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i went to the cemetery with my family to go see my grandma and changed her flowers to a beautifuuul bouquet of tulips (they had such pretty colors-when you'd see them your mood instantly lightens up i swear !!) & lit her candles -> at the same time a white butterfly flied right above her grave so i like to think it was a sign from her...

also i couldn't hold my tears anymore so i started crying for a bit while i was there even though i hate crying out in the open where others can see me but surprisingly it made me feel a bit better afterwards :)

oh and for the whole time it felt as if we were attending a bird's concert because it was so quiet( naturally) and their chirps felt heavenly to my ears it truly was breathtaking to be a witness of nature's endless beauty

#my wording is not that good here i know i'm not pleased with it i'm still sad #and i'm currently eating my first meal of the day so probs i'll be fine soon i hope #anyway. a bit more personal but yeah #my reaction surprised me a bit bc when this time comes around of course i miss her even more and i may get a bit upset #though today it felt to me as if she had just died. as if i just heard the news. and i was the only one who felt this way #and i felt guilty bc in my mind i was 'ruining everyone else's mood '(this wasn't true btw) #now i made myself some umm how do i translate in english...rum latte powder (instant coffee-tasted like a fancy hot chocolate) #and some salmon roe(?) from lidl which was delicios all was good and now i'll try to do some self care and relax

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i may forget it but the body always remembers the grief !

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#yeaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

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It's extremely rare for me to not post something because it's too bad. But this was a 4 edible situation

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not to be a hedonist but. pleasure IS the whole point, my loves. we are made for pleasure. humans have not survived out of spite or sheer grit or simply to make more humans. we live for pleasure. the pleasure of licking the last delicious crumbs off your fingers and feeling sunlight on your skin and massaging a loved one's shoulders. we're made to fill our bellies with delicious food, to nap in soft grass, to touch each other in joy and comfort.

there is no shame or guilt in our bodies doing what they were made to do. and we are made for pleasure.

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#MEEE

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Your gut instinct loves you so much bitch!! Listen to her!

#if only i did that sooner...(waited for my avocado to be fully ripe)

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i am so brave i am so strong

#the avocado is not beating my ass!!! i will win this fight

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i tried to be stubborn and eat one not yet fully ripe avocado..................Never Again

#it's so BITTER #so grateful for this pickled cucumber it's literally saving my taste buds rn

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how is it possible to sleep 10 peaceful hours at night and still feel as if you just got out of a plane when you wake up 🤔

#many wonder when confronted with this question #!

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offfff.... va fi bine va fi bine va fi bine totul va fi bine

#ma obisnuiesc cu gandul asta. chiar o sa fie bine #merit asta! merit ca totul sa fie mai bine

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and there are people who say they hate chihuahuas.... let that sink in

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Joan @ Anne Klein Spring/Summer, 1994 Ready-to-Wear

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I love you Black lesbians. love you Native and Indigenous lesbians. many kisses for my Hispanic and Latino lesbians. lots of love for every Asian lesbian out there. i love every lesbian poc you're all amazing and deserve to be acknowledged this lesbian week of visibility<3

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no doubt about it traveller, you're looking for the clitoris. here, i'll mark it on your map

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I’m going to unlearn shame *bursts into tears and beats my head against a brick wall*