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I'm really not feeling good today. I'll be put on the operation waitlist in the upcoming 1/2 months and that news has really messed me up somehow

#If I dissapear; I am having a crisis #I have like 30 mins left before I need to get out to work and I'm still not past “getting out of bed” #so I'll have to pull out the disappearance act rn bc I need to like get ready 💀 #but If I remain gone during the weekend; I'm probably just sad and not able to be present

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A donut with glaze frosting is served without a plate or tissue. The encounter is random, and the taste is dull compared to the other more successful goods in the bakery.

DOTT remembers every event and interaction as if he were reliving the moment. 

If he ever needs to recall something, DOTT only needs to access the file connected to the event, which happens automatically and is a similar effort to humans who need to breathe. Down to the details, everything he’s been through is stored somewhere in his mechanic body. Safe and deep within him.

Thus, when DOTT got the order to document his disparate life, he wondered why his creator hadn’t requested the return of the memory storage unit. In the end, after a few restless days of pondering over this question, it felt like a pointless thing to raise, given his unwillingness to contact the man (if he did, it’d felt like he was acknowledging his failed attempt to break free from his creator’s control). And so, DOTT writes in plain notebooks—if only to avoid deactivation. (Someday soon, he promises to disappear without a trace so he can taste true freedom. Until then, he needs time to figure out how to outsmart himself.)

The daily records start simple and repetitive. 

As a hybrid between a puppet and a machine, sleep is unrequired. DOTT will never be able to rest his body like a human does; he does not need food or rest; thus, he merely exists—and that is the only thing he can document at the beginning of his ‘life’. He observes the world instead of himself. He finds a muse in strangers and the fleeting conversations that pass by.

And then, he finds home—not the lab, but home. 

Despite not being human, he now had a bed, slept under the covers every night, and laid in silence until the sunlight touched his body. 

The same goes for things such as breakfast, lunch, or dinner. From research and basic observation, he watches others. He sees how people live their lives and mimics it in a way only a clone would. 

He starts to cook dishes from recipes in books and folders, he then finds himself stocking his small pantry and fridge, and slowly he finds himself getting more excited while doing it. DOTT does not need substance. Whenever he brings it past his lips and into his system he sort of absorbs it, but it’s more a bother than joy, energy, or purpose. But he likes to make it. There is something so satisfying about the separate ingredients that come together to create something new. He tries flavours, textures, and colours; until he remains with one problem. 

Where does all the food go?

The recipes slowly start to take over his life and he finds himself adding these otherwise useless and pointless creations to his notebook. In these entries, DOTT carefully describes the process, the result, and the effect it has on him. 

Things start to change. From merely existing to joy, he finds himself looking forward to the notebook and pen, writing his new cupcake recipe, the color bowtie he had chosen to wear that day, or the stranger who was willing to try his food and who had told him he should open a bakery…

He writes at which time he decided to make food. He writes at which time he finished and plated it. He writes at which time he sat down at the small table in his apartment above the bakery. And he writes at which time he finishes. 

To DOTT, things like these are ‘to be human’. 

If he can’t prove himself to his creator, he will prove himself to humanity. Even when no one is watching him, he will close his bakery; clean the tables; undress and change into pyjamas; move into the bed with static movements; sleep; wake up before sunrise; eat; connect with people; adjust; and evolve. 

Yet, the habits he forces upon himself do nothing in the end… It won’t make him more human, nor will it fulfil his original purpose.

After days and nights fighting against the facts, he remains exactly as he was—DOTT, a failure to everyone.

From dusk to dawn, DOTT stares at the wooden ceiling with the lights off.

#🧁˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ The Bakery #🧁˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ Memories of: DOTT #Not proofread bc I am tired but slayyyyyy #this is for my joy only anyways lmao so I don't need to proofread >:3 #I want to hold DOTT and make cupcakes with him sb #smooching him on the cheek #NEXT TIME SHIRO LORE MAYBE?????

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Mary Oliver, from "Dogfish" in New and Selected Poems

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They look so good but I am low-key scared one of them is going to die ngl ;;

I voted as well as I could in during the second trial but damn 😭😭 AMANE WHY DID U DROP THE FLOWERS?!

#(Mikoto is so cute btw I love him) #Sorry but I had to shitpost about this bc I just saw it #IS IT A NEW SONG? #A TRAILER? #Idk all I know is that the voting has ended XD #I feel like it's going to be really crazy from this point forward

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We said we were going to finish writing F'sD this week and then I 100%-ed the new area in genshin 💀

#who knows? #we still have the weekend ahead of us #there is hope XD

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You know what the anon option is for? (✿◠‿◠)

For shy people who are too scared to talk to their favourite blogs. (◡‿◡✿)

Not for you to act like a piece of shit. ✿◕ ‿ ◕✿

#spread love not hate

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I saw this post by @astropixie about how it’d be nice to review fics on AO3 as you read. A little while back, because I was so in awe of the Clexa fic writers, I made this userscript (can install on Firefox by using Greasemonkey and on Chrome and Opera by using Tampermonkey) so that I could do just that. It doesn’t have the wattpad or soundcloud functionality, it’s just a little thing added on to a page, not something supported by the site itself, but it’s better than nothing. 

The userscript is available here: http://pastebin.com/vYBCYWu4

#important #this is game changer #I will add this s smdm

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i had a thought.

as per boothill’s lightcone story: “…and new blue blood flew towards his thirsty heart…”

tumblr user nvuy: so what ur saying is boothill blushes blue

please spare the poor man of your kisses. he’s going to explode if you keep staring at him like some lovesick puppy. he can’t even begin to understand what’s so appealing about an entirely artificial makeup like his. that only encourages you to place even more kisses on every part he hates while he holds onto his hat and tries not to feel dizzy.

and, great. now he’s bright blue from his cheeks to the tips of his ears, staring in the mirror with your dark lipstick stains all over every exposed inch of him with his internal fans whirring at full speed.

#i know nothing about this man but if he blushes BLUE???? #!!!

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Asks (anon too) are open on my reblog acc @shirostreasureroom ! Feel free to send me some fics to read thru my askbox :D

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Just got cake at work. I'm happy now :3

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Just got cake at work. I'm happy now :3

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do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.

#8;43am #thinking about asking my moots to send (their/any) fics in my reblog acc askbox so I can read and comment #I'd prob read more diversely and find new great writers if people randomly drop their fav fics #just not sure if anyone wants to do it (+ I'm a slow reader so I don't want people to nag me) #also food bc I'm hungry

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[ Firefly + Robin + Shiro ]

Accidentally reblogged this to my reblog acc at first oops,,, anyways:

(It was hard for me to settle on two characters to form a friend group with, but I feel like me, robin, and firefly would hit it off well!! V soft and gentle vibes but we'd also have so much fun :D Thank you for the tag Cherry!)

FIND YOURSELF IN ME !

overture: a mini tag game! make a moodboard of your favourite genshin/hsr gang (it may or may not famous!) + you as friends! maximum three people in one friend group! take as many pics as you wanna <3

example: chongyun + xingqiu + you ! kafka + ningguang + you ! sunday + aventurine + you !

notes: is it obvious how bored i actually am? maybe, maybe yeah.

[ yanfei + heizou + me ! ]

#tag game #I suck at making moodboards :( #went with vibes here! #I don't know too much about robin but she'd be my bestie so true #firefly is my kinnie but only if u forget the last time she(?) showed up bc that was something that made me like ?! #almost went with firefly + collei + shiro #those who get it get it /silly #comfort friendship group tho <333 #anyways this was fun but haaardd

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You will never be too complicated or too much for your f/o, in any sense of the word. You aren't too dramatic, too emotional, too distant or quiet, too silly, too serious, whatever it may be. Your f/o loves you for you, and being your authentic self will never be too overwhelming, too stressful, anything of the sort. If anything, they love these things about you, it helps them feel as if you're comfortable enough to be yourself around them.

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hi um. hello to my new followers HAHAHAHA

the screenshot @/throwaway-yandere showed the follower event being mentioned, but didn't specify much about what it was about. i'll make a mini announcement here :D

for a while now i've been more active as an arknights player than i have genshin, so when i hit 100 i'll be doing a matchup of people and arknights characters that i think they would get along with!

there will be more details to come, but for now i'm going to limit it to 15 people, and it will be strictly platonic if you are under 18. of course, this also applies to the characters who are minors in arknights.

and for a while now i wasn't able to post any writings or music. hopefully this will change starting soon, but may is my last month of school (i'm graduating high school!!) and june my family will be going on a trip together. maybe starting july i can start getting back into a semi decent flow of both writing and silly tunes, but until then, the arknights event will most likely happen first before anything.

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people always talk about leaving comments on ao3 like it's a nice thing to do, or the best way to encourage writers to keep writing, or overall like it's how you Do Your Part in fandom

and yeah, all those things are true, but having spent the past few months leaving enthusiastic comments on as many things as i can, i have a different perspective

you should leave comments on fics because it's fun

taking the time to stop and focus on what i like about a story has made me way more aware of what's going on in stories and what i like about them. there's bit more actual comprehension and appreciation and not just beaming content into my eyes to fill time

i like noticing cool little things in fics, or riffing on funny events. i've never been very good at speculating or picking apart characters, but sometimes something clicks and it rocks.

and of course it's pretty nice when you get a response and it's clear you've made another person happy

so yeah, you should leave comments for your own sake, too. it makes reading better!

#I love leaving comments #I read fics like it's my treat of the day #and I love noticing a writer's habits #commenting is so fun

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I just wanted to say your pinned looks absolutely cute <3 and the pics besides the "Open" sign ❤️ did you draw em? they look super duper adorable and I already ship those two together if that's oki 💕

Hi, Vi!!! I hope you're doing well when you see this ^^

Thank you so much for the ask + compliments!! 🙏💙 I saw this when I woke up and it made me so happy (alas, I have been a bit busy so sorry for the late answer ;;)

And yes, I drew the pictures myself! The left one is DOTT (a Dottore segement OC) and the right one is Shiro/Momoiro (My persona/self insert)!! I'm a huge Dottore simp (These two are one of the variants of my selfship with him) so you saying they look adorable + wanting to ship them makes me SO happy ahsjdmfm

Thank you again for the compliments and I'm happy to see you in my notifs :D

#I've seen you a lot on Rin's blog #and I think I know you since the Elzer ebg? #BaiVi 4 life btw!!! #I saw the post on Cherry's blog with BaiVi and it was so cute 🙏 #anyways it's so cool to see you in my notifs because I've been seeing you through other moots #So... Hi!! #Nice to meet you :D #remember to drink when you see this!! #ask