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[gabxth]

Sporadic twitches of pain ate away her composure, something had lodged itself on her chest as Hyuna spoke one truth after another. Her began to its steady meeting, skin creasing as the guilt settled in, whilst her teeth dug onto her lower lip. The truth hit harder having been spat out by someone dear to her, perhaps because they have direct access to hit where's most sensitive. Almost in an instant, she was reminded of all the good things that came with meeting Jinsang came. She didn't even get a chance to admit her feelings to herself and here Hyuna was doing it without difficulty. It was shame, envy and guilty swirling into a great big bowl of disarray called Gabby's heart. She rolled her eyes and turned her face, teeth digging further into her lower lip as she kept the vengeful words from spilling. But as her gaze settled over their joined hands, she took a deep breath, pulling hers away.

"Don't talk about me so easily. We both know it doesn't work like that for us." She could feel the tension settling between her lashes, between her fingers, making her ears hot. Her fingers curled into a fist as they dangled on each side. Hyuna was right, she always was. And Gabby was wrong, always wrong. In her head, it didn't seem fair that she ends up losing regardless of what she decided to do. And Hyuna, she can do whatever she wanted and still win. Unashamed to be around Jiho, do the things she wanted, be sure about herself -- everything came easy for her. In panic, her anger launched an attack to the person within reach. "Who are you to talk to me about love, Hyuna?" The words skittered pass her lips like poisoned daggers, "What do you know about love?" 

There was an static air of difference that settled uncomfortably between the two female bodies. Taunting them with a sinister grin as it placed separation in the supposedly and metaphorically glued friends - sisters, or so they used to happily call each other, but that word felt bitter on Hyuna’s tongue now. Perhaps ugly and black were better suited as descriptors for her own heart. Here sweet Gabby was coming clean about the suffocation she felt and the reasons for her long departure, and all she could feel is her selfish rage clawing and clawing and clawing at her insides. She should care. She should take Gabby’s familiar hands into her own and comfort her until all worries disappear. She should be the better person and forgive. But perhaps she is not that evolved - pink lips opened up only to find silence sitting on her tongue, and so, she closed her mouth. Round orbs did not stop staring - “Maybe it had always been like that.” - her words echoed out with no prevention.

"You ran away. You ran away for days, weeks, months without contact. Did you not know how worried your parents were? Your brothers were? How worried I was - ” Her slender fingers snatched Gabby’s thin wrist in a light hold. “You ran away because you were ashamed that you found someone to care about. Do you not know how lucky you were? To feel that spark, that rush, that comes with finding someone special enough to like? You ran away from love, Gabby, even the Hatter could not save you.”

#hyxnaxth #MY HYUNBBY HEART #omfg r they abt to have their first ever fight #drama lol

[gabxth]

It would have been easy to speak of her feelings if she herself was certain what it was her heart was going crazy for. But to hell and back, Gabby still had absolutely no idea why things had become so complicated she decided to flee in the first place. "Of this..." Her hand lifted over her chest, fabric lulling the beating of her heart. "Of how fickle it was." Like a bubble touched by a child's pristine little fingers, what began with a joyful departure disappeared half way the journey. Oh, how she lied! To her parents, to Hyuna, to everyone... She promised to write, to made her current location known, to tell them what a healing experience the trip is. There was no healing, there was no change... Only living in a frozen, fracture of time. Like she had cheated the clock and stole a few weeks to live an entire lifetime far from all this. Only facing her demons and learning from the bruises. "I wouldn't be so worried about my mind being poisoned, the Hatter and I, we're very much alike. Very much so now, I believe. This beating thing inside my chest, it's all black and ugly now, Hyuna." 

Sweet caged canary with wings so eager to fly, won’t you slow down? Just a bit. Just so precious irrationality could chain herself to fleeting bird for all of eternity. Red lips rolled between white teeth, and beautiful orbs gazed patiently at exotic features - she listened carefully as each velvet words were taken in with the highest care. She had been chipped by the sudden disappearance of her friend, but contrary to popular belief, her heart was not made from glaciers. To not care about Gabby would be a thing she is unable to do. So she listened and listened and listened in utter silence, and her mind tried to decipher the eccentricity that was Gabby. “Terrified of what? What made you feel like jumping down into Wonderland was the only option? Don’t you know that the Mad Hatter poisons minds?”  

#hyxnaxth #;gp

[gabxth]

She refused to be stuck. It was going to be a vicious cycle of suffocation until she decides to fall off the cracks and disappear. Maybe for good the next time. The only way to put an end these feelings piling up at the corner is to start talking about them, no matter how awkward or difficult it may be. "I fell into Wonderland, Hyuna." It was a start. To actually let her thoughts be heard, even if it is still difficult to articulate them, was a good way to change where she goes from here. "But I clawed my way out of the rabbit hole. I was enjoying too much. I was having so much fun I got terrified..." She was still terrified, but there was that spark of hope that she wouldn't be misunderstood this time. 

Much like a lot of things in her mundane life, consistency did not stay. Mild attachments only proved to be futile - a lesson learned over and over again starting from a detached father. Although not shown, the distress felt in the absence of her friend stirred, and in replacement, she had filled her imagination with prospects of new adventures - a realm where the sting of abandonment did not exist. However, with the appearance of Gabby, the fantasy evaporated, and she was left to dwell in a concluding sensation of uncertainty. What was she supposed to say or do or act in front of fleeting rapunzel? Which movement would best indicate her feeling - or rather, what is her current feeling other than a dazed blankness? “Oh. No, I see that.”

#hyxnaxth #;gp #[ but how to reply lol #i forgot how to do this ; n ; ]

[gabxth]

Like many things in her life, she liked to believe that this discomfort was nothing but fleeting. She supposed this is what one gets for living as a drifter longer than she had promised. How was she to tell those that she left behind that she fell in love with the idea of never having to be tied down to one place and having power over time? It will be difficult to explain. And just the thought of it sent her running back home... only to realize it wasn't that anymore. "But I came back."

Sharp features stared back at her, but it felt different. There was a foreignness in the atmosphere that separated them; a stifling air that seized them, but she had missed the gorgeous enmity dearly, and that was enough to momentarily dismiss the dense awkwardness between the two. Milky hands reached out to cautiously lace around the other’s, afraid that Gabby would disappear with a tender touch. “You disappeared.”   

#hyxnaxth #;gp #[ /clings ]

[gabxth]

There was this foreign feeling ringing from within her. The kind that made things feel out of place in spite of her relationship with the young woman. It had been proven difficult to push the idea to the back of her head. She hasn't been Gabriella Uehara for a while. Coming back to this delicate persona for good will take time. 

"Hello, beautiful. How have you been?"

Knock, knock, my love.

It was an overwhelming sense of relief that rushed through petite frame, a sense of security and normality, as the voice she had so desperately wanted to hear echoed out. Gabby. Gabby. Gabby!��

"Surely this is not an illusion. That would be too cruel."

#hyxnaxth #;gp #[ IMY I CANT EVEN ]

[gabxth]

As for this lovely muse, I'd say she took off (she runs away from her problems after all) to travel. As to where, let's just say 'everywhere'.

I will send lovely little notes to her friends so she can still be here even if she isn't (? idek if that makes sense)

#;ooc #hiatus notice #- where gabby will be

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« text » it's difficult to know these days

« text » i don't think it works like that  

« text » i like him but

« text » i don't want a stick dangling between my legs

« text » that's weird

« text » ugh how do u even pee

« text » u need to hold it

« text » i'm getting very bad images here 

【 text 】you should find out next time

【 text 】just stealthily brush against his package & see if there is actually a bulge  

【 text 】but… sungmin… actually… oh dear.

【 text 】probably. if you REALLY like him, you can go get a d?

#what is normal #lol #hyxnaxth #;gtxt

[gabxth]

« text » IKR.

« text » i mean he and sungmin are suspiciously close

« text » i think he is

« text » if he isn't, odg i question my choices

« text » i even sat by the bed

« text » THE FREAKIN BED.

« text » is it becos i have a v instead of a d?

【 text 】but…

【 text 】maybe…

【 text 】…are you absolutely positive he is a guy?

【 text 】or straight?

【 text 】because girl, you hot. 

#hyuna pls #hyxnaxth #;gtxt

[gabxth]

« text » think of it as a challenge, love. 

« text » went to his house to watch a movie.

« text » we were alone.

« text » in his room.

« text » not even a touch.

« text » i wanted to go 'hey i think i like you'

« text » we ended up just waiting for the damn movie to end.

« text » does that count?

【 text 】i hate winter. it is ruining my dire need for scandalous portrayal of a female suffering from ‘daddy issues’. aka my clothing choice

【 text 】well, it is the 20th century. have /you/ tried making a move?

#hyxnaxth #;gtxt

[gabxth]

« text » you'll freeze to death if you don't.

« text » we're gonna end up standing or sitting there all awkward.

« text » and get nowhere.

« text » becos have you ever seen us talk?

« text » no? yeah me too.

【 text 】i promise to show up decently clothed. i been quite good on my choice of attire lately

【 text 】how do you know he won’t?

【 text 】human beings have this ability to be surprising. 

#hyxnaxth #;gtxt #u better :3

[gabxth]

You're not fooling me with that line... We dated, Seunghyoon. { / heaves a sigh, staring at him } Of course not, you guys don't do that. You don't do anything. You confuse the shit out of us girls... He just... I'm just gonna end up disappointed. I know I will.

Do I look like I’m in trouble? [/he glanced over to look at you, clearly surprised] i don’t think i’m in a huge trouble- you know how i don’t take such things seriously. [/he paused, thinking how it affected his friendship with Jiho] yeah- i’m not in any trouble. [/repeats himself, before continuing] how do you know that? he told you that?

#thxseunghyoon #;gscr

[gabxth]

« text » okay and pls wear something for winter. don't ask.

« text » it'll get my parents off my back.

« text » they'll have their mergers and i'll have a senior year and college freedom.

« text » & it's not like the titan is gonna speak up.

【 text 】we can watch it in your bed tonight rapunzel, after i climb up your tower using your hair as rope

【 text 】your lack of ambitions baffle me, gabby

【 text 】how is going through with a loveless marriage going to help you?

【 text 】or /them/?

#u should rest ; n ; #hyxnaxth #;gtxt

[gabxth]

I'm not the only one in trouble here, you were on Gossip Girl not very long ago, mister. It sounds nice... but I don't think Jinsang likes me that way.

and mcdonald drive thru it is. i wouldn’t want us to be caught in public and cause you further trouble. it is never going to be easy but wouldn’t it be nice to have someone who loves you and go through all the hards in life?

#thxseunghyoon #;gscr

[gabxth]

« text » YOU SHOULD WATCH IT.

« text » i think my rapunzel crush has been replaced with elsa.

« text » it's gonna happen hyuna, that wedding.

【 text 】…there is a new disney movie out?

【 text 】where - never mind

【 text 】stop trying to distract me, gabriella

#am back #/late again #hyxnaxth #;gtxt

[gabxth]

but i'll be back with replies <3

#;ooc

[gabxth]

Fast food. And ice cream. Loads... there seems to be an ice cream ban since that wedding gown appointment. It's not that easy, Seunghyoon. I thought it was...

organic crap is for weird people who lives off a delusional life. What do you want to have? Its not complicated if you follow your heart and willing for sacrifices to take place.

#thxseunghyoon #;gscr

[gabxth]

« text » you watched frozen didn't you? i just saw it with alex last night. i still like alice in wonderland better.

« text » but

« text » do you wanna build a snowman?

【 text 】easily 

【 text 】but i’m an advocate of happily ever after

【 text 】gabs, i don’t - i just wish you can stop lying to yourself

【 text 】& he may be sweet, kind, and thoughtful - but despite what i really want to believe, this is not a fairytale & sometimes the bad guys are the charming ones

#still changing the topic #cos she can #lol #oh hyuna #hyxnaxth #;gtxt