Still fucked up on that piece of TMA meta that finally made so many of use understand that Martin has trauma linked to alcohol.
Because like. Of course he understood that Jon could love both him and the thing that is withering away his humanity. Of course he could walk beside Jon as it was happening. Of course he would value Jon's promise to not doom the world as if it was a solemn vow to him, because he knows the powers that have Jon in its clutches are nothing in the face of a single person. In the face of love.
started listening to red valley today. i loved this man’s wife. and it turns out she was his wife in the same way a racing dog’s owner is his family. goddamnit.