foxymoxynoona

[foxymoxynoona]

day 47/547 until joon returns

#namjoon

[foxymoxynoona]

Oh you work in video game industry... do you play games as well? I love how beautiful you explained the Dragon Age world in The Lowlander, especially because I don't play the game, but I love playing games. I remember reading the wiki because of how detailed you explained the way of the tribe works (especially the death(?) scene where they don't bury the corpse). To be honest, sometimes I'm kind of pissed off with people not reading the tutorials because they're like... made for babies (except for complicated games). But reading your answer on that ask just reminds me of Monster Hunter. I really wanted to try that fantasy game, but just after reading all the controls, I give up after 15 minutes in 😂 I just know that game isn't for me. I understand the concept of combo attacks, but damn the controls are a lot. And I gotta admit, reading over 50 pages of controls/guides/tutorials are just... meh. I've played RTS game that used all the buttons in the keyboard and that's still simpler (added that their control setting UI is just amazing)

Yep, I do! I'm really pleased you enjoyed the Dragon Age world --I think it's the only video game world I've ever written fanfiction in but it just spoke to me from the beginning and I've been cozy in it for years. It was fun figuring out what the developers had said about the Avaar world that I kept and what I modified or filled in myself, though it does make it tricky now for me to remember what's actually cannon in the games haha.

I don't play Monster Hunter but my husband plays it a LOT so I'm very familiar with the game! It was never for me though. I've watched it, I think I tried a battle, but definitely just too complex and not the kind of game I look for, despite being fantasy. I'm not a "combos matter" kind of gal haha, even in games like Horizon Zero Dawn and the Witcher I never mastered combos and just used the same easy-to-grok combos over and over. Sorry designers! (Ironically, my husband is a combat designer, so this drives him nuts 😂😂)

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[foxymoxynoona]

idk why i’m telling you this but man… i feel extreme humiliation whenever i am out with my mother. she’s so rude to waiters/waitresses or just about anyone working in the service industry. she always speaks to them like they’re beneath her—never saying please or thank you because she thinks “it’s their job to service us and be helpful”. and she always leaves a huge mess on the table and whenever i try to at least stack the dirty dishes and glasses together to make it easier for the busser to pick up she gets furious and goes “this is what they get paid for, why are you doing their job for them?” and she always… litters. she’ll nonchalantly throw used up tissue/food wrapper out on the street and whenever i confront her about it she always goes “someone gets paid to clean that up”.

i don’t know why i never noticed this about her until i’m all grown up and moved out. it always ends in a huge fight whenever i try to talk to her about this appalling ‘karen’ behavior of hers. i always get anxious whenever i go out with her and pray she doesn’t cross the line any further than she already does. it’s so mentally exhausting to always watch out for what she says or does to service folks. i can never relax and i’m always constantly feeling like a shitty person by association even though i really wanna scream that i’m nothing like her, because people always give me this look that says “hey maybe teach your mother dear some manners?” whenever she acts up. and i can never say anything to her about this because she always pulls the “do you want me to die? because you unnecessarily stressing me out like this will certainly lead to that” card.

sorry. i should probably talk to a therapist about this instead of to you, a stranger on the internet.

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. I hope you at least can find comfort that the reason you didn't notice this until you were a grown up is that you have effectively established your own identity and morales that exist outside of her, and so now you notice the ways in which you are in conflict! You are most definitely not a bad person by association. It's easier said than done to try and impact especially a parents' behavior. I have dealt with similar things with my parents and realizing how helpless I am for their particular struggles.

I totally encourage you to talk to a therapist BECAUSE I very much did and it helped me find specific techniques that actually have improved my relationship with my both my mom and my dad. At the same time, there are some things they are unbudging on and therapy helped me learn how to protect my own sanity in those situations --which in the extreme actually means that my husband's mother is cut completely from our life because it was the only way to stay safe. I've experienced the whooooole spectrum of these relationships and sympathize with how hard it is. The tools you have available for managing it also really vary based on your age and financial dependency and so much more. Hang in there --and know that more people sympathize with this and recognize when you are trying to correct or not condoning her behavior

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[foxymoxynoona]

In MM I have the impression that JK is afraid of losing Sasha but at the same time not that much. Like he's not fully committed to the relationship, at least not as much as Sasha.

There is this big lack of respect and consideration for her feelings when he decides to get a tattoo from Naoko. Why would you want to keep in touch and get tattooed by a girl you slept with during your breakup when you got back together with your girlfriend.

It's like he punished her and she accepts the punishment for the pain she caused him before. I know he loves her but maybe not as much as she does.

And I think she should start to tell him little pieces of her story not all of it and not the hardest part but at least start to test the waters and maybe if it’s to difficult for her then he could go with her to see her therapist

They both have issues and they need to work on them alone but also together for being a good team and have a good relationship.

In my experience when you’re in a relationship your partner is not only your lover but also your good friend and most times your best friend .

But I recognize that he really wants to protect her from his idol life and he’s just trying to find who he is as JUNGKOOK not just a celebrity. It’s just a difficult journey that only him can do

I love that readers are so divided on which is most or least committed to the relationship --and sometimes even that these opinions shift every few chapters! My plans are working 😎 I won't say anyone is right or wrong but that it's a really subjective topic, and also something that likely ebbs and flows over the course of a relationship.

I should probably caveat this by saying that I am not writing a manual for how to have a healthy relationship in your 20s, but will add that the reality is that even people who are very in love will sometimes say or do selfish or thoughtless things in a relationship. It happens that attraction or affection can happen for someone other than the person you're in a relationship with and what you do with that can make it harmless or hurtful. Etc etc.

"They both have issues and they need to work on them alone but also together for being a good team and have a good relationship."

I think this is very true! Your comment about being good friends or even best friends is so sweet and personally how I approach relationships too. For the two of them, I think there are moments of that but also not quite. It's very connected, I think, to the discussions about their sexual life too, and what else is their relationship besides that? There are so many types of intimacy, and the development of their friendly/trusting/non-physical intimacy is definitely slower than the physical side. Which they... sort of recognize... maybe starting to...

Thank you for so much thoughtfulness about their situation! I hope you enjoy how the story plays out 🥰

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[foxymoxynoona]

wait but serious question who in BTS would make a sexy good firefighter

Taehyung.

YOU EXPECTED ME TO SAY NAMJOON. And I do think he'd be a great Fire Marshall.

But I'm adding Taehyung because of what he's shown us of his service time right now and because he's terrifyingly fearless against jump scares (ie, burning beams falling in his path and blocking off the exit) and he would control the crazy powerful fireman hose and also rescue all the puppies and kitties and there would be photos of him with his beaming smile holding a cranky smoldering kitty all over the news.

Damn we're getting in some good daydreams today

#asks #anonymous

[foxymoxynoona]

YES YES YES I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE!!!! namjoon irl DEFINITELY gives off the ‘im not a stepfather, im the father that stepped up’!!!!!! him and yoongi both actually.

Yeah I don't know exactly why. Maybe because we see how responsible they are with the younger members, even when they're clearly not in the mood? Whereas Seokjin feels more like birth father. Hobi is super fun uncle who takes his niece or nephew in when they run away from an unhappy home as a teenager.

What am I even talking about these days I need to sleep 🤣🤣

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[foxymoxynoona]

https://www.tumblr.com/foxymoxynoona/748500449838170112/damn-im-so-slow-and-feel-like-a-late-bloomer

OooOh, let me rant to you about my songs for your story one more ask and I’ll stop, I swear! 🤣. You really have NO idea that I can name the songs and scores I’d marked and embed to every single chapter of your FLUX, lmao. Yeah, I’m that kind of person! I really understand why “Phases” resonated in your writing and I also like this type of songs singing the saddest thing but still edging us with a cheerful melody. I love the paradox of the way it gives us a yearning part and also cheer us up in lyrics at the same time.

As for me, I’d pick this indie song “Anaheim” by NIKI for those angstiest chapters we all know about which I think it kinda radiates the same tone of voice as Phases. It really fitted SO SO well in Sasha’s POV and her mental state after that. I personally think Nicole is a wordsmith like you but as a songwriter and a singer 😂 she’s super great at creating emotional depth in her music. “Oceans & Engines” is living proof of one of the saddest songs around today! (especially, the live version) This one is partially for both JK and Sasha too. That’s the Grammy song for me. If you or other anons have this kind of music, please jump straight to giving me recommendations. I CRAVE IT. I CRAVE PAIN (from arts 🥹).

And for M M, of course, I did enjoy it! I finished chap 10 a week after I sent you an ask, hehehe. Now to tune in to whatever you will bestow to us all. I don’t mind if the story will get angstier and lengthier cause that’s what I’m here for and I’ll be reading the hell out of it so happily as always.

Anyway, welcome back from vacation, and also happy belated birthday to you! (I just saw you talked to anons.) 🫶🫶

Taking notes of all music recs. I don't know if I still have a soundtrack link on my blog, back in the day I got lots of song recommendations for the Secret Song Series and even a couple folks put together full playlists. If Tumblr's search function works at all I think you can find them on my blog under music recs or soundtrack. So I appreciat the additions!!

I think that this story is like a dolphin jumping in and out of the water and Flux was like a whale making one giant leap and crash. Those are my story summaries. 🤣 We won't be angst free but diffeernt! It's hard to be patient reading all these reader comments analyzing their relationship. Someone just give me the hours in the day to listen to the music and finish up the next chapter!!!

And thank you for the belated birthday wishes! My husband got me all BTS stuff LOL but none of it has arrived in the mail yet so it's like my birthday drags out :)

#asks #anonymous #secret song series #personal

[foxymoxynoona]

I don't know if my ask went through because of my spotty internet so here I am again. My apologies if I show up twice saying the same things. 😅

I saw a pool service car while driving today and remembered your Pool JK story. I suddenly got so excited at the thought of reading your story snd following that journey. Your stories always have an interesting and intriguing start but then you shape them to become even bigger and greater than I could ever imagine. It's always such an amazing read and truly an experience I'm so thankful to have. So I'm really excited to see what you do with this story and how you'll shake and twist the story along the way. I value and admire your writings so much. It's truly been such a joy to have found them and you.💗 I hope you and your family are resting well after the trip. Also, Happy belated Birthday! 🥳💞

I'm behind on asks but didn't have another one from you so I appreciate you resending! It's like you sensed I managed an iiiity bitty amount of work on that very poolboy story this morning and could use the inspiration. I'm struggling to find the time to get back to writing this week with work fires and jetlag but I will draw motivation from your kind words! So thank you 🥰

#asks #anonymous #poolboy jk #over the falls

[foxymoxynoona]

I'll admit I'm struggling with this story, lol. I'm trying to figure out your plan, and not-so-secretly love that I can't. One thing I have noticed, and it might just be my sharp JK bias, but other than when Sasha dumped him, it almost feels like he's always the "bad guy", the one doing stupid shit that causes problems for them. So much so that when I read these other asks, most readers are usually on Sashs's "side" of whatever the current conflict is. I guess what I'm saying is that I'm waiting for something to make me understand why she loves him and stays with him. Sometimes the relationship feels uneven. Yet I know it's not and that she most definitely has her issues. But, he has to have issues too, right? The way he grew up in the spotlight, privileged, prodigious, but also imprisoned in a lot of ways. I don't know what I'm saying here exactly, but I just wonder if his acting out/rebelliousness needs some addressing? If maybe he wanted to be caught? I'm sorry for rambling. I'm avoiding going back to work. Can't wait for what you have planned, as always.

😎 It's great fun watching the tide go back and forth and often eddy into division about who's giving more or causing more problems or pulling more of their weight. There are definitely plenty of "why is she with him" comments but also just about as many "she's holding out on him" comments, etc etc. You could say that Sasha has some deeper attachment issues that impact the relationship while JK is more likely to make short-sighted mistakes, but there are also examples of the opposite for both of them. Truly a mess, haha!

I think I've mentioned before, I think Flux was a lot of rapid growth for Sasha due to her internal conflicts imploding. My Matryoshka leans more into Jungkook's struggles, which surfaced in the last book when he basically melted down over their breakup but were sort of tamped down as he focused on Sasha. Many readers had commented about feeling like Jungkook didn't actually realize or address just how much he struggled in Flux --and here we are in My Matryoshka seeing more things bubble, some of which are his own doing and some of which are a result of his career/lifestyle. He's been pushing boundaries more and more over time as he tries to develop a sense of control and his own identity. It makes sense Sasha is a boundary he'll push against too --and arguably that can be a positive thing, for him to feel confident and secure enough to test that relationship, but the context of boundary pushing is not necessarily... comfortable, let's say.

I think what I'm trying to say is, sometimes "bad" (rebellious, acting out, however you want to phrase it) behavior has a really important ,valuable developmental reason. Look at toddlers and teenagers and the hell they can put their loved ones through 😂 Originally Sasha was part of his boundary pushing, then she became a boundary to push against, and so on.

As for the question "why does she love him/be with him" or the reverse comes up a lot with readers and it's very interesting to me. Why is anyone with the person they're with? Some blend of ilogical emotion/attachment, careful evaluation, choice, and stubbornness despite the difficulties. I suppose there are relationships where things are only ever easy, but for many in long term relationships there are going to be rough patches and it comes down to the individuals in the relationship and how they decide for themselves what's worth staying for or when it's time to leave. From my own personal experience, life can get hard in ways it's impossible to predict, and the impact that past trauma can have on a relationship can be really, really hard to work through on top of that. Hard doesn't necessarily mean not worth it!

It makes sense that we spend a great deal of time evaluating the relationships we see in stories to decide our own boundaries and needs. In this case, I do have a master plan of what I'm trying to convey with their relationship, but it's a long term message. Sometimes I'm so impatient and wish I could just skip ahead or give the answers, but the journey is part of it 😎 So we will all have to be patient and live it.

Trust me, it's harder for me to be patient hahah

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[foxymoxynoona]

Amended Namjoon is so cute with Sylvie and Diego. He strikes me as someone that might partner up with a single mom IRL.

I have had this thought before too 😎 I have in fact written it into multiple stories but I won't say which other ones besides Amended so it doesn't spoil it haha

I don't know, he's just got good "father who stepped up" vibes!

#asks #anonymous #amended

[foxymoxynoona]

Can I ask... I apologize in advance if this a sensitive topic, I tried searching on the internet, but English isn't my first language and I can't seem to find the right phrase or word for it so my search doesn't lead to an answer. In what situation does the "save the mother or the child" comes? I mean like... what happens to make those options arise? Because I can't grasp the... condition for that problem...? Like, why can't they save both or how does the other one survive and the other doesn't? Say you save the mother... do you kill the baby in her stomach? Or you save the child... do you just cut the mother open? Like let her bleed out??

I tried picturing the 'House of the Dragon' scene where the queen gives birth before C-section was invented. They did cut her open and let her bleed to death. But technically, how could she survive that in the case the doctors decided to save her instead of the baby? (injecting a poison of some sort to the baby perhaps? but that'll probably kill the mother too). And in todays era, C-section already exist with safe procedure, so I'm curious what would cause such situation to happen.

(The thoughts did come from Meadow's scene, I'm sorry. I'm in my 20s, but I lack the education ㅠㅠ)

Don't worry about it at all! I won't be able to give a full comprehensive view but I can help a little with what I know. I will say that in Meadow, Bronwen was absolutely jumping to worse case scenario and imaginging the worst. I don't think she was even understanding a specific reason for that decision, just panicking and trying to tell Jungkook not to make a medical decision for her that would potentially harm their child.

It boils down to who is prioritized in a dangerous medical situation. Thanks to modern medicine, this isn't something that's as big an issue as way back when, when babies could be stuck and you'd have to decide whether you get the baby out at cost to the mother (which I think is the situation you're decribing though I haven't watched that show.)

I think more contemporary examples of having to make decisions like this would be, the mother requires life-saving medication/treatment/surgery that poses a risk of loss of the baby so the decision must be made whether to move forward with that or not; the recommendation likely depends on whether the baby could be safely delivered prematurely if needed, and how urgent/emergency the medical need is, or whether it's a truly tragic situation involving late term abortion. I have a friend who required multiple life-saving surgeries during her pregnancy post 20 weeks. Baby was fine, but there was a risk of loss each time. I've heard of women who discovered cancer while pregnant and some chose to abort and undergo chemo, while others chose to delay chemo and cancer treatment even if it put them past the point of treatment.

I think those are the scenarios in which someone could make a child-first decision because you're right that often, mother and child are both undergoing an emergency together and the goal is always to save both as first priority.

#asks #anonymous #meadow #tw: abortion #tw: pregnancy loss #tw: maternal death #tw: labor

[foxymoxynoona]

I hope I'm not interrupting your break/vacation by asking. I'm currently re-reading Meadow from the beginning and I just realised...

“Jungkooka. Did you make her cry?” Yoongi’s mate Soon-hee demanded. “You are fucking adorable .” - (chp 5)

Yoongi had a mate? I'm probably forgetting something because I only remembered Namjoon having a rabbit mate. But I read and just checked again, there's a drabble for Yoongi x Capybara OC, so who's Soon-hee? I'll probably slap my face once I read more, but I hope I'm not mistaken 😅 I've forgotten most of the plot which is why I'm re-reading.

Soon-hee was Yoongi's girlfriend/mate throughout the book, yes! After the events of the story though they wound up breaking up --I can't remember where I explicitly said that, if it was just in author's notes or around the drabble, it definitely wasn't part of the Meadow main story.

The gfs in Meadow are Ji-yoon, Soon-hee, and Hyo, plus later Chailai and Yeong-ja additions 😉 Which it sounds like I remembered but only because your comment made me reread some of Meadow on my plane ride home. Damn the story was ambitious and filthy 🤣🤣

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[foxymoxynoona]

Dear Foxy Unnie

I will start off saying that I love all your stories. I love everything you create, it’s like magic how your mind and imagination works. All I wanted to suggest is that if you were ever interested in doing another hybrid-like story (like SOI or penguin koo, or meadow) I would be so supportive. I love a good creative take on a hybrid story - and I feel like so many others I read follow a cookie cutter format and are, quite frankly, kind of boring. But not you. You bring such a refreshing take on everything, especially hybrids, because you always find a way to make their hybrid-ness not their whole personality, but a clever and interesting aspect. Anyway, carry on doing WHATEVER YOU WANT and I’ll be just as happy too. - a grateful reader and fan forever.

ps- I just finished Amended. What a beautiful love story. Thank you for that one too. Everyone should go read that story immediately.

Thank you so much for such kind words!! I very much hope to write more hybrid stories in the future --I've got several ideas incubating, and have already made a little behind the scenes progress on the next Birdtan book (starring Yoongi). I really enjoy the hybrid setting and figuring out how to use these animal characterstics or social systems as an alternate way to view the characters and our own world/experiences. I draw on race and disabilities studies a bit too when I'm crafting those worlds, but the characters are always at the heart of it and the hybridness, as you stated, is just one part of the set-up. I'm glad you enjoy them and that you enjoyed Amended too!

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[foxymoxynoona]

PTD Las Vegas PRACTICE & REHEARSAL SKETCH

#seokjin

[foxymoxynoona]

author Foxy-nim , am I rude to ask about that dilf yoongi birthday Drabble? It’s ok if it needs to sit there for a long time, we understand you need to go where the inspiration strikes you.

Not rude at all!!

My plans to have it ready for Yoongi's birthday failed miserably 😭 It was less about inspiration and more just real life took over so I didn't have the time for it. It's definitely still started and in my queue, waiting for me to get to it. I'm totally zonked today because of jet lag coming back from my international trip but I'm sooooo eager to get to work on everything, so hopefully won't be much longer 🤞

#asks #anonymous #dad yoongi

[foxymoxynoona]

this channel started showing up on my youtube shorts and I couldn't help but think... they are very amended Bella and Jungkook and Ezra and Lily and Kai coded hehe. I scrolled a bit and watched a few videos and I can't not see it now :)

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/Ji9kVzXjUbU

Heheh I didn't have time to watch much but what I saw was pretty cute. I love happy playful families. 🥰 JK and Isabella definitely have a playful happy home

But omg do they live in a warehouse?? So much space and the echo was driving me nuts hahaha. It looks like they're renovating a space, maybe I'll get curious and watch more later 😉

#asks #amended #anonymous

[foxymoxynoona]

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it’s your stories that will flash through 😭😭😭

It will NEVER fail to shock me that people read my stories and let them take root in their minds. It's like the deepest, sweetest sense of human connection to know that these little fun tales I felt like weaving mean anything to anyone else.

I wish you a long happy life 😊

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