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ain't that the worst thing you ever heard (taegyu high school au)

• taegyu, with some side yeonbin • serious stubborn academic taehyun/silly obnoxious beomgyu, "enemies" to lovers • 22.2k words

summary: taehyun and beomgyu are science project partners, taehyun is angry and stubborn about it, and beomgyu loves pushing his buttons.

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Taegyu (🐿+🐻)

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❥ • Is This Our Start Line? (past sookai, past beomjun, fluff, angst, moving on, feelings realisation, yeonbin endgame, taegyu endgame) ⤿ Are late night conversations really enough to make you fall in love with someone? With the right person, yes. Or Yeonbin hanging out on the balconies of their side by side apartments every night, having random late night convos. Until it wasn’t just random late night convos.

❥ • lose myself in a daydream (depression, mentions of previous character death, flashbacks, homophobia, angst with happy ending) ⤿ Taehyun was crashing a wedding. But not just any wedding. His ex’s wedding. There had to be an alien or ghost or something controlling his mind for this to really be happening. This wasn’t like him. He had more sense than to try and barge in on the day of his former boyfriend’s nuptials. Taehyun really shouldn’t be here. He knew that. He also knew that he wasn’t going to leave.

❥ • Pushed Aside (hogwarts au, established relationship, angst, hurt/comfort, miscommunication) ⤿ Taehyun comes to the saddening realisation that he is his boyfriend’s second choice.

❥ • The Stars Crossed Right For Us (we’re destiny) (hogwarts au, soulmates au, light angst, fluff, happy ending) ⤿ (hogwarts/soulmate au) choi beomgyu is scared of love. — beomgyu blames himself for falling in love in the first place. he’s spent years warning himself, yet he still failed, still fell like a fool nonetheless. but then again, maybe he was doomed the moment kang taehyun entered the equation.

❥ • The Stars Didn’t Shape Our Fate (we did) (hogwarts au, soulmates au, taegyu side-ship, soobin is shy, confident yeonjun, fluff, humour) ⤿ (hogwarts/soulmate au) huening kai, beomgyu and taehyun start a game called 'find soobin his soulmate’. - soobin always says he hopes to meet his soulmate soon. when he says that, he is thinking of bumping into someone by complete accident or finally chatting with a classmate he hasn’t talked to before. what he definitely doesn’t mean is for his friends to take matters into their own hands. (nor did he ever imagine that his first words to him will be ‘you look like a sexy lemon’)

❥ • can i stop the flow of time (can i swim in your divine) (time travel au, magic, bighit universe, implied homophobia, angst with happy ending) [ongoing] ⤿ so it is to beomgyu’s great surprise that when he happens across the center this time, fresh off the battlefield of the korean war, he finds another boy—another person—standing at the base of the tree and staring up, up, up into its grand branches. beomgyu blinks once, twice. this must be a mistake, some kind of glitch in the fabric of the universe. a loophole, maybe. beomgyu has visited the center millions on top of billions of times, at the very least. and yet in all those times, not once has he ever come across another person here. he hadn’t even thought it was possible. he hadn’t even thought there were others. perhaps he should have known better though. he’s human, after all. ——————— or, beomgyu and taehyun travel realities. against all odds they meet, and fall in love.

❥ • a new year’s kiss (fluff, light angst, love confessions, new year's kiss) ⤿ in which TXT’s New Year’s broadcast ends, leaving beomgyu feeling a bit unfulfilled and taehyun feeling still madly in love with him. ~~ or, all beomgyu wants is a new year’s kiss from taehyun

❥ • 04:00AM Confessions (college au, fluff, love confessions, cuddling, first kiss) ⤿“Hyung, I have a crush on you.” “What?” “Ah, wait,” Taehyun yawned, unfazed by his random confession as his eyes drooped, “I’m not supposed to tell you that. It’s a secret.” OR after spending a long, blissful night with their friends, Beomgyu takes it upon himself to assist Taehyun back to his dorm. Taehyun, being absolutely sleep-deprived, says a lot more than he intends to.

❥ • skateboards and books (highschool au, fluff, light angst, skater kang taehyun, librarian choi beomgyu, love confessions) ⤿ Skater Kang Taehyun falls for the junior librarian Choi Beomgyu

❥ • You, Me and This Tree (blue hour, sad ending, shortfic) ⤿ Beomgyu falls in love with his best friend under the tree with the orange leaves

❥ • Purple Lilacs (fluff, light angst, highschool au, secret relationship) ⤿ The night is quiet and Beomgyu can hear his own heart telling him that he’s in love.

❥ • bloom (hanahaki disease au, slowburn, pining, unrequited love, light angst) ⤿There were a lot of things Taehyun was worried about as a nursing intern, but falling in love had been the least of his concerns. (Hanahaki Disease!AU: Eventual Beomgyu x Taehyun, One-Sided Beomgyu x Yeonjun, Minor Yeonjun x Soobin)

❥ • dragonfruit (college au, friends to lovers, mutual pining, fluff, kissing) ⤿ beomgyu ^-^: come visit my island i know you’re online!! beomgyu ^-^: i’ll give you my fruits?? ㅠㅠ Taehyun stares at his texts balefully. When Yeonjun leans over his shoulder to look, he immediately bursts into laughter. “Dude, you are so whipped,” he says, and Taehyun briefly considers murder. (In which Beomgyu starts an Animal Crossing club at their university and drags a very tired, very whipped Taehyun along.)

❥ • This Magic Hour (hogwarts au, yeonbin, taegyu, one-sided sookai, fluff, angst, mutual pining, slowburn) ⤿ “i snuck into your common room because i was curious and everybody is staring at me because i have a different house’s uniform this is so embarrassing can you please pretend to know me”…and the fallout that occurs….and the other stuff that’s not said in school.

❥ • history is all we are (childhood friends, angst, fluff, pining, unrequited love) ⤿ a collection of all the times beomgyu rejects taehyun. and one time he realizes his mistake.

❥ • tell me who you are, i wanna know (highschool au, open ending, feelings, soft) ⤿ In which Beomgyu’s idea of a crime is a bit different.

❥ • our start line (soulmates au, canon compliant, yeonbinkai side-ship, trainee days, kang taehyun-centric, fluff, friends to lovers) ⤿ Remember our star song We were stars in it The melody that was shining with dreams Don’t forget, forever This place is our start line In a world where whatever song you listen to is also heard in your soulmate’s head, Taehyun can only hope that his soulmate doesn’t get sick of him and will accept his career choice. After all, he’s going to become an idol. The start of a collection of non-linear one-shots.

❥ • us against the world (soulmates au, highschool au, hurt/comfort, angst, enemies to lovers, fluff, not-soulmates) ⤿ There’s a rule that he sets for himself; to not fall in love with the likes of Choi Beomgyu Taehyun falls in love with him. A Not-So-Soulmate AU Based on 191227 Taegyu

❥ • “Accidently” in love (hogwarts au, amortentia, love confessions, light angst, fluff, happy ending, yeonbin side-ship) ⤿ Taehyun was having just a normal morning, eating breakfast and basking in the presence of his hidden crush- his best friend beomgyu. A mischievous plan and a pumpkin juice later, he now has a clingy and flirtatious friend. How will his heart possibly survive? Basically, beomgyu accidentally drinks amortentia and the first person he sees is taehyun.

❥ • splashes of colors (soulmates au, coffee shop au, yeonbin side-ship, fluff) ⤿ Beomgyu was just like the color yellow; fun and exciting to be around. He makes a great company - with his manners and humor. While Taehyun was like the color blue; calm and optimistic. Genuinely caring, Beomgyu feels like he’s surrounded by deep waves of calmness when he’s with the younger; wondering what may it feel like when he watches the ocean together with the person who embodies the color blue. Or In a world where everything is black and white until you meet your soulmate; Kang Taehyun finds his favorite color - yellow

❥ • Drive Me Crazy (soulmates au, highschool au) ⤿ soulmate au #1 taegyu in a world where soulmates have telepathic minds, the day will suddenly come where someone can hear the words that pops into their soulmate’s mind. and in the middle of Beomgyu’s math exam, he hears a voice of guy who’s cramming over the periodic table of elements.

❥ • like ocean waves (mermaid au, taegyu side-ship, soulmates au, magic) ⤿ Suddenly, Soobin felt like he was twelve years old again, standing by the edge of the ocean. Staring at a beautiful boy with golden scales on his cheeks. (Mermaid!AU)

❥ • could never want for more when you’re near (fluff, pining, kissing, soft, love confessions) ⤿ Taehyun can’t pretend to himself that this doesn’t affect him, this proximity. There had always been something different about the way he sees Beomgyu. And in the serenity of that darkened living room, there’s something about his warm weight leaning against his shoulder and the sound of his quiet breathing that sets a glow blossoming through his chest, and he’s lost once again.

❥ • I think my heart got lost (soulmates au, highschool au, mutual pining, slowburn) ⤿ In a world where your soulmate’s initials are tattooed on your skin since birth, Choi Beomgyu sets to find his as he transfers to Big Hit High School. He didn’t expect his soulmate would come in the form of wallflower Kang Taehyun.

❥ • In another life (I’ll keep my promise) (yeonbin side-ship, namjin side-ship, angst, violence, past lives, family rivalries, character death, happy ending) ⤿ Two individuals bound by a promise, now given a second chance on the love that they were robbed off from their last life.

❥ • The shipping problem got a bit too real (rivals to lovers, pining idiots, idiots in love, fluff) ⤿ Whatever, it’s not his problem. Taehyun keeps to himself and a rival like Beomgyu shouldn’t give much effect on him. Maybe Taehyun should focus more into studying than a boy that apparently the school ships him with. A boy that he supposedly hates.

❥ • What I’d Give (canon divergent, implied homophobia, fluff, angst) [ongoing] ⤿ “He would give his right arm if Taehyun broke his. He would give his other leg if Taehyun needed it. He would offer half of his lungs, his eyes, his ears, if Taehyun asked for it. But what Taehyun needed was his heart, and it was the one thing Beomgyu wasn’t sure he could give.” — When Taehyun’s deepest secret is revealed to the public, Tomorrow x Together have to navigate the new path carved out for them and figure out what it really meant to be together for every tomorrow. And over the years, Choi Beomgyu learns what unconditional love really means.

❥ • first kiss (canon compliant, fluff, first kiss) ⤿ Taehyun refuses an acting role, only making Beomgyu confused. He thinks he’s gotten away with it, until Beomgyu offers to take his place and suddenly, he can’t let it happen.

❥ • Everyone who loves you goes to heaven (hurt/comfort, angst with happy ending, choi beomgyu-centric, actor beomgyu, second chance, love confessions) ⤿ Beomgyu is definitely, absolutely, totally over Taehyun. Or at least he’s convinced himself that’s the truth, it was close enough. But then everything fell apart like this: A chance meeting, a misunderstanding, and a reminder of how fragile this new reality he’s built for himself is.

❥ • Strawberries and Potions (hogwarts au, taegyu side-ship, hurt/comfort, slowburn, fluff, angst, slice of life) ⤿ Soobin has made many mistakes in his life. There was the time he tripped on a mud pod in front of his primary school crush because he wanted to chase a frog. The time he obviously embarrassed himself in charms class by loudly admiring Kim Seokjin from afar, only for said boy approach him at the hallway two hours later and admitting he was a good boy but that he had a boyfriend and no intention of dating him. Of course, the time after that, literally two seconds of confessing he also found Kim Seokjin’s boyfriend, Kim Namjoon, cute. To said man’s face. While his boyfriend approached.

Nearly said Soobin has made plenty of these ground shattering, embarrassing mistakes but clearly this one topped all of them. By far.

❥ • Wildfire and Rain (highschool au, delinquent beomgyu, yeonbin side-ship, slowburn, mutual pining) [ongoing] ⤿ Beomgyu is the new transfer student that everyone fears with his stone cold gaze. Taehyun is an easygoing guy who laughs easily. It takes one rainy afternoon and a shared blazer for them to realise that maybe they’re not so different. OR: Beomgyu is a delinquent and Taehyun is the only one brave enough to talk to him.

❥ • stop repeating after me, it’s annoying (protective taehyun, spontaneous confession, lapslock) ⤿ in which beomgyu likes repeating after his best friend, taehyun’s words just to annoy him. though it is endearing, taehyun has had enough of it and he has an idea.

❥ • i don’t want to dance with you (highschool au, kang taehyun-centric, sweetheart choi beomgyu, lapslock) ⤿ in which kang taehyun’s date for prom chooses to not show up at the very last minute.

❥ • he never does this with me (best friends, jealous choi beomgyu, cute ending, lapslock) ⤿ let’s just say beomgyu is jealous because taehyun gets more love from toto.

❥ • Of T:Times And (whipped Kang Taehyun, oblivious Choi Beomgyu, light angst) ⤿ Just a story of Taehyun being his bratty and smartass self, which resulted Beomgyu to stop annoy him which in turn, results to Taehyun feeling empty.

❥ • so-so, lose control (canon compliant, practice kissing, ambiguous relationships, light pining) ⤿ “Hyung,” Taehyun interrupts. He opens his eyes, dark and wanting, then says, as straightforward as always: “Can you show me how you did it?” Beomgyu blinks at him, unsure if he’d heard that correctly. “What?” “Can you teach me how to kiss?”

❥ • i would not wish any companion in the world but you (We Are Each Other's Salvation) ( hybrid au, hurt/comfort, cat hybrid kang taehyun, human choi beomgyu, producer choi beomgyu, mentions of anxiety disorder, past psychological and physical abuse, friends to lovers, strangers to lovers) ⤿ A month after Beomgyu had first noticed the hybrid, it was fully autumn and the wind snapped at the leaves clinging pitifully onto the trees. Each time, the hybrid would already be asleep once Beomgyu had finished, and each time, when Beomgyu awoke the next morning he was already gone. It felt normal to have the hybrid by his porch now. But one day, something different happened. or an au in which cat hybrid taehyun always comes to sleep on beomgyu's porch, and the one time he doesn't turn up, beomgyu decides to go out and find him, beginning a long journey of love, kindness and affection leading up to the acceptance of oneself and all their flaws.

❥ • i like it when you sleep, for you are so beautiful yet so unaware of it (canon compliant, eternity era, friends to lovers, light angst, fluff, kang taehyun-centric, sleep talking, side-yeonbin) ⤿ Beomgyu sleep talks more often than not, and sometimes he can even hold a conversation. Of course, he never remembers them—only relying on his members to tease him or tell him about it the next time he's awake. So why is it that Taehyun is suddenly avoiding Beomgyu and getting embarrassed around him?

❥ • Rattle Bone Never Lies (although might be wrong sometimes) (second life au, college students, yeonbingyu housemates, lee soohyuk is the school's hot lecturer, beomgyu has ultimate faith on his bone, spy gyu is a mode for stalking) ⤿ Beomgyu has a suspicious feeling when it comes to the blonde he saw once and made his fourth rib bone tickles nervously. That must be it! They were enemies determined to kill each other in their past lives!

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my sputnik,

... you're my one and only

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SO is this is why I really get the Lorax vibes from him ever since he was introduced in the manga lol

Right side: The Once-Ler (The Lorax)

Left side: Mushitaro Oguri (Bungou Stray Dogs)

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BSD Fyodor Dostoyevsky: an in-depth character analysis

“Человек есть тайна. Ее надо разгадать, и ежели будешь ее разгадывать всю жизнь, то не говори, что потерял время; я занимаюсь этой тайной, ибо хочу быть человеком.” / “Man is an enigma. It must be unravelled, and if you will unravel it your entire life, then do not say that you have wasted time; I occupy myself with that enigma, because I want to be human.” – the writer Fyodor Mikhailovich Dostoyevsky, in a letter to his older brother, Mikhail (St. Petersburg, 16 August 1839)

The purpose of this post is to present and analyse information related to Bungou Stray Dogs’ Fyodor Dostoyevsky’s personality and methodology. Softer than shadow, unsolved and endless, Fyodor may as well “hide” his soul under our very eyes and we still would not know if that is the “real” him. This is my promised Fedya essay, an info-gathering analysis masterpost I hope you will enjoy and find useful for contemplating and coming to understand his complex character a little bit better.

Warning: merciless BSD manga spoilers. Literally spoiling everything. Also, this is an unbelievably long post (20200+ words). Have some lovely tea, listen to Rachmaninoff, and read in serene leisure or endlessly curious passion.

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Mushitaro+Yokomizo's parallels with other character pairings

I noticed a surprising amount of parallels between Mushitaro and his dead friend Yokomizo with the other characters in BSD (fyolai, dazai, ranpoe, sskk). There's even potential foreshadowing for the future of certain characters. Idk if anyone's done this before but I wanted to write something about it since we're meeting them in the anime soon. Just hear me out for a bit, and spoilers for the manga up to current events!

So Yokomizo is a mystery writer and his goal is to create the "Ultimate Mystery" greater than anything else in the genre. He achieved this by having his friend Mushitaro secretly kill him, turning his own death into a real life mystery. Basically, his death at his friend's hands brought him fulfillment.

This is a common theme in BSD characters: Death as an expression of love or death with the person you love bringing fulfillment. Yokomizo turned to Mushitaro to be the "key" to his death because Mushitaro is the only one he trusts. Mushitaro agreed to this plan because he cares about Yokomizo. He wants to "fulfill his friend's final wish" even if it hurts him in the process. This murder represented how much they loved each other. Chapter 56 shows Yokomizo telling Mushitaro "you truly are the only--" while Mushitaro cries:

To me this parallels Fyodor and Nikolai's storyline later on. Chapter 78 is where we find out that Nikolai wants to kill Fyodor because Fyodor is "the only one who gets him" (which sounds a lot like what Yokomizo's last words to Mushitaro were). Since Nikolai's goal is to go against his emotions, that means his actual desire is to keep Fyodor with him. Nikolai's basically saying "You're the one I have to kill because you're the one I love the most." Just like Mushitaro, it's death as an expression of love.

I believe the parallel is intentional since it's through Mushitaro that we first meet Nikolai in chapter 57. Isn't it fitting that the characters with very similar arcs serve as introductions to each other?

This could be more than just a cool parallel. It potentially foreshadows Nikolai's future if he does manage to kill Fyodor (or if he's fooled into thinking Fyodor is dead). We see what happens to Mushitaro after Yokomizo is dead. In chapter 69, he writes to Yokomizo as if he were still alive and cries while doing it. Then he hallucinates Yokomizo giving him advice in his time of need:

In the same chapter he says "I can't drum up much interest in the outside world any longer." While Yokomizo found fulfillment in dying, Mushitaro was left alive and suffering. Maybe this is what awaits Nikolai if he achieves his goal? I've seen people meme on this before, the whole Nikolai-kills-Fyodor-and-instantly-regrets-it but given this parallel, it's actually a possible direction for his character. But this is just a guess/meta/prediction so take it with a grain of salt.

On a lighter note, there's Ranpo and Poe. They also have a dynamic where they're the only ones who get each other, and that's the reason Poe wanted to kill Ranpo initially. The difference is they realized immediately that the other's presence fulfills them more than their death would. (good for Ranpoe for being the most stable pairing in BSD). From chapters 32 and 49:

The next parallel is Dazai and his constant desire for a double suicide. It's not as clear a parallel since there isn't any love here (he begs literal strangers for it). But he does have the same concept of death bringing fulfillment, even if the rest of the BSD cast is (rightfully) horrified/confused by it. Interestingly, he actually does commit suicide in the Beast universe... in the presence of Atsushi and Akutagawa. So like Yokomizo, he still wanted his death to be witnessed by meaningful company.

So is that all? I mean, the main duo of the series is Shin Soukoku but they don't seem to have any parallels with Mushitaro and Yokomizo. They try to kill each other yeah but they hate each other. This is supposed to be about death as an expression of love, or death by someone you love bringing fulfillment. What parallels could they possibly have with them?

Oh wait whats this--

oh. oh.

So Yokomizo had a terminal illness... with one year to live... and he used his friend as a last resort to finding fulfillment...

That sounds familiar...

Yeah... 🥲

Akutagawa desperately wants acknowledgement from Dazai before he dies. He thinks the only way he can achieve that is through his rivalry with Atsushi. Just like Yokomizo needed Mushitaro, Akutagawa needs Atsushi for his fulfillment. The fact that it can only be Atsushi PLUS the fact that Atsushi hallucinates Akutagawa telling him what to do in the recent chapter 105, similar to how Mushitaro hallucinated Yokomizo giving him advice in chapter 69? It shows they do find meaning in the other (even if it's not 'love').

Last bit of angst before this ends: if Yokomizo's illness truly is foreshadowing for Akutagawa's illness, then idk if I like that because it kinda foreshadows that Aku's ultimate fate really is to die even if he somehow manages to come back from being a vampire.

And that's fun. Everyone loves the thought of their favorite character dying :DD

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*GoSe courtroom*

Joshua: *as a judge* I hereby sentence you to ten years in prison.

Jeonghan: *unbuttoning his shirt* Your honor, maybe I can... Change your mind?

Joshua:

Joshua: Twenty years in prison.

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“That’s right.

No matter who the enemies are, they can’t win against my brain.

However, if I am to name one enemy who can stand against me, that would be…”

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a blank meme template for you and your homies!

here are some examples i have decided to grace you with

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Fyogol fic recs for @the-wholesome-ranpo

Fluff:

Foolish

The Disease Called Love

Crack:

The Bonding Activities of an Atypical Family

Fyodor and Gogol adopt Karma and Sigma, they go rob a Walmart together.

gay panic at the coffee shop

BSD Stress-Relief Chatfic

Chatfic with lots of Gogol and Fyodor harassing the agency.

Angst:

on which empires are built

Teenage Gogol escapes from a facility and saves child Fyodor from torture. They try to survive in harsh St Petersburg. Personal favorite, but pretty dark and angsty.

The Tears of a Clown

Lots of Chapters:

Rattus Rattus

Boarding school AU, very cute Nikolai and Fyodor interactions with a lovable Pushkin and Ivan as background characters. Also a favorite.

Cheese

This one is actually a SSKK with background Fyogol, but the Fyogol is still really prevalent and it’s such a great fic. College AU I guess? But very fleshed out and great humor.

Pretty sure there was no smut, it should all be safe.

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“I wish I had no heart, it aches so.”

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Louisa May Alcott, Little Women

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this is what happened right

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wait maybe its bc im lowkey dumb but i cant seem to understand nikolai's morals. Maybe bc when he was talking about how he understands what he does is wrong but another side of him doesn't really feel guilty, i read that a while ago and cant remember. Also why is so obsessed with being "free"?

don’t worry, ur not dumb lol. it took me a while to fully understand too. somehow this turned into a mini analysis so here we go 😭

nikolai gogol

— his obsession with freedom, killing, and fyodor (mini analysis? PFFFT-)

so it’s important to remember that one of the many themes in bsd is freedom. although it isn’t really visible and talked about (unlike the cycle of abuse), we can see the concept of “being free” shown in characters like nikolai, dazai, and fyodor (they’re all shown differently, mind you) but i’ll only talk mostly about gogol right now.

nikolai’s idea of freedom is complete erasure of feeling and connection. he believes that the true path to freedom is not being able to feel anything or not being tied down by your emotions.

now this is funny because he is completely attached to fyodor. and that is what scares him. being attached and dependent on something, especially a human, is scary. so that’s why he wants to kill fyodor. to erase the emotion inside of him.

in nikolai’s eyes, emotion drags people down, makes them weak and vulnerable. he believes that emotion causes conflicts—so erasing emotion must mean not having problems. if you can’t feel, you cannot be in pain. in a way, his logic makes sense.

nikolai views himself stuck in a cage and unable to get out. if he can’t “get out”—he’ll just erase the problem completely. in this case, his emotions (fyodor).

he gets attached to fyodor and then begins planning on killing him to erase that attachment and emotion. erasing his feelings means to be “free.” it’s evident that he has attachment issues.

he makes contradicting statements such as “i am a monstrous person” and “i am completely sane” going on to say he feels a sense of guilt and sympathy just like any other normal person.

i feel like these claims were more for himself; it was a wake up call for him because he realized that no matter how much he pretends to be an emotionless monster…he really isn’t. he is just trying to protect himself from all the pain and suffering he’s feeling. he views emotions as being trapped.

he doesn’t want to feel or associate himself with human beings. i think that’s the reasons for his clown costume. clowns are ridiculed, clumsy, tossed aside, and are considered comedic relief. nikolai uses this to put on a clown act of being hyper and crazy. he somewhat fakes and exaggerates his mania to seem full of emotion and much like a human. (sound familiar? a certain bandaged bastard also does this haha 😎)

except for the fact—he knows he is human. he feels human emotions, even though he doesn’t want to. when he says the line “i am completely sane,” it’s his way of ignoring his issues and running from his problems (sound familiar again 😎?)

in conclusion: nikolai, fyodor, and dazai are all the same breed of bastards. i think nikolai is very underrated, especially when it comes to parallels between characters. i know fyodor and dazai are considered parallels, but so is nikolai.

if anyone wants to add something more or correct me, feel free to do so 😎!!

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We are the Decay of Angels  .  .  . The five fingers who will bring the divine to their demise!

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Coffee with Akutagawa~

#bungou stray dogs #bsd #akutagawa #bsd ryunosuke #akutagawa ryunosuke #bsd fanart

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Fyolai Randomness 5

Fyodor: Oi Nikolai!

Nikolai: Yeah?

Fyodor: What're you gonna be for Holloween?

Nikolai: The IT clown-

Fyodor: Don't buy a costume.

Nikolai: Why?

Fyodor: You already look like a homicidal clown in your normal attire.