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do you have any advice for people who are scared of confronting life and reality

from telephone by percival everett: “You kill yourself because you don’t live in this world.”

i’m sorry to open with the bluntness of this passage— it is the opposite of an imperative but a proposed explanation—also I included the context but don’t take the context too seriously I think the line is better left on its own. all of that said: since it’s such a brutal way to answer an ask seeking advice on something i think needs to be done with like truly extraordinarily levels of tenderness and forgiveness for the self, at least if i’m understanding what you’re asking about—then I think this excerpt is worth including here bc although it doesn’t answer your question it does show what the stakes can be i think. It also really resonates with me because when Im suicidal it’s usually because I think I can’t live in this world. The concept that it’s not that i can’t and just that the nature of being suicidal makes me feel and act as if i’m not a part of this world was really beautiful to me. Im not saying mental illness etc is a choice but that life and reality is accessible to everyone. even if yours looks and feels different. it’s still yours.

i think that you have to confront life and reality because there is no reality if you don’t confront it and less real life for you. The worst part is thinking about the past in which you did not confront it but you don’t need to do and it is only another deterrent to the confrontation… You absolutely don’t need to regret anything to change and i know it’s so hard to figure out how to feel the urgency of your need to confront things enough to confront them without getting stuck in the pain of having not confronted them yet but tbh It just takes practice and all of the kindness you can find for yourself and then even more.Ans time and continued effort. but mostly kindness for yourself. thinking about why you want to confront your life—not bc you want to, plainly, but because you want yourself to be able to live well.—>Because you don’t want more suffering for yourself because you have love and compassion for yourself. it’s this kind of logic at least that has helped me a lot.

i also think everything that you are and everything that you give wants to find its way back to you and love you but if you are hiding from the world you live in it can’t find you very well!! i think it’s about trying to make yourself visible to yourself and then learning how to look without hatred or pain or regret. Also there’s beauty in reality because reality is true it’s not sinister it just is. and you will find all that beauty. also reality and life misses you. you’re good for it and for the world. It wants you in it and it wants you to know it and love it because it loves you. and your continued existence in the world makes the world feel loved. This is why we care about things

I hope this helped at all much much love

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June Jordan, An Address to the Students of Columbia University During Their Anti-Apartheid Sit-in, April, 1985; in On Call. Political Essays, South End Press, Boston, MA, 1985, pp. 117-122

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Study for “in a given situation” by Francis Alÿs (2008)

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https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.infinitycow.eplay

I don’t think i’m going to click on that what if I get sucked into the tunnel

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Being a young adult is so strange. You enter a coffee shop. The 20 year old girl waiting behind you cried all night because she just came to a new city for university and she feels so alone. That 27 year old guy over there works a job he is overqualified for, he lives with his parents and wants to move out but doesn't know what to do about it. That one 24 year old dude already has a car, a house, and a job waiting for him once he graduates thanks to his dad's connections. The 26 year old barista couldn't complete his higher education because he has to work and take care of his family. The 28 year old girl sitting next to you has no friends to go out with so she is texting her mother. That couple (both 25 years old) are married and the girl is pregnant. The 29 year old writing something on her laptop has realized that she chose the wrong major so she is trying to start all over. We are not alone in this, but we are actually so alone. Do you feel me

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jean paul gaultier spring 2022 couture

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hey guys me again. what should i do with my one wild and beautiful next 5 years

hey guys what should i do with my one wild and beautiful life

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hey guys what should i do with my one wild and beautiful life

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Mary Oliver, Long Life: Essays and Other Writings

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opening up pet portrait commissions again to help me get money for my overdue bills while i'm job searching again 😼

i mostly know kitties but can prob try my hand at some dogs as well 🫶

$15 for b&w portrait

$20 for color portrait

venmo/paypal: stdawns

check out my art insta for more of my art!!

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selling prints for some extra income this month! have been struggling with bills since i had to move in between 2 different jobs this past month, & i'm still battling the negatives most days. if you have already ordered a print, it will be mailed out this weekend 🕯️

smaller prints $10 USD

larger prints/collages: $15 USD

venmo/paypal: stdawns

please spread this around if u can <3

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Vladimir Nabokov, letter to his wife Véra (1925), Letters to Véra

[Text ID: “That’s all, my tender one, my inexpressible delight, Oh yes: I forgot to say that I love you..”

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comment on 10cc - im not in love

#I love you in black and white