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ri.mmer would try to help me go over what will be covered in the driving test but start giving me bad/off topic advice so I'd politely ask him to just be moral support. he'd praise me when I'm doing well, and when I'm just too nervous and need a break he'd hold me and cover me in kisses. he'd tell me I'm gonna do so great, and even if I don't pass he'll still be proud of me. "honestly, you could crash it and I'd be proud of you"

#hed never be this nice to anyone else on the ship but hes my boyfriend and im his silly rabbit etc #he loves me <3333 #harper has spoken #im imagining in this scenario it's the st.arbug driving test but kr.yten is the proctor instead of ri.mmer skhdskf #but also. put that hologram in a minivan #r: little lamb

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you know what. I need to do my coping with an f/o who knows EXACTLY what I'm going through right now. and that f/o is ar.nold j ri.mmer

guy who tried to retake his astronavigation exam for the nth time, smudged the notes on his forearm by pulling up his sleeve, smacked his ink covered hand on the paper and promptly fainted in the testing room

#not exaggerating that did happen #harper has spoken #r: little lamb

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my number one fear with the driving test thing is that I could freeze up so bad from the anxiety that I make an Insta Fail mistake and the proctor will be like "what the fuck is wrong with you"

which I can't say is an entirely irrational fear bc that's What Happened when I was 16. short of the proctor using expletives, my brain made that part up

#in my defense it was at a type of light that is very uncommon in my area #harper has spoken #i wouldnt be as panicked about this if that original incident hadnt happened in the middle of a whole boatload of other trauma and stressors #i was already kind of at my limit and i failed Twice and my sense of self worth fuckin dropped off a cliff #negative

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chloe making lu.cifer Be Mortal 🤝 me making lu.cifer feel mortal fear. he is out here suffering

#of course the supernatural empathy also forces him to start to understand real world cognitive empathy #and it means he knows what makes me happy and that i loooove him so yknow it's not all bad #harper has spoken #r: lovingly indulgent #s/i: intrigue 🔎🖌

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so yknow how my lu.cifer s/i is connected to lu.cifer in a way where he often experiences their emotions while he's standing near them. like. supernatural empathy that they both hate

I just started cackling bc I imagined my s/i being heart poundingly anxious about something mundane, with little to no expression change. meanwhile lu.cifer is leaning on the counter doing linda approved breathing exercises like DAMN BITCH YOU LIVE LIKE THIS???

#I DO LIVE LIKE THIS. AND I WISH SOMEONE WOULD SHOOT ME WITH A TRANQUILIZER DART #harper has spoken #r: lovingly indulgent #s/i: intrigue 🔎🖌

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I HAVE SCHEDULED MY GODDAMN DRIVING TEST AND I AM TERRIFIED 👍

#harper has spoken

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I found the driving school's email and I'm a little pissed that my mom didn't tell me that was an option :) it's literally right next to the phone number on the website

#please fucking email me back im gonna scream #harper has spoken

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lmao I called, the guy at the driving school answered but then said I was breaking up and he'd call me right back. that hasn't happened

why are you making me call you 3 times I didn't want to make ONE call. do you have a FUCKING email

#called again and it went straight to voicemail #harper has spoken

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just stumbled upon a thread full of people who bought every s.ims 4 dlc and some of them paid full price for all of it

they're like "oh it's not that bad for a 10 year old game" NO ONE SHOULD BE SPENDING $1000 ON A SINGLE FRANCHISE LET ALONE ONE FUCKING GAME!!!

#🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️ #why are people letting capitalism win i hate this. #harper has spoken #GAMES ARE SUPPOSED TO BE CHEAP AFTER TEN FUCKING YEARS WHY ARE YOU STILL BUYING DLC THE SAME PRICE AS A DIFFERENT GAME

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my therapy appointment got canceled but honestly that just opens up the time slot to call the driving school so like. it's fine

#harper has spoken #everyone cast spell of dont be scareded about phone call + upcoming driving test

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I can only guess where she got this sweatshirt from

#r: softer

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I want mo.rdin to bundle me up and hold me and tell me nothing bad is gonna happen,,,,

#harper has spoken #f: just the thing

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oh cool so the driving test anxiety is giving me insomnia like I used to have in high school this is fine

#harper has spoken

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can't wait for my therapist to witness how bad my anxiety actually is tomorrow (it's not that she doesn't believe me it's that I feel I haven't explained it sufficiently bc it hasn't been Like This for a while)

#i might ask her if i can call the driving school during our appointment. for moral support. idk #or ill make the call 30 mins before and hyperventilate during the appointment idk #harper has spoken

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the driving school didn't answer today when I tried to call so I have to try again tomorrow and also there's a good chance I'll have to take the test without being prescribed anxiety meds bc the earliest availability w my doctor was too far out :) guy who is so scared

#scheduling the test means i have to talk to a person on the phone and it also means i have to Take The Test #which is too scary far too scary by far i was scareded #harper has spoken #knocks myself out as an evasive measure

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MY YA.UTJA BOY IS COMPLETE, GAZE UPON HIM

#aforementioned fucker who is mine

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oh side note, if I were showing off an oc I don't self ship with, then I'd be okay with other people self shipping with them and probably be pretty excited abt it. but no one can have t'ikae he's mine

#THAT FUCKER WITH THE SCARY MANDIBLES BLOODLUST AND FAT TITS IS FOR ME AND ME ONLY #that's my boyfriend i made him :) #harper has spoken #r: something unfamiliar #oc: t'ikae