makotonaegiunderstander

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The way black and brown people are treated in fandom spaces is fucking horrific honestly, and people refuse to acknowledge it.

So many white people are so obsessed with the idea of fandom being a Safe Space that they completely disregard POC feelings. They’ll preach that they care about us sooo hard, but as soon as they have to put their money where their mouth is and actually act like they give a fuck, suddenly the Angry POCs are just “starting discourse” and “picking fights” and “ruining the fandom”

If you are told something you think or believe is actually racist and your first response is to fight tooth and fucking nail to defend yourself because you don’t want to have to care, you are racist. If you refuse to listen to POC when we say something or someone in a fandom space is problematic, you are racist. And it is so tiring.

White people will NEVER understand what it feels like to have to constantly defend yourself like this. When a fandom seems perfect and peaceful to YOU, it’s because none of the issues affect you. Being able to live in a blissful existence and forget racism exists so you can have fun with your stupid little fanfics and whitewashed fan art is a privilege not everybody has. Some of us need to be on the defense all the goddamn time just because white people want to “avoid discourse”

Fandoms will NEVER be a safe place for everybody until they stop being a safe place for racists. And that means white people have to start giving a shit about issues that don’t affect them.

#sharing this here because DR is a nightmarish and evil fucking place both within the series and the fans #it happens constantly and people have the fucking gall to act like anyone that points it out is ‘disturbing the peace’

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I hate having cool ideas but the absolute inability to express them or relay them in a way that makes them sound even one iota as cool as they seemed at the time

#I had a cool idea but I KNOWWW if I say it it’s going to sound so dumb #and I can’t summarize for shit so that’s several paragraphs of embarrassed wincing #would you guys still love me if I made dumb aus and images. #would you guys still love me if I played with plot ideas like toys

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Female characters who are the sole voice of reason <<<<<<< Female characters who think of themselves as the sole voice of reason but who are actually just as insane as those around them

#PREV SO FUCKING TRUE #shes absolutely just as insane and weird as everyone else she just has a poker face that everyone believes #just bc she had a few insightful jabs at Togami does not mean she’s more emotionally intelligent than him she just is better at hiding it #she thinks she’s the voice of reason bc she’s connecting the dots in her head but the thing is she won’t fucking say anything #girl to be the voice of reason you have to have the VOICE

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VERY WRONG

#this is from all the way back in 2013 oh my god #tomorrow I’m going to record what I hear when I look at this image

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I relate to makoto bc I too am a sickly little man. if I ever got punched in the face it would look like a murder scene. and yet I somehow think I can kick someone’s ass when the time comes

#not that I think Makoto is sickly but he looks like he could snap in half by a strong gust of wind in sprites so #I HATE being made of glass but also it’s extremely funny just for bit reasons #i CAN lift a decent amount when needed but I also have to stretch and lie down afterwards bc if I don’t my body revolts against me #and my friends constantly remind me that not only am I hug and hold height I am also no match for any of them in a fight #I still think I could at least put up a fight out of pure spite and rage but knowing I can use stairs wrong puts a damper on that fantasy

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He goes to his first day of school clad in his cute little woolen suit jacket commissioned by the school itself and its fancier than anything he has ever worn before and he is so excited he gets to be a part of this academy and his experience and this life, he is very very lucky and they make such a point of reminding him of this fact!

He does not know he is going to die in this body and this little suit jacket and his mind will be tampered with on a neurological irreversible level and in the body of a very very lucky young man he will rise again, amnesiac, he will not know the very very lucky young man he was incubated within like a fragile bird forcibly returned to an egg and wiped of the understanding of where it came from.

He does not know. That he will never be himself. Not ever, ever again, he will never be this person ever again and he does not know the mind he had germinated within and then was denied just as quickly. If he ever remembers, it will never be him, not ever, ever again. He was given the perfect experimental circumstances to become the new and organic messiah of the destroyed world— he was born in the absence of the universe’s designated protagonist specifically to win, to become a “good guy”, to become so good he becomes as horrible as the things that birthed him.

#this actually made me get heart palpitations. ough. dear god. #makoto naegi #lightheaded. you get it

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It's like... how does one understand that Kyouko is a complicated character who does objectionable things out of a questionable sense of morality and then spend the rest of the time solely talking about byakuya.

#big brained posts coming from the tonaegiri nation tonight. #this is so true. Kirigiri doesn’t get nearly the same focus on how much of an asshole she is despite doing arguably worse shit #I love her to death and find her such a compelling character BECAUSE she’s so ruthlessly cold and doesn’t always take the best road #and akcnowledging misogyny beyond the anarrarive and IN YOURSELF and the subtle ways it manifests is SO CRUCIAL #to keeping yourself in check and doing more than just lip service or pointing at others. #no one is free from the way misogyny pervades society and every person and acting like simply opposing misogyny is enough is ignorant

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#GRUMPY MAKOTO‼️

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something about the way Byakuya talks in THH is so fucking funny. Everytime I speak to him and he acts like a bitch I’m wheezing w laughter I’m not even sure why

#‘could you tell me ur name I’m so sorry for forgetting :) it’s just so hard to remember pieces of filth I don’t care about’ #like he LOOOVED setting and spiking the most special insults you’ve ever heard #it’s so fucking funny for some reason. his favorite pastime is finding ways to inflict psychic damage to Naegi #growling and shaking him around like a dog toy

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tumblr is being so homophobic rn it keeps shooting me up to the top of my dashboard everytime I reblog anything

#i have THOUGHTS TUMBLR. LET ME EXPRESS THEM #I need enrichment or I’m going to start mauling

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i love this clip

#DONT SAY EW TO KIRIGIRI ILL KILL YOUUUUU #the devastation in his voice for Byakuya is so fucking funny though

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today i will be thinking about byakuya's genuine smiles in future arc

#I was already mentally ill for Byakuya before these scenes but this kicked it into catastrophic levels. #I replay that scene where he smiles at Hagakure so often. like it’s one thing for him to respect Makoto #Makoto bested him on several occasions and is the reason he found the strength to survive #and Kirigiri might bother him often and they’re at odds but he has to respect her #but him eventually getting fond enough of the others to SMILE at them??? at even people like Hagakure who wouldn’t garner respect from him? #like holy FUCK. he’s still Byakuya but his whole foundation has shifted to one so much more sustainable #he still won’t tolerate Hiro’s pet names and is prickly but he smiles afterwards bc that’s HIS idiot. hhh. #HE HAS FRIENDS NOW. HE HAS FRIENDS AND HE CARES ABOUT THEM TOO. GRAAAAAAAAAAAAA #he’s blunt and a realist and he still behaves in a way you have to understand him to interpret as his way of friendship but it’s THERE. #he lost everything he thought made him who he was and found himself in the rubble afterwards. #I can’t hate the future arc bc it gave me some fucking CHEWY TASTY TREATS with the thh survivors

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i need a complication of funny wrong answer moments in danganronpa. forever thinking about hajime loosing all his monocoins……

#I haven’t played the second game yet and had NO idea that happens so all I’m imagining is him getting an answer wrong #and all the coins falling out of his pockets as he recoils #and then all I can think of is that one post of that guy that fell down on his way out of the bus and all his loose change fell out after #and some lady yelled after him ‘daaaamn sonic u ok!!!’

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Poll rematch: Aoi vs Mondo

Since the og character tournament poll got deleted before it could end, I thought it would be fun to rematch to settle it once and for all.

Art bribery is allowed (no money or commission bribery), no harassing others or sending them hate and what not. This is for fun.

#NEW POLL!! let’s have a fun fight in the ring of honor

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oh hey I had my asks turned off LMAOO I feel like I dodged a huge fat bullet just now. dabs my forehead with a white cloth

#I just turned them on bc I like getting questions but for once my forgetfulness paid off LOL

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eugh that whole ridiculous drama put such a bad taste in my mouth. I hate leaving misunderstandings alone but at this point other’s perceptions of the situation are pretty set it seems. was genuinely not trying to start beef but it seems people like looking for it, and I totally forgot how easy it is to start drama the moment you even hint about the existence of subconscious misogyny in groups. as if that’s not something present in every single person alive, and something you should certainly not be dismissive of just bc the issues started with fictional characters, but I digress. I deleted my reblogs bc I don’t want to leave all that up here and give more reasons for drama. they chose me to be their bad guy and that’s just going to be the way it is. anyway sorry for the drama you guys. didn’t expect people to freak out so bad at the slightest provocation. forgot DR was an active bomb situation outside of friends LMAO

#I respect women too much to stay silent and I will never apologize for speaking up even when it seems ‘trivial’ but I also am #*but I also am sick of looking at all that and being tempted to check the notes lol. self care #it’s times like these I wish I could have a drink or smth lmao #I’m old enough I just can’t afford alchohol #I just hate the idea of leaving something if there seems like a slight possibility it could get worked out but.I can’t really control that #I could say something but given how bad faith every single thing I’ve said has been taken so far it probably would only cause more problems #archived my reblogs bc I hate wiping shit off the face of the earth but I didn’t want it on there anymore #bc the whole situation was just annoying and upsetting #I saved what I said so I can reword it but I’ll keep it to myself for now #there IS a huge misogyny problem w DR fans especially mondo and taka fans but they won’t listen so like. what’s the point

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crying at this fucking tag on the hina vs mondo poll

#he didn’t hit that rich fucker he hit MAKOTO #ASAHINA FOLLOWED THROUGH