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If I told you nothing was in vain?

Would anything change if I asked you to stay? or would you just move on, like nothing happened?

it’s easy to get over when you’re not the injured person. it was easy for you to move on, it was easy for you to go out that night...

It was simple for you to forget me. It’s simple and easy when you don’t love.

Is he enough for you? Does he lift your ego? Does he praise your Nazism? Surely he’s not a lucky guy.

I just can’t finish this circle... it’s just so tiring, I know!

You said a thousand and one times you loved me, just as you hurt me a thousand and one times.

I just can’t understand what love was to you? Why did it all have to boil down to pain alone?

-bianca.

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if all the words were to describe love, I wouldn’t know which ones to use.

love is so complex, and most of the time it burns like fire. passion is three times worse! I would say she’s like a disease in the soul, in which many people tend to suffer.

how to describe love and not use the word "pain"?

I still remember the childhood books, in which all the princesses in the end idealized to find their princes, dressed in their white suits, and mounted on their horses.

this whole 1950s shit, in which they all still idealize.

your dreams or your ideologies, say only about you...

so don’t feel pressured to curl up in these little boxes. as a puppet of a prehistoric past.

-bianca

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No, I’m falling in love...

No, I’m falling in love again...

That sounds scary, no?! Falling in love seems like the scariest thing in the world. It seems to drive me away from mine.

Every effort is worth it? even though you probably never gonna come back.

That sounds more like a goodbye. again...after so long I still miss you, like it’s the first time, where I saw you leave.

excuse me): i truly don’t understand...If it’s been so long, why does it still hurt so much? surely you’re that beautiful and painful love story I could never get over.

-bianca.

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so you’re just going to pretend that i ceased to exist?

that our feelings were dumped in a dumpster.

well, honey. maybe you don’t know, but i stopped existing.

yes, even i knew myself more, is my traumas took away my peace...i’m standing right where you left me.

they say i’ve gone crazy, but who could deny it?

if in the end they all showed me that love turns to pain.

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aend me a sign, you know i deserve a final answer.

how could so much love end so quickly? if i was so special, then why did you have to hide me?

the funny thing is that now i only have the role of villain...

-bianca.

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.@taylorswift Open letter to Taylor Swift.

Hi, my name is Bianca. I have suffered from eating disorder and image distortion for a long time.

Since very early I had to deal with negative and mean comments about my body.

I spent years in a daily struggle with myself to change my body, and especially my thoughts. I did things in which I had very serious consequences, I lost so many good things for fear of what people would comment i stopped trying so many things...I ended up isolating myself, feeling the worst of human beings.

Since I met you, I feel more comfortable about my body.

Your account in Miss Americana made me wonder what really has a perfect body.

His strength and courage constantly inspires me to be a good person, both psychologically and physically.

I confess that it is not easy, I still have some relapses...some days are difficult especially when the triggers come back hard...But, I always remember that I’m young and have so many amazing things to experience, and so I need to be 100% healthy.

So thank you so much, Taylor <33 You are my greatest inspiration and strength to become a brave person. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us): you are very brave and inspiring.

love you so much ):<33 I hope you are well, caring and especially being happy.

with love, bianca.

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you know I’ll never come back. I still love you, but that’s not that’s reason enough to make me stay.

I would never allow myself to have so little, deserving so much.

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there’s still hope about the lights that once made you go. they never told me that in the end all love turns to pain.

now I have our songs as a reminder of all our moments, in which you never told me that they would become memories of a distant past...

i miss you so much, but...i’d never want to go back...

-bianca.

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.@taylorswift i feel like taylor is my best friend. I've never met anyone who described my feelings and insecurities so well.):

thank you, tay!

thank you for being the most amazing and admirable woman I have the pleasure to meet.

i love you. <33

#taylor swift #swifties #anti hero

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i always thought if i was what other people wanted from me, they’d love me more.

there is nothing more painful than to shrink to fit into the world of the other.

but the truth...the truth is that in the end, I was always alone. no one was there when I fell, no one was there when I cried, no one was there when my personal hell was present.

i find myself alone with my worst enemy, i find myself alone with my greatest karma, I find myself alone with the person who hurt me the most...

I’m so afraid of me, should i be? i’m afraid to look in the mirror, i don’t recognize myself anymore...

people expected so much from me, today I see them watching my self-destruction...i’m afraid of getting carried away and they’ll have to say goodbye too soon.

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.@taylorswift every time i open a door to my head automatically "it’s me, hi, i’m the problem, it’s me".

#taylor swift #swifties #midnights #anti hero