keepitkylie

[keepitkylie]

Today I am seven days sober. Today I am grateful to be alive.

[keepitkylie]

New Beginnings

Writing frees my mind. Well, at least it used to...

I struggle daily with my mental being, with a bit of help from my vices. Marijuana. Alcohol. Caffeine. Food. And worrying.

Recently, my Psychiatrist said to CUT all substances from my life due to the possibility of interactions. I'm struggling more than I ever have.

I never considered myself an addict. A passionate fun-loving gal who loves her weed? Sure! But an addict?? Never. I don't beg for money for Tequila or Opiates. I don't shake without having a drink in the morning. I don't steal items from my family to cover debts from gambling. I'm no addict.

WRONG. Addiction means a person has no control over whether he or she uses a drug or drinks. OR eats (I'll explain later). When control is lost, addiction creeps in.

I can't function without blaming my mood on "not smoking."

I can't come up with a reason not to have a drink at night.

I can't stop myself from taking my son's Easter peeps from his basket and quietly eating them in silence in a closet.

I'm Struggling.

-Kylie

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Lost 200lbs 👍🏼😎 #weightloss