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CUTTING EDGE ∼ METAMUSE [ZOC]

CUTTING EDGE

Sick of scrolling suicide forums Now that I met you I’ll live my life so that

no one will be able to tell I’m like this My bag strap gets caught in the door of the train I was supposed to get on

Oh right, nothing matters to me Go ahead and tear it apart Go ahead and pass me by Because that’s not the way I’m going To heaven with you!

Down on my knees in this hell with a view Below-average me I have all the more reason to love my rough-skinned adolescence, my stripped-away innocence My life probably isn’t a big deal, but

GIRL AT THE EDGE I lived on the margins I’m the CUTTING EDGE An everlasting girls' generation, what will create the new era isn’t a fashionable face          it’s a girl like you’ve never seen before Girl girl girl girl Girl girl girl girl NO NO NO NO NO

I can do it if I try         and I hate that about myself It pisses me off that you like me This isn’t me at all

That’s right, this isn’t me at all “Growth” is cruel       Yes, I want to pay money to watch the self-massacre show we call “progress”

Kiss me even if I drop dead in this hell with a view Fall in love with my rough-skinned adolescence, my stripped-away innocence Telepathy with a corpse doesn’t do it for me, BABY

GIRL AT THE EDGE Try standing in the middle I want you to love me while I’m alive Eternal girlhood         I’ll never grow up I won’t let you kill      even a single one of the girls inside me

Down on my knees in this hell with a view Below-average me I have all the more reason to love my rough-skinned adolescence, my stripped-away innocence My life probably isn’t a big deal, but

GIRL AT THE EDGE I lived on the margins I’m the CUTTING EDGE An everlasting girls' generation, what will create the new era isn’t a fashionable face          it’s a girl like you’ve never seen before Girl girl girl girl Girl girl girl girl NO NO NO NO NO

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ZOC実験室 ∼ ZOC

ZOC実験室/ZOC JIKKENSHITSU/ZOC LABORATORY

My attacks and my magic they don’t reach you And my feelings don’t even show up on screen As long as I erase them before they turn into a command It looks like there was no love to begin with No love to begin with

You’re forever outside my zone of control I should be able to live my life as if I don’t even know you Easy! I don’t play the game I don’t play the game I don’t press start and I’m already getting withdrawals ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I’m gonna throw up I love you

My body starts to fade If I could become a vehicle for ads and online comments to pass through without leaving a mark things would be much easier, wouldn’t they You gonna betray what you believe in? You gonna bare your heart for them to drill into? How will you take damage? Make your choice!

You’re outside my zone of control so we can never understand each other You throw words at me like they won’t kill me, and it hurts Not at all! I can’t quit this game I can’t quit this game I’m here watching myself be the main character ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC Hey bitch I’m you, aren’t I?

What I’m afraid of isn’t loneliness, it’s alienation We have different fates and principles; I know that already But let’s talk anyway that’s what I’m standing up for Changing who I am inside or getting erased following my heart I’ve chosen my successors I don’t have any HP left There’s a skull above my head at all times How far can I go like this How far will I go like this How far

I can’t quit the human experiments I can’t quit my life I can’t quit this game It hurts but I can’t quit ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I can see it now ZOC ZOC I can see it now This isn’t a game This isn’t a game So I’ll sweep you off the map Kill, kill, kill, kill ZOC ZOC You alive? ZOC ZOC And that’s the character you picked? ZOC ZOC Drag it out “You”, and “I”, and “You”, and “You” Kill it, kill it, kill it, kill it Kill it, kill it, kill it, kill it Kill it, kill it, kill it, kill it Kill it, kill it, kill it, kill it Kill it, kill it, kill it, kill it Kill it, kill it, kill it, kill it Start living

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魔法使いは二度死ぬ ∼ 大森靖子

魔法使いは二度死ぬ /Mahoutsukai wa nido shinu/Magicians Die Twice

Did you know? Things that aren’t good for anything are called “magic”. Out of my cute wand comes a cute beam of hearts or stars, and my opponent loses their mind! You’re asking what happens to my opponent? They lose their mind! In other words, nothing happens at all. Because magic is just magic.

I said, “Stop it already!” I said it to myself Because if I go any further Things probably won’t go my way

I wish all I ever came up with Was lies I revealed the secrets of the universe Those gotta be lies, otherwise I can’t, I can’t stand this

Another birth celebration, elegant, but I shoot through the energy with my air gun Take a little, steam it in your rice cooker, simmer, stir, and store And when you get hungry, ping You only liked the magic You didn’t really like me A soap bubble that bursts on the base wax You just like it because it’s never coming back Gross But when it comes down to it, isn’t that me? I paint the landscape, and then Little by little I’m erased from the scene, and that’s

what is called “listening to music”

If only I’d never become a magician If only I’d never become a magician If only I’d never become a magician Every day I say something like “my hobby is suicide” This huge value extends my life by one day I’m holding it tight so I’m not lonely

You said, “You’re wrong!” You said, “Stop it!” I’m not ready to disappear anyway Because I’m not putting my life on the line

All my thoughts Are just gibberish So why are they coming true I gotta hurry, rattle rattle, clatter clatter

How long have you been asleep? Chatty rooms Somebody’s feelings crushed under a finger heart Splatter, spatter, I stir them around, a lethal dose of love That’s funny that I still had such pure feelings

What I mean is “Make music!”

In the end, I can’t be anything but a magician In the end, I can’t be anything but a magician In the end, I can’t be anything but a magician While my love and my labor are being abused This huge value extends my life by one day But even if I hold it tight I can’t overcome this

If only I’d never become a magician If only I’d never become a magician If only I’d never become a magician Some stick, a fancy outfit, a tired old spell Love and justice, the trembling of a young girl, prayer and sacrifice I’m holding them tight so I’m not lonely

Did you know? Things that aren’t good for anything are called “magic”. But useless things that nobody cares about are the only things that can make my heart leap anymore.

#大森靖子 #seiko oomori #oomori seiko #超天獄 #魔法使いは二度死ぬ

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ひらいて ∼ 大森靖子

ひらいて/hiraite/open up

i want to fall in love i want to fall in love i want to fall in love this is the worst

i’m a teenage werewolf i want to play hooky from my life my follower count’s alright I guess and I get away with all my lies

with social beauty i navigate being a person “don’t wear makeup” turns into “put some makeup on at least”

am i allowed to say i’m sad? can i say “i want to die” about myself? i need peoples’ sympathy      is that not a feeling, maybe? should I not put up with this, maybe? help me, or something

in the end, i don’t want to say it my poker face is looking strained but it’s all whatever to me i just want to eat and fall asleep and have a dirty dream once in a while

open up my back i couldn’t see it, but it’s been with me all along open up tear into this body and drag out the girl about to shed her skin open up if you’re going to kiss me do it somewhere i won’t expect it open up the way my heart is beating right now i want to chew on it tomorrow in my regular life with a blank expression on my face

youth just bothers people anyway and I don’t want to change my life for love

but I’m jealous of that girl who’s kind of a brat  and her dramatic ups and downs      and how she looks cute through all of it i wanna try being forgiven i wanna try being loved but in the end, i don’t like it i’m gonna do it myself  i 

open myself up let me hurt you your love or whatever, the annoying stuff from the bottom of your heart open up           the darker the night gets, look the brighter it glitters

open up          i’m bored (open up!) open up          i’m bored (open up!)

open me up open me up more i got started a little bit, and from here on out open me up the way my heart is beating right now i want to chew on it tomorrow in my regular life wipe the blank expression off my face i’m bored

i want to fall in love i want to fall in love i want to fall in love this is the worst

#大森靖子 #oomori seiko #seiko oomori #超天獄 #ひらいて

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VAIDOKU ∼ 大森靖子

VAIDOKU/SYPHILIS

Another empty day, the culture that makes this look worthwhile is poison Another empty day, the workout that makes me feel like I accomplished something is poison Another empty day, the sports game that glosses things over with adrenaline is poison Another empty day, another empty day, another empty day

Before I’m dead and gone may this manga find its proper end I pretend I’m caught off guard and flash my skin, then cry my eyes out about it all summer

As some kind of punishment, because of a sin from a past life I go shopping in this body and eat my way through the supermarket until I start tasting the additives then I flush it all away with black tea

Can you turn off the music while I’m in prayer, please* I’m waiting for the end

Should I not have said that? People like us we’re no one so we do whatever

The time for love is when you’re young and we’re killing time as strangers* But what does it matter, it’s summer anyway

When I’m dead and gone I’ll wish I could have loved more thoroughly When you’re morning trading, noon can be darker than the night We flirt and make out, then we do it right away

Is there no space in-between Put on the music, please I need an extension

Should I not have said that? People like us we’re human no matter what we do I have so much talent the whole world hates me, and it’s still not enough

Another empty day, the culture that makes this look worthwhile is poison Another empty day, the workout that makes me feel like I accomplished something is poison Another empty day, the sports game that glosses things over with adrenaline is poison Another empty day, another empty day, another empty day

I shouldn’t have said that Someone like me I’m no one What can I do

プレイ can be read as either „play“ or “pray” 暇つぶし (killing time) is written as 飛沫 (sea spray)ブし

#大森靖子 #seiko oomori #oomori seiko #超天獄 #VAIDOKU

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