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Sorry for the sudden religious cannibalism & blasphemy I promise it will happen again.
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The squirm inside The Spaniard's chest was reflected upon greeting, for as much as Luis was infested as a host, in the eyes of Los Iluminados, he was also the child of Lord Saddler. To the cult, unwavering obedience & servitude to one's parent, ๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ฃ, was absolute. There was no room for questioning or defiance when his leash manifested deep from within.
Luis' life was figuratively & LITERALLY in Osmund's hands ; The sharpened barbs of the parasite close to crushing his heart, or tendrils reaching, coiling & suffocating his lungs. Unlike The Holy Spirit, Las Plagas physically residing in one's innermost cavities was a violation unimaginable & disgustingly blasphemous in spite of the Abrahamic God. The river which flowed tasted not of love ; But of death & disease, if not an underlying desire of conquest. In every way conceivable, The Scientist bowed before ๐๐๐ ๐ธ๐๐ฅ๐-โ๐๐ฃ๐๐ค๐ฅ, marked by the power which resided in his hand.
" ๐๐ถ ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ซ. " The 'God' which grit his teeth was possessive & jealous, his anger smothered by layers of human skin & clerical robes. Lazing upon his throne, his faรงade gave the image of grace, but any intelligent human knew not to trust The Devil who lies --- or they did, before being imprisoned & forcibly handed the syringe. " ๐๐ซ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฐ๐ฐ ๐ถ๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ข๐๐ฑ ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ฌ๐ฃ ๐๐ฅ๐ข โ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐ถ ๐
๐ฌ๐ก๐ถ ๐๐ซ๐ก ๐ก๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ซ๐จ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฐ ๐๐ฉ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ก, ๐ถ๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ฅ๐๐ณ๐ข ๐ซ๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฃ๐ข ๐ฆ๐ซ ๐ถ๐ฌ๐ฒ. "
One stray thought of heresy or desire for freedom would incur his wrath. As Osmund continued, he gaze shifted to that of a hawk, or something eerily insectoid --- an imposing glare so animalistic & devoid of emotion to shudder one's spine. As his tongue delivered doctrine, he scanned for any sign of abandonment or displeasure of the faith. Luis would NEED to charm the serpent in order to dissuade his suspicion & further tightening of his grip ( for now ) --- unless the most profound of blessings would entice him once more?
" ๐๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ฅ๐๐ณ๐ข ๐ง๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ซ๐ข๐ก ๐ฒ๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ซ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ ๐ช๐๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ซ ๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ฏ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ณ๐ข๐ซ๐๐ซ๐ฑ ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฌ๐ซ๐ข. " As the flock traversed the castle in prayer with black water & blood soaking their lips, the 'holy' communion of Osmund was more than evident. Consecration of bread & wine was defiled into an unholy rite ; & TRULY cannibalistic. Chalices & bowls disregarded as the zealots prior fed directly from his sacred body. " ๐๐ฌ ๐ถ๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ฑ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ฑ๐ฌ ๐ญ๐๐ฏ๐ฑ๐๐จ๐ข ๐ฆ๐ซ ๐๐ฅ๐ข ๐๐ฒ๐ ๐ฅ๐๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฑ? "
An ache had begun somewhere behind Luis' left eye and slowly progressed as work progressed. With Saddler's suspicion growing now the scientist needed to play the part of willing subject and researcher as well as possible. Luis' life quite literally depended on it. It's that anxious fear of being found out that has the Spaniard striding down the long ornate hallway flanked by faithful to have a meeting with the cult leader. This whole chapel gave him the creeps. A disgusted part of Luis hates how he willingly ignored all the red flags of joining these people in their endeavours to play god once more. Rubbing fingers into his eyes, Luis contemplates quitting after this and taking up something less dangerous and cult prone. Maybe baking.
"Your eminence." Luis bows slightly once in front of Saddler, trying hard to ignore the eager squirm of the creature in his chest at his proximity. That would need to be taken care of before it progressed any further, but once theย plagaย is purged, he would immediately need to kick off the plan to get the hell out of this place. Whichย could only happen when his contact gets back to him.ย Luis hopesย to whateverย god will listenย that itย happensย soon.
โฐโโค โ @lasplaga [ liked for a short spicy starter ]
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-;โ ๐ ๐ฎ๐บ๐น๐ฟ. ; โฅ - ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ ย ย ย โ ย ย ย ย โ I did not mean for you to see me like this. โ As she cleaned the tears from her face & would stand up, fixing herself for the moment. She had her own flock, her own followers, everything that he had, she had, he just had it on a grander scale than herself. Truly everything she had made for herself was built upon a lie, as she wished for one thing & only one thing, while, he wished for so much more, something she could not fault him for at all. But they were different like that ; As she moved to the table & would take the golden mask there, pick it up & place it over her face to hide the falling tears. The last thing she wished for anyone to see from her, was a shred of weakness, when she was clawing her way, closer & closer, to the end & to her daughter, coming back to her. โ Why have you come here, the hour is late, our work can continue in the morning. โ
It was evident by how she carried herself among the congregation & her devotees that she was worshiped as a powerful deity. However, fear or reverence had clung to their hearts, with his visit noting a stark lack of personal compassion in the eyes of her people. In contrast, sympatheticย pity shone from his eyes as he bowed in greeting. " ๐
๐ฉ๐ข๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ข๐ก ๐๐ฏ๐ข ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ฌ๐ฐ๐ข ๐ด๐ฅ๐ฌ ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ฏ๐ซ, ๐ฃ๐ฌ๐ฏ ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ข๐ถ ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ ๐๐ข ๐ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฃ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฑ๐ข๐ก, ๐๐ฌ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฏ ๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ก๐. " As much as she was destined to shoulder the burdens of her village, WHAT was given in return besides tableside invocation & altar offerings? Were her 'vessels' concerned with her heartbreak hardships at all? Have they ever communed as a TRUE family & not as an institution held together by frail string?
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๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฃ๐๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ฐ ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ฑ ๐ญ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ณ๐ข๐ซ ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ค๐ฅ ๐ด๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ก, ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ถ ๐๐ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฌ๐ซ. " It was a fear he was intimately familiar with as he grew accustomed to holding his cards close to his chest. Rarely giving opposition the opportunity to believe they've won, a method of betrayal or discovering a way to dig under his skin. Nevertheless, grief was an exception & many nights were spent lamenting his lost brothers & sisters --- everlasting serenity unjustly stolen from him by militant wicked armed to the teeth. As if afraid to touch such divine grace, or that the rot which blotted his flesh would disgust her, Osmund's hand faltered, hovering above her shoulder as he slithered close. " ๐๐ซ๐ก ๐ถ๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ฏ ๐ก๐๐ฒ๐ค๐ฅ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฏ โ ๐ฅ๐๐ณ๐ข ๐ญ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ข๐ก, ๐ฆ๐ซ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ช๐ข... ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ด๐ฅ๐๐ฑ ๐ฆ๐ฐ ๐ฑ๐ฌ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ข ๐ฌ๐ฃ ๐ถ๐ฌ๐ฒ, ๐ฃ๐ฌ๐ฏ ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ด? "
Although Lord Saddler had been gifted reparations' in the sum of immeasurable wealth, vast amounts of land & the seal to Las Plagas FINALLY broken, it did not change the tragedies of the past. Memories of colonization, war, torture & slavery persisted, continuously plaguing his mind akin to a unwanted disease. WHEN she would embrace her long lost babe again, would her sorrow interfere & hinder, rather than blossom a beautiful reunion between mother & child? --- Concern etched itself upon every wrinkle, certain that the woman was 'afflicted' in the mind all the same. Different, but their spirits damaged, if not left broken by incomprehensible misfortune. Only to be seen as monsters & not victims by worldly misery unfairly handed to them.
๐๐๐ ๐ป๐๐ง๐๐ presented a kindhearted gesture, perhaps from the remnants of humanity that still lingered within his fading consciousness. Although he had succumbed to the thralls of parasitism over the ages, whatever Lord Saddler WAS as a man, as a father, briefly clawed to the surface : " โ ๐ฅ๐๐ณ๐ข ๐๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ข๐ก ๐ฑ๐ฌ ๐ค๐ฆ๐ณ๐ข ๐ญ๐ฏ๐๐ถ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ฌ๐ฏ ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ฌ๐ฏ ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ข ๐๐ฏ๐ฌ๐จ๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ๐ข๐๐ฏ๐ฑ๐ข๐ก, ๐ฆ๐ฃ ๐ถ๐ฌ๐ฒ'๐ฉ๐ฉ ๐ฅ๐๐ณ๐ข ๐ช๐ข. ๐๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐ข๐ข๐ก ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ฑ ๐ด๐ข๐ข๐ญ ๐๐ฉ๐ฌ๐ซ๐ข. "
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i am a forgetful role player.
ย ย ย sometimes i will post inbox calls, starter calls or interaction calls and i will happily begin โฆ when i have muse for it, and sometimes i will lack muse, and i may forget about it all.
ย ย ย that is not because of you, the other part.
ย ย ย forgetfulness is something that we often frown upon, take as an insult directly towards us as a person.ย โbut they never write to meโ,ย โthey always forget about meโ,ย โiโm not gonna interact because they always forgetโ and while these things are totally valid, it must be said that forgetting things are human. not only is it human, but we should allow role players to be forgetful every now and then, simply because many, if not all, have lives outside of Tumblr that require a lot of them.
ย ย ย my forgetfulness is never directed towards you as a person.
ย ย ย my forgetfulness is never directed towards your creations.
ย ย ย sometimes i forget because โฆ
i am tired.
i have a lot on my mind.
i get lost in other tasks.
i have to prioritize.
i bite over more than i can chew.
i simply forget.
ย ย ย therefore it must be said, have patience. reach out. donโt just sit back and huff about how youย โalways seem to be forgottenโ. some folks have a lot on their minds, and that needs to be allowed.
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๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐จ๐ง๐๐ง๐๐ข๐ก, ๐๐จ๐ง ๐๐ข๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐ก๐๐จ๐ฅ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐: ๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐ฟ ๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐ฟ ๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐ฟ. โฌ private & low activity ๐๐ก๐๐๐ง๐ ๐ง๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ from capcom's ๐ง๐๐จ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐๐ซ๐๐ก. rescued by ๐ฃ๐๐ฃ๐.
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โธธ ๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ฒ๐ช๐ฆ๐ซ๐๐ก๐ฌ๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ซ๐๐ฉ ๐ ๐ฅ๐๐ญ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฏ ; ๐ The sorrows of this world are without number. Study your heart & know this to be true. Incessant war. Suffering. & man turns a blind eye to the atrocities created, the blood on their hands, even now . Your hatred. Your grief. Your agony. I can relieve you of those burdens ! Like a babe in the womb, the subjects of my kingdom need only drift about in tranquility. Why would you rob so many poor souls of their salvation ?
ฮฑ โธป -;โ ๐ #๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. An independent, highly selective & grimdark portrayal that is analysis heavy & a mixed-canon variation of ๐๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ง๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐๐. The Holy Father of Los Iluminados & Lord of Las Plagas. | Worshipped by Veronica since 2017. ๐๐+. Pronouns she / her. | ๐๐ + & UNSAFE for abuse victims or cult survivors ! | ๐ด๐ข๐ฉ๐ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ข๐ฐ ๐ฌ๐ '๐ฐ & ๐ฅ๐๐ฐ ๐ณ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฐ / ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ณ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐๐ณ๐๐ฆ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ๐ข ! : Including World of Warcraft, Elder Scrolls, Bloodborne & more ! | ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ & ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ : (1) (2) (3) |โฅ โธป ฮฉ
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This has been on my mind for long but Iโm gonna do this - please reblog this if youโre comfortable with pre-establishing relationships. I do not meanย โmet at the grocery store two weeks agoโ orย โhave a common friendโ, but rather stuff likeย โhave been best friends since kindergrdenโ,ย โgo for a beer every fridayโ,ย โfriends with benefitsโ,ย โdated in highschoolโ, โhate each otherโs guts because -insert reason-โ ย etc. Something meaningful (but not necessarily shippy)ย and I mean with muns/characters you have not interacted with, because I cannot believe I am the only one who prefers jumping right into the heart of the human interaction.
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hey, tumblr rpc. we're a deeply parasocial space and we need to accept that!
i've noticed an uptick in people preferring to remain insular / friend focused or indicate to not immediately express familiarity, or say that they owe their mutuals nothing. and that's true!
this isn't to say that you can't make true friendships, or come to know someone fully, in the roleplay community: i'm a part of it, and i've met friends i now have known for more than ten years. but there's a difference between people having conversations that aren't just about rp (e.g., personal life, depending on each other for support on tough times as the people involved slowly open up) for extended periods of time, and having casual conversations solely about rp over 6 - 7 months and going no further than that. to some people, that may be friendship, but the reality is that you really don't know that person, and we need to do better and respect that boundary.
being mutuals isn't automatic friendship. seeing what your mutuals post on the dash is only a fraction of what they are actually like, and it is their prerogative to share as much or as little as they want. unfollowing, soft or hardblocking isn't personal. you cannot press people to share about themselves when they do not wish to.
when people specify "i owe nobody nothing", it refers to acting on an unearned sense of familiarity. pursuing friendship is natural! but in online spaces where activity varies and people are now mostly offline due to busy personal lives, it's imperative we remain courteous and respectful. again, this is a parasocial environment, and that's fine. do better, get to know people naturally, and don't hold boundary establishing against them.
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โ David Cronenberg, Consumed
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RESIDENT EVIL 4 (2023)
When day breaks, you too will join our covenant. To share in my holy blessing...
forever.
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21. Which song do you feel describes your character the most and why?
-;โ ๐ ๐บ๐บ๐ฎ ; โฅ
๐ ย ย ย โ ย ย ย ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ --- Accepting!
( 21 ) ๐๐ก๐ข๐๐ก ๐ฌ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ฅ ๐๐๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐ข๐๐๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ & ๐ฐ๐ก๐ฒ?
It's hard to pick only one, but I normally choose songs that represent The Devil / Lucifer from a nuanced perspective or his victims.
I write from HIS point of view which has a degree of self-victimization. In HIS mind, he is made / born from God but unjustly punished / banished to Earth. In HIS mind, he believes the absence of free-will IS Paradise because it is best suited to serve him & that only he can "save the world" ( hence deceit / lies, as Las Plagas desires assimilation, not salvation ) . Osmund has a messiah / savior complex & is so zealous that he cannot be convinced that he is evil. The abuse / torture is justified by heresy / sin & that "teaching / punishment" is an act of penance / love. Lord Saddler is as much as a seducer / tempter as he is "Almighty", so there is a bit of dual-facet nature, it is a unique interpretation of The Devil. Songs narratively about the victims apply as Lord Saddler is known to have an intoxicating / addictive presence. Las Plagas for the majority is a drug / high because not only does it fulfill their sense of purpose or grant miraculous power, it conditions them to enjoy their perpetual state of everlasting servitude.
โMorning Starโ - King Woman, "Whatโs a Devil to Do" - Harley Poe, "Devils Child" - Judas Priest, "The Devils on Your Side" - Andrew W.K., "Fire And Brimstone" - Link Wray, "Master of Puppets" - Metallica
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Are there some things you dislike about how the show/series/etc. portray the character you have picked up? If so, what?
-;โ ๐ ๐บ๐บ๐ฎ ; โฅ
๐ ย ย ย โ ย ย ย ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ --- Accepting!
( 11 ) ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ฆ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐จ๐ฐ/๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐ข๐๐ฌ/๐๐ญ๐. ๐ฉ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ฒ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ค๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ฉ? ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐จ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ?
I've always had issues with the 2005 iteration because Lord Saddler was a remodel / recolor of Oswell Spencer from RE3.5's Castle Vers. & I want to separate myself from themes of Nazism / Eugenics as much as humanely possible. It's partially why I don't really care for the games spanning from 0 - 3 & lost interest in Sergei Vladimir / James Marcus over time.
On the topic of the English Localization again, the blatant American / Foreign xenophobia they introduced was in extremely bad taste & rooted in The War on Terror influence back in the early 2000's. I was overjoyed when this was completely removed in Vendetta & the remake because what purpose does it serve for a religion / religious preacher to be discriminatory in that way that is hellbent upon world domination with a mind-controlling parasite?
Thirdly, because I'm always at Capcom's throat, they are ( but slowly getting better ) SERIOUSLY bad with stealing ( art in general, coming from someone who studied art history ) iconography & symbolism from closed cultures / practices that suffer discrimination, racism & harmful stereotypes to this day. They are also bad with using real world events for canonical history without considering the implications it might have on the average consumer. Instead of listing individual sources, there is an entire wikia page ( I hardly trust the wikia but these sources are legitimate ) dedicated to how The War of Terror initially influenced RE4 & / or the remake. There is also Mesoamerican / Mesopotamian leftovers from early builds of 3.5 & 4 which again, carries harmful stereotypes when it's representing a sacrificial death cult & religious extremists. I would have preferred a RE4 that was delayed & completely original artistically instead of... what we got.
Final thing but his full name is absolutely stupid & it drives me up a wall CONSTANTLY.
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