Well my life is fucked i lost my only special toy
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One good thing is that I get easily obsessed with myself in a good way.
I'm hyping myself up so much about my freaking build lately
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I'm literally so young. I will love again
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I have a date next Saturday with a guy who is my age and who I've known since 5th grade
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One good thing to come of all this is that when I think of dating new people and the old trauma-driven centers in my brain try to tread the old path of "what if I am the wrong kind of weird?" And "what if I am not attractive enough?" The path diverts to "if someone thinks you're not enough then they're not the one for you." And " you're the right kind of weird for the right kind of person"
So I'd like to thank my ex for undoing the damage of my last ex. Teaching me that I am desirable. That I'm not annoying. That I deserve love.
I'd like to thank myself for being strong enough to remind me of that every day. For conceptualizing it correctly. It's not "I'm weird but at least one person loves me" it's: "I'm weird but I am loveable"
And at the very end of this very long day, I'm so glad that I don't need the love of another to remind me of my worth. I don't need someone's interest in me to prove that I'm interesting. Now I know that not only do I deserve love, but most importantly I do not need it.
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I will fall out of love
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Vonnegut talking about camus and Moby dick in the same breath 馃槅
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https://open.spotify.com/track/3PwSoHvuvEe7cDSuUTP8vj?si=GtB64ze2QtC_fI6OcwVPqQ
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A fear I've had lately has been "who will get excited for my accomplishments now?" Who will go "hell yeah!!" About my quizzes and little accomplishments? Who will give a shit if I shave a minute off of my mile time?
I will. I will be excited for myself. Every book I read I will be proud of myself for reading. Every passing grade will be cause for excitement. I will take pictures of my own accomplishments. I will look back on them in 6 months and still be proud. I will say HELL YES I passed that test. HELL YES I got that promotion!! HELL YES I earned my degree!!!
I don't need a significant other to be proud when I have everything I need right here
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This shit is gonna downright make me a Christian like fuck man maybe we should be following more rules
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I'm literally listening to Taylor swift over this
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I would go beat the shit out of her but she doesn't deserve to feel my skin
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I ate like. Half of a meal yesterday. And a smoothie. But today I'm eating breakfast. I will recover. I will survive. I will get stronger. She will never touch me ever again.
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The best way to recover from cheating is to listen to I will survive on repeat while vigorously cleaning your house
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I need to (remembers to not make casual suicide jokes in order to encourage a more outwardly positive mindset and healthy conversational environment in my day to day life) kill myself
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