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Elliot was unnecessarily so hard to find. His decision to work as a professor had never made any sense to her. Granted she enjoyed the work she did so becoming someone who sat around teaching college students sounded far from appealing. Elliot was still doing it so it had to be working for him. Maybe it was to his advantage, what better cover than to blend in where it was easy to have a cover story. If it weren't for the deadline she had placed upon herself, she could've waited a few more days for her message to be returned. Though it had been far too many for her liking and being ignored wasn't something she appreciated, so she went to find the man as soon

Chloe gave a small nod, before finding a seat across from him. Legs crossed as she leaned back, settling into the chair. "You must be out of it then," she had knocked once and even then it was light. "No offer of tea or coffee or anything? You're a terrible host," Chloe teased. "I came here for business, I have something to track down and you're my expert."

𝖔𝖕𝖊𝖓 𝖙𝖔: m/f/anyone 𝖕𝖑𝖔𝖙: Elliot has been traveling for the last few weeks & is working late at the University he works at, your muse has been trying to get in contact with him during his absence for something (perhaps urgent or not) & has finally caught him in his office late one night. hmu if you'd like to plot! I have some ideas. 𝖈𝖔𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖈𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓: student or potential TA, another professor or colleague, friend, fwb/fling, partner/bf/gf, mafia or crime leader or member looking for him as a connection to the black market, idk anything works.

Grading papers was often the most tedious part of Elliot's job but he enjoyed the solitude it took in order for him complete the task, getting lost in the details of papers and words was always something the professor enjoyed and used to ignore the world around him. At this particular moment though, he was not intentionally trying to ignore anything, an unexpectedly long trip to the Andes had put the ancient cultures professor behind on two weeks worth of work and then some at the unexpected quitting of his teacher's assistant. With a deep breath Elliot exhaled his mild stress before he brought the glass tumbler filled with amber alcohol to his lips and took a soothing drink, shifting in his desk chair to focus better on the words before him on the piece of paper he was reading.

He didn't hear the soft knock at his door, if there even was one, but he became aware of the person approaching his desk quicker and the tall man sat up some in his seat, a little startled. Elliot cleared his throat and flashed an apologetic expression as he turned blue eyes upon his late night visitor. "Ahh, sorry, I didn't hear you knock," he apologized, shifting forward and shutting his laptop screen enough to not have the glare obstruct his vision so that he could see the other better. "-- is everything alright?"

#threads: Chloe Crawford #twistedthings

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"Slip my mind? When have you ever seen something slip my mind." Daniel had initially agreed, their marriage had gone bad and the simple answer was to end it. Now that he realized having her by his side was better, he wasn't about to lose that. "I have more to lose if I let you go Cynthia, what if I love you?" That wasn't the case but that wasn't the issue.

"I JUST FOUND OUT THAT you haven't signed the divorce papers yet. I thought this was going to be a quiet and uncontested divorce. Or did it slip your mind?" It was ironic that a PR crisis manager, an expert at fixing everyone's mess, couldn't do the same thing for her own personal life. "We talked about doing 50/50. You also didn't have to pay me alimony. What's the matter?"

open to: m / nb

#threads: daniel kim #( daniel x cynthia ) #decadentias

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"i don't know how many times i can say sorry, matt." her hands wringed tightly together. this wasn't a conversation she wanted, nor even expected to have tonight. running into matthew was the last thing she had wanted, yet here they were. the man who refused to let her forget she broke his heart and her, who hadn't left him on purpose. rose let out a sigh, "i have no right, but it's not fair to you or anyone else to stay closed off."

open to: m/w/nb

character: matthew (test muse-ish) 80s/90s rock star turned has been.

connection: did your muse cheat? did your muse leave? did your muse just spill his secrets on the internet? did your muse do none of those things and was just set up by a evil jealous person? i don't know. you pick. world's your oyster.

"you fucked me, you know that? you gave me actual trust issues." he laughed. a bitter little thing of a laugh. waving the glass in his hands as he spoke, eyes never quite raising to meet the other's "i thought it was bullshit. when people said, ah yes that relationship gave me trust issues, but now every time sometimes tries to get close to me i sit there terrified that they are gonna do what you did to me."

#threads: rose jimenez gutierrez #( rose x matthew ) #whileurmine

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blindspct​:

dino had a hard time talking about his feelings and he knew that he didn’t make anything easy on rose. regardless of his stubbornness, he didn’t want this to be over and he didn’t want to lose the woman in front of him and the realization of that is what pushed him to further talk about his feelings and to try to be honest with her. he took another long drink of the beer in his hand before giving the woman a single nod, “both. i’m sorry about last night and i’m sorry i left this morning without talkin’ about it. i just didn’t want to risk getting into another fight before work but i know i fucked up, alright?”

it was hard to stay mad when it became clear he was trying, at least now he was. rose rolled her shoulders back, wanting so badly to be able to just let their argument roll off her back. it wasn’t that easy, but she at least would push from bringing it up. he was doing what she wanted, it felt a little late but he was doing it and that counted for something. she wasn’t this woman but dammit it felt more and more like she was. rose ran a hand through her hair, needing to do something else with her hands. “the irony. almost starting a fight by trying to avoid a fight.” that wasn’t the point he was trying to make was it and that wasn’t the point either. rosie pressed her lips together, “you did, fuck up, i mean but okay, i’m sorry. i shouldn’t have tried to bring it up and i should’ve trusted that you would bring it up when you were ready.”

#blindspct #( Rose x Dino ) #threads: Rose Jimenez Gutierrez

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"how many times will you realize I don't listen to you." nora shrugged, pulling a seat across from haneul. "do i get a clue about what you're working on."

"how many times have i told you? you can't visit me here."

muse: bang haneul ( song joong ki ), thirty seven, korean mafia bodyguard open to: any

#unfriendlies #threads: nora park #( Nora x Haneul )

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rosesdieinaweek​:

There was a part of Patrick that was sure that if there were any other way that Henrietta would have sought it out. It had been a long time and the last time they had seen each other he hadn’t been the nicest.  As much as he wanted to make excuses, he was a younger man, a grieving man, a man newly thrust into responsibility he’d never wanted. But at the end of the day none of that mattered, all that mattered was that she had never deserved to be treated that way. “You don’t have to speak formally. If anything, I’d prefer that you didn’t.” And Patrick said that to everyone. He wasn’t his brother, wasn’t the strong and proper next in line. He was just… Patrick. “Very very briefly. How can I help?”

It was less about his preference and more about what made her comfortable. None of this made her comfortable if she were honest but that wasn’t an option. “If we worked on preferences, we wouldn’t be here,” she muttered. This wasn’t the time for her petty feelings, though they felt anything but. Clearing her throat, Henri shook her head focusing back on the issue. Not the man in front of her. “I hope he’s also informed you, he has been ignoring me.” Something she had made very sure the king himself knew she felt. Maybe that was why he continued to ignore her. “I have a few suggestions for policies that need change.”

#rosesdieinaweek #( Henrietta x Patrick ) #threads: Henrietta Byrne

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sorbetkisses​:

“of   course   i’m   willing   ,   okay   ?   have   you   looked   into   any   where   we   could   go   ?”

“i — i honestly didn’t get that far. i wasn’t sure you’d agree.”

#cara maria sorbello #( Edward x Cindy ) #threads: Edward Hughes

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rosesdieinaweek​:

Zara was well aware that she could have offered up a few more details when she had reached out and invited the man for dinner. But then she wouldn’t have known if he was going to show up and that would have left them both in a position that involved a hell of a lot more witnesses. She wasn’t supposed to know about the plans that were in place, it was only that her cousin cared enough that he’d decided to let it slip. “And you think I do? There are two much more important unmarried royals living in the same place as me and yet I’m the one chosen.” Though it was known that Zara wouldn’t argue with her aunt and uncle, where her cousins would definitely fight back. Holding up a card she smirked, “Actually dinner’s on Patrick. Which absolutely means that it’s a night to order top shelf.” Leaning back she shrugged, “Well I was actually thinking we could discuss thoughts on getting out of this. Or just making people regret it.”

"Therefor your assessment has some flaws." More than a few. There was some reason they were trying to marry her off even if she didn't know it, or even if there were more important unmarried royals. There had so be something in exchange, he couldn't understand what his family was planning to gain from this exchange. "Clearly there's something important about you." Control of press maybe? Favorable outcome, but she didn't seem easily bought. Ben leaned back, giving a small nod though a grin crossed his face regardless. “Well then, I guess I’ll stick around.” He hadn’t planned on leaving yet, not until she gave him a more legitimate reason to not consider what had yet to be an offer. “Are you saying you aren’t looking forward to marrying me?” He joked. “My ears are open, what is there to discuss other than getting out of this?”

#rosesdieinaweek #( Ben x Zara ) #threads: Benjamin Matthews

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heroexxs​:

it did feel nice to at least have jada confirm that what he was feeling was okay. he had gotten the complete opposite reaction from other friends, wondering why he wasn’t more excited about all of this but the closer it got to the wedding date, the more nervous he got. it was forever, this was forever but he was starting to second guess if this was what he wanted his forever to look like. of course he couldn’t dump that all onto jada, they had just seen one another after years of being apart and she didn’t need to know all about his drama. he couldn’t help but to smirk as he saw her grab strawberry and playfully made a face at her. “strawberry? i mean i guess it’s better than pistachio or something.” he teased with a smile on his face. at least she was free, which he was extremely grateful for. she was one of the best things about this town and he was glad that she was still here. “oh why thank you, i mean with that busy schedule i’m glad i can be squeezed in.” he teased again as he held his ice cream under his arm. “what do you want to do? what’s still cool in town?” he knew that not many things probably had changed, but the both of them did. they weren’t the same kids that wanted to ride their bikes all the way down to the lake and hangout there, or messing around by the basketball courts. “we could go grab something to eat? that horrible burger place isn’t still there right?” he teased, knowing that the two of them had spent far too much money and had one too many stomach aches from that place, but it was one of the many places that they always hung out. “or i can kick your ass at horse again, like i always do.” he teased with a casual shrug. “you pick the place and let me know.” just being able to hangout with her again brought this sense of excitement. the friends that he had surrounded himself  were mostly made up of his fiancee’s friends as well as some older friends from college, who weren’t around as much. no one knew him like she did, even after all of this years they just clicked. “or we can actually go get ice cream. i know that ice cream stand is still there i passed it the other day.” his smile widened as he playfully walked backwards in front of her and let her push her cart “… or even better, do them all. i can kick your ass in basketball, again, then get something to eat, what do you say? i know you’re not chicken…” 

if he wasn’t nervous about marriage then she would be more concerned. she thought, maybe, at least. it was a possibility that he just didn’t want to be married but she couldn’t judge that. being scared seemed natural, confidence was the scary part. how could you be confident in something you didn’t know. this wasn’t something she could really let him know about. jada rolled her eyes at his comment, “strawberry is awesome. i didn’t stop listening to you even though you like terrible flavors. i’m just learning i have the better taste in this friendship.” he knew she was right, she had to be. anything was better than pistachio, even his mint toothpaste ice cream. jada nonchalantly shrugged, as if she were entitled to class and the exclusivity that she didn’t actually have. “you should, my people would usually have to call your people but i’ve made a special exception,” she teased, sticking her tongue out a little. she had no people and even on her busiest days the girl wasn’t too busy that she couldn’t make time for friends. with freddy, she was never too busy that she couldn’t make time for him. he didn’t need to know how easy he could gain access to her time though, that was something she’d have to be careful of showing. best friend or not, years apart aside, he was getting married and she was not getting in the middle of that. jada’s nose scrunched at his suggestion, “i always knew you hated me. now you’ve proved it.” the burger place was their place, surely, but they had been broke and clearly desperate for anything. even days worth of food poison at a point. if he wanted to kill her, freddy could have done it in much easier ways than letting her die from a terrible burger. and now it was the bold claim of him being wrong, okay not wrong, but she had gotten better. beat him? probably not, but maybe he was all talk. “your ego’s gonna get your ass kicked in horse, freddy.” now she just needed to actually beat his ass. she was going to lose, but at least jada wasn’t going down without a fight. jada pushed her cart, “tacos. there’s this new taco place, i’ve heard it’s good so we can go do that after i kick your ass in horse.”

#rvfdscds LOOOL I mean I didn't think so #heroexxs #threads: Jada Hamline #( Jada x Freddy )

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"because i love you." there was no other way to say it. no other way to explain why he was still sitting here, listening to the shit that came out of her mouth. he hadn't planned on getting attached, most relationships didn't work out. andrew had lived with that knowledge but he hadn't expected this one to go down in blazing flames. andrew shook his head. he hadn't gained the courage to leave. they were done, she had made it clear regardless of how he felt, but the minute he stood there was no coming back. above all fear kept him in the seat. rolling his eyes, andrew let out a sigh. "that's annoying." who was she to determine what he wanted. this conversation was annoying in general. "val, you don't get to tell me what you think i want just so you can use it as an excuse to break up with me." all he was hearing was that he wasn't enough for her to want to be with him, to even discuss what their future would have looked like together. it was stupid to still sit here and argue with her, but here he was regardless.

if there was nothing for him to fight for, then why was he still there? talking to her -- listening to her talk about their relationship, how she can't do it. because of the way she is, because of how she's built herself. in her eyes, it wasn't supposed to be this complicated, it was supposed to be something casual, then lo & behold, it became something more, something that was entirely out of her control, until she noticed. " andrew, " a pause before she says anything, getting her thoughts straight. knowing what she wants to say, sort of doubting herself, considering the way it might come out. " if you already know how i feel about our relationship, then why are you still here? " head tilts to the side, growing another annoyance, another frustration as she feels like she's repeating herself -- something she hates doing, if anything. " i'm not selling you off, i'm telling you the truth -- ! that there's someone out there, who could love you better than i ever could, " words sharp, taking a deep inhale before she says anything more, shaking her head. " i'm not scared. i just . . i'm not ready for whatever commitment you want, is the thing. i feel like you're better off with someone who actually knows that they want a family, that they want something real with you. " valeria's taking her time, yet with another deep inhale, not wanting to keep talking about it, a discussion that should've ended when it ended, not this. " because, i know . . that's what you probably want down the line. i like my life, the way it is. everything's in order, there's no need for me to change anything about it. " it sounds terrible, yes, nonetheless, she's so set in her ways that nothing could change her mind of it. " you do. i'm not disagreeing there. "

#woow this is a trash reply i am so sorry #ruinedtendencies #( Andrew x Valeria ) #threads: Andrew Stone

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"Autobiography is a new take." Okay, maybe the joke wasn't the way to go about it. Liam didn't seem amused. The feeling of amusement spread as he dropped her own folder. Simone picked up the folder, scanning through this as well. "Well, shit." To put it simply. "Am I to assume this is what I think it is?"

" Yes, I wrote a whole bio about myself, you should give it a read I'm sure you will find it interesting." Liam says sarcasm in their tone, the frown on his face never ceasing." Simone, I know. I want an explanation because-" With that they provide another folder this time with her name." You also seem to have a bio of your own."

#of course thanks for letting me! #reveriemxses #threads: Simone Reynolds #( Simone x Liam )

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sorbetkisses​:

“well   ,   it’s   not   fair   to   you   if   i   don’t   go   .   you   don’t   have   to   thank   me   .”

“no, not at all but you don’t owe me. i want us to go because you’re willing otherwise it doesn’t work.”

#sorbetkisses #( Edward x Cindy ) #threads: Edward Hughes

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heroexxs​:

“i know you clean up well.” freddy said with a little smile, hoping she wouldn’t see into that too much but he was right. at prom she was the most beautiful girl in the whole school and even after all of these years he knew that didn’t change at all. a little chuckle slipped his lips at her little jokes but he could feel a bit of the mood change a bit with his news. hopefully she didn’t think it was too bad and that the two of them would still be able to hangout with one another. “oh you can know, this cake is so good i don’t want it to be a surprise. it’s one of those cakes with chocolate chips in it.” his eyes scanned the ice cream as he tried to look for rocky road, even to buy for himself if it was something she didn’t want at all. her question made him stop for a moment as he finally looked over at her. no one ever questioned why he wasn’t as excited as he should be, or why he wasn’t as involved as much as others and truly he was still iffy about this whole entire thing. his fianceé was taking control of everything and personally he was just saying yes to anything so she could take care of it. “i… honestly i don’t know.” he said with a little shrug of his shoulders as he grabbed a tub of ice cream for himself and tucked it under his arm.  “i haven’t really told a lot of people. it still feels kinda weird to even think about it actually happening, you know?” as he went to go grab another tub of ice cream, he caught mint chocolate chip out of the corner of his eyes and went to go pick it up. “there’s a part of me that just feels numb to it all. i’ve just been yessing everything and i know eventually that it’ll be here and that’ll be it, right?” casually he put the tub of ice cream in her cart, hoping that she wouldn’t notice and would at least laugh at it a little later. as he leaned against the cart once again, he hoped that he could change her mood a bit and make her smile some more. “but hey since i’m around i owe you some hang out sessions, right? what are you doing tomorrow?” hopefully nothing since he knew that there were still a handful of things he wanted to do now that he was back in town and wanted to do them all with her. “since i ‘ghosted you’ i think i owe you… carry the three and…” he teased as he pretended to do the math in his head. “at least three thousand, two hundred and fourteen hangouts, so might as well get started on that, right?” he teased again with a little shrug of his shoulders. “you down? what do you say want to hang out with little old me?” 

if it was any other man, with any other situation, or anything else, she would have taken it as flirting. but this was freddy and they didn’t flirt. “well thank you, now i definitely have to up my game.” if he remembered her looking nice, then she had to continue to do so. freddy couldn’t catch her slipping after all these years. jada knew she would have to push back whatever feelings were surfacing to be more normal with him. freddy was happy which meant she was happy for him. right? right. at least she was supposed to be, there was some doubt about how well that was actually coming across. jada shook her head at his cake description, “chocolate really is your kryptonite.” and honestly she couldn’t blame him for it. that did sound like a good cake. feelings aside, she was happy she’d get to try it. “cake tasting is one of those things I just want to do. free excuse to try slices of different cake? sounds like the best idea someone has ever made.” with the way her love life was going, she would have to cash in on a friend’s cake tasting. that was the way life was leading her now.  jada glanced up when he stopped his perusing, wondering if she threw him off. had she asked the wrong question? “oh.” honestly jada wasn’t sure how to respond. she hadn’t meant to question anything about his relationship. she wasn’t in one, who was she to question that. “well that seems normal,” she wasn’t sure. if she were getting married, wouldn’t she want the who world to know if she were in love? freddy is different from her though, if he didn’t want to go shout it from the roof tops, that was him. it wasn’t normal though was it, to not want to tell everyone. jada shook her head, “it’s weird, it’s new. it makes sense that you’re feeling this way.” and now why was she trying to help him navigate this? jada should have stepped away from this conversation. she had no expertise and no right. she turned back to the fridges to pick a tub of strawberry ice cream, a good and underrated flavor in her opinion. pausing, she mentally ran through her schedule. freddy had great timing didn’t he, “nothing important.” at least nothing more important than him. laughing, she tossed the tub into the basket, “i would double check your math but you were always better at that than me.” numbers just had not been her thing. “i’m down. i can make space for you in my clearly busy life.” she always would be willing too, as long as she could. she was about to lose her best friend for him to get married, hanging out like this while she still could was needed.

#LOOOL yes to the honeymoon #at this point just replace the bride but who am I to say #vdcs like just casual invite to the wedding wow #threads: Jada Hamline #( Jada x Freddy ) #heroexxs

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breakingthroughthesilence​:

“You can be the biggest asshole in the room and have the whole room want to be near you,” Alan responds just as he sits at the table near the woman. “I doubt your defensive nature is why you’ve no company.” She was eye-catching, and he knew how people thought.

He truly didn’t deserve her attitude and yet he was still being nice. Simone hadn’t met a serial killer right? “Now that is nice but I don’t think that’s true at all.” Hell hadn’t he found her sitting alone? Partially by choice but it didn’t change the fact. “Maybe not but it seems like a possible reason.”

#breakingthroughthesilence #threads: Simone Reynolds #( Simone x Alan )

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heroexxs​:

freddy was a bit nervous to drop that bomb on her, but she asked why exactly he was back and that was the honest reason. his family wanted to help them plan something and wanted to have it here, whether the pair stayed or not was up to them. it would be easier to rip it off like a band-aid now instead of having her see something or hear something later on. a small chuckle slipped his lips as he shrugged his shoulders a bit. “honestly, i can’t believe it either.” the jokes that she had made him roll his eyes again and it felt nice to be able to go back and forth once again. all he had been filled with were empty congratulations from friends and family, and it still didn’t seem like it was really happening. “like i said i promise she’s real.” freddy said with another chuckle. “nah, she’s not but she likes the small town vibes… i did the same thing you did, got out went to school, traveled a bit and we just ended up running into one another.” freddy really didn’t know if it was love or not, he knew at the end of the day he was comfortable. it was nice to be able to come home to someone and they got in this routine that it just seemed right. “traveled a bit together and she thought it would be a good idea to settle and all that. honestly i never knew how much shit went into a wedding.” the last thing he wanted to do was keep to the subject but he could only assume that it was too big to just push to the side. the two of them got close to the ice cream section and hopefully that could change the conversation to something else, but he knew that she’d probably have some questions. “if you’re free you’re more than welcome to come. you know i clean up pretty well.” he teased in hopes to lighten the air a bit more. “and the cake is pretty damn good. i got to pick that out personally.” he stopped right in front of the ice cream and went to go brouse a couple of flavors, avoiding her eyes for a moment since it was a huge bomb to drop when they were just meeting back up. “but that’s what’s been going on with me and kinda why i’m back in town. i’d like to stay, but hey it’s up to her.” 

jada never would have guessed that the one thing that brought them back together was his... wedding. his wedding! her life had been going on one hell of a trip but even she couldn’t predict this trick. not trick, it was a mess though. not a mess, just life wanting to fuck with her a bit. freddy was getting married. jada smiled before shaking her head, “i can’t believe you’re leaving me behind in the forever alone club.” that truly wasn’t the first thought that came to mind but at the moment it was the only one she could voice. everything else felt more like a screaming banshee cry mixed with confusion. this was not the place for that. nor the time. “good, that’s good that she’s real. you deserve someone... real” that had to be the most honest thing she had said all day to him. he did deserve this, a good marriage regardless of her other feelings. jada nodded. so they both traveled out of the city and he just ended up running into the love of his life, while she ended up running home. how great that had turned out for them both. asking more questions seemed right and yet she had so many she wanted to ask. having to fight herself from inquiring more about his fiance, the one she wanted and truly shouldn’t know more about. at least freedom was starting to be seen in the form of the freezer aisle. ice cream never seemed better than now. “can’t say i do either, but hey at least your prep is almost ready and it’ll be worth it.” god, why was she doing this to herself? in her defense, he had brought it up. he hadn’t forced her to continue to comment though. she sounded like a bad friend for not asking either. that had to be why he brought it up, she had asked originally, but he was sharing. jada let out a soft laugh, “i’ll come but only because i know i clean up well.” freddy did clean up well, prom had shown that but so had the pictures on his instagram. he looked really good in a suit, that she couldn’t deny. “but you do clean up nicely.” she would let him have that one. it was his wedding, she had to at least compliment him. “real proud of your cake choice then? you gonna tell me or am i just going to have to wait and see?” jada dug her hands in her pockets, letting out a silent sigh when his back was turned to her. “why haven’t you just, i don’t know, talked about it?”

#heroexxs #threads: Jada Hamline #( Jada x Freddy ) #fdsdsc i meaaaan i support him #also freddy point to consider but maybe don't invite someone you had a thing with to your wedding... just consider LOOOL

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blindspct​:

dino should have known that she wasn’t going to take it easy on him. she was going to want to talk about it and they probably could have gotten this over with sooner rather than later if he would have just hung around a little longer this morning. he pushed his way further into their shared place and to the fridge to grab himself a beer to calm his nerves. the last thing that he wanted to do was make this situation worse. he took in a deep breath after taking a long sip and leaned against the counter as he looked at her, “i’m just trying to get my thoughts together, alright? i mean, shit. i’m sorry.”

rose was trying a new thing that meant, not sabotaging her relationship. coupled with the fact that she really liked dino, making this work seemed like the proper step. unfortunately it was like pulling teeth with him sometimes. to her own ears she sounded like a nagger, she did that enough at work to not come back home and want to do it again. rose pinched the bridge of her nose, taking a breath to calm herself down. regardless, rose followed, wanting to at least hear his answer. “fine,” she breathed slowly. “is the sorry for last night or right now? you know what no, i’m not going to force an apology about you.” it was already kind of hard to go back on something she was doing.

#blindspct #( Rose x Dino ) #threads: Rose Jimenez Gutierrez

[hartofxmatter]

ruinedtendencies​:

valeria was truly a person who didn’t know what she wanted, though, she knew that if it were anything longer than a few months, she couldn’t commit. everything in her life was everything she could’ve wanted, & being in a long term relationship with marriage & kids . . she didn’t want that, she just wanted . . herself, which sounds selfish, but she’s been in relationships that went nowhere, where she had to take care of someone, yet, – andrew’s different, she just couldn’t see it going on for longer, if that made sense. “ that makes one of us, andrew, ” she muses, wanting to reach out & hold him, tell him the things he wanted to hear, but even she couldn’t do that, lie to him. although, she’s been doing it the entire time, hasn’t she? stringing him along, telling him what he wants to hear, when it’s not the real thing. “ i guarantee you, andrew, someone else will come along & love you more than i ever could. i can’t – i can’t give you what you need. or what you want, because i can’t see myself . . living in a house with someone, with kids. ” she worked with kids, yet, she couldn’t . . imagine it herself, to be someone’s mom, to do what her student’s parents do everyday. “ i’m sorry i couldn’t love you the way you wanted me to. ”

this wasn’t the honesty she had asked for or needed. andrew hadn’t gone into this thinking they would end up together, that was a lot of pressure for a relationship yet it had turned around and turned into something... well more. they hadn’t really discussed it so maybe it was his fault for getting ahead but to find out that she hadn’t even considered it, just hurt. he let out a frustrated sigh, unsure where to go. now they were back to where they started, which was what he feared. “so what was this? just a way to waste your time? hell my time?” because that was what this had turned into. their relationship was a waste of her time. why was he still sitting here? listening to val continue to rip on their relationship. lack there of at least. “i didn’t want anyone else, that’s the problem val. you can’t just try and sell me off on someone else because what? you’re scared. you can’t imagine letting something just happen without you being in control of it?” he should have just walked away. he still had a chance to end with himself in a good position. “val, i never asked that of you did I? you just assumed i’d force that on you.” they hadn’t talked about that. why would she just assume. “no, you’re right about one thing. i deserve better.”

#ruinedtendencies #threads: Andrew Stone #( Andrew x Valeria )