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We as a society are ignoring the comedic potential of Eddie Diaz, the designated third wheel.

His two friends are now dating, imagine them all hanging out and it's just basically this:

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Genuinely how do they expect us to function after this | 7x05

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How it started How it’s going

#buddie

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like this is the face of someone who’s entire life just opened wide into a thousand shining possibilities. he can’t believe he just kissed a boy and that he’s allowed to kiss boys and his heart is pounding and he wants more. and im so fucking happy I could cry.

gif from @eddiediaaz

#buck

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EVAN BUCKLEY THE MAN THAT YOU ARE!!!

#oliver stark the actor you are

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BI BUCK CONFIRMED FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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bi buck but at what cost

#evan buckley #911 on abc #911 #911 abc #buddie #eddie diaz

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BI BUCK CANON IM SO HAPPY YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

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Let's go.

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Why do you like Shannon so much?

because i look at her as a whole. she wasn't just eddie's wife. she wasn't just christopher's mom. she was a woman in her own right. and she was... she had a whole life in front of her, you know? not even at the point when she died (but that too), i mean she had her whole life in front of her at the point where she got pregnant. and we know how that was for eddie, you know? we can see, at least in some ways, the effects of christopher's birth and existence on him and how those things shaped who he was and who he became but shannon, in some way, only exists to further his story. and that's fine because, like, he's the main character. but what we do know about her is just so tragic.

think about every teenager you know. every teenager you ever knew. how many of them are ready to be mothers? how many of them are ready to be mothers to disabled children? how many of them are ready to be single mothers to disabled children? how many of them are ready to be single mothers to disabled children while their own mothers are dying of cancer, while their mother in laws are not offering support, and while they're constantly living with the fear that this is forever? because that was her reality. if eddie died overseas, that little glimpse of her life without him would have been her Entire existence for the rest of her life. and i don't know about you, but even as 20-something, that entire existence seems so daunting and overwhelming.

i don't support her for leaving christopher. she fucked that boy up, as we can see now (and have seen over the years) and she shouldn't have abandoned her son, period. have whatever feelings you want to have about your husband but don't bring your kids into that shit. you know? but when i step outside of just that aspect and look at the entirety of who she is? someone just as young and confused and scared as eddie was without receiving any of the grace and understanding that he did inherent, at least, to the fact that he was a soldier at war? i just. man. it reminds me of that poem. you know? they fuck you up, your mum and dad / they may not mean to, but they do / they fill you with the faults they had / and add some extra just for you. and it's just, like, how many choices led them to where they all were/are? all of them.

how many choices from how many people led shannon to getting pregnant by her loser boyfriend? where was her dad? texas dads don't typically let their daughters go get knocked up in high school, btw, so where was he? was he dead? was that, too, something she had to shoulder on her own/with her mom, or did she just never know him? how many choices led her to saying "enough is enough" and walking out? how many sleepless nights? how many tears? how many doctors appointments and arguments and mean words thrown back and forth led to it all just becoming too much? when did she decide she didn't want to be the bigger person anymore? because she didn't decide it the moment she left, that was when she just finally put those feelings into action. she decided it long ago. just, like, how many different choices for how many different people led to all these different versions of all these characters that we know so well?

we'll never know. at least not where shannon is involved. but we can see it in the main characters, so exploring the tragedy of shannon diaz as a viewer, and as a woman, and as a former teenage girl is just. so interesting and so compelling and so sad on so many different levels, like. she deserved better. not just her character, but she, as a woman, deserved so much better. she deserved so many more chances to be the woman/person she thought she wanted to be. when she was a little girl growing up in religious texas, i highly doubt her vision for her life included being lonely, angry, sad, and divorced. and i think the writers (and eddie) do a great job of honoring her as a human being and as a mother. she was not perfect, by any stretch of the imagination, but that's what makes her so good and so sad and i just. i just love to probe deeply into who she is even if we'll never get confirmation in canon because i think, if nothing else, the character deserves that much

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buck: we, uh, broke up

eddie:

#buddie

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I came across something that belongs to you. It's a letter from your mom. She wrote it when you were real little. I think she’d want you to have it.

#will this fandom ever be ready to talk about shannon's ppd or are we just gonna keep ignoring that #had me sobbing actually #shannon #chris

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yeah, well that's all she ever wanted to talk about. death, death, death.

[ID: five gifs of Eddie Diaz and Evan Buckley in 911 7.01, "Abandon 'Ships." They are i nthe locker room, getting ready to go home. All the gifs are colored to have a slight purple hue.

GIF 1: Eddie holding a hand up in response to Buck's self-deprecating comment about how he thought dating a death doula was a good idea. Eddie says, "To be fair, you had just died."

GIF 2: Eddie moving forward to clap a hand on Buck's shoulder, tilting his head downwards as he talks, looking up at Buck through his lashes with fondness. He says, "Well, welcome back to the world of the living, Buck."

GIF 3: Eddie shaking his head once as he lowers his voice in a mock-whisper dramatically, still holding onto his shoulder, as he continues, "You were missed."

GIF 4: Buck watching Eddie with a half-smile on his face. Eddie slips out the door, his hand dragging along Buck's shoulder before he finally lets go of him. Buck turns his head to watch Eddie leave, lost in thought.

GIF 5: Buck looking back at where Eddie had just been standing, shifting on his heels as he ducks his head and laughs to himself.

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#my babies are back #buddie

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#karen!!!

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#daddy #eddie