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fairyucks · 12 hours

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this community needs to get into mass manifestation… say it with me

weeeee areee skeeeny

#3dtumblr #ana is my friend #eating disoder trigger warning #ed relapse #light as a feather #tw 3d vent #tw ed not ed sheeren #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #⭐️ve #⭐️rving #4nerex1a #4n0rexic #4n4t1ps #4n4m1a #4norexla #4n4blr #@n@ diary #3d not sheeran

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fairyucks · 12 hours

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When and how did your d!s0rdėręd behaviors around food start?

well growing up, we would only rarely have meals together & i had issues with textures as a kid like most kids do (i think) & we’d have things like moussaka (like a casserole if u dont know), a lot of fish dishes & we’d order pizza occasionally but i didn’t like that (turns out i have arfid)

i remember when i didn’t like a dish, i was forced to sit at the table until i finished my plate. i ended up puk1ng almost every time and it made me very scared of f00d. so whenever we didnt have a meal together i was too scared to eat.

also one of my punishments as a kid was being grounded from food. one time it even went up to 3 days, when i was around 5 years old. for a while my brother was sneaking me food at night but eventually he stopped. i was banned from the kitchen a lot lol he prob didnt know i was grounded most times.

thats when i really started to believe (and still kind of do) that my b0dy doesn’t need f00d to survive. that f00d has to be earned, and if you do something wrong you don’t deserve any. so ig thats where it really started.. when i was 4 or 5

i have stories from my teenage years too because thats where i got almost everything i do now from, but ive alr said too much 🤭

hope this answers your question & thanks for asking 🩷 it was kind of like an anon therapy session :)

#3dtumblr #ana is my friend #eating disoder trigger warning #ed relapse #light as a feather #tw 3d vent #tw ed not ed sheeren #tw ed but not sheeran #⭐️ve #tw ed sheeran #tw thinspi #4nerex1a #4n4m1a #4n4blr #@n@ diary #@na vent

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fairyucks · 16 hours

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Yes, I want a an4 buddy irl so that I don't have to be alone, and yes, I also want nobody in this entire world to have 4na. The struggle is real. (Block dont report)

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fairyucks · 16 hours

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i was so excited for my first ask and it was just an accusation 😭 anyways to add to my stress… since my bday is coming up my family does bday dinners & its up to me to decide a what we have at my moms house and this b!tch cooks with sm fucking butter no matter what it is so what can i even choose rn that she wont add 2000 c4lories to 😭

#3dtumblr #ana is my friend #eating disoder trigger warning #ed relapse #light as a feather #tw 3d vent #tw ed not ed sheeren #⭐️ve #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #4nerex1a #4n4t1ps #4n4m1a #4n0rexic #4n4blr #tw thinspi #3d not sheeran

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fairyucks · 17 hours

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Why do you fake your ana 😂 if you look at her body checks you can obviously see that in one photo the arm has tattoos in another body check the arm has no tattoos . Truth is if that was ur real diet you would be dead! No hate but just saying.

excuse me 😭 “no hate” but youre saying i fake my dis0rder?

lets address THIS because i would never fake my stats or pics or f00d logs since this community & dis0rder is incredibly competitive..

1. well first, i obviously have an 3d. non-dis0rdered people wouldn’t think what i think. and no shame in self diagnosed girlies & non girlies but i am diagnosed and have been for almost 8 years and have been sent to multiple treatments. so unfortunately for me, im not faking 4na. no hate but just saying🩷

2. the picture of the girl with arm tattoos that was from a 30 day challenge & the question was “fav th!nsp0” so i posted that & even said in the comments that it is NOT me. the literal 2 b0dy ch3cks are clearly me & anything that says its me, is me.

3. are you saying i lie abt what i put in my f00d logs?thatd be pretty stupid since this blog is literally for me to track my progress. anyways i never thought id have to explain this to anyone HERE but.. not everyone with an 3d struggles with b1nging? and not everyone struggles to r3strict? and yk what? we are all valid, girl. its easy for me thats why i do it. it doesnt even feel like a choice, i just sometimes can’t e@t. i am extremely scared of cal0ries and f00d and thats the whole reason i r3lapsed but i wont get into that.

4. im well aware that my D1S0RDER could k1ll me, maybe thats the goal sweetie🖤 no but seriously i know. and im not advising anyone to do what i do. im fucked up in the head. and if youre saying what i posted in the week that this blog has been up is a lie.. bc id be dead? then you clearly have no common sense cmon girl. every week is different, every day is different. if i 4te like that every day id be my ugw by now cmon.

& i already decided im not gonna post wieiads anyways because im a high r3stricter and its just unnecessary and too tr1ggering for me atm & i have a whole draft abt that.

if you wanna talk privately go ahead and message me because i think youve misread everything ive ever posted & possibly dont know what an 3d is. i can also send u my mychart diagnoses & pictures of the room where i took my pictures. and if theres anything i posted that offended you and caused you to say this please let me know ??

#3dtumblr #ed relapse #tw ed not ed sheeren #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #tw 3d vent #4n4blr

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fairyucks · 1 day

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idk my shape but this is too real

anyone else have a body type that forces you to be skinny?

i'm inverted triangle so i literally have to be skinny like a model or i risk looking manly or pregnant in a regular tee shirt because the fabric bunches up around my midsection

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fairyucks · 1 day

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hey sk1nny b1tches

brekky: coffee w cream 35

lunch: 2 fries & strawberry lemonade 180

dinner: 2 bites of steak & d1et dr pepp ??

grand total 265 🤭

the most ive had in 5 days i cant stop crying 🤭🤭

#3dtumblr #ana is my friend #eating disoder trigger warning #ed relapse #light as a feather #tw 3d vent #tw ed not ed sheeren #⭐️ve #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #⭐️rving #4n4m1a

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fairyucks · 2 days

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im at my worst rn lol i hate everything abt myself

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fairyucks · 2 days

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It’s gotten to the point where I’m excited to wake up and weigh myself. Like it’s literally just the thought of stepping on a scale, and seeing a lower number than the day before that gets me out of bed recently

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fairyucks · 3 days

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good morning. i feel like sh!t today.

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fairyucks · 3 days

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update on my f4st!!

im so pissed

i broke it because one of my bar regulars ordered our new chicken entree when it came, she asked if i tried it yet and i shouldve said YES but i didnt think quick enough and i said no lol and she forced me to take a bite of the chicken so my whole day was ruined. i literally burst into tears in the bathroom because i wanted it the fuc out of my system.

this sucks.

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fairyucks · 4 days

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heres an update on my f4st!! tw im super pressed

its going well! in fact i never wanna e4t again! ive been triggered all day by th1nsp0. all i want is to look like her. if i cant then whats the point. its the first step to self love

because to love myself i need to make myself loveable first…

i will be desirable. i wont get treated how i do now. once im desirable. im so sick of my life i need this.

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fairyucks · 4 days

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im so excited to watch a mukbang rn i got 4 ice waters and diet coke im gonna get so full 🤭🤭

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fairyucks · 5 days

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does anyone have any tips for getting rid of this f@t on my lower stomach?

tw th1n$p0:

like obv ⭐️v ing but any specific workouts that help? pls!! it makes me look pregnant😭

or will it go justbaway after another 10-20 Ibs??

helppp

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fairyucks · 5 days

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⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖࣪ ‧₊˚ ⋅⊹₊ ⋆ its officially may. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

my bday is in exactly one month! its time to lock in˚₊‧

may 1st stats:

5’3

103Ibs

how much do you think i can l0se by june 1st?

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fairyucks · 5 days

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update on f4st:

its going well because i dont have a rat in my ear telling me what they want to e@t/e@ting in front of me/telling me how “good” their disgusting burger is

(im a bartender at a bar that sells f00d)

(its my day off)

(drunk people e@t so much)

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fairyucks · 5 days

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stomach just growled like it doesn't have my thigh fat to eat from

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