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Keep your hopes up!  Somewhere south of Phoenix, January 2018.

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Carol Rifka Brunt, Tell the Wolves I’m Home

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V.E. Schwab, The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue

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♪ and at last i see the light and it's like the fog has lifted, and at last i see the light and it's like the sky is new ♪

TANGLED 2010 • dir. Nathan Greno & Byron Howard

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                                            I leave this out too                   how I still defend him how a wound                like that           over a decade              becomes a kind of heart

— Hala Alyan, from “Cliffhanger” published in The Offing

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#@ **G anon #idk rly but i can look into that? if you let me get back to you somehow #i feel like i have Sources everywhere now so if that’s what you’re looking for i think i can find smth

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#N & S anon #common sense you mean? why wouldn’t i be supportive #those are the ppl i Love and for every person i love my only wish is they’re happy #what that happiness entails is up to them #i Am devastated but i’m not stopping them

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anti-red flags 

#stnstw

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r u sick of me wld u like to be

#my love language

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P are you following what goes on on PB???

you mean the show? not rly, just the posts i’ve seen in the general tag are sooooo confusing to me, i’m not sure if this is smth i’d watch voluntarily (i’ll still watch it . when it ends)

#i’m scared how it might make me feel so in order to not lose any more brain cells i’m waiting until i can binge the whole thing #ask #ok i just realized pb might stand for two shows currently airing and if it’s the other one no i’m not watching that and i probably won’t #even try bc it seems p boring and like what exactly is the storyline? escort but make it gay? so unique so innovative who would’ve thought #to make a show ab it #i’m open for discussion tho if you feel like enlightening me !

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any advice for youngsters looking forward to join **R? asking you as a veteran but also a hero :D

run

#i’m not kidding don’t sign any contracts throw away ndas Talk ab your options w other ppl #do Not agree to their ‘legal’ terms!!!!! those aren’t terms those are Lies #if any of you are reading this thinking no that’s not happening to me IT IS #esp if they start courting you the closer you get to your legal age esp if they say they rly care ab you and it’d be such a joy to have you #on their side #nothing they care ab is safe run run run #ask

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#@ mr f anon #drowning in lawsuits as far as i know #mostly breach of contact #which is making me extremely happy for all the wrong reasons but idc

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Lmao I can only imagine what goes on in your inbox right now 🥲 let’s take a break and since there’s no way to send an ask to you on your new blog: JEFF’S NEW SONG HOW ARE WE FEELING ?

we’re right back in the obsession pit

#she said as if she ever left #another screen record saved w yet another seven seconds that stop the time for me every time i hear it #every person i talk to on a regular basis has heard the pre chorus part more than they ever asked to #my new alarm sound my ringtone if i could set it as my lock sound i would #when will he stop ruining my life w his lyrics it’s so so unfair he drops a song in the middle of the week and expects me to what #function like a normal person? #i couldnt sleep until i figured out how to put the translation of that part right there on my lockscreen #i had to download garage band of all things to set my own ringtone i havent made my own in like six years maybe #i dont use silent mode anymore if it takes me a while to answer your call just know i’m listening to That Part #hope this answers your question ❤️ #ask

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no x posts no announcements, kind rude p don’t you think cutting such a big amount of people who CARE about you guys is too much??? it is hard to keep up with all your updates via fucking RUMORS of all things for fucks sake

oh we’re right off w the accusations ok ok ok sometimes i hate being the spokesperson, P the diplomat, but here we go

i’m gonna use this post for the whole rant bc it’s all p much the same in my inbox:

if ‘rumors’ have been your only source of information for the past i dont rly rmbr how many months honey that’s intentional

sometime in july, before i made that post ab the healing process, we sat down and went thru every email subscribed to our mailing list, every account in every gc we used to have, decided fuck it and created all the new ones, rmbr when we had like 500+ members in one of them? well that’s not happening ever again, outsiders aren’t allowed anymore

did it hurt your feelings being left out?

well it hurt my feelings to find out how many of you were actually involved in the case behind my back, how many of you knew exactly what was happening in those two years and stayed silent or worse – chose to side w the person who wanted to take everything he could away from me

not just me, my friends, my family, the ppl i love more than anything else in this world, have suffered enormously bc of His actions and bc of Your support of those actions

i know exactly who you all are, i have a list of names i dont want to hear ever again in my life

the damage you’ve done is irreparable, and it’s beyond my imagination how any of you still feel entitled to anything, did you rly think i’d never find out? i thought it was common knowledge i always find out one way or another

we’re all grown up ppl, and it’s not my place to tell you who you can or cannot talk to, you’ve made your choices and we’ve made ours, and if you ended up on the outside of the circle, welcome to consequences 101, your actions actually do have an impact, what a concept

the case played a big part in the whole thing, but we’re way past that now, and the thing is – the real reason behind ‘cutting out such a big amount of ppl’ is we’re tired, the better part of our lives was dedicated solely to creating a safe space, and we did, only to realize we’re our own safe space, it’s the ppl, so the shows are still happening, the karaoke nights and the acoustic sessions, i say my thank yous from the stage and in emotional voice msgs at 3am bc my god do i love our space, my little sanity oasis, that part hasn’t and will never change

what changed is that we don’t have to subject ourselves to scrutiny, to any form of judgement anymore rly, what they dont know they can’t ruin i rmbr a post like this somewhere on this blog, i dont have to read your thoughts on every single detail of every single move we make, i only hear opinions from those ppl i actually want to listen to, and no, i dont only surround myself w yes men now, if i do smth wrong i still get called out, rightfully so

what i’m mostly tired of is those half-assed friendships, of ppl who only wanted me smiling and shiny, who would disappear the second things got a bit depressing, i dont know who hurt you, but it wasn’t me, or maybe it was, in that case that’s on you if you never had the guts to open your mouth and actually say smth

yk i’ve had to say so many goodbyes in the last two years, i’ll say some more if it comes to this, i’m getting better at letting ppl come and go, but i could never tolerate indifference or betrayal, and i’ve had enough of both of these things

you can still go off in my inbox, let it all out, i can’t rly stop you, just know it doesn’t make any difference to me

#would you look at that i thought i’d sound angrier but this is actually p respectful all things considered? #sit w it for a while we’ll continue later #ask

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#question time tmrw sorry #no i’m not actually

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#i completely cleared out my inbox bc like 2k msgs thanks bye #talk tmrw? but it ain’t gonna be pretty jsyk

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