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Imagine living day to day. I can't tell the days apart

#depression #yayyyyy

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If people were too mean to you when you were growing up, a newborn animal will materialize inside your brain and it’s so so scared and shivering and it will stay there for years. Decades, even. And whenever you say something kind of weird but true to your heart the animal will tell you “Noo! You can’t say that! If you say that, everyone will hate you!”. The animal means well. It’s so so small and everything is so scary for them and it’s just trying to protect you. But listen to me. Listen to me. Whenever this happens, you can’t do what the animal says. You can’t. If you do, you’ll become as scared as the animal. You have to keep saying weird shit. You have to keep doing things the animal wouldn’t approve of. If you do enough things that scare the animal, maybe one day it’ll go to sleep.

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a sword of sunlight. it thrusts through the window at an angle, and leaves a golden stain on the floor. when you first encounter it, at age twelve coming home from a half-day at school, it does not harm you; but fifteen years on, when a certain quality of the light recalls that moment as vividly as if you were living it again, oh, then—then it cuts deeply.

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I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

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I really dislike Kawaii Future Bass or whatever this genre is called so I made it sound shitty with a bunch of random samples.

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I just think my true purpose should've been to be the shy quiet nerd that all the kinky girls in class turn into their cute and stupid girlfriend. Or they at least bully me into joining the cheerleading team and spitroast me in the locker room after practice and under the bleachers during games

#omfg this is so real

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walk?

#literally me

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I want to work but I keep thinking about a girl with an impossibly long tongue~ having her push it deep into my throat while I gag and squirm out from underneath her~ feeling her tongue completely fill my throat so I can barely breathe around it~ really hard to focus~

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I just think my true purpose should've been to be the shy quiet nerd that all the kinky girls in class turn into their cute and stupid girlfriend. Or they at least bully me into joining the cheerleading team and spitroast me in the locker room after practice and under the bleachers during games

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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#maybe once the metal bar is gone this will be easier. gonna wait a while after the surgery before trying tho

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the WOKE LEFT are trying to turn HERMIT CRABS into THEYMIT CRABS

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wish i could be a free use top. like yes, suddenly pull down my pants and take my cock into your mouth because you're bored, grab my hand and guide it into your cunt when i'm reading a book because you need something in you, tell me to go slow or fast while panting and i'll do as you say because it's my job, right? pull my dick out when we're out with friends and sit on it because there wasn't enough seats, grind against me and feel me grip your thigh as i try not to make any noise and listen the conversation going on, not even realizing another guy is taking my hand and taking my fingers into his mouth and sucking them, another bunny joining in by making me lay down on my back and sitting on my face, asking me to please eat him out and then i feel a pup humping on my shoe and hugging my leg and whining like the pathetic dog he is and i just let them. it's my purpose of service to pleasure them, right? who am i to deny such desperate behavior from my pretty pets?

#good god please

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Reblog if you'd slut yourself out to tumblr mutuals

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that's it im buying a collar

...sometime this month

nnnnnnn

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There is something extremely funny about how kids react to alt fashion in comparison to adults. Adults generally do not care and I am just Another Person In The Space, but kids lose their absolute mind. Examples include:

- The kid at Goodwill today who kept begging his dad to look at "the person with black lipstick" while his dad pointedly tried not to look at me but was obviously hoping I wouldn't notice.

- The kid at a DIFFERENT thrift store who gasped and kept waving at me while I was waiting for my fiance to finish trying on pants. I saw him tell his mom he saw a witch.

- The little girl who came up to me and my fiance and said, "No offense, but you look emo." My fiance was like, "Close enough!" and she very smugly went to go explain to her mom she was right.

- The three year old who saw me waiting for my fiance to pick me up from work, grinned, and loudly announced, "MOM LOOK A SLUT!"

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