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#hell yeah #ao3

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Wondering why I'm so needlessly worried about future plot developments. Like its just a hobby? I am doing this for free? Yelling into the void?

I'm taking it so seriously even though this arc has nothing to do with my 'narrative' (but everything to do with the plot).

I wish I could just tell my readers this is more like a journal to me than it is a fanfiction, and that all of this is just a convoluted ploy to keep them listening to my storytelling. Maybe I'll be less worried over the probability of stuff happening if I do.

#I would NEVER ever choose writing as a career #holy hell #idk how people do it #the things I would do for 'that one reader' #apostrophe #ao3 #lialox writes

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them❤️

#this made me burst out laughing #orv #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk

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I’m sorry I need to talk about this for a second

This part right here. When Nirvana tries to use Thought Infection on Kim Dokja. And this ability that absolutely neutralized Yoo Joonghyuk, Min Jiwon, and Yoo Sangah…

just…

bounces right off.

and it’s set up like this big badass moment. Kim Dokja saves the day again. Kim Dokja can face down anyone. He’s more powerful than every other incarnation and constellation, no matter how much foreknowledge they have.

But honestly?

It kinda just makes me sad.

yjh is incapacitated by the Eternal Nightmare ability because of all the awful things he’s seen and experienced, yes.

But as we know from 1863, happy memories can be much more debilitating for him than sad ones. And while he’s only got 1-2’s memories right know, we know that 2 had some incredibly happy memories to pass on, memories that make the losses that much harder to take.

And Min Jiwon?

Of course she doesn’t actually want to visit a spa while her friends and troops are dying. But can you blame her for having some deep craving for comfort and relaxation right now?

But for Kim Dokja…

The Fourth Wall isn’t just protecting kdj from the negative effects of the skill. It’s not hiding his secret desires, or absorbing his emotions.

It is literally preventing him from experiencing the world around him as reality. Not just because it feels improbable or surreal, but because it is literally keeping him separate from the world around him. On a fundamental level, he does not believe he is truly present in this time and space.

This is derealization and dissociation on an unbelievably intense scale.

“If we’re just characters, why did you die for us so many times?”

Why wouldn’t he? He’s not here, not really. He’s just Reading this story, no matter how much sway he’s been having over what has happened. All of that is just his work as a Reader hoping to see the Epilogue of his favorite novel.

“It was a really great story, isn’t that right?”

Narratively satisfying. A twist ending. A fate that subverted expectations.

An Epilogue worth Reading. Not touching, not feeling, not joining, not creating. Just watching. From a distance away. From behind glass. Through the cracks in a wall.

After all, a story can’t exist without a writer, a protagonist, and a reader. Only two of them truly participate in creating the story. But when you’re the Reader, it’s always worth reading the story again. And again. And again. And again. And again ,

#man #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja

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What's the point of me writing if it isn't Doksoo

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #doksoo #ao3 #apostrophe

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yoo jonghyuk is actually so me because if I found out my sacrificial situationship saw me as nothing more than a character in a book come to life, I too would throw a hissy fit and try to kill them

#op i love you #orv #yoo joonghyuk #omniscient reader's viewpoint #yoohankim

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Today's blog post attempting to write ORV's post-epilogue.

If Biyoo is a Dokkaebi King, doesn't that mean she basically has like... final boss Dokkaebi King powers? Like she could trash the whole KimCom nebula, or at least be on equal footing if it was 1 v All??

I'll just conveniently leave this unaddressed.

On another note it would be so funny if she somehow inherited OD probability abuse from her daddy

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv spoilers #biyoo #ao3 #apostrophe #lialox writes #like shes annoying AND overpowered #Just like KDJ #that would be horrifying (positive)

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just spent like 5 mins trying to find the file for the first one bc i couldnt remember if i saved it as 121212112 or 11212121 (it was saved as swagless)

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #han sooyoung #kim dokja #doksoo #its true this is canon

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“Since from when was this? Her face was pushed real close to his. Her pristine, perfectly-set facial features, her pale-white cheeks, and a beauty spot just below her sparkling eyes. Kim Dokja became flustered by the faint hint of lemony scent reaching his nose. Just before he could say something, though, Han Sooyoung approached him even closer. She brought her lips to his ear and slowly whispered in a clear voice. "Such a scene doesn't appear in the third turn of 'Ways of Survival'.”

1) he’s got a crush what a loser 2) han sooyoung what the fuck

Became flustered by her scent. Lameass guy <3

#orv #orv spoilers #omniscient reader's viewpoint

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Today's blog post about writing.

Currently mad at KDJ for having to be smarter than everyone else in the story!! Incl other smart characters!! Which means I have to outsmart my most smartest smart thoughts! I'm not that smart!!

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #ao3 #apostrophe #lialox writes

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yep.

#I laughed out loud LOL #Honestly just set weekly goals #Do them whenever they cross your mind

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The devastating difference between how much time it takes to write something vs how fast people read it lol

#writing

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UGH. I feel like I have to fight the fandom on a piece of Kim Dokja's characterization here.

KDJ DOES NOT HATE 'KIM NAMWOON'. HE ACTUALLY LIKES THE KID AFTER GETTING TO KNOW HIM AS A PERSON. He will protect KNW!!

He specifically DESPISES [999] Kim Namwoon. That KNW alone!! No other KNW! Really cannot stand the 999th turn KNW! 

Why just 999th turn KNW?

KDJ judges people based on their actions not what their characterization is. 

“I was taught to pay the price for my actions”

999th killed his favourite YJK turn. 

999th got off for free for what KDJ believes is the worst thing ever. This is a parallel for KDJ believing that no punishment is enough for taking away the ■■ from YJK >>> subway thoughts

The hatred is less because “you're like me” but more like “I cannot forgive this. Not for myself, not for others, not for anyone.” Kim Dokja struggles a lot with the concept of forgiveness.

999th turn KNW was forgiven for something he believes he shouldn’t be forgiven for, so Kim Dokja just deals out the punishment himself.

He feels sooo bad about all the other KNWs. He will go out of his way to make the other KNWs safe/happy.

He gave 1863rd KNW his special coat to play with

When summoning 1864th KNW (the one in the gundam) he's all like!! Gotta make sure this KNW is safe! Can't let anything happen to him with Disconnected Film Theory, even though I did bring him here to help me deal with the 999th turn

There's a line somewhere, around the time Jang Hayoung messages ABFD for the first time, where Kim Dokja thinks "just like Kim Namwoon, ABFD might not be so bad after all".

Kim Namwoon is used to further reinforce that no one is born a villain.

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #kim namwoon #apostrophe #lialox writes #orv spoilers

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YES!!! GRIEVE!!! GET UGLY WITH IT ❗❗❗❗❗❗❗

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #han sooyoung

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cute...

#I was just thinking of this exact quote #doksoo #kim dokja #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #han sooyoung

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One of my favorite ORV headcanons is that TWSA has as much practical living advice as it does the metaphorical.

There's a 3-page long description of lsh dressing and bandaging yjh's wounds in the early rounds, intimately describing all the bruises and cuts and scrapes and the way they were handled. Kdj saw this as a humanizing moment for yjh and shipping fuel, but the next day he gets beat up by bullies and decided to dress his wounds himself since the school nurse isn't around (and they were getting tired of him anyway). It's sloppy and he had to rebandage himself after it unravelled, but it prevented an infection, and he got better over time.

In another chapter, yjh notices ljh having panic attacks in the middle of battle and teaches her a few tricks to steady your breathing and center herself faster as part of combat training. The description feels like text you'd see in a training handbook and completely breaks any sense of pacing. Kdj remembers it the next time he has one and was able to calm himself down before his relatives find him and punish him like they did before.

In yet another chapter, yjh avoids the eyes of fellow incarnations and picks his words correctly in a game of three questions with nosy constellations. They were oddly dry and mundane for an apocalypse setting with superhuman powers. Kdj remembers them the next time he spots paparazzi lurking around the corners.

There was a chapter that came out around the time kdj was job hunting, where the party gets tangled in a subscenario involving securing a position through interviews. It felt contrived even with kdj's tolerance to TWSA shenanigans, but he takes note of what everyone does anyway and tries some of them in his job interviews. He comments that some of the actions felt unrealistic with his own experiences in job interviews; tls123 replied with a lighthearted apology (she's never had to bother with interviews, and she doubts she'll ever get to; she's grateful that it was still useful.)

(Kim Dokja, rereading TWSA over and over again in the train, feels the love and has no idea what to do with it.)

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #kim dokja #han sooyoung #doksoo #orv spoilers #CRYING #SOBBING #hankim

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I am insane!!!

we as a community need to be more insane about han sooyoung

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #han sooyoung