knittedangelwings

[knittedangelwings]

how do you feel after got shot by your sister? I hope you get well soon!

i do not think i’ve ever felt such pain. my chest hurts, yes. it feels like a thousand tiny knives. but i’ve felt pain like it. tomas said from pain comes glory, comes light, comes life. the doctors say i should be dead. but i am not. i was wrong that sarah wouldn’t kill me, but i was right that she cannot. 

sarah sestra sarah. for a day i had a family. i had kira. i had sarah. i had kira’s small hand in mine. sarah let me hug her. but kira got hurt because of me. i never never never meant to hurt kira. never never. she is the angel.

i met my mother, who made me this way, and so i put a long, sharp knife in her chest. i watched the blood soak her shirt and come out of her mouth. it made me empty, but it righted a wrong. from pain comes life. sarah didn’t understand. didn’t understand that she made me this way, took me away from her, my own blood. a path that could have been mine. and sarah thinks i’m a monster. maybe i’m not life, or light, but death. maybe sarah thinks i am. maybe she thought she was shooting death. but you can’t kill death. getting shot in the chest hurts like a thousand tiny knives, but knowing it is sarah who shot me hurts more.

if i do not die, i want to see her again. to show her i can be family too.

thank you, friend. i have not had any visitors in the hospital. the others get visitors. i watch them talk to each other. sometimes the visitors get sweets. i have asked my doctor for some jello and some strawberry shortcake.

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[knittedangelwings]

how do you feel about sarah?

we were created together as one in our mother’s womb. we have a connection that our time apart couldn’t break. our mommy tried to keep us apart. let me be made into an angel, and then a monster. the pull of a trigger. 

she is my family. 

but she already has a family. kira, felix, mrs. s, kira, felix, mrs. s. maybe cosima niehaus. maybe alison hendrix.

not helena. but i love her.

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[knittedangelwings]

what is your favorite food? Color?

i love jello the most. and those little candies hotels have at the front desk. they look at me very strangely when i take a handful. i love jello of all colors, but i do not like it when there’s chunks of fruit in it. disgusting. although i love apples. sometimes i’ll take apples from stores and hide them in my coat.

my favorite color is green. it makes me think of grass. i had to wait in the grass to kill the german sheep. it was very comfortable.

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[knittedangelwings]

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

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[knittedangelwings]

"Shot point blank in the chest and she walks in?"

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[knittedangelwings]

WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

i was three and i was in a big orphanage with lots of other little girls and nuns to take care of us. we didn’t have many toys to play with. i had a doll with an arm missing and i used to hide her under my pillow so the other children wouldn’t play with her. she had pretty pink lips and blond hair like me. i don’t remember the other nuns’ faces but they were stern and didn’t smile. the other children pulled my hair.

tomas came one day and gave me a big smile, full of sunshine. he said i was special and took my hand. nobody ever said i was special and i let him take me away. i left my doll. i miss her. after that, no more dolls. lots of guns and knives.

now i know. he would have taken me even if i didn’t want to go.

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