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please please go fall in love with tinlee on etsy

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Beth Levine / Herbert Levine: "Barefoot in the Grass” Sandals (1968)

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" Care to stay for a drink? " 🥂✨

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love the chicken wing siblings 🫶

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logged onto my old tumblr acct and was so surprised to see there's still a lot of people from over a decade ago still active at least sometimes...i wanna come back here so bad but i dont fawking know how to use this website anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i miss the fun internet!!!!!!!!!! #but also tho this a quiet and secret little area its also quite..empty #and i enjoy having at least an illusion of attention to my posts #but also here i could be crazier and nosy men do not follow me here which is a plus #idk will consider this

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Perfect Blue (1997) dir. Satoshi Kon

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Aya Takano: Drive with a Night Dog (2006)

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i wish depression was just the emotional aspect like okay i'll take a horrendously bad mood but the actually debilitating aspect is such a terrible bonus like why am i sitting here hearing my stomach rumble unable to get up to grab even like a fucking slice of bread or something!!! like why has my brain decided that today something as simple as feeding myself a snack is too exhausting to do. also i hate how so many aspects of this website now feel so unfamiliar and weird like why does it appear that my dash is out of order and wtf is a blaze

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still barely remember how to use this website and even more so with its recent updates but might start using it as a place to just vent sometimes. its technically far less private that a twitter circle or priv but it also feels a lot less limiting and idk there's something rotten but comforting about spilling emotions on tumblr like its 2013 again except its 10 yrs after that and im 26 and still mentally unstable. i wont have therapy for at least another month so might as well open up somewhere about how bad ive been doing and how im just mostly in bed a lot days and just crying and unable to find a joy or peace that lasts more than like 30minutes lmao. like its a dark and lonely place to be but maybe simply accepting that will work better than trying to force myself out of this episode as if im not someone carrying around undisclosed trauma and tons of self-loathing

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i am

just testing things out

#god i missed tags