Gore is on hiatus. after 16 years active duty with4 deployments in the army, i'm retiring medically for my bipolar diagnosis, multiple TBIs, clavicle injury, etc. no idea where life will take me next, no idea when i'll be able to work on Gore again, but i'll miss you all.
life is a journey. i'm proud we got to go together in some small way on your journey through skyrim, and im proud of Gore. i'm proud of you, too.
this was so important to me. so many of you made me feel seen as i poured my heart out to you about my journey with war trauma, CSA, found family, learning to love life again. the tears ive shed seeing younger people heartbreakingly relate to him, the joy i felt making friends, lifelong ones, through this mod, it's unrivaled.
to the trans people out there fighting for your lives, know i will continue fighting with you until i fucking die. this mod was for you, it was for eden, who changed my life by simply being a part of it.
i love you all. see you, so soon, but be kind to each other in the meantime.
on a real note, i'm taking an extended break from this, now. i enjoyed working on gore until around june. i've been working on him out of spite since then. all but one of the people involved in that mess has apologized to me, but the connections and friends i lost remain. 2023, with that being the most minor of events, was the shittiest year of my life, and i've done 4 deployments lol. i need a break. gore is where i wish i had released him. he's complete for now. i need to take a step back and think about if this is still worth it, and what development will look like going forward. thank you all for your support.
Morning Star - Arstul’s first breath of life was his design. I wanted to find a lore-friendly way of incorporating Maormer culture into Skyrim, so I figured that him being a cross-bred would work best. His original name was actually going to be Irindalos (his father’s current name), but I figured it was a little heavy on the tongue. I’m so glad I went with Arstul.
Sun’s Dawn - Back when he lived in Cyrodiil, he had a undisclosed relationship with a shopkeeper. Who was it? That's yet to be disclosed. But all went well until the Oblivion Crisis. He’s burnt out of love now.
First Seed - Besides the entirety of the Thalmor, he doesn't hold a lot of enemies that aren't dead.
Rain’s Hand - Arstul is a sorcerer, so he was basically born with his abilities. He learned to use serpent magic from a young age, and he still utilizes it in battle and to summon water mounts. Outside of this, he’s adept in restoration and destruction, particularly lightning and frost magic.
Second Seed - Arstul is shit at making potions. He couldn't make a poison to save his life. He can brew some nice teas and drinks, though.
Mid Year - Arstul isn't one for holidays, but he grew to like Saturalia the longer he lived in Skyrim. The idea of gift-giving grew on him as it was his initial way of showing affection. Now he can use it as an excuse.
Sun’s Height - Rindir’s Staffs in Cyrodiil, for undisclosed reasons.
Last Seed - Quarterstaff; his father.
Hearthfire - He has no living relatives that he’s aware of.
Frostfall - I’m honestly not so sure about this one yet. I think he owns a shop somewhere in the Rift, but I haven't decided yet. I think it will be a player home of sorts once the relationship progresses enough.
Sun’s Dusk - He gave up worship long ago. He acknowledges Auriel and perhaps respects him, but he figured out that the gods aren't ones to rely on.
Evening Star - 3E 312, Sun’s Dusk 19; sign of the Serpent. He’s 322!
Thank you for this. It was fun!
Elder Scrolls Month Asks
Here are some months themed asks for your OCs :)
Morning Star - What was the first thing you gave your OC? Name, backstory, design, etc
Sun's Dawn - Does your OC have a love interest? What is their relationship like?
First Seed - Does your OC have any enemies or rivals? How did these rivalries start?
Rain's Hand - Can your OC use magic? If so what Schools?
Second Seed - Is your OC an alchemist? What do they excel at making?
Mid Year - Does your OC have a favourite celebration? Do they celebrate holidays?
Sun's Height - What is your OC's favourite shop, in any of the games; what do they buy the most of?
Last Seed - What weapon does your OC use? Who taught them how to use it?
Hearthfire - Does your OC have a family (blood or found)? Who are they closest to?
Frost Fall - Where is your OC's primary residence? What city is there favourite?
Sun's Dusk - Is your OC religious? If so, who do they follow?