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i honestly think im at the point where eating has lost its appeal. or am i just sad lmao

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I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

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i just realized. if i go tmr i can wear a big ass shirt and then probably get away with not eating for a full day. hell yeah

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my friends want me to go to a heavily populated area tmr but i weigh 99 rn??? the answer on that has gotta be a no. im so embarassed by how i look rn ew ew

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Reblog if you WILL lose 10-30lbs by autumn!

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i tell people i have a small appetite or that im working on portion control

-cough cough-

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im talking to this kid i havent seen since quarantine and hes lost so much weight omg. i wanna be like so whats ur secret?? did u work out or do u wanna be anabuddys or sumn 🙈

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how tf can you say “im so fat lol like i eat nothing” and then say “but honestly i just eat what i want like people just have to deal with it” and walk around in a bra... yeah no hunny

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Reblog if you’re parents or someone made you self-conscious of your weight

bc I know my mum has made me conscious

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MY LIST OF THINGS TO DO INSTEAD OF EATING

Watch Instagram edits

Make lists of goals, things I’m thankful for, things I’m looking forward to about being skinny

Look at thinspo

Go online shopping and fill wish list with stuff to wear when skinny

Watch clothing hauls of skinny people

Drink water

Drink Diet Coke

Drink hot tea or coffee with Splenda

Watch weight loss YouTube videos 

Go to the gym 

Put on makeup

Curl or straighten hair

Write happy poetry

Look through Snapchat memories or camera roll

Write stories 

Masturbate

Go on tumblr and talk to people or diary

Text friends

Look at memes

Add to list of stuff to do instead of eat

Plan out meals and ways to hide/avoid food

Trace pictures on iPad 

Post on spam account 

Deep breathing

Paint nails

Shower

Brush teeth

Wash face

Pick out outfits

Try on jewelry and hats

Do homework

Reorganize 

Watch Netflix (Degrassi, American Horror Story, Riverdale, etc)

Sunbathe in backyard

Go on a walk

Internet games or phone games

Make music playlists

Dance

Sing

Clean room

Text and joke around with friends 

Write a song or poetry

Do laundry

Help mom clean 

Organize room 

Dust surfaces in room and clean mirrors

Take a nap

Drink sparkling water

Eat ice

Drink ice water

Read fan fiction

Write out what I like about myself and don’t like about myself etc.

Make random pros and cons lists

Make an appreciation letter or text for friends or parents or other family

Take a shit

Put on lotion

Shave

Make to-do lists

Stretch

Talk to parents or grandparents

Spin in circles

Chew sugar free gum

take a cold bath or shower

Weigh self

Look at self naked

Do a few simple exercises

Do a face mask

Put on lipstick

Smell perfume or a candle

Color in a coloring book

Make and use an exfoliator or lip scrub

Draw 

Paint

Get a mani pedi or foot massage or some other kind of spa treatment

Go on a run

Pop pimples or put on acne medication

Make a funny video

Make collages of favorite things

Buy a gift for someone like flowers 

Plan future birthdays 

Write out wish lists

Post something funny on Instagram 

Write a positive message

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day 7 - do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? do they care?

ive been trying to lose weight for years now and the “dieting” slowly turned into something much worse. my parents both know ive been trying to lose weight and have seen the weight come off of me. my dad uses my weight loss to justify fat shaming other women. i hate that. if you wanna lose weight, do it right. if you don’t? it’s not my life. as long as you love yourself.

my mom cares. it’s just confusing in the way she does it. she wants me to be happy and to love myself. but, so, for context. in 6th grade i was in a fucked mental state. there are years of my life i cannot remember because of a stress reaction causing me to repress and forget. my mom has been waiting for me to fall off the deep end ever since. given that information, and the fact that she had anorexia in college, the second i dont eat as much its “oh my fucking god youre dying!!!!” im glad she cares but it pisses me off because my eating is the one thing i have control of. so i guess: she cares in a way that feels invasive to me. texting me “dont starve yourself” while spending the night away is NOT okay.

this really turned into a tangent but this is my blog so ill say whatever,,,

#30 day thinspo challenge

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breaking news!

you are not wrong for wanting to eat. 

you are not wrong for eating (even if you’re not hungry).

you are not wrong for making progress.

you are not wrong for wanting to feel better.

you are not wrong for gaining weight.

you are not wrong for liking yourself.

you are not wrong for eating more than others.

you are not wrong for weighing more than others.

you are not wrong for ignoring calorie labels.

you are not wrong for sleeping during the day.

you are not wrong for letting yourself heal.

your recovery is never wrong.

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Reblog if it’s okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

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anti-binge guide

when you feel a craving coming on:

drink a glass or two of water, slowly

have a piece of fruit, like an apple

make some warm herbal tea with natural sweetener

go for a long walk or hike, put your earphones in and clear your head - walk with a friend if you’d prefer

if you’re still craving the food, have the tiniest bit of it, no more than a bite, and have another glass of water

distractions:

watch a long movie or start a new show

study! complete homework or begin revising for exams

write down your own thinspo imagines

do some online window shopping and look at all the outfits you want to wear at a smaller size

make your own thinspo playlist

do some yoga or meditation

things to keep in mind:

you already know what your favourite foods taste like - you don’t need to eat them again in bulk

imagine the amount of progress you’ll make tomorrow if you exercise self control right now

the shame and guilt that follows a binge is not worth it

the physical pain and exhaustion is not worth it

you’re not just affecting your weight, you’re affecting your overall health, your mental well-being, your skin

binging means you’re wasting your time when you could be doing something much more productive

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am i the only one who doesnt drink much water in fear of gaining weight from it?

#thinplease #ana thoughts #ed thoughts

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dream fridge

god i wish i didnt have to live with anyone. when i graduate next year i will get myself an apartment and save money by not buying any food. no food to binge on. i want my fridge to look like this