looking4mybambi

[looking4mybambi]

Found my person, I was soul searching,

Lost my soul, Cuz we was drug using,

Ran out of drugs,Cuz we were drug abusing,

Lost myself Cuz my mind was missing,

My Bambi moved out, Cuz I wasn't loving,

I done lost it now,Cuz my heart started frezing

I was hurt, turned mean, so I started screaming

Blinded by my pain, couldn't see u crying

You even told me, you regretted leaving,

Im so sorry baby, I couldn't hear u pleading,

Truth be told both our hearts were bleeding,

And I was getting clean, so was fiending ,

I know there's no excuse for how I was being

I'll always pay for this because I can't stop loving

& Your the only one to stop my heart from breaking,

#writing #fromtheheart #depression #imissyou #imsorry

[looking4mybambi]

Idc how xar u are from me or how long ur away for I know your curves every one of them. I know how u take pics. I know your sas and your very poor name making up skills is horrible! definitely adorable though. U can point you out in your own dapple ganger crowd because I actually cared more than u thought I did about you. I learned everything there is to know about you and never got bored not even once. Honestly never wanted us in these on speaking terms type shit it's killing me.... I need to talk to u morigirl idec who says what about this you will always belong to me or atleast a piece of u Willson please stop tje hate and talk

[looking4mybambi]

Why do I still feel so deeply connected to someone after they have proven the possibility of them not even feeling or being connected to me the entire time j was present in their life?

[looking4mybambi]

Lady's, submissive and Littles please take this advice it may help to prevent some major heart ache. If you claim to hold a LIFESTYLE ROLE, as a submissive or little you have got to ve HONEST about the role you take in the relationship and lifestyle. If u meet a dominant thats basic and just looking for a submissive and your a little that claims to be a basic sub because u like that dom and u wanna try being a submissive after being use to being a little. Your dominant will not understand things like little fibs or white lies that u tell because your trained to be bratty because you enjoy being punished. And vise versa.... I didn't know what a little was till after u left 😭😭 now the thoughts and the pain that we both had... the still painful love that my heart won't let go of .. could have been prevented....

It's okay tho.... I'll always be here a d u will always have atleast one open rout of communication if u need me and I promise I'll always answer..

I know it's hard got u t ok believe it but my love for u has never changed and probably never will

Im forever lost in you and I can't find an escape

[looking4mybambi]

[looking4mybambi]

Every dream every sleep we meet just to say good bye once more..

[looking4mybambi]

[looking4mybambi]

i constantly break my own heart by thinking i mean more to someone than i actually do

[looking4mybambi]

“Stupid me, thinking I was good enough.”

— Unknown

[looking4mybambi]

I lost my person, because of my toxic traits. My best friend, my Netflix bindge buddy, and the only person that truly mattered to me in my universe. Both of us was in so much emotional pain. We were so much alike there was so much in common but the way we handle being hurt was soo different. You needed me to be strong and help keep us both positive and fight threw the storm but I couldn't... my most toxic trait is I push people away when I'm hurt regardless of how much I feel for that person. And if I don't succeed then I get cold and say what ever mean ruthless thought comes to mind without thought of how bad it hurts that person. I push and push and push till I'm alone. Then all I can do is sit and miss you. .. its been months now and countless apologies and I still can't grasp your attention:( my heartbstill hurts as I crave you as I did when I first kissed you on my porch. I dream about the phone call to u when u ran into the field and u told me u loved me or ur falling inlove with me one of the 2 lol. Little did I know at the time that I could feel a feeling so strong that it literally consumed me, even after u left to this very minute I've never stopped feeling those strong feelings.. not even a little... imiss you and think about you daily. I think about all our memories we shared good and bad and would do it all again without changing a thing except trying harder to show u how strongly I felt. But I just let you go.. then I pushed you away because I knew deep down I would suffer because I pushed away the best thing that's ever happened to me and can't find the right words to atleast get my friend back.... I'd walk the entire distance states apart just to hear your voice once more... I would give my own life just to be a part of yours once more... I miss loving you I miss feeling your love I miss your cuddles and your goofy goofball comments up make randomly. I miss u waking me up to go pee with your heavy ass feet (thump thud thump thud) oddly enough I miss your stinking ass man farts that would frighten you out of your own room... I miss all of you and wish u could miss all of me

[looking4mybambi]

[looking4mybambi]

Goodbye south Carolina 👋✌

[looking4mybambi]

#Tattooed&Pierced #HornyAf #BeMyBambi? #& #CanIBeYourBuck? #BDSM #Switch #Bisexual

[looking4mybambi]

Tweaker nation REBLOG if you're up and smoking!

[looking4mybambi]

Tweaking!

Come Twack with me!

#LoneTwacker

#LoneTwackStar #SoloSoarer #SoaringSolo #InNeedOf #Spincess #SnowWhite #ElsatheIceQueen Clouds

[looking4mybambi]

Someone message daddy ;) im bored and in need of some play arguments, pet names and last but definitely not least i need me a babygir/ Bambi to take care of🥰😘

#Bdsm #DaddyDom #ISO #Babygirl #Bambi #Bratt #Submissive #Forced play #CnC roleplay #passionately dominated #Dom&Sub Relationships grown with love #CumPlayWithDaddy #Spartanburg Sc

[looking4mybambi]

Alright soo ik bdsm/dominant & submissive relationships have so many gender roles that differ from couple to couple, and how each person partakes in that role as individuals in a relationship are different.

As people we all like different things as well and we all SHOULD know what we like as individuals and in a real COMMITTED goal oriented unbreakable successful dom/sub relationship each person knows everything that their person likes and should naturally forget about knowing his or her own likes because each of you got that on lock and can please there person without them telling you when its needed and how to do it or what they are in the mood for..

I am a dominant. But for me I'm a bit different from most . Growing up as a kid very familiar with poverty, I didn't have very many friends so what attention I got was being laughed at for having such bug feet being so young plus I was the tallest in my class up till the end of middleschool, I had long lanky arms a good bit of baby fat (as ma use to call it) and long legs with goofy ass knees so I hated shorts because back in elementary where the bullying started, I may be wrong about this but I don't think Walmart could carry any and1 basket ball shorts that covered my knees nor could we afford It honestly. The kids would call me things like "jolly green giant, sasquach, big dumb (especially if I had to read out loud.. I'm not a good out loud reader) big retard or just tard.. that line of name-calling cease to exist come my 5th and 6th grade years.. mind u I spent an extra year in 4th grade soo I was just adding more fule t on the fire for my later years.

My mother, a single mom of 2 terrorists that worked her hardest to make sure we had what we needed and by doing so came overtime hours after working solid 12s 5 nights a week so she now worked 7 12s a week to get her ot in and be home in the morning to feed us and get us off to school so she can relax and sleep. Like any exhausted human, if there's something that can help you feel good enough to work 7 days a week and be able to parent with the bare minimum sleep, I think most would consider the option heavly. And then addiction..... sooo yeah more hell in school. Long story short .. I got tortured in school. It subsided in the last 2 years before I quit my jr year. But anywho my friends consisted of band in 5-6 grade football and wrestling in 7-8 -9-10 (injuries wrecked my entire school also didn't help my popularity non. And lastly jrotc my freshman year in high school. And a ton of females did band and jrotc (basically a free period lol) so I got tight with females in school while the dudes bullied the fuck out of me... I learned how to be a gorls best friend, do hair, nails, make up. Whatever I needed to learn I did... then sports was where I learned that most men are pigs weather its in a locker room. Or at home she another huge plus and can relate to females. I learned how to gossip and and learned any and all kinds of things girls like from fat free foods to why yell what those socks that look kinda like jon boats or canoes yaknow the shortest socks and adult human could even wear def entirely to short to even be related to ankle socks and how do yall keep them things on your feet while in shoes?!?! Some welfare witchcraft type shit goin on there ima throw that out there 🤣 hell my moms almost died one day she asked me how her hair looked after she curled the sides of her hair on either cheek but she curled both sides to the insides of her cheeks and I told her teacher try curling them out it would look better and she was stunned that I knew what I was talking about . Long story short I took so much time knowing whT makes yell tick, physically, mentally, stomachally ;p, definitely sexually.

Sooo on to this i watched ole ma get beet on by men my whole life and when I tried to fight em off her ( almost every fight that got physical between my mom and a man) there i was right i. The middle of the action knot knowing what the fuck ima do next i was only 11 so I took moms beating more than once.

I've been beaten on by females, alot... yea big ole me.. absolutely refuses to hit back. and ill die that way.

All these events me me the dominant that I am today... I'm strong and I will fight even if I don't want to. I am a protector. My person will feel safe, I can't take fear away ofcorse but I promise she won't be fearful of me.

I take care of my person idc what she ASKS of me ill do it. My rules are simple.

1.) Don't fuckin lie to me.

2.) Don't fucking cheat on me.

3.) Fuckin communicate

4.) DONT FUCKIN BREAK RULE ONE!

Lol I wear my heart on my sleeve and am a very passionate dom. I love giving my person attention and I love to cuddle up to movies, I'm even a hopeless romantic sometimes and I cook I love cooking honestly.

Im also into all sorts of shit forced play, cnc role play and love me a good brat that likes to play hard to get ;)

Most importantly im a dominant that builds his relationship off honesty, respect, compromise and the glue that most dominant men now phase completely out...

LOVE!❤

Now lady's can I ask a very simple question.. well this if me telling whoever will read it about the kind of man I am ofcorse with a recent pic of me (earlier today) to show that im not a terrible looking man.. soo why am I single?

All this is 1000% honest I absolutely DO NOT LIE. I will not play any sort of spin games with anyone. Lol hope someone enjoys