Sometimes romance is pulling a gun on the love of your life cus they dare imply you don't feel anything for them when in fact, despite all your demons and flaws, your feelings are the only real thing you ever have in this essay I will —
Tar is a great and very realistic movie about how the art agents protects assholes in order to maintain the idea of the "genius artist"
"artist are out of this world" "masters are born to be great no matter what", whatever. Artist are humans, and more so, great artist are really selfish and egotistical human beings because we keep telling them that they are amazing
I study art, I know how art is important and that it means something, but we need to stop believing in the "born with talent" bullshit. Everyone has the potential to make art, fitting the traditional art norms, being confident enough or having the right contacts doesn't make you special or worthy of treating others badly or gives you permission to abuse your power, it just makes you privileged. The art system was and still is truly fucked up
all those emotions aside - something i liked about episode 3 was the emphasis on surviving vs living.
you have people like bill who are survivalists. he's resourceful, stubborn, and self-sufficient - bill knows how to survive, he spent his whole life pre-outbreak preparing to survive. he's not a people person, he doesn't like relying on other people, and he can survive just fine by himself.
then he meets frank - and frank is the kind of person who knows how to live. frank eats meals like he's at a fancy restaurant, and spends just five more minutes in the shower, and sings songs out of key on bill's dusty old piano. he repaints the walls, and waters the flowers, and grows strawberries in the garden just so he can watch bill hide his giggle behind his hands when he tastes them. he uses bill's radio to make friends, and throw little garden parties, and he makes a code out of nostalgic old songs.
the reason bill and frank lived as long and as happily as they did, despite the outbreak and the solitude and frank's health - it's because they had that balance. yes, survival is important - you can't survive an apocalypse without bill's resourcefulness, or joel's construction knowledge, or tess and frank's networking - but surviving isn't living. bill lived and died happy because he let frank in past his (incredibly literal) defenses, because he let him paint portraits and grow flowers and hold him at night.
i saw a youtube comment earlier that i think got it right; in the game, bill was an example of who joel would become if he kept shutting people out, if he didn't allow himself to live. in the show, bill is an example of what joel could have, if he just let himself live and love, if he realised that all his walls and defenses mean nothing if he never has anybody to share it with.
for bill, that person was a husband. for joel, it just might be a daughter.
Did I love Gabrielle LaBelle in the Fabelmans because he's cute? Or did I love him because he's always wearing outfits that could belong to Blaine Anderson?
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The Lavender Haze video is out now. There is lots of lavender. There is lots of haze. There is my incredible costar Laith Ashley who I absolutely adored working with. This was the first video I wrote out of the 3 that have been released, and this one really helped me conceptualize the world and mood of Midnights, like a sultry sleepless 70’s fever dream. Hope you like it 😁
If Would've Could've Should've feels personal to you I'm so sorry you had to go through that, I really hope you're better, you deserve love, the good, sweet, kind love