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I'm suffering right now. This chapter has been giving me hell. I'm trying to write a Vicross pov, but I feel like I'm trying to stuff a square into a circle hole. I'm thinking that I just need to step back and write a different scene in the chapter and then connect it all together.

I think my struggle is because I have been trying to write this chapter during EOC week, but I don't really know.

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Chapter three is up! Had fun writing this.

#trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #tcf #totcf #lotcf #tcf cale #cale henituse #fanfic #a03 fanfic

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Okay... so I'm curious.

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Just some fun fanart because I am in a drawing mood.

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This was something I made for my magical girl Cale idea. It was meant to be Cale using his magical girl weapon to reminisce about team leader and Choi jung soo by projecting them through his memories. I do like it. However, mid way through the drawing, I realized that it felt out of character for Cale to just sit down and reminisce... so it's unfinished, but it's also here since I thought it looked pretty.

#trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #tcf #totcf #lotcf #tcf cale #cale henituse #my art #fanart

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Cale and Choi han team up to cook Korean food.

However, they are both terrible at cooking.

And now Vicross is out for blood.

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Every time I see Clopeh's name mentioned in the posts of people who read the raw chapters, I want to bust out the Google translate.

But then I see the screenshots, and... I hate it. I wouldn't be able to handle the name switching and all that, kudos to those who can.

So I have to wait for more Clopeh content, that's fine. I can be patient... but..

ONCE I GET MORE CLOPEH CONTENT, CAN WE BRING BACK JO HO SHIK?? I KNOW I'M PROBABLY GOING TO LIKE THE NEW CHARACTERS TOO BUT COME ON, GIVE ME HIM BACKKKK

...I feel like my favorite characters have a typing...

#trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #tcf #totcf #lotcf #this is me ranting.

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I think this is a pretty good source.

It has common Korean names and even explains the name meaning and structure. Also, I promise I tried to make this a comment, but it just wasn't working for some reason. Sorry about that.

Anyone know how to find good Korean names for Team 1 characters in TCF?

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Chapter Two is up! Took a little while longer than I wanted, but school is getting in my way. Also, for some odd reason, the end note of chapter one has been copied over to the end note of the second chapter, and I don't know how to get rid of it. Please send help.

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With feedback, I went back and fixed it! I'm more happy with even though the editing isn't perfectly smooth! The beginning is the same, but I made more edits, so it doesn't feel too repetitive.

Couldn’t do this in a reblog for some reason? So sorry about that!

#tcf #trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #totcf #lotcf #tcf cale #cale henituse

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So like, I made a 'taking what's not yours' edit for TCF, I feel something is missing from it but I can't tell what so Yep, here it is.

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(It has worked)

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Sooo... I have another fanfic idea! This one is gonna be longer and therefore chapters probably won't be up for a bit because i need to make a good base.

But the idea is basically, Rok Soo got put into little kid Cale right after the funeral.

This would allow me to have fun with some relationships that we don't get to see a lot like with Eric and allow me to change some relationships, too, since Cale would have never been trash.

Like imagine with me, kid Vicross being akward around Cale but also trying to cheer him up in tiny ways because he finds it so jarring that the cherry kids that used to annoy him to play now didn't even smile.

Or Cale, Eric, Amiru, and Gilbert becoming a close friend group.

Of course, there would be other developments, but if I rant about them all in this post, then what would be the point in writing the story?

Lemme know if this is a good idea or if I should just it rot!

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I have officially started a new fanfic. It's the fanfic of my previous fanfic idea post where Rok Soo gets placed into the child body of Cale.

@insomniacweebqueen16

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Okayy so like I should be writing rn but...

LOOK AT THIS- I AM DOING SO GOOD! I'M RENDERING AND I JUST FEEL SO COOL AND LIKE ANOTHER SYNONYM FOR COOL

My ego is so big right now, and I love it.

This is a drawing of little Rok Soo, by the way! He's hiding from his uncle currently.

#tcf #totcf #lotcf #my art #trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #kim rok soo #fanart #im so cool #art #digital art

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WHO WAS GOING TO TELL ME THAT WHEN WE FIRST SEE VICROSS THAT HE IS 30??? I THOUGHT HE WAS ONLY LIKE 6 YEARS OLDER THAN CALE. A NICE CLEAN 25!

I am flabbergasted.

My ideas and dynamics for an akward teen Vicross and kid Cale were almost lost due to this setback.

#trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #tcf #totcf #lotcf #tcf beacrox #i am so shocked #im just going to make him younger #because i can

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Sooo... I have another fanfic idea! This one is gonna be longer and therefore chapters probably won't be up for a bit because i need to make a good base.

But the idea is basically, Rok Soo got put into little kid Cale right after the funeral.

This would allow me to have fun with some relationships that we don't get to see a lot like with Eric and allow me to change some relationships, too, since Cale would have never been trash.

Like imagine with me, kid Vicross being akward around Cale but also trying to cheer him up in tiny ways because he finds it so jarring that the cherry kids that used to annoy him to play now didn't even smile.

Or Cale, Eric, Amiru, and Gilbert becoming a close friend group.

Of course, there would be other developments, but if I rant about them all in this post, then what would be the point in writing the story?

Lemme know if this is a good idea or if I should just it rot!

#trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #tcf #totcf #lotcf #fanfic #tcf cale #cale henituse #fanfic ideas

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I had looked around and couldn't find anything, and I think the reason for that is because of how detached the White Star is from a normal person. He can’t feel, both figuratively and physically, and his only goal is power, which can be hard to understand. If I had to give my two cents on it, the White Star is someone who made one goal when he was far too young and then already went too far to even think about changing his mind.

I think this makes sense because only someone young and dumb would take on a curse that doesn't allow you to feel affection or heat or anything of the sort. That means that the White Star must have been young when he made that plan to follow and try and finish off what the ancient White Star failed to do.

And when he starts this plan, he already passes the point of no return. This means that now, his only life's purpose is to become God. People are goal oriented, so he has to work towards this goal, or else he will really have nothing. There is no use in trying to love someone or helping people because he any affection he has will make the person die. I would imagine that the White Star in his first few runs did find people he habored affection for, not romantically or anything like that, just a like. Of course, these people would die, and then it would really hammer it home that he isn't allowed to be human anymore.

He must become god, or he will become nothing. He will just be a clump of flesh if he gives up on this goal since he has lost his rights as a normal human being.

Also, the thought of him thinking about what if he didn't do all this also lingers in my mind because, in the beginning, wasn't he excited that Cale was chasing after him? He liked the thought of having a fated enemy, and I think that's because it brought in a feeling he hasn't felt in decades upon decades, or perhaps the feeling of a challenge got him up and moving.

So, um, that's my thoughts on the White Star. A man who made his choice. A choice that doesn't allow him to be a human, leaving him with only his goal to become a God. Sorry I couldn't find anything! Also... I wrote this at 1 a.m, sooo if there is anything that sounds confusing, I blame my lack of sleep.

Does anyone have a character analysis on White Star?

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