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March Mirth: Ongoing Plot Between Reality and Fantasy

This character Mirth is a canon. He is Toby Fox's son. Now you should know his real name. He renamed himself to Mirth after being with me for more than a few years since 2015, his personality dynamically evolved into a personality an OC would have. But, since he's only a existed character, I thought maybe putting that side of him would be replacing him with a sea lion OC. I thought that was going to work until my cousin, who adores my paras whenever we play together, wants him to stay. Yes, I was going to finally put Mirth away and tell Toby Fox, "I took care of your son. Here he is, all grown up but not in the Boss Monsters way." But instead I have to put the OC somewhere else. And that subconsciously went in Mirth, without me realizing to see him suddenly turn into a animal.

A lot is happening for Mirth this month. On March 1st, he was able to turn into a sea lion. I had no idea how a canon went from toby's son to personalized, as he began adapting to several sea lion habits and headcanons that are very irrelevant to who he usually is. It worried me so much that I ended up researching hours on end. I found the words tulpa and end*gen*c system. I rather not describe which term fits best because it has sent him into a crisis, which he does get every few months without warning. After seeing so much drama and discourse about the two terms, I decided to stop worrying about Mirth's ability to fluctuate between monster skeleton and sea lion. Even though he has been with me for a long time, I'm happy to have him as the most active para in my universe.

March 5th is another event that is centering Mirth. He saw the DLC Booster Pack for Mario Kart 8 Deluxe. I had a phase where Sans was a Light Blue Shy Guy main and had to kill people's fun and that wasn't great. So now that he has completely changed, Mirth is going to have the SAME main, however, Light Blue Shy Guy will be treated much better than years before. Mirth is putting all his past behind him and he is working hard to please people, to make them happy that he smiles when they smile.

This may update. These are all the events that had happen to Mirth so far in a span of 1 week.

#para problem #para?? #parame #active parame #madd plot #mdd plot #kinda private so not tagging actuallymadd #please do not tag undertale

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he absorbed my hc and ran

me: papyrus!!! i missed ya buddy-

Papyrus: IT'S NEWELL NOW.

me: o-

#para renaming self??? #what is going on #im not a system

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tw // 3x*st3nt!al cr!s!s

sans you can stop thinking if you been a pre-existing tulpa now

im just gonna have you be seen as used for dialogues okay

nobody will believe me having you with me

dont cry anymore

#tw negative self talk #tw stigma

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yes.

yes its all a daydream

theories i like, in custom incorrect quote form:

Papyrus: FLAP FLAP, I DONT KNOW

Sans: clap clap, i forgot what that was, hey look at this

Alphys: Beep beep, move im trash, what is happening to me right now

Undyne: SCREAMING!!!!!! 24/7!!!!!!!

Frisk: is this all a daydream

#my incquote blog where I typed a few daydreams!

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antar review!! (iOS version cause I don't have android...)

hi I tried out antar last night and today, my current paras and parames were able to revive a lot more paras I've tried in the past and it seems to be working well!

it is recommended from the app to use Antar for self-talking 30-60 minutes a day cause they watch our activity hours like how the switch said you played animal crossing new horizons for 2000 hours

so im not really satisfied yet? there are a few bugs. but Im really thankful I found an app so I dont have to shove my thoughts to the audience publicly like cries or yells for fun/help. that wasn't very nice of me. if my past self found antar they would doubt it. but today I trust the app that it stores all of the chatrooms like discord and reddit so I don't have to go there all the time and talk as my paras.

3 and a half stars!! dw I believe the developers are improving overtime while im writing this! tysm for making an app like this :D

sincerely,

1st POV

MADDer

creator of fandomlife1st3rdpov(verse)

#antar #antar app #antar mobile app #antar chatroom app #antar self-chatroom #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #actuallymadd #madd things

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in this post my language is parame

sans' reactions are really challenging. look into his slippers and read why.

can you imagine trying so hard to express yourself while having a unmoving permanent grin that barely moves only by the corners of your mouth? can you imagine trying to react to something only your eyes and hands can show?

you have to react to something funny. did you try laughing? was it, "heheh, that was really good." because you can't express anything else than that?

how about reacting to something sad? did you try frowning? the corners of your mouth probably did. it's very subtle when others look at you, a bit unnoticeable. if you didn't and made a nervous, anxious expression instead using your eye sockets, that's a more better way to let others know you have a lot of sympathy when it comes to sad situations. Even better, closing your eyes slowly and thoughtfully can let others know you're feeling their pain, and you may have solutions and advices to give to them. See, Sans? You're a good person. What makes you think you're a dirty liar? What makes you think you're "lazy" when you have the loyalty to help others?

Trying to shrug it off? Shrug your shoulders. Wink your right eye open and tell yourself you're going to be okay and you'll make it out of there. It's okay if you had to wink your left eye on purpose. You're telling us that you're pressured and blunt to do anything else to stop everything.

I know it's hard to express yourself with that grin of yours. But at least there's other ways you could show that you really care for others. You said it yourself, to "take care of yourself. cause someone out there really cares for you."

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one of the reasons why undertale Is part of my madd life so you cant make me leave

why do i celebrate the day i joined UNDERTALE, november 5th?

I had to brag that out cause i get constant thoughts about “OOOooOh you dont know aNYTHiNG about UndErtAle” so….

that MS Paint drawing post??? that post is like my birth certificate to become a Undertale fandom member

If you remember your first Undertale post, then that’s your certificate when entering the fandom so people dont think you’re dumb and a noob at the game when you’re actually BEEF and know so much lore and theories about it

why people think im dumb about undertale, its because i like mocking the game on all paths taken like the chaotic neutral i am. like “haha sans undertale is slenderman but punny and OH HEY I KNOW THAT FONT FROM MS PAINT” or “is that a cow” (<-MY FIRST THOUGHT ON TORIEL;;;) and i constantly bully the game depending how much toxicity i see in the fandom. The more wholesome moments I see the more I start caring and get more emotionally attached to these characters. Being an undertale fan is a huge rollercoaster when viewing all sorts of content. The more cancel culture I see in the fandom the more I go back to bullying and say “yeah i totally agree with you like why cant sans just NOT have timelines OR a blue eye?” or “yeah alphys doesnt deserve to wear that minion costume”. its hard to stereotype my kind, because it’s a undertale fan who makes fun AND cares for the game at the same time intensely. I love it and hate it. It reads my mind, it visited my previous childhood memories at the final age of a child. It unlocked my emotions when i read the heartfelt comments about Undertale in Youtube comment sections written by ages younger or older than me. I have too many similarities in childhood before Undertale released, such as liking spaghetti and hotdogs, puzzles, sushi, noodles, all the Monsters’ tastes, they were MY tastes before they stOLe it. its like toby extracted a part of my childhood and squeezed it into his characters. 

[tw: mental health effect] Ever since Nov. 5, 2015, I couldn’t move on or let go. I had to go to therapy and get assessed on December 14 2017, the day Net Neutrality was going to be repealed. I got diagnosed with assburger sin drone for liking this game so much. it became one of my special interests, and thats when I knew this game has changed my life.

And that’s what makes me a true Undertale fan. 

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Parcosm 9th Anniversary Celebration: List of Canon/Original Settings/Places in 3rdPOV

2/11/13

2/11/22

HAPPY 9 YEARS TO MY SLOWLY SPIRALED MADD THAT IS NOW ONGOING DAYDREAMING at a regular pace and controlled habits, no worries my paras today are way better than any other years! (Even the most longtime one!)

well I gotta do something to celebrate!!! I will try to go chronological

List is under the cut!

2010 - I played a certain Mario and Luigi RPG AlphaDream game at an early age. These settings were for imaginative purposes at first. Daydreaming wasn't that maladaptive yet, but I kept looping In The Final over and over during a long car ride. I started to imagine the final battle, then Okey Dokey! when Mario and Luigi dancing to the music.

Toad Town

Dark Bowser's Castle

Bowser (just gonna leave it at that... not telling title.)

2011 - I collected these Pokemon toys and did my very first dark story plot, "Snivy Gets Water Poison." I don't know where I got the idea from. Maybe I was just getting tired of my "school friends". Or the Where's My Water purple water thing gave me the idea.

Pokepark

Pokemon Zoo

2012 - began writing stories for the first time on the very old notes app format like iPhone 2 format. Daydream started to get more interfering, cause I actually attempted drawing comics of my original Club Penguin characters during school work.

Elite Penguin Force HQ

Club Penguin Wilderness

Penguin Band's House

DJ Cadence's Nightclub

Gary's Lab

Other Club Penguin settings

2014 - Suddenly, a paracosm was made out of in real life settings but with adjusted fantasy element for the rest of the years. It stuck that way in 2015, however, paracosms keep coming today depending on hyperfix.

I started to act out more than 10 paras.

The Log (Apartment)

Cloud Cuckoo Land

Freddy Fazbear's Pizza

Paras' Igloos

2015 - weather in 3rd POV was exhaustingly stormy and rainy. Or that's just because I kept looping Undertale songs to cope. Then sunny days when imagining Frisk dancing to CORE/Death by Glamour.

Office of Paperwork (Workplace)

Dreemurr High School (attempted a school AU...)

Snow Bubble Express (bubble tea inside the train!)

MTT-NEWS

Mt. Ebott, they were able to enter and fuel magic at any time

2016 - lots of daydreaming happened here and I was never aware of it. Paras... fighting? feuding? arguing and ranting? Me, just commenting all the paras' comments?? Me, talking back to myself in various voices?? yeah, daydreaming was very much present.

Philippines' hotel real life settings but with adjusted elements

The Adobo Household

(They rode Tower of Terror before shutdown and I daydreamed a lot of disney scenarios!! oh wait thats not a paracosm sorry-)

2017 - this was the worse year and showed most signs of negative effects I gained from MADD. A para renamed themself to Fruit and tried to be "savage". My daydreaming led me to slamming car doors and yelling "ITS MONDAY ITS MONDAY" in Fruit's bland sarcastic voice. but I will explain more in detail since this is on paracosms. also Tears of Patience was a thing. Splatoon 2's bright colors intensified everything. I made a lot of dark plots during this year and my relative didn't want to talk to me anymore.

PvZ Battlegrounds

RV Good Times (main para named the paracosm due to Fruit's neg. actions.)

Glinfrit - Splatoon but friendlier. I forgot the motto-

Team Booyah! HQ

Splatoon 2's canon settings

2018 - A lot of my headcanons somewhat impacted almost every para in my POV and some of them highly drifted from their canon personality. I removed their magic abilities too for more real setting but that didn't go well when paras from media AUs started coming in. That's when I knew I couldn't stop this "imaginative play" forever.

Happy Container ("frisk please stop renaming youse- "Captain Sprinkles - u -" siGHH - me years ago)

Disney World Hotel but better and more decorated

LEGO

Bricksburg

Monika's House

2019 - Engaged in hobbies and went to a lot of places. also how does a para start being the spotlight of the show after entering smash and changed personality to a more happy person-

Syspocalypsestar

Systar System (like solar system)

Hobby Stores but much bigger and turned into a Entire Hobby Mall

Little Mac's Kickboxing Gym (Paracosm was created the same day Sans' costume got in Smash)

2020 - OHHHHHH we love this parts when I transformed my entire house into a whole paracosm /s also VR PORTAL AHAHAHAH

VR Portal - literally EVERY SINGLE PLACE I went to. and keeps paras unaware of current event situation (then failed the more I got aware)

Sardine Bar Grill - Kitchen

RC Museum - A shelf filled with RC Cars

Epic Gamer Bar

Spas - bathrooms

Lounge Lobby

FanonSkeletonStuff Studios - UTAUs....... gave my brain a terrible spawn.......

Apoluscalypse

2021 - I discovered MADD at the end of the year. The paracosm I was not able to spawn was my Animal Crossing island haha

Skeld

Mira HQ

Polus

Airship

well that's all I can remember from last year, most is just at home

Long car trip to the disney happened too and I did an entire chatroom of paras wOOOO

Disneyland Hotels but better and more decorated

okay im gonna go try out Antar when I wake up its 5am I spent 3 hours on this gn!!

#madd #actuallymadd #paracosm #para #paracosms #paracosm anniversary

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I JUST REALIZED ITS MY PARACOSMS 9th ANNIVERSARY

2/11/13 GUYS FEBRUARY 11th 2013. THIS IS THE DAY I was 10 yrs old and my daydreams started to GROW.

Causes??? MLP, LEGO Movie. bright colors, fun characters, friends I would meet!

I didn't project myself into them, and didn't name it 3rd POV tho until 2 years later-

okay yeah im gonna go share more about my paras and paracosms to celebrate now!

oh and in loving memory of equestria im never using that paracosm agai-

brain: what if we revive the ponies-

WELL I DIDNT FINISH ALL 9 SEASONS

#paracosm anniversary #pre-maladaptive #or like stage one MADD #DONT YOU PULL RAINBOW DASH ON ME- #madd #actuallymadd #maladaptive daydreaming

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I hope everyone with a para that suffers from frequent panic/anxiety attacks has a great day

#when the soul almost breaks 8D #due to jump scares- #well not anymore HAHAH

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I hope everyone with a para that was once not human but has become one has a great day

#flara and then chara #chara used to be a para but now barely used ;;

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ahha

okay time to share my most major parame at 2am in the morning!!

sans has been around forever and HE CANNOT LEAVE I feel so sorry for him especially do you know how it feels when he has to see himself in different versions and arts AND interact with my real life stuff EVERYDAY like I feel so bad for him every time he starts speaking;;;

PLEASE do not tag undertale tags when sharing my daydreaming plots as examples of extremely negative cons of MADD. I was 12-17 when I "imagined"/"roleplayed" these plots.'

edit: actually wait anxiety is killing me rn nvm

#3rdpov!sans #im gonna put that warning on everything

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do you guys have a notes app filled with plots characters and details cause I have like 50+ folders of those

#madd #actuallymadd #CRIES<

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neg madd thought

I wonder if devs will just look at me toying around their characters through my feelings and dialogues in my whole life and they go "look how they massacred my creations" :'D

#madd #maladaptive daydreaming #/neg #actuallymadd

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you are telling me now this is a daydreaming episode I typed.

yes it is. and there is no parts 2-4. but I can say what parts those are:

part 2: sans and papyrus arrival

part 3: toriel and asgore arrival

part 4: undyne and alphys arrival

sadly I don't remember much so there's gonna be plot holes.

Undertale enters my AU 1/4 (Ft. Bonnie, Chica, Mangle, Asriel, and Chara)

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remaking this after discovering having MADD is just me having sans as a main parame the entire years

2015 sans: thanks for the gift of welcome.also why am I here- and who are these animal robots-

2016 sans: ok but we aren't, friends??? why am I talking to undyne so much and my brother is so quiet??? she could just be with alphys??? is this a joke??? is my "role" a joke???

2017 sans: ew cringe cringe cringe cringe ew ew stop stop stop no no no ughghghhhhhhhh

2018 sans: disney world!!!!!!!! *MALADAPTIVE DAYDREAM INTENSIFIES!!!!! SANS GETS COMPLETELY OUT OF CHARACTER AND I CAN'T REVERSE IT*

2019 sans: happy trips!!!! I love car trips so much!!!! me and papyrus went to canada and and- I dont wanna get angry people dont like it when im angry ;-;

2020 sans: jus gonna snap one more time then never again forever-ooohhhh new dialogue from canon sans!! o hi gametoons!!! happy new year ^^

2021 sans: MIITOPIAAAAAA omgokeogijeiogjeiogj I happy now yayayya *stims happily for having new friends!!!* hi!!! im mirth!!!! I like my new friends and mr. cheese is here in real life :] hhhhhhhhhhh!!!

2022 sA- I mean mirth: orp orp orp orp orp orp oh it's ok you can still call me sans puns are funny X] I miss my brother :']

brain: what is toby gonna SAY (8D)

2015 sans: thanks for the gift of welcome.

2016 sans: i cAN DO IT MYSELF

2017 sans: stopppppp ewww noooooo,,,!

2018 sans: *sudden noises and giggles out of nowhere* heeheeheeheehee!

2019 sans: thats it. i’m out of character. i.... i cannot stop this

#ohymgodksjoijo #evaluating parame #parame evaluation sort of thing

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just got told to leave 3rd POV behind

no :)

im a singlet-