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ppl are too mean to house: a thesis

i saw a post the other day about how house ruins everyone that interacts with him and i went into full on protection mode. so lets talk about this.

yes, house is an asshole! thats a major part of his character. but he's not JUST an asshole, and he isn't a bad person. house cares so so much about his friends and his patients and the life he lives. he cares so much about the people around him, even though it's hard for him to show it! i've talked abt my house abuse thoughts here before but he grew up constantly moving around and never being able to make friends, and he also grew up being abused. it is not at all surprising that he is afraid of connection, of intimacy.

the thing is though - house shows again and again how much he cares. he cares so much about the people around him. he offers to kill thirteen when she can't handle it anymore. he's in love with wilson, even if you only want to see it platonically. he cares about patients. he cares so fucking much, and yet people, in the show ajd in the fandom, constantly try to describe him as someone who doesn't care at all. he doesn't just hurt people for fun.

the reality of the situation is that house has trauma and doesnt have an easy time showing it, and throughout the fandom and the show he is treated as some sort of monster. he deserves better across the board

#real and true and based #house

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what I want to do to mens' bodies is between me and God and everyone on the internet and no one else

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house being dipped okay i see u

#images that make me want to crush concrete with my bare hands out of lust #house #cuddy

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Wilson come get your wet cat boyfriend before I eat his ass FOR YOU

#many profane thoughts abt this hateful slut (affectionate) #house

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recent moods

#this fucking guy #wilson

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Okay. Buckle up babes, it's finally Foreteen time and I wrote an essay.

Foreman and Thirteen are so interesting to me in so many ways. You have Foreman, who thrives off of control, and Thirteen, who refuses to be controlled in almost every aspect of her life. In the sense of them as individual people, they both have a lot of their own issues going on. Hot messes, the two of them. But in the sense of them as a couple, I think Foreman specifically is the only one who has issues with the relationship. (Or rather, Thirteen's issues aren't being projected onto the relationship and causing difficulties at the end of s5/beginning of s6, while Foreman's are.)

Foreman's biggest thing, at least in the latter part of their relationship, is control in regards to emotions. After they found Kutner, he coped with everything by isolating himself. A huge part of me thinks that's because this terrible thing just happened, the floor just fell out from both of them in so many ways, and Foreman feels like he doesn't have a grip on anything anymore. The only thing he can control is himself, and how he reacts. So Thirteen? Even though she's his girlfriend and he's worked with her for two years, her emotions and reactions are fundamentally beyond the scope of his control; she's still a wild card. She's not safe. So instead of letting himself lean on Thirteen, letting them grieve together, letting them comfort each other, for his own stability, Foreman chooses to cope (and thus reject Thirteen when she reaches out for support) by retreating into an environment that he's intimately familiar with. He surrounds himself with only variables that he can confidently predict. It's his gut instinct. It's always worked before, so why wouldn't it work this time? Why would it have any reason to cause problems?

In season four and the first half of season five, Thirteen was very much the same way. When things became too overwhelming for her, she repeatedly dealt with them by running, by hiding; by trying to isolate herself from the people who care about her and want to help her. The same base principle drives them both at this point: "what's out of my control is dangerous in some way or another. The only one who's safe to be around is myself, because I am the only person that I can control." But by mid season five, Thirteen has come a long way from that. Slowly she's becoming much more of a "recovering control freak". She's starting to be okay with the fact that she's not always going to have the amount of control that she has right now. She knows that all of it is something she has to come to terms with, and slowly she's getting to a point where she's accepting her diagnosis and working on all the baggage that comes with it.

Thinking about that– the fact that, by mid season five, Thirteen is approaching a point in her life of letting go, of learning to 'go with the flow'; while Foreman is very much still on the side of "I thrive and keep myself safe by controlling every aspect of my life possible"– makes them fundamentally incompatible as a couple from the get-go, even with all of the chemistry they had. Because the moment they get together (the Christmas party in 5x10 "Joy to the World") is right after Thirteen's decided that she doesn't want to die; when she's just starting to process her diagnosis instead of running from it.

Do I think there was/is love there? Yes. They absolutely care about each other, both during and after the relationship.

Do I think they would have worked out long term? The simple answer is "no".

The more complicated answer is that if they had been able to avoid the fiasco of Foreman running the department and then firing Thirteen after House quit, I think they could have made it work. But it would have been rocky, and it would have been especially rough for Foreman. Extremely so if it were to reach a point where they've stayed together for years and years, and Foreman is with Thirteen when she really starts to decline with her Huntington's.

Foreman is Thirteen's friend; he's also seen people slowly wither away from degenerative disease (his mother, with Alzheimer's), and he's a neurologist (and so he knows exactly how she'll decline, down to every last detail). All of those things give him greater emotional stakes in her Huntington's diagnosis beyond what's typical. But specifically in the situation of them facing this as a couple, you have this level of involvement where Foreman– someone who needs a high amount of control to function on a fairly basic level– is in an incredibly intimate relationship with Thirteen, whose entire life is inevitably and actively slipping out of her control. And in that scenario... I think that when the decline does start happening, it would absolutely terrify Foreman. To be the one that's by her side as a partner– seeing all of it firsthand, the pain and grief and sickness? And as her significant other, being the one that would potentially become a medical proxy when she's too sick to advocate for herself, faced with the possibility of making life or death decisions (like whether or not to euthanize the woman he loves)? I think that would have the potential to utterly destroy him.

As a friend, though? ("Ex-partners who have gotten back to a shaky friendship after the breakup, and still care about each other deeply", but "friends" for short.) The entire situation completely changes. I firmly believe that post-canon, if Foreman knows House offered to kill Thirteen before he "died", he would offer to kill her in House's stead in a heartbeat (just like I think Chase does). THAT sort of involvement with Thirteen's decline and care is far less terrifying, because now this is not the decline of someone that he's based his entire future on. This is not someone he's given half of his heart to; this is not someone he's built an entire life with and entwined himself so thoroughly with.

With the way things work out in canon, they're still friends, and they still care about each other; but at the end of the day, they're two separate people with two separate lives, two separate futures. And so Foreman doesn't lose a single ounce of his control as Thirteen's is slowly taken from her, bit by bit. Witnessing that is still a pain that is unimaginable. But for him, it's survivable. And that's the key difference (and why I ship Foreteen during season five and season six, but not post canon).

#GOOD shit #foreman #thirteen #foreteen #meta

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(mgv) the biggest red flag for wilson regarding his feelings for house is how even after his rut is over he still has those sappy, domestic, tender desires...... the twinge of knowing house would be so good to their pups, how comfortable and soft it would be in a nest with him, how nice he'd smell in the mornings when wilson has to go to work but house sleeps in..... he loved his wives but he didn't carry a lingering yearning for them once his rut faded. he tries not to entertain those thoughts because if house picks up on wilson hiding something he's done for

#yes......YES #wilson #hilson #au

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emerging from the not-posting bog to brag. I have a tattoo now hehehehehe

#slugs posts #house md

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dr steez.

#I'm fucking obsessed I love this #the perspective is so good I love his silly little face augh #house #fanart #fave

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Vicodin (Uses and Warnings)

To reduce the risk of dizziness and lightheadedness, get up slowly when rising from a sitting or lying position.

Remember that this medication has been prescribed because your best friend doctor has judged that the benefit to you is greater than the risk of side effects.

#tearing my hair out banging pots and pans together etc #this is gorgeous #house #wilson #hilson #fanart

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House stealing Wilson's clothes (red sweater, grey hoodie, camouflage hat and tie, what's next his soul?)

#oh I feel fucking diseased (positive) #house #wilson #hilson

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gregory "i think about fucking my best friend the appropriate amount" house

#house #wilson #hilson

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House M.D. | 1x20 Love Hurts

#conclusion: they are BOTH into House getting pissed on #<- prev #house #wilson #hilson #gifset

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1.04: Maternity

#my beautiful ocd having bitches #wilson #cameron #gifset

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Mean Girls (2004) House MD (2009)

#I feel like I need to print out and frame this post or something #house #fave

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behold, the men i have painted (i have literally only ever done five paintings i am begging u not to judge too hard)

#HUGE JAMIE W #house #wilson #hilson #fanart

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The conversations that House and Wilson have end up with so much homoerotic tension every interaction it's legitimately insane. Dudes are straight breathing directly into each other's mouths and syndronized stepping there is no way they don't think about each other in the shower. House thinks about Wilson immediately after sex with a woman. Wilson spends Christmas with house instead of his wife. They base their entire lives around playing gay chicken with each other. And do they even know they are doing it??? Do they even realize??? Questionable.

#house #wilson #hilson