junjiie

[junjiie]

bro…….i love u sm bro 💗

i love u too man ☺️💝

#trying out rping as bartender sunghoon to get in character #i need a full cast Ermm

[junjiie]

해찬  ##  🗯️ ⠀ &THEAFTERPARTY..

eighteen you won.

(･o･;) 💣 ⠀ previous mlist next

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taglist ## @wave2love @so2uv @mins-fins @kimgyuuu @wtfhyuck (perm) &&& @deafeningtyrantmilkshake @kosmicbomb @222brainrot @haohyo @dinonuguaegi

#post ch18 competition i won #this is gonna be done by august FR!!! #⠀? 동혁 🎱 ⠀ &theafterparty! #nct #nct dream #lee donghyuck #haechan #haechan smau #haechan x reader #donghyuck x reader #haechan x male reader #donghyuck x male reader #lee haechan

[junjiie]

im a little bit of a hikari fan srry.. next piece is a hii-focused piece 😣

WE STILL ALL CHEERED

#IM FUCKING CRYING I FORGOT I HADNT POSTED CH18 😭😭😭 #how abt 18 tn -> 19 friday -> 20 whenever i finish it

[junjiie]

i have many tragic things planned for niko now that thats done 😊 dw i wont make him too sad 🫶

You’re so funny. Lol. Who laughed

#SICK and TWISTED 😭😭😭

[junjiie]

─── AS LONG AS I HAVE YOU

⟡﹐ꊞ niko's relationships with WAYV !

⟡﹐ꊞ in the five years since their debut, niko has basically become the honorary member of wayv. he is usually seen spending most of not all of his time with the members, not as much as he does with his 127 members, of course, but they've basically become niko's unofficial second nct unit. he had previously already known three of the members, having made his debut with two of them in 2016, and the relationships he developed later on with the other members seemed to, in his own words anyway, "come up out of nowhere". wayv have basically become his comfort group, one of his many safe places, and yeah, he enjoys annoying all of them to death, but they know deep down that he loves them.

KUN & NIKO ( NIKUN ) !

much like with johnny, niko reverts to his annoying little brother form when around kun. the older is so incredibly tired of him, tired of his constant teasing and idiotic questions. if there is anything niko is good at, it's being a pain in kun's ass, he's as ruthless as the wayv members when it comes to making fun of him for his age (they are only 5 months apart in age). the moment niko steps into the room, kun lets out a distressed sigh and prays to god that their time together will be short. niko is like the annoying younger brother kun never asked for, one whose always poking him and bothering him when he doesn't need it.

for niko, kun has really become a voice of reason. if niko needs advice, he knows he can go to kun, because he will always be openminded and empathetic. despite how annoying he is (kun's words not niko's), the older always remembers to remind niko that he is an outlet for the younger if he ever feels like everything is too much. kun is literally apart of the rare collection of nct members who have seen niko cry, yeah it's that serious between these two. it is never something he would admit normally, because he spends most of his time poking fun at him, but niko loves kun a lot, he's very glad to have him in his life.

kun is very supportive of niko, always taking care of him even if the younger profusely refuses. he has a natural instinct to look out for the younger, pretty much able to tell if something is wrong with him from even a single look. niko is so stubborn, but he can never truly refuse getting taken care of by kun.

TEN & NIKO ( TENKO ) !

guys don't listen to them, they like to say they absolutely "hate each other" but everyone knows that they are both such horrible liars. they both became friends because it seemed like they had no other choice, they're both thai, 96 liners, amazing at everything that has to do with dance. despite what everyone else says, it did take them a while to get used to each other, mainly because niko was so unbearably awkward and ten just really wanted to be friends with him so bad but couldn't get him alone, it took them a while to get as comfortable with each other as they are now, conversations between them usually mediated by taeyong.

upon the beginning of their debut preparations, the two would truly start to bond. they would begin spending much more time together, now able to have conversations without another person having to start it first. they'd become much more comfortable with each other, able to give criticism and trusting each other to not take any of to heart. eventually, staying late at practice became a normal thing for them, whether they were redoing the dance over and over again, gossiping, or stating random facts about themselves to each other.

these late night practices, after some time, became a sort of staple of comfort for the two. ten learned many, many things about niko, things about his home life, his personal feelings, his true dreams, careers he wishes he could've pursued, he seemed to know more about the younger than his best friend ever (doyoung) even did. some things said have stayed only between them, and there's a certain solace in that to them. if you were to quiz ten on everything niko, he'd win with absolute ease, he has his masters degree in nikology.

they are very much how you expect them to be, constantly bickering over other bullshit no one cares about and gossiping during behind the scenes videos. ten can push niko's buttons so well that the younger almost always actively runs away when he shows up because the older is going to follow him around and talk his ear off until he gets so annoyed that he shoves him out of the room. they really only have two dynamics, they're either wrapped up in each other's arms or chewing each other out at every chance they can. truly a duo for the ages.

NIKO & WINWIN ( WINKO ) !

guys, tell sicheng to text niko back, he misses him. its no surprise to anyone that niko, just like everyone else in this mess of a group, is mortifyingly in love with winwin. what kind of hold does this guy have on nikolas and why is it so strong? nctzens shall never know the true answer to that, but it seems that sicheng is much more lenient with niko than he is with the other members that constantly profess their undying love for him. he awkwardly accepts all of niko's love confessions, hugs, and cheek kisses with nothing but short chuckles.

niko's infatuation for sicheng began way back during fire truck era, though both of them were as quiet as the other, and though they didn't talk to each other in many promotional videos, their friendship slowly formed behind the scenes. most of their interactions were through text and whispered words after comeback stages, all of their conversations in their early debut years, if they even did have one, would either be cut off by another member or would stop abruptly because the two of them had no idea what to talk about, sort of just standing there awkwardly with each other.

it wasn't until after limitless promotions died down that the two could finally have a full conversation. late in the night, riddled with his usual insomnia, niko would call an also awake sicheng and ask if they could go out to eat, a friend date of sorts, he even offered to pay for food. niko has to admit, it was really the only way he could get sicheng alone, the only way he could ever have a one on one conversation with him. so, at two in the morning, niko and sicheng walked the streets of seoul searching for unique street foods and talking about whatever came to their minds.

they talked through their somewhat fluent korean, sicheng trying his best to teach niko mandarin words that the older definitely pronounced wrong no matter how hard he tried. and if you're wondering, yes, niko did pay for all the food they got that night. though niko was met with many pouted shouts from his members for 'favoring winwin' (as if they all don't do that), the two did grow closer from this little friend date they went on. maybe there were more of these friend dates in the future, but both niko and sicheng are keeping that a hidden fact from their fellow members.

niko, though usually reserved and easygoing, becomes the giddiest person ever around sicheng. whenever he sees him around, he acts like a teenage girl with a crush, throwing so much affection at him that by the time sicheng can escape his hugs, his face is burned red and he's struggling to speak coherently. though niko often jokes with sicheng, he genuinely loves him a lot, sicheng is one of his favorite members, but shh! don't tell any of his other members he said that.

NIKO & XIAOJUN ( NIXIAO ) !

dejun was honestly intimidated by niko when he first met him. they immediately met awkwardly, though they knew of each other's existences, they never got anywhere past a few "hello's" and smiles exchanged in the hallways. dejun was really doing everything to avoid niko, even with how the older was polite and already close to his other groupmates, he wasn't ready to actually talk to him one on one, niko honestly sort of terrified him upon their first real interaction after wayv's official debut, he stuttered through most of his words as he averted eye contact with the older, who was congratulating and complimenting the members to sheer heights.

dejun's niko avoidant attitude didn't go unnoticed by his fellow wayv members, especially ten, who accused him of having a small crush on the older dancer (and maybe he did in just the slightest but it was more of a crush out of admiration!), an accusation that the vocalist was quick to deny with reddened cheeks and abruptly yelled responses. he really did avoid niko as much as he could for the rest of 2019, not ready to strike a conversation with the older, he felt like the moment he tried to talk he would mess up, trip, fall on his face and then be so embarrassed he could never face him ever again.

but dejun couldn't avoid niko for long, because he would come face to face with the older in his own dorm midway through resonance promotions. niko wasn't there on his own accord, he had been dragged there by ten after the older caught him almost working himself to death in the practice room. so dejun was pretty much forced to talk to niko, as the older was quite literally sitting in the kitchen of his dorm, sort of just letting the room consume him whole. it was common knowledge that niko wasn't really doing his best this era, and dejun could clearly see it with the way he was handling himself.

so, the younger decided to do his best at the whole cheering him up bit. the two of them finally had a full fledged conversation (or dejun sort of just rambled and niko listened intently, afraid of breaking down into tears if he even uttered a word). they shared jokes, secrets, and really just talked. though niko was still in the middle of a horrible mental spiral, the interaction really became a staple of comfort to him, and dejun reminded him that if he ever needed someone to talk to, he was available, even if he did almost avoid him for half a year because he had a sort of crush on him and was scared he'd make some mistake while talking to the other.

they became much closer after the interaction, the conversation basically the building blocks to their friendship, a friendship that, even today, is still highly regarded as one of the most underrated nct friendships ever. dejun really does admire niko a lot, he would say he is somewhat of a niko fanboy (words he will never ever say out loud), often mentioning him in stories during solo lives and describing him as "one of jupiter's orbiting moons, probably callisto". these days, dejun is still suspected to have even the smallest of a crush on niko remaining, claims he still very much denies through red ears and stuttering words.

NIKO & HENDERY ( SUHEN ) !

though they met with the same awkwardness niko met dejun with, they became closer much more quickly than niko did with the previous 99 liner. for staters, hendery really wanted to get to know niko, the older simply peaked his interest, and he made an effort to talk to him when he appeared to congratulate wayv on their eventual debut. he wouldn't get to see niko as 2019 ended, much to his own dismay, but they did have a few golden interactions during that year, interactions that hendery would've proudly framed on his wall with how much he was obsessing over them at the time.

hendery would eventually persuade ten into giving him niko's number, but he hesitated before ever sending him that first text. it's not that he was nervous or anything, he just didn't know what to say! and niko wasn't really.. online in 2020, when hendery was pacing around his room, trying to figure out what to text him. it was at this time that niko wasn't really talking to anyone, retreating back into himself and really only ever sending them fake smiles to his members to mediate their worries. it was midway through resonance promotions that hendery could finally text him, during the stage for misfit, that niko had made a slight error, an error that he quickly took to heart, if the curses he muttered under his breath were any indication. noticing how down he felt, and finally wanting to take a step, hendery texted niko a 'you did well' later that night, a text that niko appreciates even to this day, even a small gesture like that was enough to make his shitty day better, especially because he felt as if he ruined the whole stage with his mistake.

hendery would then approach him the next day during their stage for misfit, awkwardly trying his best to make small talk with the reserved older, who was clearly upset. though niko just stared at hendery as he went on a small rant about how niko shouldn't be so hard on himself because he's such a good dancer and everyone thinks so, he also threw in a few very specific compliments that niko couldn't help but laugh, honestly enamored by them. hendery, glad he could cheer up niko, pretty much stayed by his side for the rest of the stage, arms wrapped around him and head placed on his shoulder. niko didn't do anything to shoo him away, finding his display cute.

even with how cute they are, hendery is never going to let niko rest, poking fun at him for his age and annoying him by yelling in his ear every few minutes to make him stop zoning out, or literally poking him, according to hendery, niko has super soft cheeks, a claim that niko always just rolls his eyes at. hendery will never waste an opportunity to show up at niko's place, often using the excuse of wanting to see susi to justify his almost weekly trips over to his the older's house. he genuinely does want to see niko, but he doesn't say that with his own mouth because he would never hear the end of it from everyone else if he did. sometimes though, in especially tough moments, hendery will mutter the words to niko, a small smile etched on his face. niko really does appreciate hendery, yeah the younger gets on his nerves on most occasions, but it's all in good heart.

NIKO & YANGYANG ( NIYANG ) !

they were introduced in the same awkward fashion niko met the two previous members with, but yangyang was dead set on getting close to him, even more than hendery was, but he was much more reserved about it. yangyang was also very intimidated by niko, a fact that ten quite literally laughed at when he disclosed it to him. despite the fact that he told yangyang there was nothing to worry about, and that niko was really just an awkward guy who seemed intimidating, yangyang's worries weren't immediately mediated, he could really only give him small smiles when they would find each other in the halls of sm, yangyang was sort of afraid of encountering niko, not because he thought the older would punch him in the face or something, but because he was scared of coming off as awkward and not impressive.

when they were both put in misfit, yangyang really couldn't avoid niko anymore, though he tried his best to, ten quite literally dragged him by his arm to the other 96 liner, forcing him to face his fears and have a conversation with him face first, a decision that yangyang glared at him for at the time, but he thanks him for now. yangyang pretty much almost died trying to have his first conversation with niko, he stuttered at least three times and his face was completely red by the time they concluded their talk, but it was the right move, because from that moment onward, yangyang would slowly begin striking up much more conversation with niko.

yangyang quickly found a sort of comfort in niko, he's the kind of person he can easily confide in, someone yangyang can let go around. niko is sort of an.. enabler in a way, encouraging yangyang to make kun's life as much as a living hell as possible. yangyang is, with all things considered, a huge niko fan, he probably runs a secret fanpage we don't know about. it's often that yangyang accompanies hendery on his trips to niko's place, but he uses the excuse of wanting cookies to hide the fact that he just really likes seeing the older.

niko likes to describe yangyang as "a crossbreed of annoying and absolutely adorable", because while he truly loves the younger, he continues to get irritated by his countless comments. while they started awkwardly, you would've never known that with how they are now, yangyang is basically niko's son in addition to like half of nct dream (again excluding mark). he constantly gets on niko's nerves, but the older also finds him too cute to ever actually punch in the face. yangyang is very much competing with dejun for the role of president of the niko fan club, he likes to believe he's winning this competition. he's a much bigger fan of niko's strawberry scones, though.

#TENKOOOO #Bad bitch and a baddie friend! #niyang omg 😭😭 cutiesss #WINKO R CUTE ASL TOO HELLO

[junjiie]

niko rs with wayv tmrw bc im tired 🙁 (if you make a chenle smau i might explode and die)

ive alr got a plot IJBOLLL im planning to finish afterparty by the summer 🤗 shld i spoil for u

#sunghoon fc because its funny and fits tje plot. To me #ANW RS W WAYV YESDDDDSSS WE CHEERED

[junjiie]

EPISODE 2 ❛  meliora ❜ 

𖥻 meliora.. is a latin adjective meaning "better", or a noun meaning "better things", "always better", or "for the pursuit of the better", it's first known use is from 1851 word count 0.7k

"I'm not trying to nag but can you like, speed up the process a bit?"

"You are nagging, shut up and be patient".

Minsu drops his arms to his sides, letting out a gasp as offense as Haru rolls his eyes at his misery, he would give a shit if he wasn't busy trying to force his way into the prinicpal's account. He has to find a way to make sure all of their information is altered, just so nothing from their previous case in Taiwan comes crawling back to them.

"You took less time hacking into that high end security database back in Tsuen Wan!"

"Forgive me for being tired" Haru snaps, his tongue poking against his inner cheek as he stares at his computer, when he hears another snappy remark from Minsu, he sticks his tongue out at him, giving him another eye roll.

"This would be much easier if we had just been given aliases like at the last university we went to.." Huifen walks over and places his chin on the older's shoulder, blinking at the log in page presented on the computer screen. "You try guessing the password?"

The question is a teasing one, Huifen trying to poke at the older by inquiring dumbly like how Minsu does. Haru sucks his teeth, gently pushing the grinning Huang away. "Of course I've tried that! But it's hard to guess what kind of password a grown man is going to have!"

"Do we know his name?"

The hacker leans back in his chair, humming at Siwon's question. "Lee Huicheol, he's been running the place for about fifteen years, took the position of principal after the former principal quit under mysterious circumstances" Haru makes sure to do air quotes when saying the last two words, he earns a few weird sounds from his teammates, who are clearly confused by what those last words are supposed to mean.

"Mysterious circumstances?"

"That's just what I heard, nothing else was said".

Yunseo narrows his eyes. "That's oddly suspicious".

"Uh huh" Haru turns back in his chair, cracking his knuckles out of anxiousness as he prepares to take another hundred guesses at his password before fully hacking into the system. "I'm about to smash this computer to smithereens" He mutters.

"Don't get worked up over some technology, Haru".

"That's kind of like.. my job".

Yunseo lets out a laugh at the joke, and the fourth eldest focused on his goal of hacking into the account.

"Try something weird like.. uh— sexy babes".

Haru cringes at the words from Ren, only deadpanning at him through his peripheral vision, he presses down onto the spacebar excessively in annoyance. "You're so weird".

"What? Some guys are have strange passwords like that".

"Think you might be snitching on yourself there" Nicholas yells from another part of the dormitory, a shout which Ren is quick to respond to with his usual angry rebuttal.

"You wanna die, Pham?"

Huang Huifen watches as his fellow same aged teammates begin wrestling around the floor, trying their best to claw each other's eyes out. It's a callback to their old training, these two have always been much more into it than they should've been. "What are you doing?" Siwon deadpans at the sight, Minsu trying to hide his snickers behind his hand, clearly failing.

"Anyway.. they're not gonna figure out anything, right?"

Haru ignores the playfighting going on between his same aged friends, turning to the worried looking youngest, who is rocking back and forth on his heels as he looks over his shoulder. "How long have we been doing this? No serious authorities have seemed to be catching on, yet".

"And what if they do?"

Haru finds the question baffling, yeah Yunseo has always been the most sensitive of the team, but the inquiry is enough to have him furrowing his eyebrows. The youngest quickly notices his heavy stare, because he's quick to continue with sputtering words. "I mean like— what happens if they do find out about us?"

"We all go to jail, duh".

The blunt answer gives Yunseo just a little bit of a shock, but Haru doesn't spend enough time staring at him to see the look cross his features, he has no time for that.

"Pick up the pace Luther!"

All Haru does as a response is flip off his yelling teammate.

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#MELIORA MENTIONED HAECHAN GET OUT HERE YOUR NEW NAME IS YOHAB #u forgot the numbers silly the password is obvs SexyBabes64 #we’re ac on an updating roll tdy omg ??!

[junjiie]

the way you look should be a sin.

if mark’s at your door, the only thing you’re going to do is let him in ！⠀⸻⠀mark lee x gnr ⠀ fluff (?) pre rs ⠀ wc 1.4k ⠀ now playing . . ☆

생각⠀my girlfriend! my! girlfriend! thnku isa for inspiring me to write this he’s kind of the only thing important ever

you hadn’t really been properly asleep anyway, having drifted off in a half-slumber after scrolling mindlessly on your phone for a while, and you supposed that was why the sudden sound of it ringing from its place still loosely clasped in your hand woke you up so easily. everything was still vaguely blurry when you pushed yourself onto your elbows, squinting hard in order to see the name of the contact flashing across your screen. mark met your eyes, and you flopped backwards onto your mattress before tapping the accept button and then pressing the same hand to your mouth to stifle a yawn.

“are you awake?”

you pulled the phone back from your ear to aim a slightly incredulous look at it, even if you knew your best friend would’ve been none the wiser to the expression.

“i mean, i am now. what is it, markles? did you forget something?”

mark stumbled over his next words, muttering them under his breath more than anything. “no, but.. ah, nevermind, dude, it’s fine. i don’t know why i called.”

you sat up slightly in your bed, ignoring the slight chill the blanket falling away from yourself gave you, eyebrows furrowed a little in concern at the unsure tone of your friend. “mark? what’s up?”

he started to say something more but cut himself off, words trailing off into nothing. it was silent on the phone for a few moments then, only the sound of your shared faint breathing coming through the lines until he finally got his words together and spoke up properly.

“i’m, um. i’m outside your apartment.”

that woke you up fully, eyes widening a little as you stood up out of your bed, leaving it unmade as you padded over to your window and looked down more than a few floors to the street outside—where, if you squinted, you could almost make out mark’s figure lit up by the streetlights and standing alone on the pavement, recognisable mostly by his familiar fleece jacket.

“what the fuck, mark? i’ll buzz you in, come on. you must be freezing, i don’t—why are you over here so late? did donghyuck sexile you, or something?”

you stayed at the window just long enough to watch his small head shake before moving over to your door in order to let him up, shivering again with the now complete lack of your blanket.

“nah, he’s at jeno’s. i just.. i don’t know. i missed you, man.”

the words made you stop in your tracks, for a second. his voice was small, but it sounded sincere—and it was sincere, you knew it was, because mark couldn’t have told a lie even if he was paid to do it. had been earnest since before he knew what it meant. you covered how choked up you suddenly felt by scoffing, depsite it sounding weak even to your own ears.

“yah, you sweet talker, you probably just want me to make you a hot chocolate. get up here already, hm?”

his laugh was barely that, sounded more like an exhale of air than anything, but you were glad for it all the same. quiet fell over the two of you again, but this time it was more comfortable, with only the idle sounds of the elevator and his footfalls coming all the way to your door. 

“see you in a sec,” was all you murmured through the line before hanging up and shoving your phone into the pocket of your sweats, fiddling with the lock on the door for a moment, another, before it was finally open and mark was standing before you. 

he looked tired—you weren’t surprised, seeing the last time you checked it was creeping past two in the morning—but his mouth still curved up into a small smile that you mirrored with ease, beckoning him in and pushing the door shut behind him, reaching out with the tips of your fingers to slide the lock into place.

“so what’s up, markl—“

before the nickname could fully pass your lips mark was falling into you, head finding solace tucked into the crook of your neck hands coming up to loosely grip onto the fabric of your shirt on your waist. his fingertips were red from the cold, but his cheek was hot from where it was resting on your shoulder. 

“can we.. go t’bed?”

it was just as mumbled as it’d been over the phone, but this time a lot louder—he was right next to your ear, after all, the periodic soft exhales hitting your skin causing little shivers running across it that weren’t from the chill, this time. you simply nodded in answer to his request and attempted to detach yourself from his grip to walk him over to your unmade (but comfortable, you defended to yourself) mess of a bed, but mark made a vaguely whiny noise of protest and clung onto you tighter.

your laugh came out a little too high in the dead silence of your apartment, hoping even if mark did notice the way your ears burned a little hotter that he’d be kind enough (or tired enough, at least) not to bring it up as you slowly walked him to the sheets, trying not to trip up on his feet shuffling backwards, trying not to focus on the way he felt so malleable in your careful hold.

“take this off,” you murmured lowly once you’d reached the foot of your bed, tugging gently at the fleece he was still wearing and trying not to cringe at how suggestive your words sounded even if your intentions were innocent. you focused on nudging at his feet, too, where his shoes were still on. “and these. you’re not putting your dirty trainers anywhere near my blanket, markles, for real.”

“mm.” was all he hummed in reply, but didn’t move from his spot. you were ready to do it for him if it came down to it, but before you could reach for the zipper of his jacket he taking half a step back, barely out of your space, and doing it himself. they were left lying idle on your floor once he’d rid himself of both the offending items, but you figured they’d be just fine for a night—it wasn’t like you didn’t have a few hoodies and jeans doing exactly the same thing while you avoided putting them away properly for a day or two longer.

where you stopped in your place once he had deemed himself ready go, unsure of what move to make next, mark had no such qualms. he let himself fall back onto your sheets and got himself comfortable like they were his own, the way his brow furrowed when he didn’t see you following a clear indication of what he wanted you to do, and you found yourself being able to do nothing but comply with his wishes, slipping in next to him after abandoning your phone on the bedside table.

the lights were faint, streetlights only just shining in through your window, but you could still see his brown eyes trained on your own as you led there face-to-face. you tried to speak but, embarrassingly enough, your throat failed you, and so you only tried again after turning to the side for a moment to clear it. 

“are you okay?”

the smile was back. still small, still sincere. “i am now.” and. oh. mark was so—lovely, sometimes. all the time. you didn’t know what to do. but it seemed you didn’t need to, because then he was turning over, away from you, and then shifting backwards until it was all too clear right where he wanted you.

and so, swallowing back the way you felt choked up for the second that evening, you shuffled closer and slung an arm over his hip, feeling him relax under your touch almost instantly. it was more than the just your blankets providing you with warmth, now. mark had always run a little hotter.

“night, markles.“ you mumbled half-into the nape of his neck, lips almost brushing his skin. there was a light sound as he tossed a hand back to find where yours was resting on his side and squeezed once. twice.

“see you t’morrow, ynnie.”

and that was all it needed to be. a boy in your arms, both in your bed. sharing warmth until the sunlight pouring in through your windows would force you to leave it. as simple as that.

#he’s my baby sorry #tbis is so plotless what even happened. i dont know. i love mark. the way u look shld b a sin u my sensation. #im in tears I LOVE MARK LEE 😭😭😭💗

[junjiie]

EPISODE 8 : ❛ platonically sleeping together ❜

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#i give up the act. i do want to sleep with him. Sory guys #my girlfriend 😭😭😭😭😭🙏💗 #also ten what the efffffff no one likes a snitch fr 🤓☝️ even if all he’s saying is true

[junjiie]

might drop a cutieful mark fic tn if im feeling really crazy

#blame isa’s last night hello #he’s so aegi 😭😭😭💝 #my girlfriend

[junjiie]

pearls.

&&. its easy to let go around you, mark is so glad he has you as an escape.

pairing: mark lee x m!reader

genre: angsty but it ends fluffy, idol x regular joe

warnings: mentions of overworking

word count: 1.4k

notes: wrote this for the n01 markf ever in the world!!!! if yk who you here, yk who you are 🫶 anw, i am so terribly in love with mark this is absolutely vile 🙁 save me from this insanely pretty canadian man (DONT SAVE ME), if you can forgive me for not updating for literally TEN DAYS, take this as my apology.. i am so so very corny so those little ending love confessions come from real words i have said to my own very real bf 😞 again sorry for not updating for very long my knee is pretty injured AND life is so shitty.. okay i love you all bye 😓

you won't try to come up for an explanation as to why you were up at one in the morning.

yeah you were tired, but you were still up making coffee in your kitchen. your mind was racing with thoughts of work, god your job stresses you out so much, it's going to end up killing you one day, you can't close your eyes without hearing the loud shouting of your manager and overbearing customers who think they own the world.

sleep has never came easy to you, so coffee at one in the morning it is. the aroma of roasted beans makes it's way around the air of your kitchen, a smell that has become a staple of comfort to you, yeah the excessive coffee intake might kill you someday, but right now? right now you felt like you were in heaven.

your coffee drinking is interrupted by a knock at your day, your head shoots up like your a deer caught in headlights, and you blink at the unmoving wooden door of your unit. you're not expecting anyone, and especially not at one in the morning. your mind races with questions as you place the heated mug onto your kitchen counter, groaning silently as you make your way over to the door.

you can't think of who could possibly be at your door, maybe your manager? one of your coworkers? a guy from amazon delivering a package originally for your neighbors?

the last option seems like the most probable one, so when you open your door, you prepare a small sentence for the delivery person you expect to be at your door. "for the last time unit 17 is on the second floo—"

you pause as you open the door, it is not a random delivery guy from amazon. when you look up to meet the eyes of the person who had knocked on your door, you come face to face with a person you had missed more than anything.

mark.

you find a small smile coming to your face at the sight of your boyfriend, but your smile falls as you take in how he looks. his eyes are red and puffy, he's fidgeting with his sweater strings, and he's bitten his lips so hard that they've begun bleeding. your lips turn downward at the sight before you, he looks stressed, he looks miserable.

"oh god, hi babe, i didn't even know you'd come around".

mark blinks at you, continuing to fidget with the strings of his sweater, the sweater he's wearing is one you bought for him back last year when you went on that trip to vancouver. "sorry" he whispers, blinking again. "i just— i don't know i feel overwhelmed".

you tilt your head, immediately getting what he meant by that. you open your door wider, pausing mark's fidgeting momentarily to grab his left hand to intertwine it with yours. "come in" you don't wait for his response, just tug his hand gently, lurching him forward into your unit and smoothly closing the door behind you.

you catch on to mark's heightened anxiousness, but he seems to be want to be avoiding that topic as much as possible. "did something happen?"

mark is quick to shake his head, way too quick, you narrow your eyes at him and his weird change in behavior. "no, nothing, i'm just.. work, it's all becoming just a little too much for me".

ah, a small frown forms again on your lips. mark is a hardworking person, you know that, but it sometimes all gets to his head, those unbearable thoughts that he's not doing well enough, the unbearable feeling of anxiety that settles whenever he thinks about his future as a musician, the feeling that he's not doing enough even though he already does so much.

you hate that this has become a familiar sight. a distressed mark with tears welled up in his eyes, clearly trying his best to stay put together as he stood in front of your door, each time, it seemed to be getting worse and worse.

you've seen mark at so many of his lows, many more than you like to count, and just the thought of him feeling like he isn't doing enough upsets you.

you're not thinking about anything else when you step forward, not your untouched coffee on the counter, not your shitty job, nothing but making mark feel better. your arms wrap around him instinctively, and you loop your left arm around his waist to pull him into a hug, a hug he doesn't try to fight.

you hear a small sniffle leave mark as you tighten your hold on him, a few years escape his eyes, wetting the top of your sleeve, but you don't care, much too busy embracing him. "i'm sorry, i'm so sorry" your words are nothing but a small whisper in the expanse of your apartment, as if a secret shared only between the two of you, but mark hears your words well, he hears everything he has to. you raise and press a kiss to his forehead, an act of affection that just makes mark even more emotional than he expected.

"you shouldn't have to feel like this, you work so hard, you do so much.."

your mutters only get a small chuckle in response, and you just snicker as well.

mark has always found it easy to let go around you, it's been a staple of your relationship since forever, even before you began dating. around you, he doesn't feel like he has to put on a show, he doesn't have to live up to all of these unrealistic expectations. with you, he doesn't have to be world famous idol mark lee, he doesn't have to be star trainee mark lee, he doesn't have to be perfect, flawless mark lee.

with you, mark can let go, he can just be himself.

mark has no idea what he'd do without you.

when you pull away, arms still caged around mark, he doesn't let go immediately, head still pressed against your shoulder.

nothing else matters at the moment to you. so, instead of trying to move away from him, you let him begin moving you backward, you just allow for him to, lightly squeaking when he pushes you onto the couch and quickly moves to lay on top of you.

you giggle at his dedication, but he doesn't say anything more, just wraps his arms around you and lays his head onto your chest, listening to the beating of your heart. "you tired?"

mark just nods against your chest, letting out a small sigh as he cracks one eye open to glance at you. "y/n?"

"hm?"

"i love you.." he mutters, grabbing your hand and lacing his fingers with yours. "love you so much, i'm so happy i have you".

you laugh. "mark—"

"hush" he places a finger against your lips, cutting off your oncoming words. "let me finish" he gives a tired smile as he continues.

"i can't believe how lucky i am to have you, your always here taking care of me and i.. i can never figure out how to repay you, you're one of the best things to ever happen to me, everything becomes much more bearable with you, i love you so so much it's literally driving me crazy".

you blink as you listen to mark pour his heart out to you. he has always been like this, oh you're so in love, even at some of his lowest points, he never fails to remind you that he loves you, and that he feels so deeply for you. his words always strike you in a strange place, they always get a smile and red face out of you.

oh mark lee always knows how to leave you speechless.

"hey" you whisper, noticing mark slowly looking away from you. "you don't have to repay for me for anything, i'm your boyfriend, i'm always going to look after you because you're wellbeing is important to me, and don't start with all of that, you're one of the best things to happen to me".

mark snorts silently. "love you".

"love you more".

mark leans closer, moving his soft hand against yours. "i know" he whispers.

you run your fingers through his hair, slowly coaxing him to sleep with your ministrations.

"good".

#shiit if n01 markf ever in the world isnt me im gonna have to fistfight someone #HE’S MY BABY 😭😭😭😭😭😭 oh mark lee i want to hold you. My boyfriend. #need to kiss him on the face or im going to start genuinely tweaking and crying and throwing up and no one’s going to be happy #I LVOE HIMMMMM i feel sick to my stomach isa why did you do tbis #Mannnn. I’m devastated 😂😂

[junjiie]

INTRODUCING reaching for the skies!! ⤷ aka: our main cast

──── ⭒ EVERYONE at skyline highlights, whether an employee or a customer passing by has heard of them. it makes you giggle, how they sound like some weird popular gang of high schoolers who everyone wants to be like, like the heathers, or the plastics. they definitely do have the vibe, because some of them seem to hate each other, but they all seem to have the same thing in common, they all want to convince you into ghosthunting.. for some reason.

yn. iced coffee addict and newly appointed product manager ln yn is just a little bit skeptical of this new job he seemed to get so easily. after his college degree became pretty much useless and his parents threatened to disown him (for no reason at all too! like hello his brother is right there??), this is pretty much his last hope for a life long career. he thinks it's a bit weird that his coworkers insist on telling him stupid ghost stories and tales, surely no one actually died in this building..right?

taeil. assistant manager moon taeil seems to truly be the only person of reason in this group of "friends". he doesn't really mind the shenanigans his coworkers are dragging him into, he engages in his own spreading of ghost stories from time to time, but he hopes they stop getting into all of these near death situations, he can't save them forever!

johnny. marketing coordinator johnny suh has it all figured out. he's tall, funny, smart, extremely good looking, how is he still single? probably because of his fear of the word "commitment". he really is a nice guy, just sucks at flirting, can spirits help with his lack of romantic chemistry in life? he hopes they can! or else all of his ouija board playing is for nothing.. (well not for nothing, he gets to spend more time with you!)

taeyong. team leader and supervisor lee taeyong only has one job, to make sure everyone else is doing their job, and to make sure everybody is on the same page. he seems to be good at everything, and so flawless too, how does such a guy exist? you can't tell. you also can't tell if he's flirting with you or just complimenting you like he does with everyone, and he doesn't seem keen on helping you figure out that difference either.

yuta. publicist nakamoto yuta seems to be the least trustworthy person for that position. can you trust a word that escapes his lips? probably not, but that's what makes him so interesting! he never seems to actually work, because whenever you see him, he's just walking around, telling stupid jokes and scaring interns with the legends of the ghosts that walk the halls. he seems to be doing everything to prove you wrong, a wannabe ghostbuster i see..

doyoung. financial analyst kim doyoung is the only person in this godforsaken friend group focused on the important thing, work. he doesn't pay mind to the groups stupidity, or their ghost stories, but it seems that he harbors a grudge towards a certain higher up who enjoys singling him out. it seems that he doesn't like you much, often giving you the cold shoulder, but that won't stop you from trying to at least become friends with him. since when did he believe in ghosts? how weird.

jaehyun. communications coordinator jeong jaehyun is a strange guy. he has such a pretty face but says the weirdest things, he's lucky he's handsome, or else he'd already have received a punch from johnny. he seems interested in getting to know you, but you can't tell his serious intentions from his.. unserious ones, but there is one thing consistent with him, he definitely doesn't want to be just friends.

jungwoo. advertising director kim jungwoo is probably the most impulsive person you've met. he's charming, charismatic, could probably convince you into doing anything with just wording the phrase a certain way, no wonder he's in charge of advertising. he's very into the whole "ghosthunting" thing, he so badly just wants to get you in on it, seems he wants to get you in on other things too.. things you can't exactly determine.

mark. creative director mark lee is the dream guy. good looking, well-mannered, fun to talk to, mostly funny, he's everything you'd want in a boyfriend. well— he's actually much more of a loser than people realize, he trips and falls on his face at least twice a day. a firm ghost believer too, he really wants those spirits to be real, much to the dismay of a certain product manager, he thinks it'd be cool! his boss probably wouldn't, though.

haechan. head of operations— yes you read that right, head of operations lee donghyuck is somehow trusted to be the head of this team in skyline highlights. don't tell him, but i heard he only got the position because his dad couldn't find anyone else to take it over after he resigned.. it seems that work is the furthest thing on his mind, considering he spends most of his day making that financial analysts life a living hell and following around the assistant manager to ask stupid questions. he seems to have a strange infatuation with you, or is that also just the spirits? you can't tell.

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#you can have the rest of them guys.. i want johnil and that’s it 🤗💗🙏 #i would say johnmarkil but i fear mark will be high in demand so im playing it safe #shiit i want kundery too though IDGAF if they’re not in the main cast

[junjiie]

PICK UP THE PHONE..PLEASE ?

Yeah Hikari could answer the phone.. but he's afraid of what might come after he does.

FEATURING ⊹ fukushima hikari, heo minjae, kang seojun, & other NCT ensemble. TIMESTAMP ⊹ LATE JUNE 2023, PRE-ISTJ ERA. WARNINGS ⊹ swearing, mentions of hikari's evil ex boyfriend. WORD COUNT ⊹ 1k NOTES ⊹ of course hikari had to be the main character in my sei writing debut 😞 sorry guys i just really like him a lot, i would've included a reference to zixin's relationship in there but i didn't want to sicken you all 🙏 hikari and jeno are soooo….i can't explain them rn they make me so sick i want to sob just thinking abt them 🙁 anyway!! take this first stupid writing piece from the crevices of my mind 🫶

Hikari's phone continues buzzing, and his insistence to ignore the buzzing is beginning to annoy Minjae.

Now, Minjae is annoying himself, so it takes a lot to even get a rise out of him, he usually isn't one to take things so seriously, but as Hikari continues to ignore the buzzing of his own phone, he can't help but wonder why he won't just pick up the fucking phone. "Hiki?"

"Hm?"

"Can you so kindly inform me on why you aren't picking up your frequently buzzing phone?"

The rapper's question seems to echo in the expanse of this almost empty airport. Hikari cracks one eye open to stare at the younger, then slumps in his seat and shrugs his shoulders. He taps his finger onto his own leg, glancing down at his phone and putting it away. "I just don't want to".

"Sounds like a lie".

"Continue thinking that then" Hikari snickers, tongue poking against the inside of his cheek. The Heo raises an eyebrow at the seemingly annoyed Japanese, he opens his mouth to say something else, but Seojun beats him to it.

"It's cause if he answers any of Jeno hyung's calls he won't be able to properly speak".

"God, you're still on that?"

"What I'm saying is true, you're just stubborn and won't admit anything" As much as Hikari seems to want to deny that claim, he crosses his arms and looks away, appearing as stubborn as Seojun said he is. The maknae lets out a small chuckle, avoiding the older's steady glare.

Minjae, completely clueless on the situation, glances between the two NCT Dream members. "I am so confused.."

"Hiki and Jeno got into a fight and now he's not talking to him because he's stubbor—"

"That is not why" Hikari cuts in, getting much more annoyed by the younger than he thought he would. "I just don't want to answer the phone, is that not a good enough reason?"

"What other reason could there be?"

"What did you two even argue about?" Minjae replaces Seojun's question with yet another question, much to the dismay of the maknae, who frowns at being interrupted. Hikari is beginning to get annoyed by these interrogations, but all he does is sigh and cross his arms again.

"None of your business".

Minjae gives his best exaggerated pout at the snappy response, but he swears he sees a red color dusting Hikari's cheeks. "Was it bad?"

Hikari sinks into his seat, picking at a spot on the chair he's sat in. "We just.. disagreed on something".

"More like someone".

"Seojun I swear to god—"

Minjae blinks as he listens to the two begin going back and forth, the cogs slowly turn in his brain as he tries to piece together the full puzzle. He tilts his head as he thinks, confused on the whole insight of this situation. "Was it about Mikito?"

"Don't say his name!" Hikari is quick to yell, a whisper-yell, but still somewhat a yell. Seojun rolls his eyes at the mention of the familiar name, an eye roll Hikari wants to scold him for, but he stops himself.

"Yeah, saying his name is basically guaranteeing you get cursed".

"Was he jealous or something?"

Seojun laughs at the suggestion, as if amused by even the idea of that. "No, Mikito is just an unreasonable asshole, Jeno hyung had every right to yell".

"Wait, so why aren't you answering his calls then?"

"Because, I argued back with him and now I feel like some demented asshole who he probably doesn't want to talk to!"

Hikari smiles painfully after those words escape his lips, immediately shutting his mouth and turning away from the two youngest members, who both blink and exchange an amused look. "I think if he's continuously calling you it means he wants to talk".

"Even if I do answer I'm going to end up hanging up because I'll feel too awkward".

"Well you could ignore his calls now but it'll be much more awkward when you get back home and have to talk to him in person".

"Who knew you gave good advice?"

At the words, Minjae's expression forms into one of offense, and he snaps his head towards the maknae with a glare in his eye reminiscent of Hikari's previous one. "Excuse me!? I'll have you know I always give good advice!"

"Not in the love category".

"Oh what would you know about love!? Mr. I can't see the loving gaze my best friend is looking at me with!?"

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean!?"

"You know exactly what it means!"

And as the two youngest begin going back and forth, Hikari does nothing but spare them a mere glance. When his phone buzzes again, he fishes it out of his pocket, resisting the urge to smile at the notification he sees.

jen 🤍 : dont tell me ur mad

jen 🤍 : im sorry :(

Hikari unfortunately cannot resist his smile, and his lips turn up as he stares at the texts on his screen. He hates himself for ignoring Jeno, he hates himself for arguing back with Jeno, he doesn't want for things between them to change, so he doesn't stop his fingers from typing in the titular 'i forgive you', followed by a very abrupt 'ily'.

Hikari pute his phone down onto his lap immediately, why would he text him that? He feels embarrassed, like a teenage girl texting her high school crush, but when he feels his phone buzz again, he can't resist himself from looking again. Minjae hears his snicker and turns to him, pausing his argument with the maknae to judge the older. "What are you doing?"

"Calling Jeno".

Hikari doesn't care enough to listen to the overdramatic gasp Minjae and Seojun let out, just goes to contacts list and immediately presses the call button.

He waits for a few seconds, phone pressed to his ear as he tries to fight any of the anxious thoughts currently rising in his head.

He pauses for a moment, then speaks.

"Hi Jen".

#THEY’RE SO CUTIEPIE #ickle odd little guys #the minecraft music so worked #WE HATE YOU MIKITO!!!! I DONT KNOW WHO THAT MAN IS BUT!!!!!

[junjiie]

at this point my prince chenle thing is gonna stretch on forever 😭😭 idk if its even going to end atp

neverending chenle fic goes craaazyy!!!!!!

#A vision is forming. I may need to make some moves in silence

[junjiie]

my newest #WIP 😣 (im renjun obsessed ngl…..)

yes! whatever that means! fun and joyous whimsy!!! huang renjun!!!!!

#bone thugs n harmony discog deepdive.. commence 🚨

[junjiie]

EPISODE 1 ❛  carpe diem ❜ 

𖥻 carpe diem.. is a latin phrase meaning "pluck the day" or "seize the day", it's first known use is from 1817 word count 1.3k

"Seize the day!"

At the sound of the yell, Lee Jeno startles from his place in his own arms, rubbing his eyes as he curses at Zhong Chenle in his mind. "What the fuck are you yelling for?" He remarks quickly, only earning a snort from the Chinese.

"I'm yelling because I can, why are you trying to nap?"

Lee Jeno continues his glaring frenzy, but it's completely useless to Chenle, who immediately turns to Mark. "Ignoring him, good morning Markie!"

Donghyuck provides his very own fake vomiting at the sound of the nickname, but Chenle doesn't care, running up the eldest and wrapping his arms around him. "Good morning? What is all this for?"

"What do you mean? I'm not allowed to hug you now?"

"You only suck up to Mark when you want something".

Chenle gasps, offended by the words from Jeno, who is still glaring at him after the loud shout which pierced through his ears a few minutes earlier. "Not true!"

"That is true!"

"Did you guys hear?" Na Jaemin immediately interrupts, startling Renjun as he comes out of nowhere. "Were having new recruits this semester!"

"You mean students?" Jisung's eyebrows furrow.

"That's what I said!"

"No you said recruits" Renjun turns to the boy whose chin is placed on his shoulder. "You're talking like we're some sort of military school".

"Why do we have students transferring right as the second semester is beginning?" Donghyuck turns to Mark as he asks the question, as if the older will have any kind of answer ready for him. "That's weird right?"

Mark shrugs, truly not knowing what kind of answer he can give the younger that will satisfy him. "Maybe this was their only options, they could be foreigners".

"Actually only a few of them are! Apparently they're all coming from a place in Taiwan, they had an incident at their last university".

Renjun gives Jaemin a weird look, the second one he's shared with him this morning. "How do you know all of this? Are you a stalker or something?"

Jaemin hums, removing his head from the Huang's shoulder and patting it instead. "I bribed the principal and some students into telling me things, you know they can never resist my charms!"

"What charms? You probably threatened to kick their asses or something.."

"What was that Lee Donghyuck?"

Donghyuck instantly sports a wide smile, feigning innocence as he stares at the now annoyed Na. "Nothing! You must be hearing things!"

"Oh am I hearing things? Or are you just a little pu—"

"Okay okay!" Mark is quick to intervene, clearing his throat. "No need to fight, save it for when school picks back up, I need my last days of winter break to be peaceful".

"Peaceful? With Jaemin around?"

"What is that supposed to mean!?"

Mark allows for Jeno and Jaemin to begin arguing, it won't ever go any further with them anyway. He grabs his jacket and puts it on, taking in a deep breath. "Where are you going?"

Upon hearing Chenle's question, Mark hums, beginning to button up his jacket. "Grocery store, I need eggs".

"You're going without us!?"

"You guys aren't supposed to follow me".

Mark sighs in his head as he hears his friends start shuffling around, their mutters becoming more and more distant as he makes his way out of the door. Of course they're gonna follow him, because they always do.

Mark allows for himself to sigh. He told them not to follow him, because they weren't supposed to, but his friends are like clingy puppies, they're going to follow him everywhere no matter what. All he wanted were eggs, eggs to put in his fridge so that he doesn't have to go to the grocery store after school picks up again.

But the rest of his friends, they're here to be idiots it seems. They're doing everything but looking for the stuff they supposedly came here to get, and all Mark can do is sigh, pretending he has no idea who they are while they argue about 2% milk (seriously? 2% milk? they have to be bored at this point).

He whistles as he looks away from his six other companions, who are all beginning to shout about whatever, he's tuned out their voices. He tries not to make eye contact with the exhausted cashier, because he doesn't want to make the guys day worse. He takes in a deep breath and slowly walks away from his friends, they don't notice anyway, much too amped up in their argument.

Mark's eyes scan the store, he shoves his hands in his pockets and continues strolling, the little fights of his friends becoming nothing but short murmurs in his ears.

He doesn't exactly know where he's going to go in this grocery store, but he keeps walking, just trying to get away from his friends for a while. The silence is a little haunting, but he doesn't really mind it, the shouts of his friends had been piercing his ears for these past few hours.

"That's a bunch of bullshi— ow!"

Mark doesn't watch where he's going, and he runs right into a guy, their heads hitting against each other as it does. He winces, rubbing his forehead as he blinks. "Oh my god I'm so sorry I wasn't watching where I was going".

Mystery boy (who is gorgeous by the way, Mark just has to note that immediately) blinks, but he doesn't seem to mind, just waving off Mark's apology. "It's alright I wasn't looking where I was going, are you alright?"

No Mark is not alright, because there's this pretty boy standing in front of him and his brain is currently malfunctioning. He tries to get his words out correctly, somehow stuttering over them, which makes him want to dig a hole, lay in it, and die there forever. "Yeah I am I just— I'm sorry, for bumping into you, that is".

Pretty boy laughs, Mark just can't determine if he's laughing at him or at something else. "It's fine, you're so apologetic, I'm okay".

"You sure?"

"I'm sure" Pretty boy laughs again, waving off Mark's words with a dismissing hand. Mark suddenly gets hit with realization, cause he quickly clears his throat and shakes his head. "Um— Mark, Mark Lee".

The boy smiles at the sound of his greeting, humming at his name, as if studying it or something. He seems to think for a moment, as if contemplating on if he should actually tell Mark his name, but he sighs anyway. "Siwon".

"Siwon?"

"Yeah".

"Nice name" Mark blurts, not knowing exactly why he decides to say that. He wants the conversation to keep going, this moment ending too fast is something he's trying to avoid, for some reason. When he sees Siwon laugh, he suddenly feels the need to speak up again. "Really! Nice name!"

"Thank you" Siwon doesn't stop letting out ting chuckles, clearly entertianed by the direction this conversation is going. "It means cool".

"That's.. cool!"

Siwon chuckles again, very much humored by this random pretty guy he just happened to encounter in a random grocery store. For the first time since becoming an agent, Jo Siwon has found himself distracted, just the thought entering his brain is enough to make him blink in disbelief.

What the fuck?

"Thanks, uh— well, I kind of have to get back to, you know.. grocery shopping".

Mark's eyes widen, and he's quick to sputter out another response. "Oh right! Yeah I didn't mean to hold you up or anything that was never my intention—"

"It's fine, Mark! No need to worry much about it! I'll see you around!"

And as Mark watches Siwon walk off, dumbfounded, the words truly settle into the air. What did he mean by that? I'll see you around? Mark allows for the confusion to consume him, completely puzzled by the interaction he just had with a pretty stranger in the grocery store.

Mark has no idea why, but he's hoping those words are true.

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[junjiie]

i gazed at it , unable to pass

˖ ࣪ .  HOLD ME FULLY in your arms ╱ the members of nct sei ¿ ╱ tw for mentions of parental neglect, bullying, emotional abuse, and yapping yapping yapping !

on a seemingly regular may day, XUWICHA RATTANAKOSIN was born an only child in surat thani, thailand, his father a police officer and his mother a nurse practitioner. life was as normal as it could be, he found interest in most things, science, music, the origins of the universe, flowers, and, most confusing of all, education. he was often interested in the one thing that most kids would find distasteful, school. XUWICHA spent hours reading, he could and would read anything, books about even the strangest topics were enough to keep him hooked, it didn't take much to entertain him, he could truly read anything and be happy for hours on end.

education was always the most important growing up, he was an exceptional student. he often prided himself on his smarts, heck his name quite literally means "education", what else did he have going for him but academics? dad and mom never really cared about what direction he wanted to take with his life, just stated that he should do something that makes him happy, not them happy, but even with that, it'd be long before he even tried to consider what he wanted to do as anything important. the way his life was going to go seemed simple enough, he'd graduate from high school, go to college outside of his hometown, get a medical degree and work in a hospital until he died at the age of eighty while lonely and stuck in his own head.

things did not go as planned.. well, not because of anything bad, but because he decided to take a risk. it was in december of 2010 that XUWICHA became an exchange student, an opportunity which would be given to him from a stroke of luck he can't believe he actually had. it was either south korea or australia, and because he was afraid of leaving the continent, he chose the place much closer (closer is a little bit of an exaggeration) to home. so, at 14 years old, with nothing but a slightly advanced vocabulary and basic knowledge on the korean language, XUWICHA moved to south korea to start high school. it was all just supposed to be for education and nothing else, nothing else.

it wasn't until mid–2011 that things took a strange turn, because XUWICHA would be approached by an SM scout, who seemed interested in what he had to offer musically. he was.. confused to say the least, up until then, music had been nothing more than a hobby, a hobby he only entertained at two in the morning on soundcloud when he'd upload little snippets of stupid rap verses he created in his own time, music was never supposed to be a career, he was studying to become some sort of medical professional, so he had no idea why he should've taken an opportunity for a musical career. still, he took the business card and thought deeply about it as he stayed awake composing lackluster tracks on his old chromebook.

XUWICHA would audition for SM ENTERTAINMENT with the song "lucifer" by his senior group, shinee, and much to his own surprise, he passed. he doesn't explain much of his trainee days, often keeping most of it vague, but alluding to it not being as nice as he tried to make it seem, though he had contagious smiles in his SM ROOKIES videos, behind the scenes, it was much more difficult than he wanted to let people know. it seems he only lets people know the inner workings of his trainee days after a few drinks, but he has no intention on letting everyone outside of the group on the truth.

the newly selected 15 year old somehow managed to balance school and training just fine, he even seemed to be flawless at it, showing no sign of struggle at school and no sign of struggle during monthly evaluation. though he continued to create lackluster music on his old computer, he kept it much more on the down low this time, with only certain members knowing about the songs he composed in the walls of their tiny dorm rooms. XUWICHA graduated from high school still stuck in the SM ENTERTAINMENT building, and it was then he was beginning to lose hope, he seemed to have no future in the company, so when he started college in the following months, he prepared to leave the company soon.

but he was persuaded to stay by TAEYONG and MARK, who were convincing enough that he was able to find enough confidence to stay in the company up until his eventual debut with the first NCT U lineup in april of 2016. immediately after the 7th sense, XUWICHA was tossed away by SM and forgotten in the basement for the next two years.. no seriously! he basically disappeared, he was in one song and then pretty much never seen again. he almost left the group as a whole in 2017, stating that he felt like he had "nothing going for him", and the company basically didn't care at all. he then reappeared in 2018 after what seemed like years for the groups first studio album, and then was announced as a member of the groups newest subunit in may of 2018, a good month before he graduated from university and got his bachelor's.

now, XUWICHA is so ready to rip up that contract and flip off all of his shitty dance teachers, but he doesn't want to compromise his role as a member in the group. he feels a certain responsibility for each of them, he was chosen as leader for a reason, so he keeps his mouth shut mostly for now. the members are way too important for him to slip up, he cares a lot about them, even if SM doesn't.

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STAGE NAME XENO ( 제노 )

BIRTH NAME XUWICHA RATTANAKOSIN ( ชูวิชา รัตนโกสินทร์ )

DATE OF BIRTH JUNE 15, 1996

PLACE OF BIRTH SURAT THANI, THAILAND

HOMETOWN SURAT THANI, THAILAND

NATIONALITY THAI

ETHNICITY THAI

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OCCUPATION SONGWRITER, RAPPER, COMPOSER

LABEL SM ENTERTAINMENT ( 2011 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 5 YEARS 9 MONTHS

POSITION LEADER, MAIN RAPPER

DEBUT DATE APRIL 9, 2016 ╱ JULY 7, 2018

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FACE CLAIM JAKAPAN PUTTHA

HEIGHT 183 CM ( 6' )

BLOOD TYPE A

it was a surprisingly warm christmas eve when MAKANI KALEO SEO was born as the eldest of two in honolulu, hawaii, usa. he was (sadly) not a cheery child, crying and whining at pretty much every chance he got. up until he was five, he never stopped making any noise, which is ironic considering how reserved he is now. dad and mom seemed to be annoyed by his existence, though they never clearly commented on it, he could always tell they didn't really like him, they treated him as more of a roommate than their own child, which led for him to having to grow up much faster than he would've preferred. he became much more reserved, and didn't even enjoy interacting with the fellow kids his age.

he was only really given two options, his dad a vocal coach and his mother a diving instructor, be an athlete or be a musician, both somewhat promising career paths that would ensure he wouldn't end up homeless in the future. MAKANI spent most of his weekends either performing at talent shows across his hometown, or attending swimming competitions across the state. it was clear he had two strengths, but he wasn't really sure if he was as skilled as people said he was. to him, his singing was just okay and his swimming was like how every other person swims. did he have skills that bypassed his peers? yeah, he did, but the discouraging words from dad and mom didn't help with his withering confidence.

it was in his senior year of high school that his partner at the time suggested he send one of his original songs to a talent agency, to which he immediately laughed loudly at. him? getting scouted? please, that sounded like the funniest thing in the world. still, MAKANI would test his luck, recording an original song on his guitar and sending it to about five agencies, but he didn't expect to get any answers back.

well, you know how the story goes, he got an answer from none other than SM ENTERTAINMENT, and when he told his parents about the news, they laughed in his face. he simply allowed for them to, ignoring the sympathetic look he got from his younger brother as they went on and on at how ridiculous it was that he of all people would be chosen. he just gave them a smile and got on a plane to south korea the next week. so, in january of 2016, MAKANI became an SM ENTERTAINMENT trainee.

immediately upon his entry in the company, they tried to put him on a survival show. produce 101, you might've heard of it before.. yeah, he was not having that. apparently, the company had chosen an audition song for him and everything, but he fought with everything for them to not put him on that show. he guesses because he joined a good 3 months before the first NCT U debut, they wanted to see if they could do something useful with him. he didn't care if he was jeopardizing an opportunity to debut early, he refused to be put on produce 101.

so, as he expected, he was just sort of left alone for two years as the first two NCT subunits debuted. he didn't let it bother him, as he knew the moment that three year mark came up, he would let his pride wither away and move back home so he could face his also stubborn parents. luckily for him, SM picked him up and placed him in boss, a plan he got very little insight on. shit, he really only figured out from his fellow NCT members. he then got another shock when he was placed into their newest subunit, set to debut in summer, and who was he to disagree with such an offer? he's going to deal with these idiots if not him? don't tell them he said that, though.

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STAGE NAME MAKANI ( 마카니 )

BIRTH NAME MAKANI KALEO SEO

KOREAN NAME SEO MINJUN ( 서민준 )

DATE OF BIRTH DECEMBER 24, 1998

PLACE OF BIRTH HONOLULU, HAWAII, USA

HOMETOWN HONOLULU, HAWAII, USA

NATIONALITY AMERICAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

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OCCUPATION SINGER-SONGWRITER, PRODUCER

LABEL SM ENTERTAINMENT ( 2016 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 2 YEARS

POSITION MAIN VOCALIST

DEBUT DATE FEBRUARY 18, 2018 ╱ JULY 7, 2018

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FACE CLAIM LEE JINWOO

HEIGHT 177 CM ( 5'10 )

BLOOD TYPE B

on a humid july afternoon, JIANG ZIXIN was born the youngest of three in geiju, yunnan province, china. a bright child since birth, he seemed to have no struggles, he thrived being the baby of the family and he almost acquired brain damage pretty much every day, but that wasn't his fault! the floor is just always slippery and he always just happens to fall on his face! is it really his fault that he constantly has energy? well, yes.. but he likes to be stubborn and pretend that he isn't tripping and falling all the time. he reveled in being spoiled endlessly and learning just how to play pretty much every sport he could.

life basically moved at 2x speed for ZIXIN, by the time he was seven years old, he was spotted on tv. yeah, before getting picked up off the street by SM, he was your good old child actor. think of him like those nick actors, he was basically the chinese amanda bynes. by the time he was ten he had his own successful sketch comedy show, the staple of comedy for all chinese children everywhere, not to mention, he had also appeared in a few movies by then, it seemed that, with all things considered, ZIXIN had a natural talent for variety, he could make anyone laugh even as a naive ten year old who did fake news broadcasts almost every week.

but while acting was one thing he succeeded at skillfully, there were also two other things, archery, and, weirdly enough.. music! though ZIXIN wouldn't become a competitive archer until he was thirteen years old, music was a whole other thing. he never really took it seriously, not until he quit acting later, he did create a silly band with his sisters, the only music they created now removed from youtube, if you search hard enough, though, you could probably find an old video of them at a school talent show somewhere on the internet. funnily enough, this is how he got discovered by SM, a scout recognized him on the streets of shanghai in mid 2015 and handed him a business card, encouraging for him to audition. ZIXIN, though knowing no korean besides the lyrics to a few EXO songs and having recently quit acting, decided to take his chances.

almost tripping while entering the building and having basic singing skills, ZIXIN auditioned for SM with the song "3.6.5" by EXO. in a shocking totally unexpected twist, he passed, much to his own surprise, he quite literally almost fell on his face right in the middle of his audition, passing it off with an awkward laugh and hopefully non threatening smile. so, at 16 years old, ZIXIN said goodbye to his parents and sisters to go to korea to join SM ENTERTAINMENT. he would become somewhat of a fan favorite after being introduced as an SM ROOKIE, he was just way too interesting to not debut in NCT. he literally went through the child actor becomes an idol trope! everyone wants to see that!

unfortunately for all predebut stans, he wouldn't get to debut until three years in the company. he, like his former member, was thrown into boss, finally! predebut ZIXIN stans got justice! and then they got even more justice when he was placed into NCT SEi, then WAYV! now, you'll have pretty much no trouble finding ZIXIN content. he's the main troublemaker in the group, god save his group leaders, they're so tired of him already.

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STAGE NAME ZIXIN ( 지신 )

BIRTH NAME JIANG ZIXIN ( 姜子新 )

DATE OF BIRTH JULY 23, 1999

PLACE OF BIRTH GEIJU, YUNNAN, CHINA

HOMETOWN GEIJU, YUNNAN, CHINA

NATIONALITY CHINESE

ETHNICITY CHINESE

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OCCUPATION SINGER-SONGWRITER, DANCER, RAPPER, ACTOR ( FORMER ), VARIETY SHOW HOST ( FORMER )

LABEL SM ENTERTAINMENT ( 2015 — present ) LABEL V ( 2019 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 3 YEARS 7 MONTHS

POSITION LEAD VOCALIST, LEAD DANCER ( NCT SEi ) MAIN RAPPER, LEAD VOCALIST, LEAD DANCER ( WAYV )

DEBUT DATE FEBRUARY 18, 2018 ╱ JULY 7, 2018 ╱ JANUARY 17, 2019

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FACE CLAIM ZHOU YIRAN

HEIGHT 181 CM ( 5'11 )

BLOOD TYPE B

with the ground covered by a thick layer of snow and love in the air, FUKUSHIMA HIKARI was born in iwaki, fukushima, japan on, and i quote, the most romantic day of the year. he was born the eldest of three children, and was, much to his own dismay, not planned. dad and mom weren't very nice growing up, often yelling more than they did gently explain things. according to them, they were just preparing him for the real world by subjecting him to what they called "tough love", he thought things would get better as YUTO and HONAMI grew up, but they unfortunately just got worse. once his parents had two more unplanned kids, he basically became their primary caregiver, even with him only being one and two years older than his siblings.

because of his parents lack of interest in his life, he got used to not telling anyone what was going on in his life. to cope with dad and moms yelling and the mean words from kids at school, HIKARI developed an interest in dance. really any style of dance caught his eye, his obsession beginning after seeing the choreography for "love like oxygen" by shinee be performed on tv (a dance which was choreographed by one of his biggest idols ever, RINO NAKASONE). any style of dance he could execute in the slightest, he would, but he wasn't keen on telling anyone about his new.. hobby, he just kept it to himself, no one would care enough to listen to him talk about it anyway.

it wasn't until a day in may of 2012 where, as he was coming home from after school activities, he passed by a building where global auditions were being held, auditions for a company called SM ENTERTAINMENT. he would stand in front of the building and think for what seemed like years before stepping in with a little semblance of confidence he got pretty much out of nowhere. at 12 years old, he awkwardly presented himself to the judges with a toothy grin and auditioned with an original dance he had choreographed the week prior. it was nothing exceptional, pretty decent for a boy his age, but it was impressive enough that he was given a business card and advised to visit the SM building in korea.

and he stared at the business card for hours, then those hours became days, then those days became weeks. he read the fine print over and over again until it made absolutely no sense in his brain, stomach flipping and anxieties heightened as he tried to figure out how to bring it up to his parents. heck, he didn't even tell his siblings about anything, much to afraid of them laughing at him in the process of him trying to get through the sentence. when he finally did get the confidence to bring it up, over dinner that is, the interaction ended in yells and tears running down his cheeks. his father accused him of "trying to be better than them", and that his idol fantasies would never get anywhere because who would want someone like him as an idol?

while HIKARI felt his remaining confidence get crushed, he knew this was a once in a lifetime opportunity, and he couldn't just waste it because of his dads mean words. so, with nothing but $12 to his name and an above average dancing ability for a boy his age, HIKARI bid goodbye to his still young siblings and gave his mother a hug (one of the only hugs ever shared between them), then got on a plane to korea. he entered the SM ENTERTAINMENT building with the same amount of awkwardness he did when he auditioned, stuttering through the little korean he knew and with that obstinate smile he would learn to get rid of. he was, to his own surprise, accepted by his peers, older and younger, and for once, he felt as if he fit in somewhere.

the four years in SM were all.. wishy washy for HIKARI, he doesn't talk much about them, not in detail anyway, and when he does talk about them, it seems to be less and less cheerful each time. he spent the time where he wasn't being yelled at by his dance teachers or struggling with his schoolwork on his piano, singing songs in japanese most of his roommates didn't understand. he didn't mind being on the sidelines, shit, he wouldn't have minded debuting late, he was just glad he was even being given a chance. days at hanlim were long and days at SM were even longer, but HIKARI stuck around because what else did he have going for him? yeah he was smiling in the all SM ROOKIES promotional videos, but after those cameras turned off, the happy front he put on fell immediately.

so, HIKARI debuted in 2016 as a member of NCT DREAM, barely confident in his korean skills and as quiet as he is now. he was much more confident onstage than he was in any promotional material, and paired with his usual reserved nature, he often became the target of terrible rumors, because he'd never respond, he only did respond once when they began targeting his siblings. his eventual debut as an NCT SEi member would come as a surprise to people, even as a surprise to him, but he doesn't wish he was anywhere else, he loves all of them, even if he doesn't say it with his own mouth on most occasions.

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STAGE NAME HIKARI ( 히카리 )

BIRTH NAME FUKUSHIMA HIKARI ( 福島光 )

DATE OF BIRTH FEBRUARY 14, 2000

PLACE OF BIRTH IWAKI, FUKUSHIMA, JAPAN

HOMETOWN IWAKI, FUKUSHIMA, JAPAN

NATIONALITY JAPANESE

ETHNICITY JAPANESE

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OCCUPATION SINGER-SONGWRITER, DANCER, RAPPER, CHOREOGRAPHER, PIANIST

LABEL SM ENTERTAINMENT ( 2012 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 4 YEARS 4 MONTHS

POSITION MAIN DANCER, LEAD RAPPER, VISUAL ( NCT SEi ) MAIN DANCER, LEAD VOCALIST, SUB-RAPPER ( NCT DREAM )

DEBUT DATE AUGUST 25, 2016 ╱ JULY 7, 2018

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FACE CLAIM HARANG3_3

HEIGHT 175 CM ( 5'9 )

BLOOD TYPE O

right as march was coming to a close, HEO MINJAE, (born HEO SEHUN) was born the second child and only boy in incheon, south korea. he grew up with no one else but his father and MIRAE around, as his mother had left when he was much too young to even remember what she looked like. despite the circumstances which struck his family, MINJAE was a happy child growing up, even with how he disliked his name. his reason for having a distaste against his birth name had to do with his maternal grandfather, he wanted no connection to his mothers side of the family, even as a child who was still clueless to what they put his father through, this was what sprung his common childhood nickname, "min", a nickname which would be the catalyst for his new name, but that would come years later.

as a child, if he wasn't at school boring himself with the numbers on paper that seemed to do nothing for him, he was at the theater his father coordinated, watching the performances put on by the many cast members. his interest in performing would ignite in those moments, but his interest in becoming an idol would ignite after he watched 2pm perform their famous single "again&again" with his older sister in the living room. becoming an idol seemed like a dream that was so out of reach, but that didn't mean he was suddenly hopeless, he would often find himself up late on school nights giggling with MIRAE about one of them possibly ending up in an idol group one day.

it was in 2008 where things finally got better for his father. he met a nice woman, who, in MINJAE's own words, became the mother he never had in life. she became one of his other support pillars, it was nice to have another adult in life to talk to about things, and after SUNHEE was born in 2012 (he got to choose her name, he always gets so giddy when talking about it), things got better for them. dad was no longer sad, he could tell, and even though his little sister was a spitting baby who couldn't speak or even walk properly, she still made MINJAE happy. the first time he ever even saw SM was in 2012 when he went shopping with his mother and MIRAE, he saw that auditions were being held, but he couldn't garner enough confidence to ask his mother if he could audition, even though his older sister could see how much he wanted to audition.

MIRAE would continue to try and encourage the then very anxious MINJAE to audition, saying that he never knew what could happen, but the younger merely shook his head, saying that being an idol was nothing more than a fantasy he fractured as a child, but that sentiment didn't stay the same for long, not until his mother sat him down and placed a train ticket in front of him, urging for him to go audition and take his chances. while he wanted to disagree, he knew that this chance would only come once. so, he nodded at his mother and took the almost two hour train ride to seoul, where he ended up in front of none other than SM ENTERTAINMENT. thirteen years old and with nothing but a collection of 2pm songs up his sleeve, he walked into the building and auditioned with the song "take off" by the group.

when learning he passed, he had to resist the urge to cheer in front of all of the judges, instead clearing his throat and smiling widely as he let out many well needed "thank you's". when he shared the news with his family, he got many "i told you so's" from MIRAE, but his eye rolls were all affectionate. he immediately became a member of SM ROOKIES, his natural love of performing and his surprising acting ability made him a fan favorite amongst viewers of the korean mickey mouse club. he was practically the main character in most videos, annoying MARK and getting up to trouble with HAECHAN and JAEMIN. he quickly established himself as the fun friend, the funny one who says anything that comes to his mind and chews ice with absolutely no issue.

after three long years of training, MINJAE made his debut as an original member of NCT 127 in july of 2016, though he was never supposed to be apart of the original lineup, he got added in last minute in a "surprise decision". he didn't decide to question it, though, happy he was actually able to perform onstage officially and also wreck havoc in his older members' lives (save JAEHYUN from MINJAE seriously). he'd promote as a member of the group for two years, and when their two year anniversary was rolling around, he was already a confirmed member of NCT SEi, it was also by that time that he finally legally changed his name! (finally, he was officially MINJAE). nothings really changed since his debut in the two units, he's still chewing ice and wrecking havoc upon his older members, MAKANI is seriously going to kill him one day.

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STAGE NAME MINJAE ( 민재 )

BIRTH NAME HEO SEHUN ( 허세훈 )

LEGAL NAME HEO MINJAE ( 허민재 )

DATE OF BIRTH MARCH 25, 2000

PLACE OF BIRTH INCHEON, SOUTH KOREA

HOMETOWN INCHEON, SOUTH KOREA

NATIONALITY SOUTH KOREAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

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OCCUPATION RAPPER, DANCER, COMPOSER

LABEL SM ENTERTAINMENT ( 2013 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 3 YEARS 2 MONTHS

POSITION MAIN RAPPER, LEAD DANCER ( NCT 127 , NCT SEi )

DEBUT DATE JULY 7, 2016 ╱ JULY 7, 2018

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FACE CLAIM JUNG SUNGMIN

HEIGHT 181 CM ( 5'11 )

BLOOD TYPE AB

at the beginning of the year, right as the first week of january was ending, KANG SEOJUN was born exactly 25 minutes and 47 seconds after his sister, KANG SEORIN in busan, south korea. yes, he's a twin, a twin they didn't even realize was a male until he was finally born. from the get go, there was something wrong, he wasn't crying, he was just.. there, he wasn't okay. he spent almost all of 2002 in the hospital, riddled with issues surrounding the nature of his birth, issues which resulted in him having to get surgery, even as just an infant. the surgery definitely left a scar, a literal one across his stomach, one he still doesn't enjoy thinking about today, but he was fine, he was alive, he didn't die, but that didn't seem to be enough to impress his parents, or even get them to care about him much.

from the moment he could comprehend his own existence, SEOJUN could clearly see that SEORIN was the favorite. dad and mom took her achievements much more seriously, her events were much more important, she was much more important than him. yeah his parents provided him with a roof over his head, food to eat, clothes, an education, etc, but they didn't care much about him, they were quite literally creating a divide between their twin children, a divide that would exist up until the two could get over their differences later in their lives. growing up, SEOJUN felt alienated at home, he was barely ever acknowledged, heck, even on his own birthday, a birthday he literally shares with SEORIN, the most he got was a lackluster gift and pat on the back. he wasn't that much of a priority to them it seemed.

because of the lack of attention at home, SEOJUN would spend a lot of time, not at home, dad and mom didn't care much about what he was doing anyway. he spent a lot of time at school, but not doing schoolwork, no, he hated schoolwork, the numbers burned into his brain and made his head spin, he spent a lot of his time with other kids his age doing interesting extracurriculars. he would spend hours on hours each day, at school doing things not even related to school. he would learn things he never thought he'd be into, like how to play soccer, crochet, play two of his favorite instruments in the world (the guitar and drums), and, the most important of all, dance.

dance became somewhat of a coping mechanism for SEOJUN. if he was upset? he'd just try to learn a new choreography, if he felt frustrated in some way shape or form? he'd channel all of that into a new dance style he found interest in. he became apart of a dance team at school, and because he was born early in the year, he became used to leading the team. it was then at a dance competition at school where he caught the eye of an SM scout, who gave him a business card and said that he should try his luck at auditions. at the time, SEOJUN didn't think he'd get anywhere in the idol category, being an idol was never really a dream of his, he just liked dancing.

he left the business card on his desk and really only gave it glances when he was feeling down. it was nice to know that, even though his parents didn't really appreciate the skills he displayed, a scout did enough that she thought he'd be good enough to audition for a company as big as SM. he was never supposed to audition, but SEORIN persuaded him to, a reassuring hand on his shoulder and nothing but encouragement aiding him. despite the fact that any idol dreams seemed to be far out of the question for SEOJUN, he decided to take his twins words seriously, buying a train ticket with pocket change he'd earned from a small job and taking the whole four hours train ride to seoul, completely anxious the whole entire time. when SEOJUN finally did audition, the only thing accompanying him being his little pride and above average dance moves, he almost wanted to jump out of the window at that very moment, but he persisted, and much to his surprise, he passed.

it wasn't all that easy, though, he still had to tell his parents, which he did while fidgeting with his fingers and fighting back tears because of how they stared at him the whole time. maybe it was a bad idea, because he ended up getting yelled at for "abandoning the people who love him the most". hypocritical words, really, but, as always, they didn't really care about anything having to do with him, in his own father's words; "if you want to go so bad than go, we won't come looking for you anyway", and though SEORIN tried to console him, that was all SEOJUN had to hear. with tear stains on his cheeks and a fake smile on his face, he joined SM ENTERTAINMENT in august of 2013.

if it wasn't obvious enough, SEOJUN basically grew up in SM, though being an idol was never really what he dreamed of, it was still something to get excited about. eleven year old SEOJUN was the highlight of all the SM ROOKIES promotional videos. just like his previous member, he became a fan favorite because of his natural talent for variety, and because he was never not energetic. you could not find a video of SEOJUN where he wasn't smiling and jumping around, constantly tapping his older trainees and talking to anyone who would listen. he would often use this energetic persona to mask the issues he had with dad and mom back at home, issues no one really knows about unless he talks about them, he was, and still is, very private, pretending everything was okay by plastering a smile on his face and giggling loudly.

the three years in SM are years SEOJUN would rather pretend didn't exist, sometimes he wishes he didn't spend most of his teen years in the company, but he doesn't confide in that to anyone. he was only fourteen years old when he made his eventual debut in NCT DREAM, but nothing changed, SEOJUN was still the same energetic, lively, overly enthusiastic person he was in all of those predebut videos, he had issues, yeah, but he wasn't keen on telling anyone about those issues. as long as he presented himself as happy, no one would question if was actually happy or not. the first two years as a member of NCT DREAM were good, the group basically felt like his family, and though he was in the first final lineup for NCT SEi, he didn't end up debuting with them in july, a decision which would leave a horrible mark on his confidence. he didn't even want to rejoin the group, 2018 was beginning to become a terrible year, it wasn't until a talk with HIKARI that he truly considered ever coming back, and an even longer talk with management at SM, who seemed to not care about his future with the group.

SEOJUN debuted with NCT SEi in november of 2018, and though he didn't debut with them originally, he still is considered an original member, because, he is an original member of the group. he is very happy about his role in the group, and glad that he did end up coming back as a member. though SEOJUN often feels like he still has a sense of responsibility, with JISUNG being youngest of dream, in NCT SEi, he feels he can let loose a bit, as he is the maknae of the group.

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STAGE NAME SEOJUN ( 서준 )

BIRTH NAME KANG SEOJUN ( 강서준 )

DATE OF BIRTH JANUARY 6, 2002

PLACE OF BIRTH BUSAN, SOUTH KOREA

HOMETOWN BUSAN, SOUTH KOREA

NATIONALITY SOUTH KOREAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

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OCCUPATION SINGER-SONGWRITER, DANCER

LABEL SM ENTERTAINMENT ( 2013 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 3 YEARS

POSITION MAIN DANCER, LEAD VOCALIST, MAKNAE ( NCT SEi ) MAIN DANCER, LEAD VOCALIST ( NCT DREAM )

DEBUT DATE AUGUST 25, 2016 ╱ NOVEMBER 25, 2018

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FACE CLAIM _VUDCA

HEIGHT 180 CM ( 5'11 )

BLOOD TYPE A

#MANNNN #i lvoe them saurrrr bad might cry #ive had vyzee on loop ts was not the right mood for all these traumatic ass backstories omg #FUCK seojun’s parents. we love you zixin i was literally on his show #We can go crazy on the pop if that’s what you wanna do #365 AS AN AUDITION SONG HELP #love tjem. Sobbed a bit