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i’ve been having one of those days where i would dump an essay into tags but i’ll try not to do that. however emotionally i am still a pile of mud on the ground. slump feels like it’s been going on forever and ever. frustrated bc i failed in the face of opportunities bc of things out of my control etc. etc etc etc i hope things improve yknow.

#jaerambles #it’s still leaking out anyway i’m just trying not to be Too posty about it because i’ve already said basically all of it 😭 #nothing has changed but then again i haven’t had a chance to change it yet.

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there is so much intimacy in creating something together

#sobbing. i miss it #hyping up my friends when they make things is almost the same but not exactly

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i'm downsliding again and can barely work and have to move soon so yaaaay ebegging

hi everyone, it's your favorite heavily disabled buddy here. i'm doing really fucking badly and had to go to the ER overnight for severe GI issues, and am missing work immediately after coming back from temporary disability and having to drop out of my college semester. at this point it's pretty obvious i can't work in a meaningful way to sustain myself so while i'm trying to either get better or get disability i need to ask for help. i'm moving soon, too, so i'm losing the job that somehow keeps me despite missing weeks and weeks at a time.

paypal: https://paypal.com/paypalme/patrickgemgabbett

venmo: http://venmo.com/patgem

cashapp: http://cash.app/$PatrickGabbett

ko-fi: http://ko-fi.com/patrickgem

thank you. if you can't help just sharing is nice, and i understand that right now the world is just a mess for everyone. i wish i could do more, and i hate needing help instead of providing it. if i get to a more stable place i'll give back however i can. cassie for attention.

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hi falin hiiii (titties out vr on twitter)

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers

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(dumps more Friends at the  Table fan art here)

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i want to study at a boston-area university.

i will pronounce color as caalah and use smoot units. i would watch Cheers on Netflix all night while drinking cranberry juice with my flatmates. i'll have dunkin donuts every day that's worth 5 dollahs. i would go to dorm parties every night. i am also more likely to meet Matt Damon, the New England Patriots, Mark Wahlberg and the MBTA.

i wish i was from massachusetts :(

#me when i was 17 😭😭😭😭😭

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i'm downsliding again and can barely work and have to move soon so yaaaay ebegging

hi everyone, it's your favorite heavily disabled buddy here. i'm doing really fucking badly and had to go to the ER overnight for severe GI issues, and am missing work immediately after coming back from temporary disability and having to drop out of my college semester. at this point it's pretty obvious i can't work in a meaningful way to sustain myself so while i'm trying to either get better or get disability i need to ask for help. i'm moving soon, too, so i'm losing the job that somehow keeps me despite missing weeks and weeks at a time.

paypal: https://paypal.com/paypalme/patrickgemgabbett

venmo: http://venmo.com/patgem

cashapp: http://cash.app/$PatrickGabbett

ko-fi: http://ko-fi.com/patrickgem

thank you. if you can't help just sharing is nice, and i understand that right now the world is just a mess for everyone. i wish i could do more, and i hate needing help instead of providing it. if i get to a more stable place i'll give back however i can. cassie for attention.

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Haven’t made character bios for my oc project in so long. I thought it would be fun!

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i wish i could like replies on tumblr dot com

#jaerambles #waves hello.

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hi guys

#jaerambles #how is everyone

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they should invent talking with a friend that doesnt require a conversation topic or the ability to otherwise come up with things to say

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Ok you know what. Was thinking about this.

#oh fun!!!! #octopath traveler #octopath traveler 2

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i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.

#augh okay

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going to be nicer to myself.

#it’s a process. it’s a process. #jaerambles

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Draw badly. Write nonsensically. Embroider messily. Burn what you bake and cook. Get paint everywhere. Read half a book. Lose your mind for a bit. Plant things. Have faith in the process. Abandon 70 wood-carving projects. Get a kit and do some of it and never return to it. Get comfortable with sucking and losing motivation. Continue to create with reckless abandon.

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#meeeeeee………..