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everyone's experience of reality is subjective, except for ushiromiya eva's, which is ontologically correct

#what it feels like talking to ppl who take ep7 tea party at face value ..

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#.me #umineko #umineko spoilers #i mean. not really. #shannon

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in the ep2 tea party, the narrator (yasu) talks about how becoming an adult means being able to overcome your childhood trauma, and thus rosa couldn't become an adult. this assumption that becoming an adult = good tells us a lot about yasu's mindset!

child yasu was desperately lonely and felt like an incompetent and unlovable person. the only people who were kind to her were, you guessed it, adults (shannon, kumasawa, genji, nanjo, even kinzo). so all yasu had to comfort herself was "when i grow up and become just like shannon, then i will be lovable, and i'll also be capable of being kind to and loving others."

but, well, you get where i'm going here: yasu cannot physically go through puberty. she gets incredibly distressed when she realizes she's not developing into the adult that she so wanted to become, who'd be beautiful and loved, and could be gracious, kind, and love in return.

the only way she can become happy is through magic - by tricking people into believing the illusion that she's an adult - because to yasu, being an adult means you are capable of love (in this case sex. capable of sex. let's not be flowery as this is a massive part of her trauma.)

for her, she can never escape her childhood trauma of feeling unlovable both figuratively and literally, because she can never become an adult, or...let's phrase it in umineko terms, become a "Human."

for characters with human and witch forms, like eva, the human is the adult while the witch is a child. it's an ongoing theme in the series - also see: ep1 where they discuss how young girls create witchsonas, and it's an important part of childhood, but they grow out of it.

a lot of rereading umineko is translating fantasy language into reality, so you can read "furniture" as yasu, in mystery terms, describing an eternal childhood without any hope of becoming an adult. yasu, in fantasy terms, might call that being the "endless witch."

just like how rosa talks about how she feels like she's been pretending to be an adult her whole life because that's what she has to be, so does yasu know she can't become an "adult", mentally, by overcoming her childhood trauma, or physically, by going through puberty.

but she still has to keep up the illusion that she is human/an adult in order to be allowed to exist in society (conformity and hammering out any rebellion or undesirable bits is also a marker of adulthood, like how eva admits she got over her dream of being a female head when she grew up.)

an interesting point about shannon and kanon is they're both supposed to be 16, however, shannon isn't referred to as a kid, but kanon constantly is.

and well, we know it's because shannon has gigantic boobs, marking her as an Adult Woman, while kanon is a frail boy who doesn't have any muscle at all...so he's just a boy. in ep2, shannon even gets the marriage subplot, because that's a TANGIBLE marker of adulthood, right? to get married? meanwhile, kanon gets to...go to the high school's school festival.

way to show the contrast for Mature Adult Shannon (who is only seen that way because yasu uses magic and pads her chest) versus Small Immature Child Kanon (where yasu DOESN'T use magic to change her body and perception of her "adulthood")

shannon's subplot with george is all about their future and devotion to each other (let's ignore any trauma about being furniture that'd prevent that here! power of magic!) meanwhile, kanon's subplot with jessica is A L L about his trauma of being furniture.

also, in a cruel twist of irony, when shannon calls herself furniture using magic, george doesn't take it seriously. but letting that get to you would be childish/furniture-like so shannon acts like she doesn't care. while jessica insists kanon is Human, and kanon flips because he's allowed to be childish and touchy about his trauma about being furniture and he CAN'T BECOME HUMAN BECAUSE HE'S NEVER BECOMING AN ADULT, STOP RUBBING IT IN HIS FACE.

so, talking about shannon/george vs kanon/jessica

shannon/george is the expected pairing for yasu. shannon's an Adult Human Woman who's socially acceptable in her femininity and doesn't show her childhood trauma.

while kanon wasn't meant to be lovable - he's the boy who barely had any time to live! he's her furniture self who has accepted he can never grow up into an Adult Human. he's her child self who will always retain her childhood traumas: being incompetent, unlovable, unable TO love.

so, jessica upending all of yasu's expectations by showing interest in him is like...she cracked the glass of yasu's small, confined world. jessica couldn't break the glass, but even that little bit was enough for yasu to do something she usually tried to avoid: take HUGE risks by starting to pursue a relationship with jessica as kanon.

love between furniture and humans is forbidden: in yasu-speak it's like a relationship between an adult and a child. it's that level of forbidden. not just forbidden, in fact, but reprehensible. so of course human-furniture romance is doomed to fail.

according to yasu, any normal human would, and SHOULD, on a moral level, reject furniture if they know the truth, and it's wrong for furniture to lie to humans while knowing the truth that's why beatrice the evil witch has to tempt shannon into using magic and lying so that she could pursue love.

#Posts that make me cough up blood #topic: sayo #umineko spoilers

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zepar and furfur…save me zepar and furfur

#.me #umineko spoilers #Sayo and gender Sayo and sex Sayo *EXPLOSIONS

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umineko project / witch hunt / steam release translations of the red text at the end of episode 4

#umineko spoilers #umineko #to me this is proof of confession of the golden witch’s existence validated by the vn itself. at some point sayo put her feelings to paper. #though having ikuko happen to find the bottle is. lazy. to me. as a non i=s believer #anyways about the text itself…probably the most obvious difference between the translations is number 3 #if only you had never come back vs. if you don’t come back is a pretty big change… what i’d give to know japanese </3 #my best guess is that it could be taken either way since parts of the text are cut off at the borders? otherwise why wld there be this gap. #.me #topic: sayo #also ppl confused at number 5 (sayo very clearly Loves) refer back to the angry rant beatrice did at shannon in ep2 about how love = lust #like i swear any time ur lost abt something relating to sayo u can just say ‘it’s about sex’ and you would be right in some measure

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bern is great at making her lies seem believable but the lies themselves suck. like i wish she was better at it bc it wld really have been awesome to believe the same exact thing wld have played out in lion’s world in the ep 7 teaparty but her dumb story is too filled with holes so now i know she’s just a hater beyond all haters

#.me #umineko spoilers #this also counts towards the lie to ange in ep 4 like if ange was any less miraclepilled she’d be on top of how bullshit it was #similar to how lion was emotionally wrought after all of ep 7 and the tea party so bern took advantage and Lied Horrendously #thinking abt umineko at 8 am the grind never stops *trips falls dies

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very much agree…i think for a lot of ppl it comes from the ep 7 manga wherein the scene right before the play when will says “this is the culprit” has sayo depicted with long blonde hair

+ during her “yasu” period

personally i believe the long blonde haired design is really just there for the audiences sake to solidify the connection to lion (and separation from shannon). within the context of clair being the one telling the story it feels even more obvious that this is another obfuscation of the truth…the biggest indication of this within the text itself wld be that when bern’s “ripping out the guts” in the ep 7 tea party

and sayo is notably not depicted with the long blonde hair for the first time in the entire text so far

blonde sayo is a lie made up so as to keep her from reaching her full potential as a crazy brunette

#topic: sayo #i think on some other level ppl got attached to the design/thought it was cool and ran with it #since there was a good 2 years between the appearance of blonde sayo in requiem and the release of confession #(which definitively closed the catbox on sayo’s hair color (BRUNETTE)) #ive seen ppl try and make both fit saying that she WAS blonde but the hair darkened as she got older but like. #if genji was worried her age might make her suspicious i can tell u rn a random blonde blue eyed servant out of 20 japanese ones wld be #setting off so many alarms in a family where its suspected the head had an affair with a blonde blue eyed woman. like lets be forreal here #Sorry for this long addition!! i was also seriously confused where it came from at first bc it didn’t seem coherent w the themes…

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blonde sayo is a lie made up so as to keep her from reaching her full potential as a crazy brunette

#umineko spoilers #Grips your shoulders The potency of the pain of sayo looking so little like beatrice is soo juicy. And you choose to water it down for what #I think sayo should look in the mirror desperate for any sign of beato and only find kinzo looking back. sorry for being a tragedy enjoyer. #sorry this is a matter close to my heart. blonde sayo isnt real she cannot hurt me everyone fell for the ep 7 sugarcoated veil she put on #long blonde haired sayo is to liken her to lion. who sayo also made up as an ideal in the same vein as beatrice. its all an illusion #ive talked abt it in greater detail before but it just makes so much more thematic sense for her to not be blonde or blue-eyed…sigh #.me #topic: sayo #me: wow umineko has so many interesting subjects to explore and analyze. unfortunely i must make a 3rd post in regards to sayo’s hair color

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so sad lion + battler cousin shenanigans were never shown in ep 7…

#.me #im not as attached to lion as a character as ik some other ppl are but wehhh they are my friend. also happy new year #umineko spoilers

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#umineko spoilers #umineko #.me #poll #i saw someone on twt call him a dumbass for falling into it despite allegedly knowing everthing there was to know as game master #which made me realize not everyone seems to think he did it on purpose/had a reason for avoiding the truth #so i’m curious how many people think that way :-)

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ik every time someone denies beatrice’s existence and maria gets upset and insisting she does exist sayo smiles to herself like Yes fight for my honor my psionic warrior

#.me #maria and beato’s relationship is a high point for me in the novel like aughhhhh my two girls who have gone through everything #and thts even before u bring the rosa/kuwatrice parallels into it like Wahhghghh #umineko

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my #truth:

ep 1 = ep 7 (beatriceless)

ep 2 = ep 6 (furniture)

ep 3 = ep 5 (tools)

ep 4 = ep 8 (ange focus)

#.me #umineko #weird fucked up mirror structure tht barely makes sense. but i will try to explain in the tags regardless #ep 1 and 7 revolve entirely around beatrice without her actual presence #if anything in both it’s her lack of presence that sets the mystery of the episode in motion #one is the introduction to her story and the other is the conclusion of it. fairly straightforward tbh #ep 2 and ep 6 again have very obvious similarities in that they are both shkanontrice episodes #we also have the starting point and ending point of beabato’s relationship. starting with biting and killing and ending with marriage. waho #battler’s first real gameboard vs battler’s last real gameboard. i cld go on but the shkanontrice focus is probably the meat of it #ep 3 and 5’s connection is a bit looser… ep 3 is the first to introduce the braun tubes/catbox to fight using antifantasy #and ep 5 gives us the decalogue to fight using mystery. both give battler/the player tools to understand the rules of beato’s game #we also get ronove/virgilia on one hand and erika/dlanor on the other which are extensions of the tools/concepts themselves #ep 4 and 8 is self explanatory. theyre the Ange episodes and the endings of their respective arcs. both begin and end with ange’s journey #and her trying to find the truth. really theyre so similar in theme (+ content tbh) it is probably the most obvious of these #anyways. it is an actual mirror structure if you consider 4 + 8 as epilogues… <— strying to make it work. #thinking abt umineko at 8 am the grind never stops *trips falls dies

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“is the culprit the head, one of the siblings, one of the cousins, or one of the servants?” well yes!

sorry just thinking about how sayo is all of umineko

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sorry just thinking about how sayo is all of umineko

#.me #She’s all of it…shes literally umineko

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everything in the world is about umineko except for umineko which is about sex

#.me #Which is crazy. Because i’m pretty sure the only time sex is mentioned in name is when erika is setting up natsukinzo #and bern says “sexual relations”. which is hilarious #anyways. somehting you do not notice until reading umineko is How much sex is being discussed in scenes that do not seem to be abt sex. #like it is 90% of the dialogue between shkanontrice it’s crazy. it is crazy #and it is so hard going thru this w someone who is new and trying to figure it out bc like GOD I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY #but that is what this blog is for i suppose !

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fucked up at the christmas party thinking about Sayo Yasuda

#me listening to last christmas by wham!: This happened to sayo My friend Sayo #.me #beatrice being the jesus fangirl of all time…. do italians celebrate christmas the way americans do #sorry if this is cringe i am rather drunk and i can’t put sayoisms on main for fear of spoiling

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#.me #umineko #umineko spoilers #umineko no naku koro ni #and on that note. good night