All I want is to be secretly fed by someone, but I know they're feeding me secretly and they know that I know, but we never acknowledge it and we just keep letting it happen and there's just a constant tension between us. Is that too much to ask for?
Like we eat together for the first time and they notice how easily I can clear a big plate of food, so they offer to give me their left overs and I say yes and eat them. They suggest that we order dessert, and they can only eat so much of the desert, so they once again offer to give me their leftovers. So now I've eaten both our meals and desserts, and I probably still have room, and they wonder how far they can take things without making it obvious what they're doing.
They buy us fast food and say that they "accidentally" bought 2 of something, but of course I eat it all anyway. Nothing ever goes uneaten. They buy me milkshakes every once in a while, pretending like it's not a big deal and they happened to feel like getting me something. Eventually, those milkshakes turn into wg shakes, and I notice the change, but I don't say anything. I just happily drink them as if I'm not almost bursting out of my clothes from how much weight I've put on since meeting them.
I start purposefully wearing my newly small clothes around them, teasing them by letting my rolls show and letting my shirt rise up. They start taking me to buffets, and they keep offering to bring me a plate and we sit there for hours, talking while I eat plate after plate after plate until I get so full that I finally have to reject them.
We never fully acknowledge that I've gained 30lbs in the 2 months we've known each other, but it's obvious what's happening and obvious that we both love it.
Coach has me on this new diet plan and idk if it's working. I feel so heavy and bloated all the time. Every time I look in the mirror I swear It looks like my body is swelling out of my jock strap. But if this is what it takes to be a star athlete then I'll keep eating. Coach knows what he's doing. Right?