child she complains about how much she has to do but she doesn't put a stop to it and she chose to live this way. So I am officially not interested anymore in giving sympathy for her she won't change or make changes. Then their is my cousin who over trauma through the years has caused him to have a worse anxiety that I think is now going to kill him. he also seems to be narstistic which reminds me of my step dad he wants to call the shots but not put in any work as he tries to piss off his wife by trolling online for hot chicks I'm no longer sympathetic to his needs ether he also likes to cause drama by pulling in his Mom or wife to tag in and take over to finish the job for him he has the type of anxiety that makes him not want to get out of his room and when he does its straight to the car but I thought having that anxiety makes you not want to leave the house well that must be where the narcasium kick's in and now he has to show off he's a big man with fancy clothes and classy vehicle and back to picking on his wife or blacking out and hitting her emotionally neglecting and giving his wife no support to discipline the lazy kids . Now as for the teenagers that walk All over the mother they barely have chores they only do online schooling for the past 3 years. never leave the house don't work often And always talk about anime and act like versions of their self's 3 years younger so no job no girl friends they only have each other. They are not bad kids just lazy immature and super un motivated to do anything. I had a job and school and friends And family when I was there age. went out when I was a teenager. Daniel's sister and step brother travel and Go places have girlfriends and boyfriends and now work and also finished school and drive. Do you see the difference. I don't wish them bad I just want them gone and out of my life forever so I can stop feeling like I am trapped in my own life because of them I am making a change because I want things to change they are going to be struggling for the rest of their lives now until they decide to make changes thanks for hearing my venting peace Robyn

#family drama #short stories #venting girl

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Last night's fun https://www.instagram.com/p/BxqYFS5H5ej7dHq4AMfUYj3T7qFfVX0dwHVqpM0/?igshid=1bs3pp8g7lz1c

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#mtrenchofficial favourite part of the whole song #phantoms https://www.instagram.com/p/BvfanIHBfgHrzAOF6ZnFaGMR9FSEUj_9bTRJJo0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=16x7v4bb78x5

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Song Dying in LA by panic at the disco beautiful song look it up 😜😀👍😘 https://www.instagram.com/p/BuwtssjBOkcZj1pfuSL9wwcgiTy_rHD4OtI9A00/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ocsvgaalgezd

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"Told you so" he he like to sing this song and I have a hat like hers❤ https://www.instagram.com/p/Buunn8Vh-HG8adKUIJZJlv_AZRsSv5wBpZkkzI0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8mwrldry4yzb

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Work break time☺😉 https://www.instagram.com/p/BusB6O4BI2rqVzogXZgXKQhuThpLhMf7GWC4d40/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1jiij7stsmyz